Story: But I'm A Girl (chapter 3)

Authors: Glee-chan

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Chapter 3

3.

"What do you mean, 'you're a girl'? I don't get it."

I finally said it. Miyu let go of my hand when I told her so she could cover her mouth which was open in shock. I wanted to run away. I can't believe I let this go on for this long, this is all my fault.

"I didn't mean to trick you… but I couldn't figure out a way to tell you."

Pathetic excuse. I knew she was going to cry or slap me or… I don't know, run away and scream that she hated me. What would I do if it were me?

"I… I guess you did try and tell me."

A surprise response. I didn't expect that. "Miyu-chan, I-" But I didn't have anything to say to that and her name lingered in the air.

"I must look really stupid now."

"No you don't."

"How can I not?" Miyu's bottom lip quivered. Why was I noticing her bottom lip? "Are you sure you're a girl?"

"I can prove it to you if you don't believe me." I said mainly out of sarcasm.

"Okay."

Again, I didn't expect that. Now I was nervous. In sarcasm I was meaning I'd strip naked and show her the evidence, but that was just a joke. There's no way I'd do that for real. Maybe she'd be satisfied if I let her touch my chest… or what little there was of that. Since we were in a public park I wasn't too keen on having a girl grope me in front of everyone.

"C'mon."

I pulled her hand and lead her to an area that was largely secluded and filled with big trees. I took her behind one, and suddenly felt a wave of nerves. Was I really going to do this. Miyu looked expecting. I bit the bottom of my lip and pulled Miyu's hand up my shirt and let her feel my bra. I couldn't look her in the eyes as I felt her hand first cup my breast then squeeze it to make sure. Then she withdrew her hand.

Silence. Dead, cold, awkward silence. I wanted to die. Miyu probably wanted the same thing.

"You really are a girl, aren't you?"

"Yeah."

"It's kinda hard to fake that…" Miyu went on. "Unless…"

"C'mon, I know it's not much, but they're real." I blustered out embarrassed.

Miyu lowered her eyebrows. "I should have known. You're too pretty to be a boy. I'm such a moron."

"Well if you're a moron then everyone else who asked me out is one too." I shot out.

"Why do you dress like this?" Miyu demanded.

"I wasn't trying to fool anyone. I just dress like this 'cause it's comfortable. But it started to become a problem. I decided that when school break happened, I'd go and buy some proper girls clothes. But… well…"

"Yeah." Miyu nodded. "I guess I understand now."

"I'm sorry."

"There's one thing I don't get. Why did you say you'd go on a date with me?"

I didn't really know how to answer that. So I just decided I'd be honest.

"I didn't want to make you sad… after you gathered up all your courage to confess to me."

Miyu turned away for a moment. I didn't know if she was mad or not. But I was glad the truth was finally out there. I just hoped she wasn't the vengeful type and start spreading rumors about me. What a mess.

"You're a nice person afterall." Miyu sighed and leaded her back against the tree. Then, once again she caught me off guard. "Have you ever dated a girl before?"

"No." I quickly said. "I'm straight."

"Are you?" Miyu was looking at me with those soul piercing eyes again. "I used to go to an all-girl high school, you know. Girl's love isn't foreign to me. I'm not offended by that sort of thing."

"I've never gone out with a girl before." I restated. Of course I've never gone out proper with a boy either, but that was besides the point. I'm in uni now, that's too embarrassing to admit.

"You know… you were way nicer to me than you needed to be. You could have just took me out and left it at that. But you were sweet and complimented me… called me pretty."

I wondered if Miyu wanted me to be that way so she'd feel better about herself for mistaking me as a boy. That way she could hate me for using her innocence. But I didn't want her to hate me or start stories about how I was some enemy of women.

"So I'm not allowed to be nice? The date seemed important to you, and I wanted to give you a nice memory. Besides, complimenting a girl when you're a girl isn't flirting."

"Really?"

