(Fear)Lyrics by Sarah McLachlan Morning smiles like the face of a newborn child, innocent, unknowing. Winter's end promises of a long lost friend. Speaks to me of comfort But I fear I have nothing to give. I have so much to loose here in this lonely place. Tangled up in your embrace There's nothing I'd like better than to fall. But I fear I have nothing to give. Wind in time Rapes the flower trembling on the vine And nothing yields to shelter it from above. The say temptation will destroy our love. The never ending hunger But I fear I have nothing to give I have so much to loose here in this lonely place Tangled up in our embrace There’s nothing I'd like better than to fall But I fear I have nothing to give. I have so much to loose. I have nothing to give. We have so much to lose... Fear Quistis awoke the next morning her senses slightly dulled from the wine. She didn’t care, she felt better than she had in a long time. She lay in thought for a long moment before rolling out of bed. She quietly padded to her bedroom door and peeked out. Fujin was still there and sleeping soundly, a shy smile came to Quistis’s lips and she went and sat back on her bed. "What’s wrong with you." She asked herself curiously. "Just happy to have new friend who I can relate to?" "Bullshit. You where being a bit more than friendly don’t you think." Quistis made a shocked face at the thought. She did admit she felt something last night that was a little out of the ordinary. "A little? You where damn near lustful." Quistis knew for a fact she did not want to even think about that and quickly went to take a shower. ******************************** She felt herself drowning in the emotions that that threatened to wash away her very being, so alien but so welcome. It started so innocently with just a gentle touch entwined with subtle promises of passion. Delicious dreams came all to easily, two bodies entwined in a dance as old as time itself. The quiet sharing of wants and desires until they became one in ecstasy. Fujin sat up with such abruptness she deposited herself in a heap on the floor. She looked about in terror unsure where she was. Then it came back to her and she quickly relaxed. "Some dream." She mused darkly. Never had she had a dream like that much less of that intensity. She had buried all thoughts like that a long time ago. She didn’t dwell on it she never liked giving power to dreams. She couldn’t ignore how warm she felt how her body tingled. "Bizarre." She murmured as she looked about, the sun was gleamed through the blinds. The scent of coffee and eggs hung in the air. "QUISITS?" Fujin stood her legs still fairly stiff. She then noticed a letter laying on the table near the couch. She picked it and read it assuming it to be for her. "Hiya Fuu. I have a class this morning. I would have woke you but you seemed so peaceful. Anyway I made you coffee and breakfast its waiting for you in the warmer. Thanks for staying for dinner it was interesting, though I apologize for acting like a ninny earlier. Feel free to make yourself at home just lock up before you leave. Take care hope to see you later. Your friend Quistis Fujin stood quietly looking at the paper her face unreadable. She looked to the kitchen and noticed the empty champagne bottle sitting atop the counter. She thought about everything last night and soon found herself trembling. *************************** Quistis sat behind her desk watching the students file into the classroom. Rinoa was among them as was Luccian who was limping noticeably. He was a handsome young man tall, and muscular. He reminded her a bit of Seifer, though Luccian wore a coat as black as his spiked hair. His personality was boisterous and proud he came from the class right under Squall and the others. He made a name for himself quickly and though a jackass, he took control of the Disciplinary Committee. About time he was taken down a peg she thought to herself. She looked at Rinoa who was smiling at her affectionately. Quistis smiled back but kept it to a minimum, she didn’t want the impression of playing class favorites. The Treppies, some of them old some of them new all watched her intently like she was a demigoddess waiting to pass down judgment. She found them annoying at times but was flattered non the less. Everyone found their seats and settled down. "Okay class. Some of you are new so I will introduce myself." She wrote her name on the board behind her. "My name is Quistis Trepe." The Treppies applauded and cheered causing her to blush. She gave them a sharp look causing them to giggled and quieted down. Rinoa sat with a smart-ass grin on her face at the commotion. Quistis knew she would hear about it later. "Now then I will be your teacher this semester. During which we will be going over the concept and use of various magic’s as well as Guardian Forces. Not all of you will deal with either of these energies, but it’s good to have the information available and is a mandatory requirement for the SEED program. We will also be going over regional history including Dollet, Trabia, Galbania, and Balamb. Later will also go into some of the