Shoaoran's Problem
"Hi, Tomoyo-chan. Thank you for seeing me."
"Come in Li-kun." As soon as Shoaoran had his shoes off and slippers on
she led him upstairs to her room. Okay, this is completely private.
Now what did you want to talk to me about?"
"Well. It's about Sakura mostly, and you, and I guess, me too." When
Shoaoran seemed stalled she tried to encourage him.
"So? Is everything okay between you and Sakura?"
"Yes. Well, mostly yes. What I wanted to talk about is, well we have
invited you to come with us three times now and you have been busy each
time. And I was wondering if maybe you were just trying to be polite by
not coming with us? Is that it?"
"Well, usually when a girl and her boyfriend go out together they really
want to be alone. I don't want to get between you and Sakura."
"That's what I thought. But it isn't like that. I've been watching
Sakura very closely. She is kind of my favorite subject. Anyway, she
doesn't smile as much, or laugh as much when you aren't there. She is
happier and more self confident and like more alive, when you are with
her. It's like she isn't complete without you." Tomoyo was stunned by
Shoaoran's words and hesitated before answering.
"I'm sure you are exaggerating. Sakura doesn't need me..." She
finished with a sad note in her voice.
"You're wrong. She does need you. And so do I. Sakura's happiness is
the most important thing in the world to me. And to be really happy she
needs you to be there with her."
"But Sakura loves you." Tomoyo insisted.
"I believe so. And I am really happy about that. But she loves you
too. And it's obvious that you love her a whole lot." Tomoyo looked
down and blushed but didn't say anything to that. "It must be really
hard for you to be helping me take Sakura away from you." Tomoyo
glanced at Shoaoran for a moment before looking back at the floor and
speaking.
"I have to. Her happiness is the most important thing in the world to
me. And she loves you and needs you. And you are the best... And I
can't give her what you can." Tomoyo finished in a choked voice.
"I hope she needs me. I certainly need her. But she needs you too,
Tomoyo. Don't dump her just because she has me. Because I can't give
her what you can either. I think maybe she needs both of us. So, how
about spending more time with us?"
"Are you sure she really needs me?"
"I'm very sure. I wouldn't be here if I didn't think that Sakura needed
you.
"Alright. The next time she invites me out with or without you, I will
go."
"Great! I'm glad you understand." Shoaoran said in a relieved voice.
"I'm not sure I do understand. But it's not real hard to convince me to
spend more time with Sakura." Tomoyo finished with a smile.
********
It was obvious to Shoaoran that Sakura was happier when Tomoyo was with
them. And this made him happy. The down side was that he didn't like
losing part of Sakura's attention. Or very often, most of Sakura's
attention.
Sakura, as usual, had no clue, but Tomoyo noticed that Shoaoran was a
little strained and began watching him and Sakura closely. By the third
time out, There was no question that Sakura preferred her company to
Shoaoran's. And she couldn't help feeling happy about this. But she
also felt sorry for Shoaoran who had talked her into coming with them.
And he kept insisting even when Tomoyo tried to back out. So one night
she had an idea. Instead of sticking close to Sakura as she normally
did she started staying close to Shoaoran, with the idea that Sakura
would stay close to her and this would keep Shoaoran from being left
out. She also made a point of including Shoaoran in all her
conversations.
The result was a strange one. To anyone watching it would look like
Shoaoran and Tomoyo were out together and Sakura was just tagging along.
Shoaoran thought Tomoyo's behavior was strange at first, but after a bit
he decided he liked the way things were working. He no longer felt left
out, Sakura was her usual cheerful active self, and he didn't really
mind having the very beautiful Tomoyo paying so much attention to him.
He did start hearing about it at school though. But he didn't care that
boys were angry with him hogging the two best looking girls in their
class all to himself. He would just smile at them and shrug.
As the months passed he began feeling very close to Tomoyo. She was
quiet and thoughtful like he was. And she admired him for his magic
power. Which felt good. While Sakura was a bundle of energy and
chatter who actually had more magic power than he did. And she had won
the Clow cards. And that fact still hurt a bit. He still loved Sakura,
he assured himself, but perhaps he loved Tomoyo too. And it didn't help
his confusion any when it was Tomoyo who insisted the hardest that he go
along with them, even when he felt down and just wanted to be alone.
He didn't know why he kept feeling down, but it was Tomoyo who noticed
and talked to him about it, and helped him figure it out. They decided
that his problem was that he felt like neither of his "girlfriends"
really needed him. They had each other.
"Do you need me, Tomoyo?"
"I like having you around as a friend." She replied in an upbeat voice.
Shoaoran nodded before he spoke.
"I thought not. You don't need anyone but Sakura."
********
A few days later, the three of them were in Tomoyo's room where Sakura
was modeling a new costume Tomoyo had made. Just in case it was needed.
"Okay, this is as good a place as any. I'd like to do a little test."
With this he walked over to Sakura, took her in his arms and kissed her
as lovingly as he could for about five seconds.
"That was nice, Shoaoran. Now what's this about a test?"
"That was the first part of the test. Now for the second part I'd like
Tomoyo to kiss you like I did." This caused both Sakura's and Tomoyo's
eyebrows to shoot up.
"What?" Sakura was the first to react. "She doesn't want to kiss me
like that, she's a girl!"
"Yes she is a girl." Shoaoran said, "But she would still love to kiss
you like I did. Wouldn't you Tomoyo?" But Tomoyo didn't answer, she
just blushed and looked at the floor.
"Tomoyo? Do you really want to kiss me like that?" After a moment,
Tomoyo looked up at Sakura took a deep breath and nodded her head.
"Oh. Okay. I don't mind of you kiss me, Tomoyo."
"You don't?!" Tomoyo sounded astonished.
"Nope. Go ahead." Tomoyo only hesitated a moment before she had her
arms around Sakura and was kissing her very lovingly. It looked to
Shoaoran like Tomoyo started to pull away after about ten seconds, but
Sakura wouldn't let her end the kiss. She held on and kept kissing.
"Well, I think that's clear. It's obvious that I'm not needed here."
With this comment the girls broke up, both looking flushed and gasping
for air. "I'm going back to Hong Kong. There is a girl there who used
to really want me. I'm going to see if she still does. I really do
care about both of you. And I hope you two are happy together."
Sakura tried to talk him out of leaving, but he could see her heart
wasn't really in it. So he left anyway.
And Meilin was delighted to see him.
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