Chapter Three: Unbalanced life.
Dojima woke up to birds chirping away outside of her bedroom window. She groaned, as each sone the birds made, was like a needle stabbing her in the head. She rubbed her face, cursing the damned feathered things for waking her up so early. She looked at the clock on the side table, and saw it was just a little past six in the morning.
She sat up and then felt a wave of dizziness hit her all at once.
" Damn!" She spat, holding her head.
She found that she was having the mother of all hangovers, as every part of her body seemed to ache like she was eighty years old or something. Even her tongue felt like something very furry had just made it’s home right on it. She made a face, as the she noticed the taste of old wine was still on her breath.
" Yuck!!" She said to herself
She tried to get the clouded feeling out of her head, as she wondered how she got home the night before. She found herself still dressed in her shirt and panties, and that the other clothes she had worn the night before were folded beside the mat. She had help getting home last night, she thought to herself, knowing that she slept in the nude mostly. Her clothes were the big clue to it all.
She got herself up and grabbed a silk robe she had hanging on a hook near the door. She donned it and went to see if her helper had stayed the night somewhere in her place. In her mind, she thought that someone had actually stayed. She did not for sure know, bit she had a hunch that someone did keep an eye on her, especially how drunk she had gotten throughout the night. She had really did a number on herself with it.
In the stillness of the front room, she found a sleeping figure curled upon the floor. She moved so the pale light of the rising morning sun through the window would show her who it was that was asleep on the wood floor. She moved quietly as she could in her condition, and then saw who it was.
Robin was curled up on her floor, the dusty red overcoat the girl wore always was used as a blanket. She suddenly gasped, as the whole night came running back to her in one bright flash of reality.
" I have to explain things to Robin, I think..." She said, rubbing her head as stress welled up in her. She sighed. " Dammit...I’ve done it this time... Should have told things before all of this happened."
She moved to the kitchen to make coffee, knowing she will need a few cups of it to simply make her headache bearable. She left the girl sleep, not wanting to have to explain herself while her head was pounding like if someone was dribbling a bowling ball on her skull from the inside.
" Note to self... no more wine!" She said to herself
The blonde girl was just about done her first coffee, when Robin stepped into the kitchen. By the look of confusion and fear that were held in the green eyes, the girl was still thinking on the night before. Dojima knew she was doing just that.
" Morning..." Said Dojima, nervously.
The tawny haired girl looked at Dojima, her eyes darting between her, and then away for a moment to gaze out of the kitchen’s back window.
" You can grab yourself a coffee, if you want." Said Dojima, watching the girl fidget as she stood there. " I left out a mug that you can use on the counter there."
" Thank you..." The girl replied meekly, putting her gaze to the floor as she moved to where the coffee pot was.
The young girl chose to stand next to the counter as she sipped on her coffee. Her posture was very stiff and she did not move in inch to go and sit down at the table. She was quiet, even for Robin’s standards.
Robin stared at Dojima for a while, her mind now filled with the events of the night. She could see that the woman seemed to be a little under the weather, knowing very well that the alcohol was the culprit for her state. She tried not to think on the other things, but it was clear that her mind was having a heyday with it already.
Dojima finished the last sip of her coffee and sighed. She turned so she could look at the youngest hunter, and sighed.
" I want to thank you for the help home, Robin." She said, knowing she had to start the conversation someway. " I got more than just a little drunk last night."
Robin nodded, her face growing crimson red.
" You are welcome, Miss Dojima..." She said, her voice very soft.
The blonde woman could see that the girl was avoiding her eye contact at all cost. She sighed. She looked at the girl, and saw that the normal emerald eyes were not sparkling like they usually did.
" We have to talk, Robin... about last night." Dojima said, nervous about what she had to explain.
Robin’s face flashed white, her eyes went down to study her cup she held with great interest. She said nothing, simply studied the handle of the mug like she was looking for any flaws in the pottery. Dojima noticed how it was affecting the girl, but knew the only way was to speak up.
" I think I need to explain quite a few things about last night to you." Said Dojima, amending her way of approaching the subject.
" What needs to be explained..." Started Robin, her voice quivering. " You thought I was your boyfriend, you kissed me... you made a mistake when you did...."
