Story: Well hidden obsessions (all chapters)
Authors: lilyheart87
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Chapter 1
Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon, it belongs to Naoko Takeuchi/Toei Animation
A/N: This story is a bit angsty, weird and there's some LIME too, meaning mild sexual situations. There's also love and that stuff, yeah.
Well hidden obsessions
1. Diffent ways of dealing with one's feelings: Makoto Kino
Makoto Kino was punching and kicking her punching bag hard, showing it no mercy. Finally after an especially hard kick it flew of the hook and dropped on the floor. But that wasn't enough for Makoto, oh no. She jumped on it and began to hit is as fast and as hard as she could without breaking it and ending up to pay for the damages. She kept going until she was too exhausted to continue anymore and simply lay limbly on it.
''Having fun?'' she heard Rei Hino asking.
Makoto looked up and saw Rei standing there. She growled a bit and stood up. It took all Rei's willpower not to step back from the sweaty and aggressive looking Makoto.
''How long have you been there?'' Makoto asked her in colorless tone.
''Well, when I came in you had knocked his lights off already.''
Makoto smiled a bit and took a sip of water from her bottle. Rei relaxed after seeing that Makoto hadn't lost her sanity.
''So what's up with you? It isn't like you to kick someone's ass like that.'' Rei asked casually.
''I'm a bit frustrated.'' was all that Makoto said.
''May I ask you why?'' Rei gulped against her will when she saw Makoto glaring at her.
''I would appreciate if you wouldn't.'' she murmured a bit annoyed.
''Sure thing. Just remember I'm always there if you need listener.'' Makoto's expression softened a bit by Rei's words
''Don't worry about me. It's nothing serious, I just need to think and sort my feelings out.''
Rei nodded smiling a bit and excused herself. Makoto sat on a bench near the exit and sighed heavily. It had been quite long ago when she had realised her feelings for a certain senshi of love. First she had been confused about what she felt and she thought it would be just some phase in her life which would go away in time. But it didn't. On the contrary the feelings had been just reinforcing.
She realised that it had only brought other issues with it. Questions about her sexual identity being just one of them. She didn't want to talk to any adult about it nor with her friends. Burdening others wasn't her way, so she kept everything bottled up to herself, like she had always done. But when you shake the bottle enough it wants to burst out even more.
She had actually decided to tell Minako Aino about her feelings. When Minako would turn her down, this whole silly thing would be over and she would return to her normal life and drool over boys who looked like her old sempai. As if. She knew it was stupid but she needed to tell Minako and work it out of her system before it became obsession to her, if it hadn't already. Especially when they had to work so closely together that kinds of emotions just couldn't be hidden for years.
But then her plan had backfired: Minako started to act weirdly. It felt like she was avoiding Makoto everytime she had the chance. They were never alone, everyone were always around. They never went anywhere together anymore. Makoto thought maybe Minako had found out her secret but that was impossible. Makoto simply didn't show her emotions to anyone and she hadn't told anyone about it. So she figured out that something else was bothering Minako. Makoto wanted to find out what exactly, so she could help Minako sort it out. When Minako was okay she could tell her stupid secret, then Minako could brake her heart, Makoto could weep and heal and continue living. It sounded like a waterproof plan.
Makoto decided this was the night when she would take the bull by its horns. She needed to get this over with as soon as possible. The aggression and fustration over the situation grew more and more each day and soon she wouldn't be able to control her emotions anymore and she would end up in a fight and find herself kicked out of the school or end up in prison in the worst scenario. Yes, this had to be done, tonight.
She sat a while and then decided to go to the steam sauna and relax a bit before she would meet Minako. It seemed like a quiet day and no one else were in the dojo. Makoto opened the door which led into the sauna and was petrified by what she saw there. There was a sweaty couple making out on a bench.
''I'm sorry. I didn't know someone was here.'' Makoto apologised blushing lightly and started to leave.
Then she realised the one laying on top of the other one was Rei. Rei was pinning the other person on the bench and the other person was Ami Mizuno. Makoto gasped.
''It's alright, were nearly done. Right Ami?''
''Yes.'' Ami said blushing and Makoto didn't know whether it was because of the heat or the fact that Makoto had saw them two or something else.
