The Final Stage -------------------------------------------------- Utena acted quite uneasy the next day. She got up while Anthy was still sleeping and put on her cheerful face for the day. Anthy secretly watched her as she made herself busy by unpacking Anthy's suitcase. Apparently they'll stay here for a while. Utena was actually very orderly when she wanted to be, Anthy noted to herself. She had a somewhat housewife-ish air about her when she was cleaning or cooking. When she was done Utena just flopped down on the sofa and at last realized was being watched. "Ah, you're awake," she said. Anthy nodded and sat up in the bed. "How did you sleep?" Anthy smiled and said: "I've never slept better. Although I..." She let her voice trail off letting Utena guess what she meant. Utena managed to keep her blush under control and tried to move the conversation somewhere else. "I don't have anything to offer you for breakfast-" "Then we'll eat the sandwiches I bought yesterday," Anthy interrupted Utena smiling. Utena sighed before continuing. She wanted to treat Anthy like the princess she deserved to be, she really tried, but her resources were extremely limited. "Also, I don't have any money to buy something to make lunch..." "That's no problem, I have enough money for us both." Utena just kept staring. "You've changed, you know," she said after a while. "Have I?" Anthy got up and walked slowly over to Utena. Her long nightgown was flowing slightly after her before she reached the sofa and leaned down to Utena, looking directly into her eyes all the while. Utena's blood raced into her cheeks as Anthy watched her from up close. Somewhere to their left more and more locks of dark hair kept falling from behind Anthy's ear, casting a shadow onto their faces. "I wouldn't know," she then declared, moved away and walked into the bathroom, a smile playing on her lips. Utena was left on the sofa flustered and lips parted, breathing heavily and still waiting. She fell back into the sofa as she realized that her back arched from it and she had been stretching towards where Anthy had been. She was thoroughly confused. With herself and with Anthy. Anthy changed and Utena wasn't sure if she was still able to follow her. And even though Anthy was here now Utena still couldn't shake the feeling as if something was exactly how she didn't wanted it to be. It was something important and she knew what it was, but she wanted to keep it the way things were now a bit longer. -------------------------------------------------- The day was dragging itself along slowly as they were walking through the narrow alleys back home. The sun was at it's peak and they were trying to catch those few shadows that preserved. Soon enough they were back at the hotel again in their cool room. And since she had nowhere to put herself Utena started making lunch. Anthy tried to help but without knowing what her not very talkative companion was making she couldn't actually do much. They ate and didn't talk much. They cleaned up. Later Utena settled herself back into the sofa again. She felt somehow very tired. Like she was running all the time. She could see herself, running, running after her - after Anthy, who was running too but away from her, and she couldn't run faster, she couldn't reach Anthy, she couldn't run, and couldn't reach her, couldn't run anymore and she felt hundreds of hands hold her, tried to pull away but couldn't so she pulled and pushed until she fell to the ground, exhausted, panting and everything went black... She must have fallen asleep because when she next came to herself she was quite comfortably nestled on Anthy's shoulder with whom she was suddenly sharing the sofa. A soft hand was stroking her head and another arm was leisurely draped around her shoulders. Almost naturally her own arm reached out and nestled somewhere in Anthy's lap. It was comfortable and soft and Utena promptly dozed off again. "Nobody really possessed you..." Utena suddenly said in a low voice. Her own voice somehow paralyzed her and she wasn't sure if the conversation she so clearly remembered was actually happening or was it part of a dream. "What?" Anthy asked surprised. Utena was also startled and completely awake again. After some time she needed to collect her thoughts she spoke again. "I don't think anybody ever really possessed you; you know, owned you. It was them who were in your possession. You just needed to realize that to break free from the circle you were trapped in." "No," Anthy answered softly but determined. "There was someone who was able to possess me. I just needed to realize who it was." Utena tried to figure out what that meant but couldn't really think clearly. "Himemiya... you've changed..." she said and her voice sounded sad even if she didn't want it to. "Does it bother you so much? You've already mentioned it twice..." Anthy answered, her voice sounding as old as time itself. "I'm scared... That you'll leave me behind." Pausing she thought about what she had just said. "I'm scared that I won't be able to be your prince. Because I no prince. I'm scared because I feel like I'm losing myself. Because I don't understand my feelings anymore. We used to be friends but long since it's more than just friends and I don't know if you sharre my feelings. I don't know what's my role. I'm scared of being your prince because- I just want to be a simple girl, you know..." Her hand was now holding Anthy