Disclaimer: I do not own You're under arrest
Summary: Natsumi thinking about her feeling for Miyuki
A/N: This is an old story of mine. Now that I had Wingweaver edit this story and now I’m re-editing this so please…be patient with my grammar.
I can hear them coming, their giggles can be heard from where I am now. Damn these feelings! Just imagine me...a prolific, active and strong police officer, a woman who never turns her back on anything -
Anything but this...
I can't remember the time I actually felt like: 'go weaken the knees', 'tachycardia', 'hot flushes', whatever these things are… I've never even felt these when I was with Tokairin Shouji.
Well after sometime, Shouji and I finally decided that we really didn't fit together. He wanted his life the way it was. He loved nature, he loved to be one with it, while I enjoy being here in my job, yes, I do enjoy my job and I enjoy my partner's company.
I'm not sure what about her I enjoy the most, all I know is that every second we’re together brings me joy, brings me this pleasure that I never wished to end. The first time I set my eyes on her, I knew she was something.
I'm trying hard to put my mind from thinking… thinking about her.
I bought a cross word puzzle along the way from my apartment and I’m desperately trying to solve it, and my head was aching already from trying to solve a very hard puzzle and from trying hard to put her out of my mind.
I guess I did quite fine with the last cause of my headache because I did not notice her on my back.
"Black hole," the soft voice said on my back, pointing her finger on a segment of the puzzle, "15 across, that’s the answer." I looked at her and felt my body melt as I saw her leaning down on me… smiling
"Miyuki?" I asked dumbfounded. I guess the cat caught my tongue
"I've been around for quite some time. I guess you are too busy with your puzzle you failed to notice me," She smiles at me again, "Can I sit beside you then?"
I nodded, not finding my voice to give her an answer.
"I noticed you've been distancing yourself from us." Miyuki asked after she situated herself beside me, she is looking at me her eyes bore a happy expression and satisfaction.
Silence, what could I say?
"Is there something that’s bothering you?" She asked again, lightly tugging my right arm that was next to her.
God Miyuki! I can't tell you. I am afraid you'll stay away from me if you knew…
"Ahhh -” Tsujimoto! What the heck are you doing? Answer her! Damn! Answer!! My brain screamed at me as I tried to find my voice which I seemed to misplace, "ah…no Miyuki, nothing's wrong."
"Okay." she accepts my answer, shrugging her shoulders.
There was silence as I turned my gaze on the puzzle I’m doing, yet my brain is so aware of Miyuki being there beside me, I can’t concentrate. I can't even find the number where she told me the answer, but again…
What was the answer?
My peripheral vision is working perfectly right now as I tried to look at her through that. She wasn’t facing me or my puzzle, she’s looking far away and then I hear her sigh. I followed her gaze and found her looking at Nakajima. My heart suddenly felt cold as if it was being drowned in iced cold water… then suddenly it stopped. It really hurts to see the one you love loving someone else, but what can I do? I decided a long time ago to be contented being her friend, partner in crime. I knew I’ll never occupy her heart the way she occupied mine, I'll just be Natsumi, her friend, her confidant. I returned my gaze at my puzzle where now nothing’s clear.
"Do you think Nakajima will be able to tell me about his feelings?" Miyuki looked at me.
I eyed her and forced a smile, "He just needs courage to do so."
"I guess," Miyuki kept her eyes on me and then smiled sweetly, "I think I have waited too long for him."
"You know what?"
"Huh?" I looked at her as she stood and dusted off imaginary dirt on her blue skirt,
"I think you should think of what you’ve said earlier."
"Think what?" I don’t understand you Miyuki
"You said and I quote ‘he needs courage’ to be able to tell me what he feels."
"Uh yeah?" I answered with a puzzled look on my face.
She didn’t answer instead I watched her walked very slowly away from me.
"I never want love to escape me twice…" she said as she moves much farther.
What did she say? I didn't get it. But then she explained it further as I felt her lips brushes with mine. It was a simple peck and I was too stunned to realize what she did. The last thing I knew, I was looking at her face smiling then she turned around and walked away from me. I can feel my face burning and then I touch my lips that which still feel her lips,
"Miyuki…" I mumbled, smiled and let a finger lingered on it.