truths and myths about Eshtar and the Sorceress Wars." Rinoa sunk into her seat at the mention of that, being a sorceress herself. It was decided a year ago by everyone concerned that it was for the best to keep Rinoa’s secret while she was a student. "Okay before I begin how about you all stand up and introduce yourselves to the class." ******************** Selphie sat outside the classroom door later that afternoon fit to burst she hated being kept in the dark. Rinoa had started to tell her something about Quistis over breakfast but left midway through claiming to be late for class. Selphie was frothing at the bit by time the last bell rang. The students burst out of the door chattering excitedly to themselves. Selphie had to work to squeeze through the masses. She looked for Rinoa who stood in front of Quistis’s desk with a bunch of Treppies. Quistis had her head buried in her hands shaking it slowly. Selphie walked up and pinched Rinoa’s arm and gave her a dirty look. "OUCH!" Rinoa yelped as she jerked her arm and gawked at the scowling girl. Everyone was looking at them now. Selphie simply put on her cutest grin and waved merrily. "Hi Quisty what’s up?" Quistis looked at her with a tired grin then shot Rinoa a accusing look. The Treppies all jostled each other. "Tell her Rinoa." Quistis said dryly. This prompted more giggles from the surrounding Treppies. Rinoa fished in her pocket and pulled out a small card with Quistis’s gleaming face on the front. She held it out proudly for Selphie to see. "I am now a card carrying Treppie." Rinoa said with a bright giggle. "Omigod!" Selphie exploded into laughter and turned to Quistis who regarded them only faintly bemused as she gathered her things. "Real cute guys." She said as she slipped her bag over her shoulder. "Oh I wanna join to!" Selphie giggled and hopped merrily. "Sorry Selph." Rinoa said almost proudly. "You have to be one of her students, rules are rules." Quistis glared through slits at all of them, her lips pursed annoyance. "Oh I don’t know Rinoa." Said Royce the present head of the Treppie fan club. He was a lean attractive man with dark skin. He was well behaved and a top student a shoe in for SEED. "Oh really really really!" Selphie hopped up and down. "Sure we can make you and honorary member." He said with a dazzling grin. He reminded Selphie of Laguna’s friend Kiros. "YAHHH!" Selphie shouted and hugged him. Causing the other Treppies, Rinoa included to oooh and ahhh. He blushed and tried to keep his composure. "Um yeah well no problem." He coughed. Quistis took the opportunity to escape unnoticed, a playful smile spread on her face as she slipped out the door. *************************** After everyone left Selphie and Rinoa walked up the hall. Selphie toyed with her new Treppie card. "Well?" "Well what?" Rinoa said as they stepping into the elevator at the end of the hall. "Tell me about Quistis!" She said with a huff and jabbed to down button. "Well I went over there late last night and..." A hand jabbed into the door as it tried to close causing it to open again. Selphie and Rinoa looked up and both looked somewhat taken aback as Fujin stepped into the elevator with out a word. "Well? Finish the story!" She Selphie huffed not really caring either way about Fujin. "Umm." Rinoa babbled. Fujin leaned against the wall lost in thought. Rinoa meanwhile made funny noises trying to get Selphie to shut up. "Just tell me!" Selphie said getting flustered. Rinoa leaned down and whispered harshly. "Not now!" She glanced at Fujin who was still ignoring them. "What her?" Selphie thumbed towards the silver-hared demon. Rinoa’s eyes bugged. "She could care less about Quistis just spill the beans please!" Selphie spouted, Rinoa wanted to faint. Fujin glanced in their direction her expression as cold and aloof as always. Rinoa waved with a embarrassed and all together idiotic grin. Selphie just looked between the two completely lost. Then she remembered the Jacket Quistis had. With out a word Selphie just turned around and banged her head on the wall. The door opened and Rinoa and Selphie all but ran out. Fujin paid them no head and stayed on board. Rinoa stalked up the walkway incensed she had never felt like such a buffoon. Selphie ran up behind her. "So tell me what you know and I will tell you what I know" Selphie said with a detached calm. "Nothing really." Rinoa shrugged "I just went over to Quistis’s room late last night to see how your shopping went and Fujin answered the door. She said Quisty was in the shower then shut the door in my face." "That makes sense." Selphie chirped. "Huh what makes sense?" Rinoa asked feeling a bit left out now. "She had a special edition Balamb dress jacket." Selphie said simply as they walked into the cafeteria. Zell stood in line a few feet ahead of them and waved. They waved back absently. "Who did?" Rinoa asked getting more and more confused. "Quistis." "When, and so what if she did?" Rinoa shrugged. "Yesterday when I went to pick her up it was laying at the foot of her bed." "So?" "So that was what Fujin may have been over there for." "Huh?" "It was Fujin’s jacket it had