around her waist. She wanted to stay like this forever. Being held by the one she cared for, by the one who cared for her. "Utena... I had said things to you I never wanted to. What I feel for you- I don't know how to express myself... I want to explain to you how much I love you, but it's so much more. When you say I've changed, it's just that I have accepted you and I have accepted me; I used to hate myself. You gave me strength to stand on my own two feet. I don't want you to be my prince, since you're a Princess yourself. A princess in shining armor on a white horse. You saved me. I don't need a prince anymore - so, just be yourself." "You shouldn't think so much of me," Utena said, grimly. "I love you," Anthy answered looking at Utena's obscured eyes. Utena was gazing at Anthy's serious face for a long time. Then she closed her eyes and felt Anthy's head close in on her until their lips met gently and softly. The kiss was short as neither was sure how to proceed further. After their lips broke contact Utena moved away to catch her breath while Anthy's hand circled around her neck and draw her head nearer again. But before she could reach her Utena stopped her with a sharp glare. "Don't ever leave me. I need you." She kept her eyes fixed on Anthy's, looking for signs of hesitation "I won't," Anthy said firmly, once again closing the distance between them, binding their lips together in another kiss, this time more determined, more demanding and passionate. Utena's arms were lightly holding her somewhere at her hips and she was completely passive. Anthy seized the opportunity and parted her own lips, Utena's following obediently. Her tongue slowly made it's way to Utena's lips, drawing a few moans from deeper down her throat. More of those followed as their tongues made contact, less ravishing but instead slower and more placid. Quite naturally Anthy's hand moved down to Utena's chest where it settled on her left breast. She felt the hardened nipple clearly even through her bra and shirt. Her hand slowly went lower, down to Utena's waist while she tried to steer herself upon Utena, who has completely given herself to her. Her hands caught the hem of Utena's shirt and slowly began to take it off. Reluctantly she had to break their lasting kiss to lift the item over the pink head. Utena fell into the sofa as Anthy leaned backward to admire her doing. Pink hair was splayed around half closed, helplessly inviting eyes. And for a moment she saw herself in those eyes, causing her to freeze momentarily. "Anthy..." Utena whispered in a daze, then smiling and blushing on account of herself. "Don't stop now," she breathed out, almost as an afterthought. Anthy smiled, returning to her jumbled senses and put her hands on both sides of Utena athletic waist. She slid her hands painfully slowly and gently from Utena's bare, delicate waist upward, leaving her quivering and gasping for air. She reached the simple white bra and reached around the back, pressing herself against Utena as she caught her lips again. She undid the bra, slowly taking it off her lover. She marveled at the rather small white breasts with pink areolas and, by now, very erect nipples. The areolas were almost unrecognizable as they were just a shade darker than the skin around. Her hands cupped the two mounds and squeezed a bit, making the pink-haired beauty inhale deeply. Satisfied with the response she lowered her head down to Utena's chest and licked teasingly in the valley between them. Utena arched her back temptingly towards Anthy, who couldn't help but smile at the reaction. As she finally took a nipple in her mouth Utena let out a long and low 'Aah!' but she released it then. "You've always been such a tease..." Utena hissed seductively between ragged breathing, sighs and gasps. "I'm so sorry, I won't do it again," Anthy replied, grinning to herself and letting her hand roam lower, over Utena's stomach, which was moving in sync with her rhythm- less breathing. She didn't need to unbutton Utena's jeans to slip her hand inside her pants and panties and graze into her pubic hair, which curled around her fingers. Utena had her problems with patience and Anthy's teasing was driving her op the wall. And she didn't want it any other way. All she could do in her frustration was to grab Anthy's elbow and push her arm further down her pants. Anthy finally showed mercy for her lover and let her fingers caress Utena's inner lips, which were wet and terribly hot. Without removing her lips from the nipple she was sucking on she let her finger part the hidden inner blossom and slowly wander upwards until it reached a bulb of flesh which made Utena's whole body jerk just by a slight caress. With a sigh that halfway turned into a moan Utena looked down at herself. Her view was obscured by an ocean of dark hair which descended from a well above her chest. What she could see rising from the ocean was one of her breasts, topped with her nipple, erect as it carved for attention. On the other side, deep within the depths of Anthy's mane she saw a pair of lips attending to the ignored nipple's twin. She wasn't sure if it was a good or bad idea, she wasn't sure if she'd maybe regret her actions later, but she knew that this felt so damn good. Not just on a purely physical level. Looking at the lips that danced around her nipple and at the arm her hand was still pushing down her pants she felt like a child indulging in something