There was no feeling of joy in the dark haired girl's senses afterwards. Tomoyo spent the entire evening inside her room and refused human contact from anyone else in the house. She laid down on top of her bed with her head embedded in her pillow. She began to weep as her sobs were muffled by the thick cushion. There was no way for her to understand why Sakura rejected her without any clear motive. Tomoyo couldn't stop thinking about why things went wrong for her. She lifted her head up and glanced across the room at the camcorder. She had recorded many images with it and had captured many memories, but the subject of a vast majority of those memories was Sakura. Whether it was getting footage of the capture of a Clow Card, or taking shots while walking through the park, Tomoyo would always playback anything that had her best friend in it. The thought of Sakura use to shine a beacon of joy within Tomoyo's heart, but tonight, sadness was the only feeling that rested in her heart. Tomoyo didn't think she would ever watch any of her videos again, or even use the camcorder again. The dark haired girl placed her head on her pillow and cried as heartache overtook her senses. ------------------------------------------------------------------- The whole situation was still confusing for Sakura. After spending almost an entire day's time thinking about it, Sakura decided to do some rollerblading to clear her head. But gliding down the sidewalk in the early afternoon didn't make any difference. 'What did she mean by it?' Sakura thought to herself. 'And why did she do it? I still don't understand.' Sakura fully understood Tomoyo's intention for writing the letter, what she didn't understand was how it could be natural for Tomoyo to feel that way. 'Was she just joking about it? Hmm...no, that's probably not it. She wouldn't have done anything like that to me. But how could she say all that and mean it?' As Sakura continued skating, her thoughts went to what was actually said in Tomoyo's letter. Sakura recalled the feelings of emotion that the letter tried to convey. She didn't think much of it at first, but the more she thought about it, the more she related it to all of the moments she was with Tomoyo. She thought about all of the times that Tomoyo looked up to her and gave her support when she was a card captor. She thought about the times when the two of them would just hand out together. The one thing that Sakura rememberd the most about Tomoyo was the way she looked at her. Tomoyo's eyes were always full of cheerfulness and affection, and now that Sakura had read the letter, she understood why Tomoyo always had that look of affection. The brown haired girl's thoughts began to effect how fast she was moving on her rollerblades. Her speed decreased until she came to a stop at a street corner. As Sakura stood motionless, she thought about how much Tomoyo cared for her, about how much her heart went out to Sakura. Then her mind went back to how she treated Tomoyo the other day, the way she abandoned her best friend without telling her how she felt. She was beginning to get mad at herself for reacting that way and she was starting to imagine how Tomoyo was feeling about all of this. Sakura was afraid of committing the crime she hoped never to commit, breaking the feelings of her best friend. Tomoyo's bright smile was something that the brown haired girl loved to see and it got to her that she might not see it again. But as guilt was making its way into the girl, another feeling came in that was even stronger. The feelings that Sakurta had for Tomoyo were tremendous. Sakura had always felt that she wanted to help out her friend if she felt sad or worried. Her desire to help was greater than it had ever been, even while she knew that she was the cause of the problem. It was now she realized that she cared about her friend so much, that she loved her. This new discovery shocked Sakura as well as added to her confusion. It was hard for her to think that she could feel that strongly toward another girl. There was nothing that seemed logical in the situation that Sakura was in. The brown haired girl was lost in the thoughts of her mind until she heard something approach. As she looked forward to see what brought her back to reality, she saw that a black car was coming down the street. It didn't take Sakura long to recognize the vehicle. "That's Tomoyo's car," she said. As the car passed her, Sakura was able to get a good look inside. Sakura noticed the driver and Tomoyo's bodyguards and, for a brief instant, saw that Tomoyo was riding along with them. But it was the expression on Tomoyo's face that got Sakura's attention. The dark haired girl had her head hung low with a lok of utter depression. It was obvious to Sakura how her friend felt as the car drove by. Sakura watched until the vehicle was out of sight. The girl became concerned over what she had seen. But even as she felt sorry for her best friend, she cringed after seeing the results of her actions firsthand.
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