to be she’s the only one I ever seen with one. " "What? You said it was Quistis’s. jacket" Rinoa felt like she was being double talked. "No I mean I thought it was Quistis’s." Selphie said evenly. "Okay so what?" "Quistis probably found her coat and she came to get it back." Selphie concluded. "Ah okay, and here I was thinking something was afoot." Rinoa laughed. "What are you serious?" "I dunno Fujin just seemed bothered by me coming there." "Duh she hates us silly." "That’s true, why did she even come back then?" "Who knows with her attitude I couldn’t even see how Seifer put up with her as long as he did." Selphie smirked. "Oh that was mean." Rinoa stared in surprise at friend. "Yeah right you obviously forgot what she did." "Well no." She said softly. She really didn’t like talking about Seifer considering their past. She had actually met Fujin before she met the others. She was dating Seifer for a short time during which Fujin would watch her like a hawk. She just assumed she was protective of Seifer but after everything was said and done she knew there was more to it. She knew Fujin had to be hurting since he and then her brother left her alone. She had no love for Fujin but she did see where she was coming from in some regards. "Come on we’re up." Selphie nodded towards the line, it was their turn to get their plates. ****************** Fujin stood in her chamber stoically, she looked around a moment then with a heavy sigh she slung a large duffel bag over her shoulder. It was time to go she noted as she looked at the clock. The train would be leaving Galbania within the next hour as was the Garden, she could already hear the Engines humming to life. She looked at the azure tickets in her hand without a hint of regret, her mind was made up. She switched off the lights a walked towards the lift. She sat on a bench at the station feeling impossible alone even amidst all the other passengers and lost in thought. Her heart further sank as she heard she magical sound of chimes mixed with a distinct mechanical hum that could only be Balamb’s engines. She looked into the distance and saw the Garden rise slowly above the sunset. With a grace that seemed out of place for a structure of its size it moved out over the ocean. Its rainbow array of lights radiated across the darkening landscape like a kaleidoscope as it moved over the horizon. It’s beauty took her breath away, the other passengers apparently agreed as they stared in wonder. ************************** Quistis did not care much for the after class meetings Cid loved to spring on her and the other instructors. They always ran long and where always boring. This time was no exception it was well after seven when she left. She had really wanted to go into town and pick something up, but the Garden had already pulled out. They where now on there way to Trabia to pick up some last minute transfer students. It could wait she told herself as, she arrived at her apartment. She looked down at her door and saw a folder sticking out from under it. She knelt and retrieved it, a group of reports on promising students by the looks of it. She tucked the folder under her arm and unlocked the door. Flipping on the lights she grinned at what greeted her. The place was absolutely spotless even the dishes where done. "How sweet." She cooed and set her things by her desk and kicked of her shoes. The light on her answering machine was beeping and she pressed it a zeal that she found annoyingly girlish. "Hey Quistis this is Cid we have another meeting tomorrow at 5 please be there." "Ugh" Quistis droned and hit the next messege. "Hey Quistiy this is Nicole just wanted to see if ya wanted to come over and watch a few movies with me and Zell." Quistis groaned in dismay. Last time she did that she ended up watching the movie by herself, while sounds of wild monkey sex accosted her from the other room. She hit the next msg. "Um Miss Trepe this is Iggy Kingsly. I was just wondering if you wanted to go out with me this weekend." Quistiis rolled her eyes, Iggy was a lovesick Treppie from 3rd quarter. She frowned upon seeing that there where no more messages. She unbuttoned her blouse and let her hair down. She had hoped to get a note or something. "Thats odd." She whispered. There was a knock on the door and she jumped up. She all but ran to the door and opened it. "Black lace fits you lady." Irvine said with a whistle and a smile. Selphie stomped his foot harshly Quistis screamed and slammed the door in their face, She quickly buttoned her shirt. "Idiot, Idiot, Idiot" She screamed at herself. With her remaining dignity she opened the door again. Irvine was hobbling about in the hall behind Selphie who stood perturbed and wagging a finger at her. "You need to be more careful. Honestly, going around answering the door in your lacies, you should know better. What if we where Squall and Cid" The mental picture of such a event made her laugh aloud. Quistis herself even had to grin at thought. She stood aside and motioned them to come in. "What brings you two to my humble abode." Quistis said in surprise as her guests sat down on her couch. "Well