Story: The Love Letter Lovelies (chapter 17)

Authors: Glee-chan

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Chapter 17

[Author's notes: Warning: This chapter contains swearing.]

he Love Letter Lovelies

by Glee-chan

17.

Soft lips pressed against her forehead and with that Shiho opened her eyes sleepily. Her vision was blurry, not just because of her waking up, but because she didn't have her glasses on. But even with obscured vision, she could tell who the kisser was. Sora. A tired smile rose to her lips as she saw the pretty girl standing above her. Then all at once she wondered why she was up so early.

"I have to go now." Sora whispered, as if she read her mind. "I have a long walk ahead of me."

"Oh…" Shiho blinked and pushed herself up into a sitting position.

"You don't have to get up… I'll see myself out."

"Wait." Shiho yawned and reached for her glasses. "You can borrow my brother's bicycle."

"I really shouldn't. I don't know when I'd be able to return it."

"It's okay." Shiho crawled out of bed. She forgot she wasn't wearing any pajama pants. She looked around for them. "He bought a moped last summer, so the bike is practically mine."

Handing Shiho her pants Sora smiled her crooked grin at her. "How is it that you are so cute in the morning?"

"Am I?" Shiho rubbed the back of her head. "I bet I look awful. Let me get dressed and I'll see you out."

Since the bicycle was taking away Sora's travel time, Shiho was allowed to spend precious more minutes with the girl. As she prepared, Sora watched her with that same greedy look she got into her eyes when she got aroused. The night before that flame was there as well, and to Shiho's surprised Sora somehow controlled herself. But just barely. At one point of the night Sora flat out said they had to stop kissing or she would "slam you into the wall and eat your pussy so hard you'll piss yourself". Shiho respected her wishes.

But once Sora calmed down, she always returned to her sweet self. And when she slept Shiho discovered another aspect to her personality: she talked in her sleep. Shiho stayed up far later than she should have listening to Sora's incoherent ramblings. Most of them were noises, every now and then a stray word, but sometimes she says full sentences, which made Shiho wish she could see what the other was dreaming about. Somewhere in Sora's dreams the night before she dreamt of merry-go-rounds, cheesecake, and a strip club… or at least that's what it sounded like.

"Next time we're together you get to be the naked one." Sora sighed when Shiho finished changing.

"Will that be alright?" Shiho asked. "I was proud of how well you composed yourself, but I was fully clothed."

Sora laughed. "You're probably right, but I think it's just an excuse to see me naked more."

"Maybe." Shiho blushed then took a serious look. "I'll get there soon, Sora-chan. Just give me some time. I'm a bit scared of my first time."

Walking over to her, Sora hugged her. "I know. I'm doing my best to hold off my urges. Last thing I want is to chase you away again."

Not having much time left, the two walked upstairs and into restaurant. Her Father and Mother were already up preparing for the morning crowd. They watched as both of them walked through to the outside, and by the looks on their faces Shiho knew she was going to get grilled for information when she returned inside. Allowing Sora to borrow the bicycle she gave her a goodbye kiss on the cheek.

"If I take off my top, could I get a proper kiss?" Sora teased. Shiho slapped the back of her head then pushed the bike onto the pavement. Laughing Sora road off waved goodbye.

Feeling light as a feather she watched her go until she couldn't see her anymore, then she returned inside the shop. Standing by the door with a white face was her Mother. Shiho felt as if a rock dropped in her stomach. Her Mother had seen the kiss. Avoiding her eye, she retreated further into the restaurant heading for the storage room.

"Hold it, young lady." Her Father stopped her. "Who was just just now?"

"A friend." Shiho lied. It sounded like one. She was awful when it came to lying to her parents.

"Darling, I saw what you did just now." Her Mother said in a soft voice. That apparently was the wrong thing to say.

"What? What did she do?" Her Father demanded. Having no choice, Shiho's Mother explained what she saw. Her Father rounded on her. "You bring this girl over and spend the night with her, then go out and kiss her goodbye? Do you have an explanation?"

