Story: Girls of Haven: Rites of passage (chapter 12)

The boat with Tabby and Lori was now on the water, exiting the Lagoon that was Cashmere Island’s entrance. The two were oddly quiet, as the mist off the ocean felt refreshing on their faces.

Lori sat next to Tabitha, who was piloting the boat skillfully through the water. Lori just took one last look at the island she was leaving, then turned back to watch the ride back. She was having mixed feelings with leaving Cashmere Island, but she did not understand why.

Looking over at the now stoic Tabitha, Lori was wondering just what her friend would reveal to her, and why did she have this seemingly deep rooted hatred towards Pasha. It did not make sense to her, but something told her the girl did have her reasons. Pasha seemed alright, yet Lori had to admit that she had flashes of something rather dark through the facade she exhibited.

Through that and everything, Lori needed to hear the girl out knowing that Tabby was not a person to be against anyone like this.

They soon were boating parallel to the shore, but it seemed to be taking a long time to get back to the estate. Lori looked around, trying to pinpoint just where they were and how long it might take to get there. It seemed to her that they were not going in the direction needed to get back.

Into a small opening for a river, Tabitha turns the boat into it. She just looked at Lori, asa they went upstream.

" I would like a place where we can talk away from everyone." She said. I know a out-of-the way spot, where we are far from people, where I often have gone to have time to think alone."

Lori nodded and watched Tabby do her thing. She trusted the girl fully, and just watched the girl go upstream. What ever it was, she knew it was serious. The girl usually was as outgoing as anyone she had ever met.

After a while of going up the small river, Tabby brought the boat up into a shallow spot at the shore, almost two miles from the mouth of the small river. The dark colored rocks were smooth and flat where they jutted up right out of the water, forming almost a naturally made dock. The waters were deep enough for the boat to sit in, and safe enough that no damage could be done.

Tabby leaped out of the boat and tied off the mooring rope to a large cylindrical rock that jutted out of the ground just on shore and then waved to Lori.

" This is it." She said. " Let’s sit under that tree, where the grass patch is... too hot to sit anywhere else."

The girl walked in the direction of the tree, and Lori followed. The blonde girl noted just how secluded this part of the river was, as there were no signs of any buildings within eye shot of them.

Lori took a seat on her knees on the longish grass at the base of this tall tree, while Tabby leaned herself up against the huge trunk. She looked at Lori for a long few moments, the look on her face showed the many thoughts that were thrashing through her head at that moment.

" You probably have a few questions, don’t you?" She said, giving a smile of nervousness.

" I do have just a few..." Half giggled Lori, feeling the girl’s nerves.

" You start asking then, so I can get myself started..." Tabby said, her face showing the extent of her anxiety. " It would make it easier for all, I guess."

Lori thought on it for a moment. What would be her first question she could pose to Tabitha? She hit on the direct one, just like Tabitha would do herself if the roles were switched around.

" I would ask you why you showed up to get me like you did..." Lori said, then continuing. " The most obvious one that will yield the most information is why do you hate Pasha?"

Tabitha looked at her friend and smiled with great mirth.

" You do have a direct side, don’t you?" She quipped

" It comes out when needed, I guess." Smirked Lori.

" Obviously you have hung around Megan way too much." Tabby said, the give a long sigh. " That question will get you answers."

The girl paused for a moment, as if collecting herself. Lori just waited.

" For one, she was my first girl lover.. And my first lover at the same time." She said.

" Your first love?"

" Yeah... my first... until I found her in bed with two of her maids that happened to be tied to the headboard with chains and stuff." Tabby revealed.

" And you thought you were the only girl in her life at that time... didn’t you?" Questioned Lori.

" I know it was silly of me to... yeah. I did not even know that she was into those sexual things. She admitted that all the way through, I was not her only ‘toy’, as she put it..." Nodded the girl. " then I found out something from her.. Something that made me her virtual sex toy for quite awhile in that same sick way as the maids. Between the humiliation factor and this information, had kept me quiet until today."

Lori raised her eyebrows. This was shocking, and not just about Pasha and her enjoyment for rough sex, this girl had been duped and hurt by it all. Tabby was a very strong willed person, and this revealing thing from her past, the rest of it must be big, The blond girl said to herself.

" So... What was it then?"

Tabitha’s eyes welled up a little, her face was drawn and blank. It seemed to take everything she had to begin.

" I am the product to my mother having an affair long ago..." She slowly said, her words forced out.

" An affair?" Echoed Lori. " That is a bad thing, but why could she use this secret over you..."