Ami and Rei excused themselves and left the bewildered Makoto standing there.
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''Do you think it worked?'' Ami asked worriedly.
''If it did, it was worth of the embarassment. Right honey?'' Rei answered amused.
''Yes dear.'' Ami said and blushed.
Rei laughed a bit and said cheerfully ''Now phase two in the 'lets get Makoto out of the closet' -plan.''.
''Don't you think this is a bit silly? Since we haven't come of the closet either?'' Ami tried to reason one more time.
''Nonsense, honey. And besides we just came out of the closet.'', Rei stated and Ami looked shocked like she hadn't thought about that fact earlier, ''Now, back to phase two: showers.'' Rei continued smiling evilly.
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Makoto was sitting in the steam sauna, thinking about what she had just seen. She had thought that their friends opinion about homosexuality was a bit prejudiced but now she had seen two of them practicing it in a public place. If Ami and Rei had found each others, could it mean she and Minako two had a chance? 'No! It can't be true, that won't happen! I'm so damn unlucky in these things. I'm just torturing myself, now back to the plan. End of story!' she thought.
Who could love a girl like her? It was a joke. It was a miracle she even had friends. She understood that by telling about her feelings she could ruin her friendship with Minako but she needed to do this and Minako didn't seem like a person who would desert her friends. Besides even if Minako would start to hate her, at least Rei and Ami wouldn't abandon her as a dyke or a pervert. Though she couldn't believe that Minako would think so either, she was just too sweet and kind for that kind of thing. Makoto started to smile while thinking Minako. It would propably be a bit awkward first, but time would heal all the wounds and their friendship.
Makoto closed her eyes and tried to relax but it was impossible. The anxiety was with her all the time not letting her forget how beautiful eyes Minako had and how her hair shone in the sunlight. She didn't want to lose Minako but she really needed to get the whole Minako business done for the sake of her own sanity. Makoto groaned and decided to go to shower and then home.
When she reached the showers she found a very nude couple making out on the floor while all the showers were on. Makoto sweatdropped and wasn't surprised it was once again Rei and Ami. She just wondered how Rei had persuaded the shy Ami to that kind of public show of emotions and..more.
''Don't let me bother.'' Makoto said and decided to go shower, she hadn't got all day to wait to get cleaned.
Rei and Ami were startled by Makoto's voice and broke their kiss but relaxed when noticing it was just Makoto.
''Ok.'' Rei said and continued working on Ami.
''Rei, wait! We can't when Mako-chan is here.'' Ami tried to protest.
''Don't let me bother.'' Makoto said a bit irritated.
''You heard her.'' Rei whispered huskily and pinned Ami on the floor.
''Rei-chan! It bothers me, please stop!'' Ami said more firmly.
''Oh fine! I guess we can wait until we get to my place.'' Rei said reluctantly.
''Thanks honey. I will make this up to you.'' Ami promised.
''You bet.'' Rei said smirking coyly.
Makoto closed her eyes and tried not to think two of her friends making love. She tried to concentrate on the hot water cascading over her exhausted body. Makoto sighed in relief when Rei and Ami stopped their ministrations and prepared to leave.
''Bye then, Mako-chan!'' Ami said and Rei just waved.
''Bye! See ya!'' Makoto answered and hoped they wouldn't start to do these kinds of things on regular basis in public places.
Once Makoto had showered she went to home and prepared to meet Minako. Once she had made the decision to tell Minako about her feelings and get it all over with, she started to feel a bit better. Sooner than she could have imagined, she found herself standing outside of Minako's house. Makoto took a deep breath and prepared herself for the challenge.
A/N: Please r&r
Chapter 2
2. Diffent ways of dealing with one's feelings: Minako Aino
Minako Aino was sitting on her bed, chewing her fingernails. Her parents would be gone for that weekend and she would be alone in the house. The thought made her nervous because she didn't want to be left alone with her thoughts. She couldn't see her friends either since it meant she would have to see her too. Makoto Kino. The girl who had become an obsession for Minako. She wouldn't left her mind alone and Minako couldn't understand why. Minako wasn't like that. Or was she?
