I met Alice four weeks ago by now. As I told you, we’ve become pretty close. I think I was becoming her best friend and it feels awesome. I do not yet consider her my best friend but we have so much in common and I can bet you there’s no one in this world like Alice. She’s unique! I’ve never met someone so easy going, carefree, so content. She laughs at almost everything because she always sees the funny side of life. I could talk to her for HOURS, and that’s what we did all this days. I’ve got her skype account, facebook account, myspace account, her IM… and we would talk until 1 a.m. or even later.
“Hey, Red, it’s time to go to bed!” Blue’s desperate to get me away from my laptop.
“I know Blue! Please, just let me say g’bye?” I look at him with a cute pout.
“Five minutes” he says smiling. “I’ll go brush my teeth again.”
“Okay” so I wish her good night and wait until Blue comes out of the bathroom. I hate sharing bathrooms with him, but I guess I have no choice.
He gets out of the shower and walks toward the closet where I was changing into my boxers. I decided to not wear a shirt since it was really hot. I go to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face. When I got out Blue was already in bed sprawled in the middle of it.
I pinched on his chest and he grunted making some space for me. “Cmon’ Blue, move further” He does move until his body hits the wall and I sprawl happily on my side of the bed. But then Blue turns to face me and holds me spoon style.
“Blue, it’s really hot!” I say squirming in his bare chest.
“Mmmmph” He just mumbled something and pulled me closer to him, if that’s even possible.
I sigh and give up, Blue was always this clingy and I don’t mind sometimes. He’s just a sweet boy trying to hold her sister to get some sleep. But I gasped as I feel something hard pressed against my butt. Oh no! WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON?! Blue was mumbling some nonsense shit when I heard the name of a girl. Jamie?! Who the heck was that bitch, I’ll remember to kick her ass later. More importantly, I can’t sleep right now when my brother’s horny about some bitch and pulling his… wood… against my butt! I need to get away from his grasp. I try to release myself from his arms, to no avail. Okay… Huh… This will be a long… long… night.
It’s morning already and I wake up uncomfortably. Couldn’t catch too much sleep, you know. I heard Blue singing in the shower, he’s doing beautiful scales and I smile forgetting about last night. I love my brother too much to care about that, it was involuntary. So I get up to get ready for school. Start brushing my long wavy hair. And change into my favorite leather pants and a purple plaid button up shirt and rolled up the sleeves to my elbows. I choose some black heels and get down to the kitchen. I start to make some ham and eggs and prepare fresh orange juice for my brother and grape juice for me, and started to eat up. Blue’s running down to the kitchen and eats in a hurry for he has to catch up to me to make it on time to school.
We get to school and Blue grabs my hand as always. But hey! There is Alice! She’s standing on the school door talking to Kristine about something probably funny for they are laughing their asses’ off. I let go of Blue’s hand and he stares at where I’m going, following behind. But if I knew that I would regret this moment later on… Maybe I would’ve walked straight to my classroom, or wait for some more time to happen. That was the first moment Blue and Alice eyes met, and I definitely don’t like this. I’ve noticed by now, they are staring at each other openly.
“Uhm, Alice this… is my twin brother, his name’s Blue” I say a bit nervous.
“I’m Alice Giuliacci, pleasure to meet you” She says, giving him that smile and blushing. I felt a pang of something uncomfortable in my chest. I do not like this, I mean, not that I don’t want her to smile, but that’s the smile she only gives to me.
“I’m Blue Biermann” he says gently kissing her hand. Kristine looks at them like they’re cute or something and I’m feeling down. I thought I would be happy if one of my new best friends and my closest person in the world met. I was wrong… Boy, I was really, really wrong.
“Uhm, we should get to class” I say breaking the moment. I take Blue’s hand and almost drag him to his first period.
Alice follows right behind us with some distance, and I notice this. I walk to my class annoyed at something I can’t fully understand. I think I’m jealous, it should be sister jealousy as always because I feel really mad at Alice.
“You sure are fast, girl!” Alice says taking the seat beside me “Ah, your brother’s really cute”
“Do you mind?” I say trying to look like I was busy at something in my notebook. I think that was harsh.
“Oh, A-are you upset about that, honey?” She says sadly “I’m sorry, it’s just that he really looks like you” She’s staring at me passionately. I don’t know what to make out of it, but I feel oddly glad. I’m always cheerful when somebody says I look like Blue.
“Oh I know” I say smiling. At this, she relaxes a little and smiles with me. “It’s okay Alice. It’s just that I’m used to threat to death at every girl who likes him, you can say I’m overprotective, but I wouldn’t be if my brother was tough with girls. You know? Typical sweet boy bitches use to mess with and later hurt them”
“Oh don’t worry about it, he’s… not my type” She says uncertain.
“I hope so. I wouldn’t want to kick your ass all the time” I grinned again with my fox grin. At this, she smiled with me and we broke into laughter.
It’s a beautiful Thursday afternoon and Blue and I are taking our routine walk. I don’t like to walk, but I should walk some time everyday if I want to keep on eating sweets. Blue has changed a little bit; he’s awkward, nervous around me all the time.
“Blue, are you in trouble?”
“Why you say that?” he stares at the floor.
“Well, you’re awkward and shit, like you’re hiding something”
“Uhm, I am… I want to tell you something”
“What is it bro? You know you can tell me anything” I say with a big smile, reserved only for him. I think he feels a little guilty, I can tell by his expression.
“I’ve uh… got a girlfriend” I get serious at this. I don’t like where this is going.
“Oh, who is her?” I say clenching my fists. I don’t like it when he hides something from me. We know each other too much.
“Well, uh… It’s Alice”
…
I just… don’t know what the fuck. He’s staring at me as if waiting for me to give him my blessing. And right now I’m so confused.
“What?!!! When did this happen?”
“It was ahm, 4 days ago…”
“You, you haven’t met her for 2 weeks! And what?! You’re already going out with her?! I don’t believe it!”
“Why shouldn’t I date her?”
“It’s not that, Blue!” I was trying to figure out what was I feeling. I’m feeling oddly betrayed. But I need to endure this. It’s his life, not mine.
“Well?”
“Well, what?” I say oddly.
“Do you… Are you okay with this?” He says looking me in the eyes, sad. I feel guilty for making a fuss out of this.
“I-it’s your life, I think I’m okay with it” I say trying to sound cheerful and successfully doing it because Blue is now satisfied with my answer. No longer will he have to be awkward around me, I guess. But I don’t know why, I feel like I should have said that I wasn’t okay with it. I feel like I will lament it in a not so far future.