Next morning Toni was woken abruptly by her door opening and mum coming in
Toni sat up focusing on her mum
“When did you get in? and who is that?” pointing to Lauren
Lauren also woken, pulled the sheet up
Toni wiped the sleep from her eyes “mum...this is Lauren.... I’m working on her...”
Lauren looked at Toni
“I mean I’m working on a school project with Lauren.”
Lauren smiled and thought to herself, ‘nice save’
“What happened to your face.... where did you get all these scratches? Please don’t tell me you’ve been fighting..... we can’t go through this again Antonia.”
Toni growled “mum.... I fell over at school, nothing serious.”
“Right.... well good. Now I have to go to work and as it’s a Saturday please do some chores to help me and your father out.”
“yeh mum”
Lauren watched the two interact, nothing like mother and daughter, more like strangers, no feeling. From impressions she expected Toni to live in some rundown apartment block like she does with her father and step mum. Not some perfect little suburb house, a mum and dad with good jobs. This didn’t seem to fit in with Toni’s persona
“Right well see you later today. Your father won’t be home until tonight either.”
“yeh right....”
Toni’s mother left and Toni lied down and closed her eyes. Lauren looked around the room expecting to see a dump but it was nice.... even girly like. She watched Toni
“Antonia”
“Don’t call me that”
“It’s cute”
Toni sat up and glared “I said don’t call me that, I hate it.”
“Chill...”
Toni gets up and puts her pants on. She stretches her back, feeling cramped from the hard ground.
“You could have shared the bed with me, I don’t take up that much room” said Lauren softly
“What and have you say I tried to jump your bones, no thanks... been there done that scenario”
Lauren winces as she sat up, pain from every part of her body “are you ever going to get over that. Fuck sake Toni, build a bridge.”
Toni looked at Lauren and burst into laughter “yeh... whatever, come on lets have breakfast”
Lauren gets up “actually I’m going to pay a visit to my arsehole boyfriend.” She puts her pants on
“Why, what’s that going to achieve......”
“I don’t know.... but once I beat him up, I probably feel better for it.”
Toni huffed “if you say so.”
Toni heads out her room calling back “I’m making pancakes, see you Monday.”
Toni was cooking when someone appeared in the door way. Toni didn’t look up just handed over the plate of pancakes to Lauren. Lauren smiled “thank you”
They both sat down, Toni rolled up two pancakes filled with syrup and cream and fed her face.
Lauren laughed at the sight of cream and syrup running down Toni’s face. She wanted to get up and wipe her face,..... lick her face. When that thought popped into her head Lauren blushed brightly
“What” said Toni
“What...” said Lauren back
“You just went red.”
Lauren shrugged her shoulders.
After they dumped their plates into the sink, Toni took Lauren into the lounge and set up the X box. After a few hours Lauren gave up
“I’m bored.... let’s do something else.”
Toni thought about it “Hey I want to show you something”
Lauren followed Toni outside. Lauren’s eyes widened at the pool. She didn’t know anyone with a pool, she didn’t believe kids that went to public schools had pools.
Toni opened the shed door and walked in. Lauren followed curiously. She noticed the red sports car and whistled.
“Wooow, now let’s take that for a spin.”
Toni looks at it “naaaa....”
“Excuse me, this is a beauty. Why does your dad keep it here?”
“It’s mums and she only takes it out on special occasions. It’s her pride and joy. Dad collects expensive scotch whiskeys and mum has her car.”
“and what does poor little rich girl have” looks at Toni thinking she had some huge trust fund waiting.
“This” holds up a rope with a noose
Lauren stares at it. “You’re kidding, you still going through with killing yourself. My god, look at this place, why.... you have everything.”
“So I would use the beams in the shed, tie it up there and kick that stool out.” She continued on ignoring Lauren’s amazement
Lauren chuckled “what happen to the pistol”
“yeh, I’d hate to shoot myself wrong and die a slow death. No something quick, clean”
“You are joking....” Lauren scoffed “what if the noose slips, you left dangling, choking a slow death.”
“oh.... I never thought about that.” Toni throws the rope under the car “guess it’s the sleeping pills and gassing myself in mum’s car.”
Lauren shook her head “you love talking about this, so when’s the big day.... when is your big day Toni?”
“well.... I haven’t decided when my big day is.”
“You know.... I hear you talk about killing yourself, and yet everything I’ve seen of you, what we just went through, you could have easily stayed in the car to die in a fiery ball of flames. An yet you fight to stay alive.
“You don’t.... know me” her tone changes to low growl
“Then talk to me.... tell me.” pushed Lauren
Toni left the garage and headed inside. She heard the sounds of splashing and looked over. Lauren had stripped to just her shirt and panties and was swimming in Toni’s pool
Toni walked to the edge of the pool. “What are you doing” arms folded
“Taking some time out, why don’t you try it, c’mon Toni.... join me. You need to have some fun”
Toni shook her head
Lauren smirked “Antonia”
Toni leapt into the water at Lauren who screamed and swam away. Toni surfaced and splashed after her. “I told you.... don’t call me that”
After playing about they held onto the side of the pool, Lauren looked over at Toni’s sad face
“I don’t understand Toni. You have a beautiful house, two parents who obviously earn a shit load of money.... and yet you act like it’s the end of the world, like nothing matters. You must care about something in your life.”
Toni eyes glisten for a moment. She looked at Lauren. Lauren brushed away hair from her face....
