Story: say it already... (chapter 4)

      I clicked my tongue staring irritably out the window. I had been waiting at the restraint for nearly a half hour. Usually Fionna would never let me down by being so late and so the fact that she was this time created nerves in the pit of my belly. I waved off a waiter smiling fakely at him coming over and asking me if I were ready. I brushed some hair from my face and leant on the table. To make things worse Fionna had been avoiding me a lot lately. Together for five years and all of a sudden out of nowhere Fionna starts acting strange. Almost distancing herself. I looked up and gasped as I saw her now she walked forward rigidly. Her face had a smile on her face as she brushed some hair from her face.
      "Hey, Sammie. Sorry I was late."
      Her voice was laced with nerves that set my heart racing. Fionna came and sat down at the table and I reached across to hold her hand with what I wished I could say was concern; but was actually greed.
      I had a very bad feeling about this.
      She withdrew her hand and even her fake smile disappeared.
      "Fionna what is it?"
      My heart is pounding Fionna is avoiding my eyes. She looks tired. But her eyes meet mine hardened with a decision. "I think we should separate."
      "Why? I mean...what has happened Fionna?"
      "What? Something has to happen; I can't just come to a realisation that I never truly loved you. Fucking you yeah, always....But I've decided that I don't love you. If I ever did -even for a second- that is gone now. I found someone new. I know what love is now."
      I'm shut down into a stunned silence as my lover and girlfriend speaks the words. Like a knife to my heart from the start; then the knife is pulled out without hesitation sending blood of my love seeping out. I feel lightheaded from the blood loss and I re-focus my eyes which had blurred out of focus for a moment then. I swallow a lump in my throat. "I can-can't believe you. It can't be true." My voice is laced with tears but my eyes for now are dry. I'm surprised actually that I have not begun crying...
      "Well you're gonna have to. I've taken my things from the house. I'm gonna go now. Don't look for me. Or I won't forgive you." By the start of her sentence Fionna had begun to rise from her chair by the end of it she had begun to walk away. There it is. The salt being rubbed into my chest wound where she stabbed me. I let out a choked breath. The restraunt is suddenly choking me. It's stifling, it's suffocating; I stagger and then suddenly my legs run after the woman who had killed me. "FIONNNA!" I burst out the restraint door my leg hurts and I'm wondering why I look back and see a couple of knocked over chairs. I thrash my head back and forth looking up and down the street. I don't notice that I've done a few little circles running my hands through my hair in distraught. That bitch. That mother fucking bitch! How could she have done this to me?! I wipe my eyes and walk deftly back home. It was a long walk well over an hour to get to our home. No, it's mine now. All I have left from Fionnas leave. I rush forward and struggle to fit the keys it the hole. As if they were trying to stop me from entering. As if they knew the moment I got in all I was gonna do was look for Fionna. Expecting her to be there...I finally open the dreaded door and just as it knew I ran in leaving it open and swinging on its hinges. I rushed through the house I called out her name. Maybe she had changed her mind? She could have maybe just by the slightest chance have changed her mind. Couldn't she have? I search her closet I can't find any of her clothes I go into the bathroom her things are truly gone I search the house and end up collapsing on the hallway floor through exhaustion and am overcome with sadness and tears as I come to the final realisation that the one I truly loved and cherished has left me stranded and alone.
      When my tears appear to slow and give way I pull my phone from my pocket I dial her number and it doesn't work. I have a robotic telephonic voice speaking in its slow clear tone that the person I am trying to reach is disconnected. I thought the tears had stopped but they started again and I cried into oblivion falling into a restless sleep where the ghost of Fionna drifted at the edges of my mind.

