Pieces of you "Who did you sleep with?" Usagi blushed at that as she stepped back."I c-can't tell you. It's too..." "Michiru?" Haruka guessed. The look on her face didn't seem to change. She still had that confident smile on her lips and a caring look in her eyes. For a moment Usagi managed to forget about her fears until she remembered Michiru's words of earlier that morning.'You promised to love me until you would die, you're still alive.' This was when the blonde girl decided it was for the best not to tell Haruka. Michiru was still madly in love with the taller woman in front of her. "Your silence says enough." Haruka finally said after a few minutes. Usagi wanted to say something but stopped when she noticed that Haruka was staring at someone behind her. Usagi also turned around to see what was going on. But when she saw the black haired man in front of her she had wished she had never turned around in the first place. It was Mamoru standing in front of her now. The look on this face was a look she had never seen before and it was at the same time something she would never want to see again. He looked so broken, hurt, pained and more emotions were showed all at the same time."Mamoru..." Usagi managed to whispered as she could feel tears form against her will. Haruka was shocked as well.'What a lousy way to find out.' She thought to herself, feeling sorry for the black haired man. Usagi now turned back to face Haruka with a sad smile on her face. Haruka knew that she wasn't welcome anymore right now. Usagi needed to talk to Mamoru in private. She just nodded down at the smaller blonde and started to walk away. When she stood next to Mamoru she stopped walking to talk to him."Don't try to make her feel as hurt as you are feeling now. It'll haunt you. I will haunt you." She stated. Mamoru simply nodded as she started to walk away again. Mamoru's eyes has never left Usagi's.'So this is why you have been acting so strange lately, because you love Michiru?' He wondered. Although he wanted to ask Usagi this question he decided not to. He wanted to keep this uncomfortable silence put as long as he could make it last. He knew that the moment he or Usagi would say something it would be over. Not only this silence but also their relationship. "I am sorry you had to find out like this Mamoru." Usagi finally said."If it makes you feel better, I didn't sleep with her because I...l-love her but.." Usagi now realised how stupid that must've sounded so she didn't continue. It was true after all, her feelings for Michiru meant nothing more than her feelings for her other friends. Michiru had just learned her how to love, Rei? Even the princess started to question that now. "It doesn't matter why you slept with her, the act is what counts." Mamoru finally said after realising that Usagi wasn't going to say anything else."And don't think that news makes me feel better. I just found out that you've been sleeping with someone else. Nothing you say can make me feel better." He could see the blonde flinch but he didn't care. He was so hurt that his own emotions started to cloud this true intentions. He wanted to love her, not hurt her. "Mamoru, please...It happened once. I don't even like her and..." This time he cut her off. "Like I said before Usako, Usagi...The act is what matters." He pressed. He clenched his fist. Never before had he felt so useless, so powerless."You couldn't even visit me while I lay in hospital, waiting for you. You couldn't even bring yourself to be honest with me. Why?" "I was going to visit you, today!" Usagi said with a desperate tone in her voice. Mamoru didn't believe her, she could see it by the look he was giving her. He didn't say anything to cut her off though so she decided to go on."I was on my way to the hospital but I bumped into Haruka and we started talking, you have to believe me!" "You bumped into Haruka and suddenly the two of you started talking about how you slept with Tenoh's girlfriend?" He questioned."Even for you that's a lousy and stupid way to lie yourself out of this one. Can't you be honest with me?" "I am!" Usagi now yelled desperately."Michiru and Haruka aren't together anymore. Haruka is with Setsuna now. But that doesn't matter. No matter what I say you keep making this about yourself Mamoru. I can't do this anymore. I know you love me and I care about you a lot as well but not like you want me to. I don't love you like that." Mamoru was shocked by hearing this but decided to hear her out. Usagi calmed down at bit as she straightened up."I am sorry Mamoru but I want our past just to be our past. Not my future. I ended talking to Michiru about this a few days ago. She told me that I control my own future and she is right. I can't lie to you forever just because that's what our previous selfs have promised eachother. You've got so much love Mamoru, but it's not meant for me." "Why haven't you told me before?" The black haired man asked, his eyes focussed on the ground now, no longer on the blonde. Usagi hung her head down in shame."I didn't want to hurt you. I thought you wouldn't understand. I thought you'd be mad, angry with me for lying in the first place." "It would've been easier for me if you had told me before." Mamoru stated as a sad smile appeared on this face as well."But I understand Usagi. Don't worry. The idea of letting you go, giving you up pains me. It pains me even more to think that someone else will have to keep you warm and protected at night as well but I only care about your happiness. If you can't find that happiness with me then there's no other option but to let you go." The blonde finally looked up again. Staring at him with a shocked and surprised look on her face."Do you mean that?" The other just nodded as he stepped forward. For a moment he seemed to hesitate but when he had reached Usagi he pulled her into a tight hug. "I mean it Usagi. I will always love you, just know that. And you...Be happy." He whispered. Mamoru knew Usagi was going to feel guilty about all of this later, or maybe she was feeling guilty already. He wanted to make her feel better. She didn't have to feel bad for being honest. Usagi smiled as she returned the hug he was giving her. 