Disclaimer: I do not own Revolutionary girl Utena or the song 'One more chance', I'm just borrowing them in this non-profitable work. The song 'One more chance' belongs to Madonna. Revolutionary girl Utena belongs to Chico Saito/J.C.STAFF studio. If any of those mentioned requests it, I shall remove this story.
A/N: This can be considered as a continuation for my songfic 'I shall find you again', or can be considered as an individual work set some time after the end of the anime Revolutionary girl Utena. Please read and review one more time.
Forgive me
''I turned around too late to see the fallen star
I fell asleep and never saw the sun go down
I took your love for granted
Thought luck was always on my side
I turned around too late and you were gone''
Anthy Himemiya stepped out of train, her long purple hair swaying slightly in the gentle wind. During these last months she had spent all her time searching for her lost love, Utena Tenjou. She had travelled through the land, visiting systematically cities after cities in attempt to find her love again, but until now she hadn't been successful in her mission. Anthy hadn't seen even a glimpse of Utena during the time she spent searching for her. She had lost almost all the hope of finding Utena, but when she had stepped out of the train in that new city she had gotten a weird feeling; it was as if she could feel Utena's presence.
Quickly Anthy hurried out of the train station and into the city, which looked like many other cities she had seen before it. It was desperate to try to find one person out of mass of thousands people but Anthy tended to spend several days, sometimes even weeks, in each city. She walked in the most crowded and popular places, describing Utena to passers-by. Until now no one had remembered seeing Utena. Anthy cursed herself for her stupidity; if she just hadn't been so blind and weak she could be with Utena right now instead of searching her almost in vain. For one moment the world had been in her hands and she had made the wrong choice. Still Utena had loved her till the end, but Anthy had lost her and she knew it all was her own fault. When she had left the Ohtori academy to search for her love, she had sworn she would turn every leaf and stone to find Utena. Anthy knew she couldn't, wouldn't give up the search until her dying day.
''I like to play the queen of hearts and never thought I'd lose
I rolled the dice but never showed my hand
I planned it out so perfectly
so you'd never leave a girl like me
I was a fool but now I understand''
Anthy walked down the main street, leading to the center of the city. The feeling she had kept increasing all the time, but she saw no one familiar as she gazed around. People hurried all around her doing their own business; going to work, school, shopping and such but none of the faces she saw were Utena. Desperation was starting to find its way into Anthy's mind, she had been so sure it would be the right city this time. She had just arrived but it had immediately felt like she would see Utena again at any minute.
After two hours of systematic searching Anthy decided to go into a café. She ordered a cup of black coffee and sat down at a window seat, so she could keep an eye of people walking past the café. What she was doing was crazy and she knew it quite perfectly. Even if she would find Utena, it wasn't certain she would want her after all that happened between them. She might be angry with her or hurt by what Anthy did to her. Anthy had no idea why Utena had disappeared. She might be dead for all she knew or she might have escaped to some place, wanting to leave everything behind for good. On the other hand Anthy felt in her heart that Utena was alive; she had a hole in her heart, but she was sure the only person who could fill that hole was still alive. And she didn't believe Utena wouldn't want her anymore or would hate her after everything, why would she would have done all that for Anthy if it was so? The reason for Utena's disappearing had to be something else, but for now she had no idea what it was. Maybe it was just the weird after effects of the final duel. Revolution.
''Here is the law of the land
You play with fire and you'll get burned
Here is the lesson I've learned
That you don't know what you've got til it's gone''
Frustrated Anthy exited the café and continued her search. She had the rest of her life to look for Utena, but every moment spent separated from her felt like a terrible waste of time. All the things they could do, all the emotions they could experience if they were together. Anthy wanted to scream away all the sick feelings she had but she couldn't. She knew she had deserved the punishment of being alone and afraid. After all, it was Anthy who betrayed Utena, not the other way around. Even after Anthy had stabbed Utena literally on the back Utena had wanted to safe her. She didn't deserve it. She wasn't worth it. Still Utena had stood up with her last strength and tried to free Anthy, which she had actually done in the end. She had freed the people and especially the duellists from their insane desire to revolutionise the world. Anthy believed no one could bring the revolution to a person if he or she didn't want it. It had to be accepted by their own free will. Utena's free will to safe Anthy. Anthy's free will to reach for the offered hand and to be saved by Utena. Ohtori academy student's free will to continue living a normal life, wanting to forget all the scary events that had taken place.
Anthy's thoughts were interrupted by someone's solid form in which Anthy had bumped into. Quickly she mumbled an apology to the man and turned to walk briskly in the opposite way. Anthy lifted her gaze from the cobblestone street and looked at her surroundings. Suddenly she saw something familiar flashing at the corner of her vision. Quickly she turned her head to her left and saw a pink haired woman walking down a street leading out of the city's center. Anthy frowned not believing it could really be the love of her life. She tried to shout but nothing came out of her mouth as she was petrified by the moment. Then the other person turned to look at her side and Anthy saw her profile. Anthy gasped as she stared at her intently. It really was Utena; there was no mistake. Anthy's heart started to beat faster than it had ever beat and she was sure it would burst out of her chest any minute as she sprang after the figure who was disappearing into the crowd.
''Gimme one more chance
Tell me it's not too late
Let me win your love
Darlin', please don't hesitate
If you care for me, be there for me''
''Miss Utena! Please wait! Utena!'' Anthy shouted and ran across the street but the other person didn't stop.