we where thinking about your upcoming birthday in a few weeks." Irvine started. Quistis all but forgot about it herself she hadn’t really cared considering her state of mind lately. She had wondered why everyone had taken a interest in her lately and now she had her answer. "What about it?" Quistis said as she ran her fingers through her hair idly working out the kinks. "Anyway." Selphie started with a impish grin. "We where wondering what you would like." "Oh gods Selphie, to be honest I have not thought about it, so I have no Clue." "That’s a cop out and you know it ya brat." Selphie stuck her tongue out at her. "Selphie I don’t care really, just surprise me." "Well I am sure I can think of something." Irvine smirked devilishly. "That’s about enough out of you, you rogue." Quistis said sternly. "Ignore him he’s just retarded." Selphie grinned as she pushed him away. "Hey now." Irvine stammered slightly offended. "Guys really, just surprise me it’s okay, just no stripper like last time." "Sorry about that." Irvine said. "Did the stain come out?" The two girls looked at him sourly. He threw his hands up defensively. "Okay, Okay I’m shutting up." Selphie stared at him a moment before continuing. "All right then Quisty, we will come up with something." Selphie hopped up and pulled Kinneas to his feet. "Well we are off then. We arrive at Trabia tomorrow and I need a good nights sleep." Quistis stood and walked them to the door. "Okay then thanks for stopping by." They walked out into the hall and Irvine poked his head back in. "Next try a push up they are extra sexy." He said wolfishly and winked. Quistis groaned and shoved him out the door. She could her Selphie yelling at him as they walked up the hall. She laughed to herself as she went to get ready for bed. ********************************* Squall caught a punch to the face and he staggered. Zell winced then paused a moment only to be tackled. He grabbed Squall by the collar then used his moment against him, Zell rolled onto his back and used his legs to propel his squad leader through the air. Squall fell unceremoniously on his back with a loud thud onto the mat. Nicole and Rinoa giggled from the sidelines. Squall was unbeatable with his gunblade but was sorely lacking in hand to hand. Zell was wiping the floor with him. Squall looked upside down at Zell who walked over to him and offered him a hand. He scowled lightly and took it. "There, there buddy." Zell clapped him on back. "Give it time, then you will be kicking ass with the best of them." Squall eyed him warily he got the distinct impression Zell was enjoying their training sessions far to much. Rinoa and Nicole walked over grinning and going on about parties and gifts. "What are you to busy bodies up to." Zell quipped. Rinoa made a face at him. "Quistis’s birthday is coming up we where just making plans." Nicole offered. "That reminds me Squall." Did you ever get a chance to talk to her. Squall soured. "I tried." Was all he said. "Well what happened?" "She walked off." He shrugged "Gracious." Rinoa shook her head. Zell smirked and clapped his friend on the shoulder once more. "Women my amigo." He whispered in his ear. "They are a fickle creature best be on your toes, I smell something in the air." Squall nodded in solemn agreement, all this talk about Quistis had him thinking. He was not as oblivious as one would think, Rinoa told him deal with the Quistis and the jacket. He also happened to see Fujin leave Quistis’s apartment this afternoon while he dropped of some paperwork. She seemed troubled and didn’t even see him. He decided to do a little check up later and found out She had left the garden right before they took off apparently for good by the looks of it. Something was up and Quistis had the answers. *********************************** Quistis arrived at her classroom early the next morning. A few of the student where standing in the hall chattering to themselves. She went in and plopped down at her desk. She was feeling a bit down this morning she had hoped to run into Fujin, but had seen not hide nor hair of her. "I hope everything’s okay?" She thought worriedly. Luccian and Archibald came into class and Luccian was talking in excited whispers. She paid him no mind and went to finish up some last minute notes. She heard Archibald mention Fujin’s name and looked up immediately. The two boys sat in there seats intently talking. She pretended to work while trying to listen. She knew Luccian and her bumped heads and grew worried. "Your kidding man really?" Luccian whispered excitedly. "Yup saw her with my own two eyes." Archibald said confidently. "She had a big bag and everything. She was heading to the train station by looks of it." "Huh imagine that. Guess we don’t have to worry about her anymore." Luccian said obviously pleased. "Yeah really she beat your ass man." "Somebitch." Luccian hissed and punched him in the arm as hard as he could. Quistis sat horrified. "I chased her away." She whispered as hot tears begin to well up. The bell rang and the rest of the class poured into the room.
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