Minako had tried all her might to forget Makoto but in vain. She had even started to avoid situations where she would be alone with Makoto. She had figured that doing so she could control and supress her emotions a bit that way. It didn't help that much, on the contrary it made her think about Makoto more. On the top of that Minako was sure that Makoto had noticed her odd behaviour, the way she always looked Minako, so worried.
Minako didn't know what to do about it all, she just couldn't banish nor forget her feelings towards the brunette. Minako had even tried a mass amount of dating which had just confirmed it was Makoto who she wanted. Who she craved for. She didn't want to tell anyone about her problem, they wouldn't understand. She remembered all their prejudiced speeches, which had though changed since they had met Haruka and Michiru but Minako hadn't forgotten them. She just didn't want to risk her friendships, those still were the rare real ones she had. She didn't want to confess her feelings for Makoto. Oh no. That girl was alway drooling over the ones who looked like her old sempai so there wasn't even chance that she would like or love Minako. She would just start to hate her in worst scenario or avoid her totally. She wanted at least Makoto's friendship. She needed it. Though Makoto was a bit quick-tempered, in the end Minako couldn't believe she would abandon her totally even if she told but she wouldn't tell.
Minako sighed and laid herself on the bed, staring at the ceiling. She thought about Makoto: her auburn hair, dark green eyes, muscular and firm body, perfect breasts, invating lips... A fantasy started to form in her head, just like many times before. Minako just couldn't stop thinking about it. In fact she didn't want to stop thinking about it. It was a fantasy about her and Makoto. It was always almost the same, only thing that changed was the place. This time it happened in her home:
'Minako hears a knock at the front door and goes to open it. It is Makoto in a sexy black top and stone-washed jeans.
''Hi, Mako chan! What brings you here?''
''I need to talk to you.'' Makoto answers.
''Sure thing. Come on in.''
Makoto walks in and Minako shuts the front door.
''So what do you want?'' Minako asks smiling at Makoto's back.
''You.'' Makoto whispers.
''Excuse me?'' Minako asks wide-eyed.
Makoto turns to face Minako and closes the distance between them quickly and pins Minako against the hallway wall.
''I want you.'' Makoto says huskily into Minako's ear.
Minako looks her surprised, a longing in her blue eyes. Makoto smiles a bit at Minako's reactions and keeps pinning her against the wall. Minako looks lustily Makoto's muscular arms, thinking all the things the brunette could do to her with them. Then Minako looks back to Makoto's eyes, barely containing her lust. Makoto grins as she sees Minako's lustful expression. Slowly she moves her head closer to Minako's. Minako can feel Makoto's cool breath against her lips. Makoto leans even closer, their lips almost touching. Minako's lust takes her over as she whispers: ''Yes. Please. Yes.''
Makoto's grin widens as she closes the distance between them, their lips meeting first gently then more demanding.Finally Minako feels Makoto's tongue tracing her lips, asking for entrance which Minako gives her more than willingly. Their tongues explore each others mouths a bit and then the fight for dominance begins. Minako moans and soon gives in, letting Makoto have her way with her tongue. Finally they break the kiss gasping for air. They look each others in the eyes, grinning widely.
Then Makoto starts to kiss a trail from Minako's jaw line to her throat using her teeth ever so lightly. Minako moans and whimpers to Makoto's ministrations. Makoto turns on even more by the noise Minako is making and starts to unbutton Minako's shirt slowly, tossing it on the floor once done. Makoto slides her hands across Minako's thigh and under her skirt. Minako gasps in surprise when Makoto's hand touches her most private area which is already soaking wet.
''You want me badly, eh? You want me to ravish you, eh?'' Makoto asks seducingly while holding Minako completely still, her hand still under Minako's skirt.
''Yes.'' Minako whimpers, her lust taking over.
''Then beg for it.'' Makoto says devilishly.
''Oh, Mako-chan. Please, take me. Ravish me, please. I'll do whatever you want, just fuck me with your strong hands.'' Minako whispers hastily.