it knew it would be scolded for. Like watching a late night movie that had some explicit scenes. Yeah, like that. The same sensations, the same excitement, just about hundred fold more intense. The pair of lips moving around Utena's nipple suddenly stopped and widened into a grin as the awareness of being watched struck. Utena looked up from the lips to catch Anthy's eye through the mane of dark hair. Anthy moved up from her place on her lover's chest towards her mouth, which was seductively glistening with wetness, like the other one Anthy couldn't see. Utena was about to moan as a hand resumed servicing where the pair of lips were busy before, but she was cut short as Anthy sucked herself onto her mouth. As Anthy's fingers slipped faster around her inner folds Utena had trouble keeping up with the sensuous dance of their tongues. Her body started to extricate itself from her control - her hips began countering Anthy's hand, her own hand wildly grabbing for something to get a better hold on. She even had trouble keeping up with her breathing. So, she just kept her breath and closed her eyes as her body moved wildly, chaotically. She felt herself grab for her lover and she latched herself to her, feeling the climax build up inside her. She felt it coming, from far off, but as she held her breath she felt her blood pumping wildly through her going faster and faster almost boiling until everything suddenly exploded but that was just the beginning while she felt her whole existence in fact the whole universe being sucked up inside of her right inside her belly to violently burst through her once again searing through her flesh and she found herself crashing down into the sofa panting and holding gripping Anthy as if her life depended on it. For quite a while Utena kept looking at the ceiling. Her breathing was shallow and every now and then, almost involuntarily, she took a deeper breath releasing it with a sigh. After some time she turned her head and gazed at Anthy who had been watching her in return. Utena blushed as their gazes met and she tried to smile bashfully. "Why are you looking at me like that... It's embarrassing..." "You look very sexy, I can't help myself," Anthy replied. Utena lowered her gaze to avoid eye contact. She looked at Anthy's shirt that got damp at places from their sweat. The dark-haired woman's eyes widened in anticipation as Utena lifted her hand and moved it over her breast. Anthy was wearing a white sleeveless shirt and a long white skirt, both of which contrasted strongly with her dark skin. Well, at least until she pulled her shirt over her head. Utena smiled, more to herself really, staring at the two brown globes, gloriously displayed before her. "You're exited," Utena said - surprising herself - in a voice that wasn't quite her own. But she grabbed the two ripe fruits in her hands nonetheless. Anthy kept her wide open eyes glued to Utena, anxiously awaiting the blonde's next moves. It looked wonderfully erotic as long feminine fingers caged two dark chocolate mounds, how a pink wet tongue played with a dark navel. Utena was fully aware of that as if watching through a different set of eyes. She grabbed a hold of the white skirt and seeing Anthy's eyes close in delight as she sunk under it. The strong scent in the dark world she found herself in made Utena's head dizzy, or at least that's what she told her self. In reality she knew her head was spinning because she was uncertain. And there were feelings - intense feelings - that were alien to her. Somehow they weren't her own. "Utena..." Anthy's desperate voice and a pair of hands on Utena's head made her realize that maybe this wasn't the best moment to dwell on those things. She was uncertain, yes, but she had made a decision and she will stick to it. With a smile on her face she didn't know was there she sunk her head all the way down into the grove between Anthy's legs. She started licking at the soft exposed flesh of pinkish inner lips in the midst of a neatly trimmed bush of dark pubic hair. Every lick extracted a moan or sigh from Anthy and made even Utena thrill. Soon enough she began to read Anthy's groans and movements, starting to truly pleasure her. Utena didn't see what her victim was doing but she imagined Anthy grabbing her breasts while pressing Utena between her legs. While Utena had been having some trouble relaxing Anthy didn't have any such problems. Shamelessly and unselfconsciously she presented herself to Utena, encouraged her with gasps and moans, which she didn't hold back and embraced her with long dark legs. Barely managing to breathe as she was pressed stubbornly into Anthy's garden, Utena understood how close to the edge of the abyss she already was. And with that her own exitement rose by a notch again. Utena tried to keep the wild purple-haired woman as close to the edge without actually pushing her over. Anthy was on her toes, pushing her crotch into Utena's face, lifting herself off the sofa, almost pulling Utena's hair out, tearing up the sofa with her other hand. Utena felt a surge of power rush through her as she kept Anthy right on the edge of this agonizing pleasure a few moments. And then the dark-skinned body suddenly short-circuited and jerked once. The various sounds Anthy emitted heightened into a crescendo of short gasps. Her legs locked strongly around Utena's throat, but shortly after released and spread wide, as if afraid of suffocating