ONLY LOVE CAN CONQUER HATE
By SailorJane & Anonymous
CHAPTER 3
Amy Mizuno looked away from her white gloved hands, watching the sunlight sparkle against the waves of the Pacific Ocean. She leaned against the starboard side of the Sunset Romance Cruise. The ship had only cast off a few hours ago, but already the brilliant middle-school girl was beginning to feel sea-sick. Her mind was obsessed with Serena Tsukino. She had only really been friends with the meatball-headed girl for not even a few weeks, but she was already in love with her. Amy had never really thought about men, or women, in a romantic or intimate way; probably because no men or women ever thought about her in an even remotely intimate way. Meeting Serena, even before she found out she was the mysterious Sailor Moon, changed everything.
The day she became friends with the ditsy blonde was engraved in her mind. Up until then, Amy knew almost nothing about Serena Tsukino. The school’s top student was a loner and was thus completely out of the loop when it came to the gossip surrounding her fellow student. She walked home, by herself with her head to the ground. And then suddenly, a black cat fell right onto her shoulder, changing her life forever. Serena apologized for Luna and introduced herself. The bluenette’s heart almost stopped gazing upon the blonde; she literally looked like a princess: long flowing blonde hair, blue eyes, long legs, fully developed breasts, and a statuesque figure. Her ditzy voice was not as to be expected from a princess, but it had an innocent charm whenever she spoke. It wasn’t so much what she was saying, it was the genuine kind nature of her tone. People Amy’s age found her intimidating, but not Serena. The odango-haired girl treated her as a friend from the start.
She was far more surprised to learn that Serena Tsukino was actually Sailor Moon, relatively new to the media at that point, but popular nonetheless. The realization of her alter-ego Sailor Mercury helped seal the bond between her and Sailor Moon tighter. Sailor Moon reached her gloved hand out to hold Mercury’s gloved hand, establishing their eternal friendship. The water scout could feel the princess’ soft feminine hand through two leather gloves. The gloves themselves gave her a feeling of power and confidence. The feel of the material against her hand left an imprint on Amy as she gazed at her fellow soldier’s innocent smile. Amy Mizuno was in love.
That very night, Amy went through her drawers looking for another pair of white gloves she had for formal events. These gloves were satin, but they gave her the same confidence she had wearing the white leather gloves of her Sailor Mercury outfit. She slipped one of them on, very slowly. They were forearm length, and she felt the soft material rub against her skin until her fingers finally slipped into the tips of the glove. She looked at her hand and clenched a fist. What was it about gloves that made her feel so special? She always enjoyed dressing up as a child, but was it Sailor Moon’s gloves that brought out this strange fixation for the accessories? She slipped the other glove on, again ever so slowly. Immediately, she picked up a picture she had just printed out, a picture of her and Serena taken earlier at the arcade. Even in a low-quality picture, Serena was beautiful. Without letting it go, Amy lied on the bed. With her gloves still on, the innocent girl reached into her pants and began to do something she had never done. Amy had of course touched her vagina before, but it was mostly done to comfort herself in times of isolation and loneliness. This time, she fantasized about her and Serena, bringing her to a state of intense sexual pleasure she never felt before. There was now no denying it: Amy Mizuno was in love with a girl, she was a lesbian.
‘Control yourself,’ Amy said to herself on the cruise as she found her fingers getting dangerously close to that pleasurable area. She was wearing the same gloves she had worn that night. There were people all around her, but still she thought about her secret lover. She cherished every minute she had with her odango-haired friend and any physical contact she made with her. So far, it was a platonic friendship, never going past hand-holding or hugging. Amy knew Serena was completely oblivious to the fact that her fellow Scout of water and ice had feelings for her. Walking around a romance cruise, watching hundreds of couples holding hands, hugging, kissing, and some doing certain inappropriate things she didn’t even want to think about, only made her more depressed.
“You’re nothing but a traitor Amy!”
The last words Amy heard her secret lover say echoed in her mind over and over again. Raye Hino had won two tickets for the cruise Serena was dying to go on, and seemed to invite Amy out of pure spite. Amy didn’t want to go, she still had a lot of school work on her plate. However, apart from Serena, Raye was the only friend Amy had. Sailor Mars had only joined the team a week earlier, and although she and Amy had become friends, they knew very little about each other.