Makoto lifts Minako over her shoulder and carries her to Minako's room and lays her on the bed. Minako pants hard, wanting Makoto to take her more than anything. Minako feels like she had lost the control over the situation and is enjoying it very much. Makoto takes off Minako's skirt. Minako is now in her bare underwear, looking a bit bewildered. Makoto looks up to Minako's eyes and pulls her underwear off too. Then she climbs back to Minako and says soothingly: ''Relax. I won't hurt you. You're going to enjoy this.''
Minako smiles as Makoto kisses her reassuringly and takes off her bra too before going back to her legs. Minako is holding her breath, excited. Slowly Makoto pushes Minako's legs apart and Minako lays waiting Makoto to --''
Minako's daydreaming was interrupted by a knock at the front door. She had lost the control over her naughty mind once again among the track of time; it was half past seven already. 'Who on Earth could it be at this time?' Minako thought irritated. 'Damn, just when I was getting to the good part..' she pouted. The knocking didn't cease for a moment.
''I'm coming!'' she yelled and practically jumped off the bed.
Minako ran to the downstairs and at the front door.
A/N: I've never written anything like this before, this was an odd experience. This is going to end in the next chapter, where well hidden obsession will be exposed, but what will be the reactions?
Chapter 3
3. Jupiter in the house of Venus
Minako opened the door quickly, without bothering to check who it was. 'Eek! It's her! Why is she here? Does she know? What I say to her? Help!!' Minako panicked as she recognized Makoto. Makoto was looking bewildered by the abrupt opening of the door and Minako tried to slam it shut. However, Makoto was faster and she grabbed the door, holding it open by force.
''Minako, please. Sorry I came this late but I need to talk to you.'' Makoto stated, trying to stay calm.
''Ok.'' Minako answered in colorless tone.
Minako sighed, she knew quite well that she had been avoiding Makoto and this was propably about it. 'You mow what you sow.' Minako thought tiredly while letting Makoto in. Makoto was relieved that she had gotten this far already. Once the door was closed she knew she wouldn't left the house before all this had been sorted out.
''Please, take a seat. I'll get us something to drink.'' Minako said, playing time.
''No, thank you. I didn't come here to drink, Mina-chan. I came here to talk to you.'' Makoto said as she took seat on the living room sofa.
Minako didn't reply, she just sat nervously across from Makoto. 'Is she here because of my behaviour or does she know?' Minako kept thinking over and over again. Finally she tried to calm down and waited Makoto to speak.
''I've noticed that something troubles you, Mina-chan.'', Minako shifted a bit uncomfortably as Makoto continued, ''You've been avoiding us, or at least being alone with me, for some weeks now. And when we and the girls meet you seem always so distant and like you are in a world of your own.'' Makoto tried to explain.
Minako just stared her, not able to say anything.
''So, what's up Mina-chan? You know that you can tell me anything.'' Makoto continued when Minako didn't reply.
Minako was quiet for a while and then started to laugh out loud.
''Don't be silly, Mako-chan. There's absolutely nothing wrong with me! You must have imagined it all!'' Minako said avoiding the subject like plague and stood up trying to end the conversation.
Makoto started to get really irritated; she should have guess that Minako would avoid talking about what ever it was that worried her.
''Dammit Minako! Tell me what's wrong, so I can help you! It's not healthy to keep everything bottled up!'' Makoto almost yelled and thought angrily: 'I should know that.'
''N-Nothing is wrong.'' Minako tried to stammer, she couldn't have guessed that Makoto of all people would meddle in other people's matters and she didn't know how to get out of this without telling anything.
''Don't lie to me! Have you any idea how much it hurts that you cannot trust me with whatever it is that is bothering you!?!'' Makoto said standing up and Minako took astep back, being a bit shaken by Makoto's outburst.
Makoto knew she had gone too far; she had no rights to talk Minako that way. She knew it was selfish because she just wanted to ease her own anxiety by telling Minako her secret. But she had kept it all bottled up too long and now the cap flew out no matter what.
Minako tried to say ''I-I-I--'' as Makoto moved closer and closer, forcing Minako to take a step back each time. This went on until Minako hit the living room wall, having no way to escape anymore.
''Now Mina-chan. Tell me what is wrong? Are you in trouble or do you simply hate me? Not wanting to see me anymore? If that's the case, just say it and I don't bother you ever again.'' Makoto said sternly.