      Three days I spent in the house alone. I almost felt like I was going insane. My mood swings alternated and changed like wind directions during a tempest. Mad one day furiously beating at the walls or breaking things. Then depressively sad and looking with melancholy eyes at a phone that never rang. On the fourth day it was four in the morning when I awoke on the floor. I stretched my body muscles and back tired and sore from lying on the floorboards. I rubbed my eyes and walked down the hall stopping at the mirror when I caught sight of my reflection. My eyes looked hollowed and my hair was a mess I stopped and stared in disbelief my eyes staring back at me and frowning as if it too is disappointed in how I had let myself go. I licked my thinned lips and walked to the bathroom stripping off three day old clothes and showering.
      Then I began to clean. I cleaned, I ate, I began to get back into a routine. Who gives a fuck about that slut? I think to myself my body no lingering trembling at the memory of the other girl. I decided that I wanted to get out of the house. A week after Fionna walking out on me I had the house cleaned and I made my way out that night for some fun at a gay bar I knew had some nice people at. My body ached for human contact. And I planned on getting what I wanted.
      ***
      It was nearing mid-night I had had only a couple drinks and had spoken to a few people. But all of a sudden that desire to find someone dissipated into a fist around my heart and I sat just twirling a bottle at the bar. In fact I was about fucking sick of this and wanted to leave until I felt hands run down my sides. I jumped up with a start and turned my back to the bar my fist clenched and ready to destroy whoever had touched me like that. But when the person spoke a spark of recognition stopped my fist from raising fully.
      "Well, Samantha. I thought that luscious body could only be yours."
      I found my eyes locked on green eyes with black mascara and eyeliner. And even after five years I still remember those teasing green eyes of the girl who had approached me telling me of Fionna cheating. I lowered my fist and the girl stepped forward just as confident as what she had been the last time I had seen the girl. "You..." I didn't know what I was about to say because the girl stepped forward and pushed her thigh against my crotch and I felt a flare of desire shoot through my body as I attempted to keep my breath normal and bit my inner cheek to stop a moan from plausibly  escaping my lips.
      She acted so coy and so innocent looking at me indifferently as if her hot little thigh wasn't pressed against my sex in the most annoyingly provocative way. "I....?" She questioned in continuation to what I had been about to say.
      I flick out my tongue to wet my lips that felt dry in the presence of the green eyed girl and then get an idea as my heart rate quickens. "You're name seems to have escaped my memory. Can you remind me?"
      The girl laughs and trails her fingers up the path of my leather jackets zipper and she stops just under my chin before pulling on the coat to make me bend forward a little. She then takes her lips to my ear and pushes against me a little as she whispers seductively; "Jasmine. And you can't forget what you never found out Samantha."
      I buried my face into the green eyed girls' neck gracing her neck with my lips in a series of little kisses that spread across the surface of her smooth skin.
      Jasmines skin seems to jump under my lips and she chuckles nervously before leaning into my mouth. "This is...unexpected I thought you'd push me away again. What would Fionna say?"
      I ignore the question at first pulling Jasmine closer to me by her hips before whispering to her; "There is no Fionna Jasmine, but what there is...is me...and...you."
      "I like the sounds of that..." Jasmine utters softly in my ear only just audible above the general music and chatter of the club. I pull away and link my hand with hers and begin to lead her from the club looking back at her with playful eyes as I told her it may be best to go somewhere...more private.
      Not even twenty minutes later our lips are locked in a firey kiss of passionate lust. We both tore at each other's clothes laughing every now and then when we bumped into something. Jasmine and I competed for dominance. One moment I'd be pinned by strong arms against the wall my pants being tugged eagerly in a downward direction. The next I'd be on top and pushing Jasmine toward my bedroom again. I bury my hands in her whispy locks of hair. She looks the same as I remember her and as she flicks her tongue in my mouth and rubs it against my cheeks tasting my entire mouth I moan pulling her closer. It does not take long to be pushed into the room and we make our way onto the bed almost naked already our clothes littered the oath we had taken to the room. Jasmine climbs ontop of me her bra long gone and removes my bra as well sucking on my lower lip as she fondled my left breast. My body shivers with pleasure and blood pounds with boiling lust that heat my body making a light sheen of sweat develop. I hook my legs around Jasmines waist bringing her sex closer to mine. Jasmine moans into my mouth and begins to kiss down my neck as she rubs her pelvis against mine. She then sits up and removes her panties which were her only item of clothing left from our travels from my front door to my room. The last item of clothing finally removed Jasmine looking down at me with a smile presses her hot wet centre against mine throwing her head back in pleasure and causing me to gasp.
      "Jasmine." I moan her name licking my lips and grasping the bed sheets tensely. My hips react instinctively and Jasmine reacts accordingly beginning to rock back and forth rubbing our hot sex's together in heated passion. I wrap a leg around the other girls hip trying to make that wondrous friction between our bodies stronger. I clench my fists moaning and swallow as I lick my lips and breathe hard.
      Our bodies move in harmony as we rub against each other I hear Jasmine moaning above me and all this only adds fuel to the fire and speeds me toward a climax that I could feel boiling from my body.
      And it doesn't take long to reach it I let out an animalistic moan as a powerful orgasm over came my body. I hear Jasmine cum above me and her body shudders making me orgasm a second time. She lets her body fall forward and relax atop of mine and both our breaths come out laboured as our bodies and our muscles slowly twitch and quiver and our orgasms die down to that amazing feeling that came as our hearts began to calm. I swallow and tangle my legs with Jasmines and wrap my arms around her...wanting needing for her to stay close. Just for now.
      Just for a little while....
      "Thank-you."
      "You're welcome SamLee." I get a kiss on my temple before Jasmine relaxes above me her breath coming in and out, slow and even. Her heart beats just above mine and I find my own heart find a rhythm to her beat. And that is how we both fall asleep.

Chapter 4