“Don’t feel guilty Amy,” Raye said sweetly as she offered her the tickets. The raven-haired girl may have been intimidating, but Amy could tell that deep down, Raye was a good person, and would be a good friend, “This trip will be really good for us, get to know each other.”
Amy agreed to go with Raye, but still rewound Serena’s hurtful message over and over again.
Back on deck, Amy’s distraction was interrupted as she felt a comforting hug from behind, “Oh Amy Mizuno, I love you!”
Amy turned her head to see Raye holding her. She was shocked! Raye was in love with her? So that’s what this entire cruise was about.
“What?” was all Amy could bring herself to say.
“Relax,” Raye could tell Amy was uncomfortable and let go of her, “I’m only kidding with you.” She stood next to the blue-haired girl and leaned against the railing of the boat.
“Oh,” Amy chuckled suspiciously.
Raye looked beautiful. Her red dress, accessorized by her golden necklace and white gloves, complimented her long dark hair. The dress fit tightly over the priestess’ tight statuesque body. Amy was dressed more conservatively. She wore a yellow blouse over her green dress. It was harder to see the bluenette’s gorgeous body underneath her layers. She was still sulking, looking at the ocean.
“Are you okay?” Raye asked her friend, “I hope you’re still not bummed about there not being any single guys on this cruise? I really didn’t know-“
“No it’s okay,” Amy looked at her, “I’m not really worried about that.”
“So what’s wrong?”
As Amy looked into her friend’s eyes, she realized she had met someone she could confide in, someone she could count on for years to come. Raye was Sailor Mars, Sailor Mercury’s fellow scout. The two were bonded as friends closer than any couple on this cruise. Up until now, her crush on Serena remained a mystery. Amy knew she could never tell anyone that she was in love with another girl. She was still trying to get over it herself. However, as Raye waited patiently, placing her gloved hand on Amy’s shoulder, looking at her with concerned eyes, Amy decided to confide in her friend.
“Raye,” she spoke softly and slowly, “Can I tell you something in absolute confidence?”
“Of course Amy,” Raye smiled, “You can tell me anything. We’re friends right?”
Amy smiled to hear Raye say that, “Well,” she frowned again, “I’m a little worried you might not want to be my friend after I tell you this.”
Raye’s eyes vacillated. What was she going to tell her? “I seriously doubt that Amy. Why don’t you just tell me?”
Amy gulped. Her first love was about to be revealed, and it certainly wasn’t the Romeo & Juliet love every girl romanticized about… if they even knew what Romeo & Juliet was; and come to think of it, things didn’t work out so well for them in the end.
“Raye,” Amy was shaking, “I think I’m gay!” She buried her head in her hands.
Raye took her hand off of Amy’s shoulder. She was quite surprised to hear her friend say this. Maybe the genius girl was trying to hit on her. She was certainly uncomfortable. Amy could see this and closed her eyes in shame.
“See,” she said sadly, “I knew this would break our friendship-“
“No no no,” Raye immediately held Amy’s hand in comfort, “That’s not true at all.” Just as Amy could feel Serena’s hands through two pairs of gloves, she could she feel Raye’s hands too. Raye sighed and closed her eyes, “I’m just a little surprised is all.” She opened her eyes and looked into Mercury’s, “Look Amy, I don’t care if you’re gay or not. I’ll still be your friend.”
What a relief. Amy sighed, smiled, held onto her friend’s gloved hands and looked into her eyes, “Really Raye? It doesn’t bother you?”
“Not at all,” Raye smiled back, “I told you this cruise would be really good for us. I’m glad you’re confiding in me. I love you Amy,” Raye immediately stammered not wanting to say the wrong thing, “I-in a sisterly way that is.”
Amy laughed. “Thank you Raye.” Their fingers began to interlace, “Can I ask you something?”
“Anything.”
“I know you like boys, but do you find any women attractive or sexy?”
Raye thought about the question for a second. She looked very uncomfortable all of a sudden, like she too was hiding something.
“I’m sorry,” Amy blushed, “You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want-“
“No it’s okay,” Raye unintentionally played with Amy’s fingers still holding onto them. Unbeknownst to the brainiac, the priestess had been harboring a secret herself. As much as Raye wanted this to remain a secret, part of her wanted to finally let it all out, “You won’t tell anyone right?”
“If you don’t tell anyone about me,” Amy responded.
Raye lifted her eyebrows and replied, “Sailor V?”