When Anthy had managed to get over the street the other person had continued her way towards a park located in the suburbia of the city. Anthy kept running after her and just when the other person stepped into the path going through the park Anthy managed to reach her.
''Please miss, wait!'' Anthy started and grabbed the woman's hand.
The other person was startled by this and tried to break free.
''Utena! It's me! Finally I found you!'' Anthy stated excited.
''I'm sorry miss, but I think you have mistaken me for someone else.'' the young woman answered in colorless tone and continued walking.
Anthy looked after her disappointed. She was sure it was Utena, no one could forget or mistake those deep blue eyes and bright pink hair. She just had no idea why Utena had acted that way, as if she didn't know her. Maybe Utena was angry with her after all and hadn't yet forgiven her betrayal and doubt. Anthy shook her head stubbornly because it made no sense. Anthy was confused, but her second chance was there and then and she had no intention of letting it slip by.
''Utena, it's me! Anthy! Don't you remember me?'' Anthy asked, grabbing the woman's arm again, forcing her to face her.
''Miss, really! I already told you I don't know you. Please leave me alone.'' The pink haired woman stated, trying again to break free from her grasp.
''If you have forgotten me, maybe you need a little reminder.'' Anthy said huskily, putting her right hand behind the other person's neck, pulling her closer and finally claiming the other woman's lips into sweet and lingering kiss.
''So give me one more chance
Darlin' if you care for me
Let me win your love
'Cause you were always there for me
If you care for me, be there for me''
For Anthy's surprise Utena didn't try to break free from the contact. First she stiffened but suddenly she just deepened the kiss and plunged her tongue into Anthy's mouth, exploring her eagerly. Anthy was out of breath when they finally broke the kiss and Utena looked very confused for a moment before she seemed to come back into her senses and then she just look shaken.
''Oh-my-kami!! Himemiya! Is that really you?!'' Utena yelled.
''Yes, it's me Utena. Do you remember me now and more importantly are you alright?''
''Yes. Yes I remember you and I don't understand how I could have ever forget..the Ohtori academy.. it's students and most importantly you.. I'm so sorry. Are you really there?'' Utena rambled and touched Anthy's cheek slightly to make sure she didn't hallucinate.
''Yes I am and I'm not going anywhere unless you want me to. You have no need to be sorry. I'm the one who should be apologizing. Please forgive me and give me another chance to make it all up to you.'' Anthy pleaded.
''Oh, Anthy. I already gave you another chance when I came after you in that final duel. And you took the chance as you reached for my hand. We just lost each other's for a moment but now we have found each other's again. Or more precisely you found me.'' Utena mumbled with touched voice and still not believing it all was real.
''Please, say it. I cannot live until you say it. That you forgive me.'' Anthy said clinging onto Utena's blue jacket.
''Oh dear Himemiya.. I forgive you.'' Utena mumbled and dried a tear running down Anthy's cheek.
''Thank you.. Do you believe I love you?'' Anthy asked still very nervous.
''Of course and I love you too. I don't think you could have found me otherwise.''
''Do you still want to be with me.. I mean I understand if you don't after all th-''
''Hush.. No more that. Of course I want to be with you. I'm still angry at myself how I could forget you after all we've been through but now you're here and it is all that matters, ne?'' Utena declared and took Anthy into her arms, ignoring successfully all the looks they were receiving from people walking past them.
They kissed again, pouring all the passion, want, longing and yearning they had experienced into that one kiss.
''What do we do now?'' Anthy asked as they finally broke apart.
''Hmm.. Would you liked to see my apartment. There's a fine view..''
''I believe that and I'd love to see your apartment.''
''It's settled then.'' Utena stated smirking unashamedly and more freely she or Anthy could have never been in their past life.
Luckily past was past and future was ahead as Utena took Anthy's hand on her own and lead them to their second chance with each other. A new life was ahead of them both and they both vowed in their minds never taking the other one for granted and always seizing the moment because tomorrow was light year's away and mere seconds were enough to turn everything upside down. Utena squeezed Anthy's hand more firmly to be sure she was really there. Anthy turned her head to look Utena into her eyes and smiled at her reassuringly. Utena was sure there was nothing cuter than the smiling face of Anthy Himemiya.
''Give me one more chance''
-THE END-
A/N: This was probably the last one of my Anthy/Utena songfics. I hope you have liked them and thank you for reading. The idea behind these were to describe their feelings in the first two songfics and then write a continuation for both anime and the movie in the last two. I selected the songs because the lyrics matched almost perfectly with my thoughts about what I was going to write, and I was also glad I could keep the songs coming from just two artists; it's makes them feel more connected though in a way all of them could be considered as individual stories. Anyway I had fun in writing these, but I probably won't write more Utena songfics, it actually depends on whether or not I get Revolutionary Girl Utena manga in my hands and it doesn't seem very likely right now (In order to get it I would have to travel all the way to the capital of my country (because I don't know any other city where I could find it for sure) and I'm too lazy for that. Or I would have to order it somewhere and pay myself sick (I don't even have a credit card so I can't pay for it, hahaha) and I'm too stingy for that anyway, hehe kidding. Time will tell when I'll go to that city again so maybe I'll get it someday). I'm not quite sure if I'll write normal stories about the anime or movie meanwhile, but anyway see you around! ;)
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