FROM THE PERSONAL JOURNAL OF KIKUKAWA YUKINO: 10/15: Mikoto took me to a tiny restaurant she found last night. It was a family-owned place that was little more than kitchen with a couple of tables squeezed in. In the dim candle light, I finally figured out what was so different about Mikoto. This cheerful, energetic girl I once knew had been muted. The light in her golden eyes had been dimmed by the cares of the adult world. In other words, she'd found that one truth all adults must face: Sometimes, no matter how hard you work, or how fervently you pray, you can't have what you really want. 10/22: I haven't met with Mikoto in a week. Our schedules didn't match up; her with a term paper due and me with a deadline. No. That's a lie. We were afraid. That night at the restaurant, I touched a deep and still bleeding wound inside Mikoto, as she did in me. Two people, surrounded by humanity yet utterly alone find one another. The odds are almost astronomical. But what was truly frightening, what absolutely terrified us is that our bond is strengthening. Mikoto makes me feel like it's okay to love again. I think I do the same for her. But is that really such a good thing? What of those we both loved and lost? Are we allowed to find happiness without them? 10/25: I saw Mikoto again last night. We shared dinner and lounged while at my flat. We talked of simple things, work and school. We spoke of anything but what we were feeling. We wanted to draw closer but were afraid to. What would happen to our friendship? What about our unrequited loves? I finally told Mikoto my fears, and she admitted that she'd been thinking the same. "It's like we were on a ship and were thrown overboard," she told me. "We're miles from land and there’s a huge storm coming. There's only one thing we can do to survive. Hold on." Last night, I took Mikoto to my bed.
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