"It's complicated." Shiho stammered. The morning had started off so great, and now she was being faced with the Gestapo pressing her for allied secrets.

"Just tell us the truth." Her Mother tried to have a calmness to her voice, but there was an edge there. "We need to know."

Looking down at her legs, Shiho felt cornered. But then again the whole school knew about her. All her friends were lesbians. Was it wrong that the only people who didn't know about her true self was her parents? Would they be able to understand? How would they react?

"Mom…Dad…. That girl is my girlfriend." Shiho spoke softer than she wanted. Technically Sora wasn't her girlfriend just yet, but for the purposes of this conversation it didn't hurt to exaggerate. If things were going to continue like they were it wouldn't be long before Sora was officially her girlfriend anyway.

"Your girlfriend?" Her Father voice boomed. "Bullshit. My daughter is not one of those types!"

"What do you mean 'those types'? I'm not some kind of freak, Dad!" Shiho's famous anger was starting to replace her meekness. If there was one thing that got to her it was being looked down upon.

"You're not, are you? Then you think kissing some girl in the middle of the street is normal?"

"It wasn't like that. You make it sound like I was ripping off her clothes."

"No, you only do that under MY roof! Well no more!"

Shiho's Mother reached her hand out to silence her Father but Shiho had inherited her anger from the man and there was no stopping him now.

"You're not allowed to see that girl again!" Shiho's Father went on. "And this little phase of yours is over!"

"It's not a phase, Dad!" Shiho lowered her eyebrows. "I've liked girls since Middle School."

"Bullshit!" Her Father screamed again. "Bullshit! I know for a fact you went out with boys. I even chased one down the street once."

Shiho remembered that little incident. After that none of the boy in her class would go near her. "Dad, I only went out with those guys because I thought that's what I was supposed to do. You know because I'm a girl, and all my friends were doing it. I never liked those guys. I just wanted to fit in."

"And what about now? You're certainly not fitting in when you date someone like that."

"You don't even know her."

"I don't need too. You're involved in an immoral sickness!" Her Father screamed. Shiho's anger was starting to be replaced by deep and utter sadness. Her Father turned to her Mother. "Say something, Itsuki!"

Shiho looked at her Mother, hoping she would at understand. She looked from her daughter to her husband as if conflicted in her loyalties. "Shiho-chan… I always suspected… but you have to give that life style up. You'll never be able to get married and have children with a woman."

And her heart officially broke. "Mom…"

"You heard her. It's for the best." Her Father went on. "Marrying up is the only way out of this squaller. Do you think we want you live like we have? We want a better life for you. This debauchery is not the way."

"It's not debauchery, Dad." Shiho spoke with bitterness. Her parents hated her. "It's who I am. Before her I liked another girl… and before that I like others. It's not something I decided to do just because it was popular. Do you think it's easy liking girls? It's not!"

"Then it should be easy giving it up."

"You're asking me to stop being me!" Shiho stamped her foot, screaming for the first time..

"Don't you raise your voice at me." Her Father quickly rounded on her. "This isn't you. I know who my daughter is."

"No you don't! You don't know me at all. I never see you, I live in a basement!"

"You won't even live there if you continue to act like this." Her Father shouted in anger. "You ungrateful little-"

But Shiho had enough. "You hate me that much? You really want to kick me out for this?"

"If you see that girl again, then yes. You're out of here."

"Why wait? I'll be out of your hair in few minutes." Shiho walked passed him and into the storage room. She picked up an empty box and stomped down to the basement. Her parents were following her.

"Stop acting like a brat." Her Father was screaming at her.

"You're telling me to pretend to be someone else. How am I over reacting? Tell me?"

"That mouth of yours is pissing me off!" Her father tried to grab the box away from her. "Stop this nonsense! Where are you going to go? A High School girl with no job, who also whores around with women. No one will accept you!"

"I don't whore around!"

"Kissing on the street in front of MY restaurant is the equivalent!"

Shiho threw the box down. "If I kissed a boy, it wouldn't be a problem would it?"