'Thanks Mamoru...' ---- She had been sleeping for too long now, she had realised it the moment she noticed she was alone again. Slowly Michiru sat up as she wiped the sleep away from her eyes. She scanned the room after that. There was no trace of Usagi anymore. It was as if last night had never happened at all. The aqua haired girl took a deep yet pained breath as she fell down again. For a few seconds she stared at the ceiling before her vision got clouded by the sudden tears that had appeared. She didn't have an idea at all why she was crying but one thing was for sure. Her tears were no longer for the blonde tomboy, they were now meant for another blonde. Usagi? 'I can't be having those feelings for her! I can't!' Michiru scolded herself. 'She's my princess, her heart belongs to Rei!' Those thoughts had been meant to convince herself that she was just hallucinating but instead of that they only made her situation worse. She shouldn't have slept with Usagi, she should've never agreed to Usagi's proposal. The only person Michiru had ever slept with was Haruka. She had sworn not to love anyone else. This just had to be some fase. Usagi was just a friend to her. Just a friend."Haruka..." It was only a whisper. Again she had managed to think about the blonde tomboy while that was the least thing on her mind right now. SHe had to find Usagi and apologize about all of this. 'She's probably telling Rei about her feelings right now.' Michiru told herself as she touched her lips with her fingers. She could still feel Usagi's warm lips burn on hers. When she realised what she was doing she pulled her hand away again.'What's wrong with me?' The girl closed her eyes as she still felt hot drops of water slide down her cheeks.'I don't love Usagi, I've never been this close with her before...' 'I don't need Haruka nor Usagi. I've lived 16 years before I met them and my life was perfect. I fought demons without them, I survived high school without them! I made my own carrier WITHOUT them! I don't need anyone to be happy!' She thought, trying to convince herself that she was just acting like a big baby. Suddenly her eyes flew open as she managed to choak away a sob."Why doesn't anyone want me?!" She screamed as she sat up and burried her face in her hands.'What's wrong with me. Why does everyone leave me for someone else?' It seemed that unconsciously Michiru had thought of Usagi as a loved one as well. Only Haruka had left her for someone else but to Michiru it felt like also Usagi had left her for another person.'Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me...' Suddenly Michiru heard footsteps followed by someone who opened the door to her bedroom. In shock she gazed up. Her eyes met Usagi's. "Michiru, are you crying?" The blonde asked as she walked up to Michiru with a concerned look on her face. Assuming it had something to do with last night she sat down next to the still naked girl who was only covered by the thin blankets."I am sorry about last night Michiru. It had been wrong to ask something like that from you. I know you weren't ready for it yet emotionally and still..." She was cut off by the elder girl."It's ok Usagi. I wasn't crying because of last night." She then whispered. Only half of it was a lie. She was now looking down at her hands when she suddenly felt Usagi's fingers wipe away her tears. "Don't cry Michiru. No one is worth your tears." Usagi whispered with a sweet tone in her voice. This was enough to make Michiru look up again. "Did you talk to Mamoru?" Michiru questioned, changing the subject. She wasn't going to admit it but she enjoyed the feeling of habing Usagi beside her. Usagi was like an angel. Sweet, innocent and lovable then again she was unreachable just like a real angel. You can dream of them but you can't reach them , touch them. Michiru had gotten one night with the blonde and that had to be enough. It just had to. Usagi nodded."He took it pretty well." She stated, not telling Michiru about how Mamoru had really found out about all of this. Something already told her that Michiru was crying over Haruka. Telling the other that Mamoru had overheard her talking to Haruka would only cause the aqua haired girl pain. "And Rei?" Michiru asked. She didn't really want to know about that but on the other hand she was curious about it. "Rei..." Usagi started."I don't think I'll ever be with her." "And why is that? I thought you liked her." Michiru asked. "I am afraid that last night when you teached me how to love...you know, it was all in vain." 'To me it wasn't.' Michiru's mind stated causing the aqua haired girl to doubt her true feelings for the blonde in front of her."I don't really understand Usagi..." She finally managed to say as she watched how Usagi moved uncomfortably. "Well...if you give me some time then I'll tell you." Michiru just nodded."I had just told Mamoru about my true feelings and..." (Flashback) Mamoru and Usagi had been standing there for quite some time. Just holding eachother as both their minds were working overtime. There were so many thought going through their heads at this point. Usagi had whispered a countless times how sorry she was. Mamoru had simply replied her by saying that everything was okay and they still could be friends. Part of her wanted to believe that but she knew they could never become good friends in the first place. At some point Usagi had just broken out into tears which also was the main reason for Mamoru still holding her. Her eyes had been closed the whole time but when she opened them again she had wished she had done otherwise. Her vision was clouded but clear enough for her to see who were walking through the park as well. She could see Rei walking on the other side of the street, hand in hand with a blonde girl. Minako. From that