The brown haired tomboyish girl locked her eyes right on to Lori, as she stopped the tears for a second or two.

" It’s who my mother had affair with that she could hang it over me like a huge weight ready to drop..." She said, tearing up more. The light brown haired girl seemed to be shaking at that point " It would destroy my family, hurt both of my parents and make our status in our community almost nil!"

Lori reached out and took the girl’s hand. She nodded, reassuring Tabitha that she was staying right where she was.

" Take your time... I will wait, if this is something you want me to still know." The blonde girl said with a smooth tone.

" My mother had an affair with... " Started Tabitha, looking at the blonde haired girl beside her. " ... Her father."

Lori gasped and just stared at Tabby. The simple one sentence explanation slapped her hard, and she had found herself for a split second unable to speak. She shook her head a little and looked at her friend.

" Your Pasha’s step sister?" Lori asked, more out of shock than anything

" Unfortunately, that is the dark hidden truth!" Tabby said, brushing her shaggy mop of light brown hair out of her face.

Tabitha give a shuttering sigh, her head bowed.

" Pasha knows that my Mom and her Father made me, She admitted to finding every single letter they exchanged through out their love affair, and that is how Pasha found it out." She began as the emotions flew out of her. " She also knows if my father would ever have found out that I was not his... it will devastate him. He’s a tough as fucking nails in the business world, but he has a soft heart outside of that. He might be able to handle how the others thought of it, but I know my father... personally, it would simply crush his spirit."

" So she has used this knowledge of this to get you in her bed again back when..." Figured out Lori. " And now, she is using this again...Threatening to reveal this, all to keep your mouth shut so she can try and get me in bed?"

" Short answer: Yes! She enjoys being in control." She spat. " I had to play along, telling you nothing about her being the ‘she-eater’ she is. I thankfully have realized that I could not let her use you, like she did to me and so many others. She has tricked lesbians and non-lesbians alike into her own perverse and kinky ways, and then moved on without any thought that they might be hurt by her cold and self-serving ways."

" Would she use this stuff still against you?"

" As perverted as she is... I say yes, to the extreme." Said Tabby flatly.

Lori batted her eyes, as parts of the girl’s words hit hard.

" More perverse than what you said already?"

" You really don’t want to know the entire shit she made me do... I just could not let her get her clutches on you." Tabby said. " Sorry I did not have the courage to tell you right off... although I am glad nothing happened... that part I would not have believed other than when it came from you."

Lori wrapped her arms around the larger girl.

" I understand... it’s ok." She whispered, soothingly. " You came through when it was needed to. That... is a good friend."

Tabby let go of the small lass, and looked at her squarely. She nodded, telling Lori that she heard her words.

" Thank you." She said.

" To don’t have to thank me... It is thanks enough that you were trusting me like this." Lori sighed, then asked. " Have you told this to Yvonne already."

Tabby stopped for a second, as if hesitant to reply to the directness of this question.

" Some... but not fully... never got myself in a place to explain it all."

" Then why me?"

You know..." Said Tabby, her mind seemingly whirling with thought. " I don’t have a clue why."

Both girls just looked at one another. What ever was going on in their heads was not evident, but it seemed that they both had much to wrap their minds around.

The two girls sat for awhile more, talking about different things unrelated to the situation that had passed until they decided to head back to the estate. They got back into the boat and made the more than half hour trip from where they were back to the quiet comforts of Regan Estate.

They were back at the estate only for a few minutes and mooring up the boat when the Butler came out to the edge of the dock. From the somber look in the man’s eyes, both girls had noted a sense of something was not right. They had no clue, but the feeling was strong.

The man came over, and looked at Tabby.

" Mistress Tabitha..." He said, pausing for a moment. Her held out a folded piece of paper, which was shaking despite no real breeze evident. " Miss Yvonne instructed me to give you this."

" What is it?" Tabitha asked, her voice wavering. " Answer me!"

" I do not know what it contains, Ma’am, but she gave it to me as she was getting into a cab."

" A cab?" She stammered.

" Yes, Mistress Tabitha... about a hour or so ago.... with all of her luggage she had with her."

Tabitha took a deep breath, and took the paper. The man turned and left quickly. Lori stood there waiting, but having a sense of what was happening while the girl read the paper.

" She’s left me... she had came to check on me at the pool, I was gone. She thinks it’s over, as I never opened up to her... that is all it said." She looked at Lori. " Help me... I just got a ‘Dear Jane’ letter."

The girl sank to her knees on the deck, her tears now flowing. Lori squatted down and just held the girl. She did not know what the girl was feeling right then and there, but she only knew that there was pain.