Momo was caught in Sae's eyes a moment. [Did she just say what I thought she just said?] She wondered. "Huh?"
"I said, kiss me again." Sae told her, moving in closer so Momo had to tilt her head down a little more to keep eye contact. "It shouldn't be that hard for you, you know? You did it before, right?" She said a little teasingly, her lips amazingly close now.
Momo didn't think anymore, she just kissed the girl she loved. Their lips met, she felt Sae respond to her more this time, felt her lips part for her. Their bodies pressed closer together, Momo brought one hand up to Sae's cheek and just let herself get lost in how perfect and amazing this felt. Like she could just keep doing this, kissing with Sae, forever... she started to feel a little self-conscious though, how this was happening so fast, and was this for real, so she broke off the kiss. She was breathing a little heavily, her heart felt like it was racing in her chest. "Sae..."
"Wow..." Sae said before Momo could think what to say next, touching her lips with her fingers. "Momo, you're really good at that, you know?" She said softly, a little smile playing over her lips as their eyes met. "...Have you kissed other girls before me, or... am I the first?" She asked with a little of a challenge in her voice.
"What? Of course I haven't! I mean, um, yes? You're... you're my first kiss." Momo said, feeling her skin get warm.
"Well, that's good." Sae said. "You're... I mean, a boy kissed me once before... but I didn't really like him, and you're so much better at it." She told her, sliding her hand up Momo's side until it was over her ribs.
Momo smiled. "You think so?" She asked softly.
"Definitely. In fact... I've decided. I want to be your girlfriend, Momo." Sae said. "And I want to go back up to your room and make out some more. You want that too, right?" She asked, almost daring Momo to say no.
"I, I mean yes, definitely yes. I mean of course I... want that too." Momo said, kind of not really quite able to get herself to believe this was actually happening right now after everything had seemed so horrible just a few moments before. "But, um, what changed your mind? I thought..."
"Shush, okay? I just, you caught me by surprise, Momo, you know? I'm sorry I ran away like that, but I needed to think. You get that, right? I mean, I never thought I was the boy you liked. I just... we're both girls Momo, it's not exactly normal, is it?" Sae explained.
"No, I guess not..." Momo said, looking away a little. "But, you thought about it, and you decided... you want to be with me anyway?" She asked hopefully.
"Pretty much." Sae told her. "I figure I should at least try it, right?" She said a little airily. "And..." She stepped closer again, touching Momo's arm. "I kind of like the idea of having you all to myself, you know?"
"Really?" Momo asked, feeling happier and happier about this the more Sae talked.
"Yeah, I mean... it's not like I felt that way about you, but, I thought about it just now, and I had to admit, I kind of hated the idea of you getting a boyfriend, Momo, at least when I didn't have one." Sae told her. "In fact, I think... no, I'm pretty sure, I would have hated it even then anyway. I don't want to share you Momo, I like... I like having you to myself. So, I guess I'm kind of selfish?"
"I wouldn't mind if you are." Momo said, touching her face a little reverently. "I just... you're the one I want to be with, Sae, the one I always want to be with. No matter what I'm doing. Everything just feels so much better when I'm with you, you know?" She told her.
"Oh, Momo..." Sae hugged her, a few tears coming to her eyes.
Momo held her as Sae started to cry in earnest. She backed away a little and led Sae to sit with her at the bottom of the stairs. "Sae, what is it? What's wrong? Did I... did I say something...?"
"Momo, no. No, okay? You're perfect. I just... sometimes, I wonder, why you even like me, and now this, and it's like... how'd it happen? Why'd you fall in love with me, Momo? Why?" Sae asked, her voice shaking a little, she sounded vulnerable and a little scared. She hated that she was acting like this too, in front of Momo, but the feeling had just come over her when Momo said all those things, and she had to know. What did Momo see in her that she didn't see in herself? What had she done to get Momo to fall for her so hard?
"Sae, I, what are you talking about? I mean... why wouldn't I fall in love with you?" Momo was having a hard time getting her head around what Sae had just said. Sae had never acted like this with her before. She'd always acted so... confident. So sure of herself. "You really don't know?"
"No, Momo, I really don't, okay? So tell me. Why me?" Sae asked, staring at her with determination, her eyes sparkling with emotion, willing Momo to say something.