point she realised how blind she had been. All those times they had walked into Rei and Minako. They had never actually seen them kissing but there had been some clear moments to prove that they were lovers. Whenever Usagi came to visit Rei, Minako would be there too as if they were living together. They were always around the other. Whenever a guy came up to Minako to ask her out Rei would act so overprotective and insult the poor guy. They were lovers. She had been so stupid, so incredibly stupid not to see that before. It could've saved her and Michiru from a lot of unnecessary emotions and feelings towards the other. Finally Usagi had pulled away from Mamoru, looking at him with a pained expression on her face."I have to go Mamoru. I am sorry. I truly am and I hope that one day we can live up to your words and be friends but until that day..." He nodded."I understand Usagi, I'll see you sometime, won't I?" Usagi smiled a bit as she nodded."Ofcourse, I wish you well Mamoru." She then said. With that she started to step back before turning around and running off. She didn't know where she could go now. To her own house would be a mistake since too many things would remind her of her good times with Mamoru, to her family was something her heart surely wouldn't be able to survive. They would never understand her. (End flashback) "So you came here?" Michiru asked, already knowing the answer. Somehow she was happy that Usagi had come to her in the end. It made her feel special, as if Usagi really enjoyed being with her. "Not because I didn't know where else to go.." Usagi whispered. A blush appeared on her face as she stopped to look at Michiru. Instead of that she gazed down at her own hands."To be honest with you Michiru, when I saw Rei together with Minako it didn't hurt me at all. It didn't even felt a sting in my heart like I felt when I told Mamoru about my true feelings." Michiru just sat there. She didn't know where this was going although deep down inside of her she secretly was wishing for a bold love confession."But I have felt that stinging pain in my heart before this day. Not when I saw Rei and Minako. And although I felt a certain sting in my heart when I confessed to Mamoru that I didn't love him it didn't feel that strong. But I did feel that strong feelings when I walked out of your room this morning Michiru..." Usagi paused for a moment as she waited for Michiru to say something. When the other didn't say anything she looked up again. Much to her surprise Michiru was crying at this point. Not crying out of sadness but it more looked like she was crying out of, happiness? "Last night wasn't just sex to me." Usagi went on, somehow feeling confident about all of this."It meant so much more to me but I didn't realise it until earlier this day. You've always been here for me. Not as close with me as lately but you've always protected me. Even when you and Sailor Uranus were testing me as a worthy princess. When you held my hands to my back as Uranus came closer to me. I still remember what you said, you said to me before I managed to cut myself loose from your grip, you said..." Usagi paused once again to recall the other's words. "I said I am sure you'll prove us wrong princess. I have faith in you." Michiru said instead of waiting for the other to say it. Usagi nodded."Your words were what gave me enough courage, enough power to free myself." She then whispered."Michiru, I don't know how you feel about me but I just want you to know that...I like you. And I don't like you as just a friend but..." Michiru cut her off ."I like you too Usagi..." It had only been five words but hearing Michiru say that meant the world to Usagi. Without any hesitation Usagi jumped on top of Michiru and pressed their lips together. At first their kiss stayed innocent like the previous night but then it started to become more passionate as they let the other's tongue explore the other's mouth once again. They held that position for quite some time until they both pulled back at the same time, both a bit out of breath. "I-is it too early to say..." Usagi wanted to ask but once again Michiru didn't let her finish. "No.." She stated with a loving look on her face. "I love you..." Usagi then whispered as she gave Michiru a small kiss on the lips. "I love you too Usagi." Came the reply. Usagi's heart was filled with joy at this point. All the pain she had felt before, all the guilt and doubt was now gone. And all Michiru had done was tell her she loved her as well. Usagi knew that Michiru wasn't completely over Haruka yet and she knew that it would take her new found lover some time to fully get over Haruka as well but she didn't care. She knew that Michiru loved her and she was certain that they would make it through the hardship of this world together. She would never abandon Michiru like Haruka had done. She would never lie to Michiru like she had lied to Mamoru. She may have lost some things but she had certainly gained something better in return. Once again their lips met in a kiss.'And sometimes you get lucky enough to find that the angel you've tried to reach for... loves you too.' Michiru thought as she pulled her lover closer. Together they would make it, she was certain of it. She had never felt like this before, not even with Haruka. Probably because Haruka had never really loved her but this must've been what everyone called true love. The End As I proved in the previous chapter, Haruka loves Setsuna and that's why she was able to keep smiling even though she guessed that Michiru and Usagi slept together. Hotaru's words, saying that Serenity came crying to her because Haruka made a mistake, well that's another story. And nope there won't be a sequel to this so I'll leave that up to your imagination. Usagi and Michiru finally became an item and that was enough in my opinion. I am sorry if you wanted this story to last longer but I don't think that'll be a good idea.
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