Utena. Utena used that moment to try to push her tongue into Anthy, but seeing as this didn't have any effect she licked upwards over the tip of the exposed little nipple. Which caused the pair of barnacles to snap back and a shriek to fill the room. Utena was forced to set a personal record in holding her breath until Anthy's body finally relaxed and fell into the sofa exhausted. She became totally limp as if all life had been drained from it. Her eyes were either closed or barely open and Utena felt anxious because she didn't know if she was being watched or not. Slowly Utena moved upward and hovered over Anthy. The listless body had meanwhile regained some life and her arm reached out wandered up Utena's thigh and made it's way up to her back. Her eyes watched Utena from below the almost closed eyelids seemingly in a trance, though it wasn't so. Resisting the urge to lie down or go to the bathroom or anything to escape this surreal situation, Utena kept looking at those haunting eyes that seemed to try to hide from her. She saw a woman that was willing to throw her life away, that tore down the very foundations on which she stood. A woman that revolutionized herself. Doing it to become the woman she is now, to be here now, to have Utena as part of her life. Utena didn't want to think about love, because it really was so much more than that. It was more like being yourself. And Utena bent down to kiss her. -------------------------------------------------- They dozed off shortly afterward, right there on the couch, half dressed, covered with some sheet that was within arm-reach. While Anthy was soon soundly sleeping, Utena was waking up every few minutes, tossing and turning carefully. That was quite understanding since she slept through the whole afternoon and her body was hurting in numerous places from the sofa. Within the next hour she got so frustrated she stubbornly stared at the ceiling and listened to the ticking of a clock somewhere. After another half hour, her bones were hurting so much she gently extracted herself from the sofa and Anthy's limbs. Her bones were cracking one after another as she stretched on the way to the bathroom. Looking at herself in the mirror she expected to see a horrible sleepy and trashed face but to her surprise she looked pretty normal. She looked exactly like she felt - wide awake. While washing her face and teeth she kept looking at the mirror for a while longer, thinking. Her mind was working and her thoughts were just flowing from subject to subject, from today's lunch to Anthy to today's... dessert. After she was done she removed the rest of her clothes and put on her bottom part of her pajamas. After looking very briefly for it and not finding it she left the to be where ever it was and left the bathroom bare-breasted. As Utena reentered she found Anthy propped up on her elbow, smiling at her. It was one of her self-satisfied smiles that most people seemed to confuse with a bimbo- smile. But Utena didn't notice it as her gaze fell to Anthy's equally bare breasts. Utena's silhouette lingered in front of the bathroom doorway for a few more moments and then dissolved into the darkness that enveloped the room as the light was turned off. "I couldn't sleep after I slept almost the whole afternoon," Anthy heard Utena's voice in the darkness slowly coming closer. As her eyes adjusted Utena was already next to the sofa so she took her outstretched hand and pulled her down. Utena's bare back was now in front of her and she began running her fingers across it. "You're shining again," she told her as Utena's torso was twisting and goose bumps were spreading all over it. "Stop that," Utena answered with an 'aah'. "You're shining too, you know. That's what's different about you. You're shining much brighter. Let's go to bed, okay? Everything hurts me from this damn sofa." Then she suddenly turned her head and looked at Anthy over her shoulder. Both could see well now that their eyes adjusted. "You did something to me before, didn't you? When we were... you know. I felt you in me, I felt your feeling flow through me." Anthy kept her smile that had creeped onto face and said calmly: "I am a witch, aren't I?" Utena's peaceful smile turned to steel and her eyes narrowd down to two long slits. "Don't ever say that again." She stood up and headed for the bed with Anthy after her saying: "I'm sorry." Suddenly Utena turned back to her, her face changed back from the iron mask to her cheerful self again. "What are we gonna do now?" she asked. "You know, I haven't thought about that at all." Anthy was puzzled herself as they sat down on the bed. Then she smiled. "Now we are free." "Free? Free to do what?" Utena asked as she lay down on the bed. "To do whatever we want," Anthy answered also laying down. "Whatever?" Utena said looking at Anthy. "Free to go?" Anthy returned the stare but didn't answer. She wanted Utena to say it out loud. "Do you want to go?" Utena finally said. Anthy smiled again. "Free to stay," she answered, please. "Now, nothing is forcing me to be by your side. Now I'm free to stay by your side." Utena turned away and looked at the ceiling. "Ah," she said, feeling quite stupid for saying it. She didn't know what else to say. Maybe she'll think of something tomorrow. -------------------------------------------------- Finalized: 4. 8. 2002 Peter The Ghost of 'lectricity
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