Minako couldn't look Makoto in the eyes as she said firm ''No!''.
''Then tell me what the hell is wrong?'' Makoto asked, not giving up.
Minako gathered all her courage and blurted out ''I'm afraid!'', still not looking Makoto.
Makoto's eyes widened in shock. It couldn't be true. Her own friend, the person she loved, was afraid of her. It was just like before when she was younger and had no friends. Just like before when she was considered as a violent person who had no feelings. How could one of her closest friends think that way too? Had she been so wrong about Minako? It was too much, something in Makoto's head snapped. She hit the wall right next to Minako's head. Minako didn't move an inch, she just blinked in surprise. Had Makoto understood what she was trying to say?
''Oh yeah? You think I'm a brute like everyone else, eh? I will show you what I can do.'' Makoto groaned.
Minako didn't understand a word what Makoto was saying and she was certainly taken aback as Makoto grabbed her just below her arms and lifted her easily on the air against the wall.
''So, how much do you fear me now?'' she asked angrily.
'Okay, I think she misunderstood. Maybe I should have said it in some other way', Minako thought, 'Now she is hurt, damn me. I better try to explain myself.'
''No, no. Mako-chan, you misunderstood me. You're so incredibly strong but I would never be afraid of you just because of that. Never. You would never hurt your friends nor the ones weaker than you. Even now when you're angry with me, you're holding me gently and I couldn't feel safer.'' Minako tried to explain.
Makoto blushed at this and her expression softened.
''I'm sorry Minako. This was silly of me.'' she said while lowering Minako carefully back on the floor against the wall.
''Still...'', she continued while placing her arms both sides of Minako's head, ''...my questions is, what are you afraid of then, that makes you act the way you have acted?''
Minako bit her lip. She didn't want to tell her about her feelings, not like this when she had no way to escape. Makoto would never understand and would never return her feelings but this had gone too far and she had the right to know. It was up to Makoto whether or not she wanted to be her friend after Minako's confession.
''I-I'm afraid of my feelings...'', she began, ''...my feelings for you.''
Makoto gasped in surprise.
''I love you Mako-chan. I'm sorry. I hope you still want to be my friend.'' Minako said hunging her head down, tears running down her cheeks.
''Oh, Mina-chan, now I'm really angry...'' she heard Makoto saying, it was just like she had expected.
She hadn't expect though that Makoto would lift her chin gently and whisper while looking in her teary eyes ''Why do you think I was so obsessed about finding out what's wrong with you, if I wasn't in love with you as well?''.
It was Minako's turn to gasp in surprise. Then Makoto kissed her sweetly before she got the chance to say anything. Minako hadn't felt anything so wonderful before and she didn't care as long she had that moment. When they broke the kiss Minako said teasingly ''Now it's my turn to be angry with you, why you didn't tell me about your feelings?''
''Actually I had decided to tell you, but when you started to avoid me it didn't work out. So I decided to take care of your problem and when you were okay you could brake my heart and I could move on. Oh we're so silly. I'm so happy you feel the same way as I do..'' Makoto confessed shyly.
''Uh..it seems this mess is all my fault..how can I make it up to you?'' Minako said playfully.
''Hmm..maybe I figure out something.'' Makoto said and lifted the giggling Minako in her arms.
''You have no idea how long I have fantasising about this moment..'' Minako whispered.
''Well you don't have to fantasise anymore, I came to make it reality, babe.'' Makoto said softly as she carried Minako into her room, closing the door behind.
Judging by the voices that could be heard behind the closed door, it seemed that Makoto really had came to finish the fantasy Minako had started.
The end.
A/N: This story just came to me one day out of nowhere and it didn't go away before I put it on paper. I actually think this is a bit odd and I don't know how my subconscious made it, but here it is anyway (maybe I have some hidden aggressions and fantasies, hehe). I'm a fan of Makoto/Ami pairing, but this was a bit weird story and I didn't want to involve Ami-chan in this so I put Mina-chan instead, because I think she is the second best match for Mako-chan. Thank you all who bothered to read this. I hope you liked it. Please review.
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