"If you knew I was a girl from the beginning, me saying you look pretty wouldn't bother you." I pouted slightly. I could literally feel my lower jut out. "And so what, you do look pretty, it's not a crime to point that out."

Miyu didn't say anything for the longest time. "Are you sure you're not gay?"

"I told you I wasn't."

The silence was killing me. Because I couldn't take it, I looked out into the sky. The sun was starting to set. I couldn't admire it's beauty, I was too flustered. Now what? Miyu basically held all the cards and pretty much decided the rest of her school life from now on. Was she vindictive?

"So…" Miyu finally said something. "…can I just pretend you're a boy and can we finish our date?"

"Huh?"

"You were right about the date being important to me. It took a lot for me to ask you out. So I seems wrong just to end it like this. I mean… we went this far, right?"

"Alright?"

I wish I could say I understood, but I didn't. Even if she said that, everything was out in the open and it wouldn't be the same. Regardless, Miyu slipped her hand into mine and faced the sunset along with me. We didn't say anything, just watched as the sky's hues changed colors. She leaned her head against mine affectionately and it was all I could do not freak out. Part of me liked it, the other part was a mass of confusion.

"Could you walk me to the bus stop?" Miyu asked once the sun slipped behind the horizon. "I've never been out this late before and I'm a bit scared."

"Alright."

Miyu giggled.

"What?"

"I guess I can't pretend you're a boy anymore. I feel so silly for not seeing it."

We walked out of the park. Even though she said that, she still clung to my arm. She probably was just scared. We talked little on our way to the bus stop. I mind was filled with so much fragmented thoughts it was just chaos. There was no cohesive thought to be had. When we arrived at the station, we waited for the bus.

"Akira-kun-" Miyu started, but then corrected herself. "Akira-chan I mean… Thank you for the date. It really meant a lot to me, even if it turned out a bit weird."

"Yeah." I didn't know what else to add. It did turn out weird. "I'm sorry I didn't say anything before."

Miyu shook her head. "Don't worry about it."

She looked like she wanted to say something more but she didn't. I didn't want to pry. The only thing I wanted to know is if her opinion of the day would change when she got home. That could be bad for me. Then out of no where she giggled.

"What is it?"

"I got to second base with you, and we didn't even kiss."

"Huh?"

"Earlier in the park…" Miyu elaborated and pantomimed squeezing my boob.

"Oh! Uh, yeah that happened."

"You're embarrassed!"

"Not really."

"You are too." Miyu giggled again. "Was it the first time someone's done that to you?"

I didn't answer, I guess the look on my face told the story.

"I'm your first then. It's payback for not telling me sooner." Miyu winked, speaking in a playful voice. This really did sound like a manga.

"Story of my life. Skipping first base and being groped by a girl. I guess I deserved that."

"So you never did have a boy friend then?"

She didn't have to rub it in, but I nodded never the less.

"Me either. I guess we're both losers."

"You're not a loser. You're so pretty you can be with anyone." I told her without thinking.

"I'll never work up the courage to ask someone else out. Look at my track record. Knowing my luck it'll be another girl. Maybe not one as nice as you. She'll start spreading stories around and everything."

I wondered if she was worried that I would be the one to tell people about what happened. As far as I was concerned she had the upper hand and could be the one saying I tricked her.

"Let's make a deal and promise not the tell anyone what happened."

Miyu must of not been listening. She was looking down the street at the bus arriving. People were starting to form behind us as well. I felt suddenly awkward. What would happen now once we separated. Would we pretend and not know each other or would my life be changed with everything thinking I was some cross-dressing pervert?

"Well this is goodbye for now." Miyu interrupted my thoughts, as her train pulled up.

"Ah, yeah. Take care of yourself."

Miyu turned to go, but stopped for a second, then turned around. As quick as lightning she pressed her lips to mine. I don't know why, but I didn't stop her. The world seemed to stop and she seemed to be attached to me forever. Then the world restarted and she was on the bus, waving at me as it sped out of site. What the hell just happened?

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