"...Do you want a list?" Momo smiled a little. "Okay. You're always nice to me, well, usually at least, and even when you're not, I kind of like that too somehow, because it's easy to see... you care about me, and that's what matters. You stand up for me when no one else does, and that means a lot. And I can tell, you see me for who I am, and that's amazing. You're like, the best friend I've ever had, Sae. You're always there for me... When I'm not with you, I want to be. And, um, I didn't start really noticing it, not the way I do now at least, until I'd known you for a while... you know, because we're both girls, I didn't think about... um, because you're right, it's not very normal to feel this way I guess... but, you're beautiful. And the way you look at me, it just... takes my breath away sometimes. And your smile... when you smile just for me, sometimes I think I'd do just about anything to get you to smile at me that way. My heart speeds up, I feel so warm inside, and I just want to kiss you. So... of course I'm in love with you..."
Sae smiled to her then and got up a little and kissed her. What Momo had said to her, it was like the words where sunshine and a flower was blooming inside her heart from the warmth and light they'd given her. "I... I never knew..." She said softly, kissing her again, almost getting up on her lap. Momo's mind went blank, her heart sped up, she felt like something inside of her was just going to burst this felt so good. "I never knew something like this could even happen..." Sae said softly. "I'm just... I'm so happy it did. I'm so..." She rested her forehead on Momo's. "But... it's not going to be easy, is it? Being together. Our parents... and who knows what everyone at school would do if they ever found out..."
Momo sighed. "You're probably right. Um, but could we go upstairs to talk about this, it's not very comfortable sitting like this for me you know?" Momo told her.
Sae sort of snapped out of whatever frame of mind she'd been in and realized she was sitting on Momo's lap and probably pressing her back against the next stair up. "Oh, uh, sorry Momo." Sae laughed a little, getting up and offering her hand to Momo. "Come on, let's go." She said, trying to flirt a little with the way she looked at Momo.
They went up the stairs and back to Momo's room. Sae shut the door behind them and leaned back against the closed door. "So... you're my girlfriend now, is that right?" She asked, a playful smile dancing over her lips, shining in her eyes as she looked at Momo and tried picturing what it would be like to take off her clothes and have sex with a girl, with Momo. She couldn't think of specifically what she would do, but the general outlines and vague impressions her imagination came up with where more than enough to convince her that she wanted to try it. Wanted Momo to be her first.
"Um, yeah, of course... I mean, you want to be, right?" Momo asked, sitting down on her bed and looking into Momo's eyes, trying to read the other girl better. She still felt scared, like after Sae said she had to go after she'd kissed her, like this amazing thing that was happening between her and the girl she loved could all be taken away again if she said or did the wrong thing.
"I said I did, didn't I? So I am, and you're mine, right? My girlfriend?" Sae asked further, pushing off a bit from the door and walking towards Momo, her eyes fixed on hers.
Momo swallowed a little, her heart beating faster, her skin feeling warmer and a little tingly, and she wanted to touch Sae so much right then, wanted to be kissing her again, or just to hold her in her arms... "I'm definitely yours alright." Momo said softly, kind of ruefully admitting to herself just how much the other girl had her wrapped around her finger.
"Then... I get to do whatever I want with you, don't I?" Sae asked, bending over and bracing her hands on the bed on either side of Momo then moving in to kiss her, Momo leaning back a little to let her.
"What... um, what do you want to do with me?" Momo asked, a happy smile coming to her lips. She liked this game.
"Girlfriend things." Sae said seriously, straddling Momo's lap and kissing her again, bringing both her hands to Momo's cheeks, feeling Momo's hands come to her waist and slide over her back. She felt like her body wanted this, wanted to touch, to connect... and it felt just so right to her. She remembered how it had been with that boy, the one who'd kissed her. She'd let him touch her some, let him take off her shirt. But it hadn't felt like this... it hadn't been bad with him, just... boring. This was anything but boring, she wanted to do more. A lot more. She just hoped it all wouldn't end up being a disappointment somehow.
Sae was kissing her so possessively now, Momo could hardly find moments to breathe, not that she minded at all. This was the best thing to happen to her, ever, she was sure of it. She didn't care how much trouble this could cause for her, with her family or at school, feeling the way she was now, she was perfectly willing to go through all the hardships she had to so she could keep this.
"Take off my clothes." Sae told her breathlessly after she stopped kissing her new girlfriend. 'Momo's girlfriend' She even liked how that sounded in her head. That is, it sounded weird of course, like if you thought cherry trees where pretty your whole life but you didn't know you could eat the cherries, then one day someone told you it was okay, and then you're like, 'Cherries are so good, why didn't someone say something sooner?' Like that.
See you next time...