Amy chuckled slightly, “Sailor V?”
Raye blushed, “Yeah… I find her attractive. I actually met her not too long ago. She’s just so beautiful, brave and has those long legs that you’d just love to run your hands up-“ Her eyes widened, “Oh, sorry I’ve said too much.”
Amy looked slightly uncomfortable hearing her boy-crazy friend talk about another woman like that.
“But enough about me,” Raye quickly changed the subject and put her arm around the blue-haired girl, “Is there a girl in your life right now?”
Now it was going to get very uncomfortable, “Well, yes there is a girl I love, but she doesn’t know about it, we’re just friends.”
Raye started thinking that Amy was talking about her. Suddenly, Amy started looking really attractive in the priestess’ eyes. She, Raye Hino, was Amy’s secret love? She was certainly flattered by the thought. She got even closer to the brainiac, making her slightly uncomfortable, “Really?” She smiled, “I’d love to know who it is?”
Amy looked a little frightened watching Raye almost waiting to make out with her. She simply blurted out, “Serena.”
The bright sun over Raye’s head was suddenly blotted out by black storm-clouds. She let go of the water scout in disgust:
“SERENA?”
Amy cowered slightly, “Yes,” Amy said, “I’m in love with Serena-“
“How can you be in love with HER?” Raye snarled in annoyance. Couples around began to look in their direction, “What does she have that I don’t?”
“Well,” Amy was calm, “It’s just that Serena is so nice to me. She’s the only girl I’ve ever known who likes me for who I am, not just as someone who can help her with her homework-“
“Oh come on Amy,” Raye rolled her eyes, “Serena makes you help her with school-work all the time, and never gets any better at it.”
“But she’s so kind,” Amy said, “And her naïve innocence is just so cute. Say what you will about her as a soldier Raye, but she would never turn her back on her friends.”
Raye started to calm down but hung her head over the railing, “For a second, I thought the girl you loved was me.”
Amy put her hand on the raven-hair’s, “But Raye,” she said compassionately, “I thought you were strait? All you’ve been talking about on this cruise is how to get a boyfriend.”
“I am strait,” Raye was defensive, “I do like guys, I-“ She began to let her guard down, “Oh I don’t know. I’m probably bi-curious at the very least.” She shook her head, “OK it’s definitely more than that since I started-“ Raye immediately stopped and her eyes shot open.
“What?” Amy asked, “Started what? You can tell me anything Raye.”
Raye hesitated, but eventually used her aggression as a shield. She pointed her finger at Amy angrily, “Besides, Serena is the boy-crazy nut-case! How can you possibly find her attractive?”
More couples began staring at the two of them.
“Raye,” Amy was taciturn, “People are staring-“
“Believe me Amy,” she said, “You can do a lot better than her. I’m sure there are plenty of girls who would do anything for you.”
“I don’t want them. I want Serena.”
“Why? Serena is an idiot. She’s lazy, she’s whiney, she doesn’t do anything right, I’m surprised she can even wipe her own ass-“
“Hey!” Amy shouted, “Don’t talk about her like that!”
Raye was shocked to hear Amy’s aggression. Amy was a soft speaker. Raye hung her head and calmed down.
“I’m,” Amy breathed heavily, shocked by her anger, “I’m sorry.”
“I’m sorry for snapping at you,” Raye said and put her arm back around her, “I shouldn’t judge, we can’t help who we fall in love with.” Amy was staring at the ocean, but Raye pushed the bluenette’s head towards her own, so they were eye to eye: “If you love Serena, you should go for her.”
“Oh God no!” Amy held her face in fear.
“What?”
“I can never tell her,” Amy began to cry.
Raye rolled her eyes, “Why? Why can’t you tell her?”
“What if she doesn’t love me back?” Amy answered.
“You won’t know-“ Raye began to speak before Amy interrupted:
“I take that back, I KNOW she doesn’t love me back.”
“Amy,” Raye held her shoulders, “You won’t know that until you ask her. What harm could come of that?”
“She won’t want to be my friend anymore Raye. She already hates me.”
“She does not!” Raye raised her arms, “She loves you.”
“No she doesn’t,” Amy cried, “She sees me as a snob just like everyone else. Everyone thinks of me as a complacent arrogant brainiac.”
“I don’t think that,” Raye said, “And neither does Serena.”