"Of course not!"

"Then why does it matter if it's a girl?"

"It matters!" Her Father shouted. "You change that attitude right now! I will not be lectured by my own daughter. This fooling around with girls business is over!"

"It's not over." Shiho lashed out. "It'll never be over. I want the whole neighborhood to see her to ravage me in front of the restaurant just to make you angry!"

He slapped her. It was so hard her glasses flew off and landed on her bed while she herself spun to the ground. Shiho grabbed her cheek. Despite herself a tear came out of her eye. She didn't want to look weak in front of her Father at that moment, but she couldn't help it. That slap hurt her emotionally more than it did physically.

"I want you out of his house!" Her Father bellowed. Shiho's Mother reached over comfort her daughter, but he pulled her away. "Once you learn there is no life in this sick gay path you've taken you can come back. But right now you're not even my daughter!"

"Kenta, no!" Her Mother broke into tears. "You can't kick her out. Where will she go?"

"Exactly. Some cold reality will teach her." He kicked the box to Shiho feet. "Fill this up and get out."

He left the basement. Her Mother stayed standing where she was, looking as if she were inches from having a break down. Shiho stared at the box. She had picked it up in anger, but didn't actually believe she was going anywhere. She never seriously considered that her Father would actually kick her out. But those things he said to her. She disgusted him. She had lashed out horrible things to him in anger but…

"I-I'll help you pack." Her Mother spoke with a shaking voice.

"Not you too, Mom." Shiho whimpered. "I can't handle if it's you too."

"I don't want to, Darling… but maybe this will set you straight." She gave a caring smile. It might as well have been a mocking laugh.

Standing up, Shiho went to the bed and placed back on her glasses, thankfully they were unharmed. Then she returned to the box and picked that up as well. "I'll pack on my own. I don't want you to catch my gayness, Mom."

"Don't talk like that, I'm trying to help." Her Mother had tears in her eyes. "Your Dad is being a bit extreme… but… but he's right you know? So just spend the night at a friends house, then come back tomorrow and… and pretend to be normal. We can figure out the rest later."

"Mom… I am normal." Shiho spoke in a weak voice. "Acting like how Dad wants me too wouldn't let be be who I am."

"Shiho-chan." Her Mother sniffed. "Is that girl really worth it? Is she worth giving up your whole life too?"

"I don't know." Shiho looked down at the box. "I don't know if I even love her yet. But even if I were single it's who I am. I'm not trying to make some big statement, but if you can't accept me then I guess I have no choice but to leave."

"No!" Her Mother cried. "No no no!"

"I'm sorry Mom. I'm sorry I disappointed you as a daughter."

"I'm sorry too."

Shiho felt her legs quiver. She wanted her Mother to say 'I not disappointed, I love you.' but she didn't. She agreed with her. "L-Let me pack my things alone, please."

Her Mother didn't say a word. She left. She didn't touch her shoulder, she didn't say goodbye. She just left the room. Shiho looked at it. Somehow the room that had been her home for so long looked like a stranger's place. Her parents didn't understand her, they hated her.

Swallowing, not wanting to cry anymore, Shiho carefully packed the box. It wasn't that big of a box, so she only packed her school things, her best outfits, underwear, and the essentials. There was still so much more… but she couldn't fit it in. She unpacked it and repacked the box several times before she decided she just had to live with her decision and just go.

Walking up the stairs out of the basement, she left through the back door. She didn't want to see her parents watch her leave. She didn't want to say goodbye. They were dead to her. At least that's what she wanted to feel. She wanted to hate them. It would be easier that way. But she couldn't. Even in her sadness, her rage, her desperation… she couldn't hate them.

"Where will I go…" Shiho mumbled, lifting the heavy box so it rested on her shoulder. "I have no where to go…"

[End notes: This coming out story for Shiho didn't happen to me (I'll write about that later), it happened to an ex-gf of mine Jenny. I was at her house when her father caught on and well... it sorta went along the same lines as this. Jenny ended up staying at my place for about a year until we broke up.]

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