" I sort of felt you up too..." Pointed out the woman, with a small smirk of admittance.
Robin seemed to shiver with the words, but her face showed no other reaction on it’s smooth surface.
" I... It was all a mistake, I know..." Robin sputtered, still not looking up from her mug. " I am not mad about it.. you were drunk... I understand that you made a mistake like that when you had too much to drink."
Dojima stood up and walked over. She took the mug out of the girl’s hand and set it on the counter. She moved the girl to turn to face straight at her, then got the green eyes to look up at her.
" It was not a mistake, Robin..." Said Dojima flatly. " The first thing to explain is that I never have been with a man ever..."
Robin’s eye widened, a few beads of sweat collected on her forehead.
" W...What?" Robin sputtered loudly, her face was shocked and all the color drained from her cheeks.
" The first thing I need to explain is that I am a lesbian.." Dojima continued slowly, her eyes trying to gauge what the girl was thinking.
Robin seemed to nearly collapse, her legs partially giving out as she stood there. She steadied herself against the kitchen counter with a hand and gaped at the woman with eyes as big as saucers.
" Pardon..." The young hunter said finally, out of reflex.
" I like women, just like men do... I date them and everything."
" But... your dates... you said..." Sputtered Robin, her mind racing to grasp the lady’s words.
Dojima nodded, seeing that the girl was now totally confused and flustered. She took a deep breath, and knew she needed to clarify other things, before going on with the other stuff.
" Robin, I may have been not telling the whole truth to you guys at the STN-J... about my ‘dates’." She said, as clear as she could put the words. " I let you think that they were with men... in fact I like women." She explained, as simply as she could think of to so. " That is the deepest, darkest truth... the single thing that not too many people know about me...I am gay."
Robin backed up a little bit against the counter, staring at her friend with a very blank stare. She was unable to breath for a second, her upper lip shook as her mind tried to process what she had heard.
" Then... you were... you did..." She stammered.
" I made a ‘pass’ at you..." She said boldly to give the girl the words, seeing the facts registering in Robin’s mind. " I was drunk and did that..."
" I felt strange when you did that..." Said Robin, now leaning a little further back from the woman. " I... I mean... I never had anyone touch me there... I... then you..."
" I know it scared you... I need to tell you the truth that I have been hiding away for so long also...." Dojima said, trying to get the words out of her head. "... The truth is that I have been captivated by you for a long while and...well, I did that in my state because of what I had been feeling towards you and..."
Robin heard the words, and her heart seemed to beat harder. The words were right there, Dojima was attracted to her, and last night was not a mistake other than she had acted on them. She felt herself shaking, unable to think. Her body instantly reminding her of what it felt like when the lady’s hand had been caressing her womanhood, the feelings that shot through her when Dojima delivered that kiss... everything.
Fear gripped Robin, and she quickly pushed her way passed the woman who was still trying to explain herself to her.
" I... I got to go.." She said, as politely as she could at the moment. " I.. I am glad I could help, but I got to leave now!!"
" Robin wait..." Pleaded Dojima, seeing the girl’s turmoil in her eyes. " You don’t have to be scared of me..."
She turned away from the lady, as she started walking faster.
" I got to go..." Was all the girl could muster out, a tear was flowing down her cheek by then.
" Robin..." Said the lady again, as the girl scurried from the room.
Dojima saw the tear flow down the ivory of the girl’s cheek, and her heart sank. That was not the reaction she wanted from Robin. She hurriedly tried to catch the now running girl, but the girl had already left the kitchen in a few strides.
The darkly clad girl retrieved her coat from the front room floor and quickly rushed herself to the door. The girl said nothing as she sprinted out of the house, pulling the door shut with a bang. Just like that, the girl was gone.
Dojima stood there looking at the door that Robin had raced out of. She lowered her head and rubbed her furrowed brow.
" Shit, Shit Shit!!" Spat the lady, her own tears flowing. " I really have done it now."
She turned and headed back to hr bedroom. She needed to get cleaned up for work, trying to catch up with the fleeing girl would be futile anyways... she knew that the young girl was long gone by the time she had slapped on some clothes. She shook her head and hurried herself, still spitting swears at herself.