“But before we left she yelled at me-“
“She was mad at me and taking it out on you, she didn’t mean it. Believe me Amy,” Raye put her gloved hand on the bluenette’s face, “Serena loves you. Even if she doesn’t love you the same way you love her, she’ll always be your friend. That’s why you have to tell her.”
“But I’m not ready-“ Amy began to respond.
“Believe me,” Raye said, “I was scared the first time I-“ Raye closed her eyes and stopped herself from speaking. She dropped her hands and hung her head.
“What?” Amy said annoyed, “What is it Raye? Please tell me! Was it a girl? Did you have a relationship with a girl? Was it Sailor V?”
Tears began to come down Raye’s face, she tried as hard as she could to hold them back. She shook her head back and forth, “I can’t.”
Amy felt tears gathering in her eyes as Raye’s emotions got the better of her. She picked up her gloved hand and placed it on the raven-haired girl’s face, “Please Raye,” Amy said, “I confided in you, won’t you let me in.” She kissed Raye on the cheek, “I love you Raye. You can tell me anything.”
Raye sighed. Amy was so sweet, Serena didn’t know how lucky she was to have a girl like Amy in love with her. Raye began to whisper, “Okay.” She took a long breath, “I-“
She was immediately interrupted as a woman’s voice came over the intercom, “Ladies and Gentlemen, our spectacular extravaganza will begin in the ballroom in five minutes. You’re all invited to come and join the dance.”
Raye was relieved to get out of this conversation. She jerked her head sideways, “Let’s talk about it later,” She held Amy’s hand and led her towards the ballroom, “I feel like dancing.”
“But Raye,” Amy didn’t want to stop talking.
“And you’re gonna have to dance with me,” Raye joked around, “I don’t care if people think we’re lesbians or not, I wanna shake some ass.”
Amy gave up and followed her friend. The two made their way through the cabin. As soon as they got into a private space, Amy stopped her, “Wait Raye,” she hesitated. Raye looked at Amy curiously, “I’m glad we had this talk.”
Raye smiled and hugged her friend, “If you love Serena, go for her.”
“Raye I-“ Amy closed her eyes uncomfortably.
“When you’re ready,” Raye corrected herself. “I will support you one hundred percent.”
Just then, Raye unexpectedly kissed Amy on the lips. It was a short friendly peck, but even Raye was surprised at her actions. Amy stood there blushing, her mouth wide open. She had never been kissed by anyone. She had long hoped that her first kiss would be with Serena. However, she could not help looking into the black eyes of Raye Hino. She could see her own loneliness in Raye’s eyes. Even if she hadn’t told the genius-girl everything, she knew the priestess had had her heart broken at some point. Amy’s own heart ached for a girl she thought she could never have.
“I’m sorry Amy,” Raye said, “I know the two of us are meant to be friends.”
“Raye,” Amy interrupted her and held her intimately, “My heart belongs to Serena, and I gather your heart belongs to someone else, I don’t know.” There was an uncomfortable silence, “But I’ve never kissed a girl, or anyone, before. Right now, all I want to do is make out with you.”
Raye was very surprised to hear this. Amy was right, the priestess had feelings for another, but giving the innocent Amy her first kiss was something she didn’t want to pass up, “You promise you’ll dance with me?” She laughed.
“All night!” Amy smiled.
Not a second later, the two began to make out. There were maybe only a couple of people around to see them, but they didn’t care. Their arms were still holding each other. It was an awkward moment at first, especially for Amy who had never kissed anyone. She was shy often jerking away from Raye’s face for a minute or too. After a little while, Amy began to loosen up and allowed Raye’s tongue to enter her mouth. Amy began to wiggle her tongue wildly against her friend’s. Clearly, once Amy was not as shy and timid as she may have put out. Raye was enjoying the make-out session, but after a minute, she stopped and began to cry.
“I’m sorry Raye,” Amy said bringing a tear to her own eye.
“No it’s okay Amy,” she responded, “I just… I just miss her so much.”
“Who?!” Amy cried wanting to console her friend so badly, “Who is she Raye?”
Raye didn’t answer. She went back to making out with Amy. Amy closed her eyes and felt Raye’s soft lips against her own. Their legs began to fail as the two slid down to the ground without breaking the kiss. Amy was now sitting against the wall, feeling Raye pushing against her. Then, very intensely, she felt Raye’s teeth biting her lip. Her eyes finally opened.
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