Toni climbs from the pool. She walked over to a box and opens it pulling out two towels. She takes her shirt off and wrings it out. Lauren watches Toni, looking over her semi naked body. It had bruises and scratches from last night’s events, but she never once complained. Lauren had her problems, yet she didn’t feel dead inside, but when she looks at Toni, she sees no life in her.
Toni wraps the towel around herself, drops her pants and leaves them. She walks inside.
Lauren paddled around a little longer and did the same thing. Once inside she found Toni sitting on the couch drinking a beer.
“Toni...”
“There is clothes up in my room” she said nothing more
They watch a DVD while drinking beer and eating chips, occasionally laughing. Toni gets up
“I need to take a piss” she announces
Lauren throws a chip at her “oh like I need to know about that, go away”
Toni laughs
She washes her hands and looks at her scratched face. She was actually having a good day for a change, enjoying Lauren’s company. She walked out “ok what shall we do now”
Toni stops and catches her breath. Lauren was look at something... Toni sees the book.... she was cemented to the spot
Lauren looks up “hey.... cute photo album, I never knew you were a blonde.... “
Toni eyes drifted across the photo, she wanted to throw up.
Lauren looks up to see Toni was pale, her chest heaving “Toni.... what’s wrong?”
Toni stepped closer, focussing on the album.
“You must be 10... right, cute bathers” Lauren said with a giggle.
Toni went to touch the photo but couldn’t, she instead closes the book, swallowing what she regurgitated. Lauren went to Toni, fearing she was going to pass out.
“Toni.... what is it.”
“That’s not me.....that’s my sister” she caught her breath as images ran through her head.
Lauren guesses this was the pain in Toni’s life “so where is she” as calmly as she could
Toni swallows “She’s dead...” Toni turned around as if to leave.
Lauren cut her off “Toni....”
“I can’t Lauren.... I can’t.....” tears started to well, her anger flared up “I won’t”
“What’s her name?”
Toni tried to block out Lauren’s question, she didn’t want to talk about it but couldn’t help herself “Hailey.... she’s 2 years.... she was 2 years older than me.”
“She’s cute like her younger sister” Lauren trying to lighten the mood
Toni shook her head “no.....she was beautiful... golden, blonde hair to her shoulders.” Toni puts a hand on her shoulder as she reminisces. She was popular in school, smart... loved music, makeup..... life.. She was my best friend, my entire family and she was taken from me.”
Lauren listened, she squeezed Toni’s hand “go on”
Toni took a breath “she died 2 years ago, in my arms....”
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2 years ago
“See Antonia.... told you putting your hair up makes you look gorgeous. Although you have just turned 16.... you look closer to 20.”
Toni looked in the mirror “yeh”
“Or we can just put them into two little pig tails”
Toni got up and pushes her sister away playfully “I’m not 6 anymore.”
They collapsed on Hailey’s bed. Hailey gets out her makeup and lightly puts it on Toni. “See what I mean about using only a little.... makes it look like more. You have a beautiful skin, you’re a natural blonde which means you can wear just about anything, and you don’t need a lot of makeup..”
Toni was painting her sister’s finger nails, enjoying her company before Hailey was to return to college.
“Hailey can I ask you a personal question.”
Hailey blew onto her fingers to dry them “Hmmm nice colour, good choice sis.... sure you can ask me anything.”
“Have you.... had....”
“Had what...”
“You know with your boyfriend...”
Hailey pretended not to know what her younger sister meant “no I don’t know, so how about you stop beating around the bush and ask me”
Antonia blushed “have you had sex... with him”
Hailey thought about it “you going to tell mum”
“Noooo I never tell her anything we do.... even when you snuck out on school nights.”
“ook... yeh... I have... a few times now.”
“What’s it like...”
Hailey made a face not sure how to answer “ummm”
“Was it beautiful, did it hurt.... my god you’re not pregnant are you, because you have been sick lately.”
“Whoa and back up little sister. Yes it was beautiful.... John was really sweet and gentle. I was a little uncomfortable at first, but after that... it was fine. I’m not pregnant because.” Hailey gets up, heads to her draw and pulls out some items putting them in front of Toni.
“I’m on the pill.... and he uses these.... condoms.”
Toni blushes....”ok.... so if I was to say... have sex I would need all this stuff.”
Hailey gasped “oh my god, you’re having sex, you’re barely 16.... who is he Antonia?”
Toni collapses on the bed laughing “I’m not having sex, I was just teasing.... but if I was...”
Hailey sighs “Well he must wear a condom, no matter what he says... You can go on the pill, but you’re a little young at the moment.” She hugs her sister “I don’t want you growing up yet, I want you to stay my baby.”
Toni hugs her “well for a little while”
They both heard a crash downstairs. Hailey puts hand to Toni’s mouth. They knew their mum and dad were at a work function and not expected back until after midnight. It was only 11pm.
Hailey gets up and listens at the door. She couldn’t hear anything now, but they both had heard something. She grabs her softball bat, Toni creeps behind her.
“Stay here Antonia...” whispers Hailey
“Nooooo way.... I’m with you” she says in a scared whisper
They creep downstairs.... and enter the dining room. Hailey first noticed the broken window and Antonia sees something from the corner of her eye. “Hailey” she screams
As Hailey looks around she is hit and falls over. Toni screams but someone grabs her mouth closing it “shut up you little bitch”
There were two masked men, the one who hit Hailey grabbed her. Hailey tried to fight so he hit her again, then pushed her to the dining table. “I’m gonna have me a piece of this sweet little thing”
He rips her night gown partly exposing Hailey’s body.
Antonia fights harder, but is punched and collapses to the carpet. The other guy was now ontop, had her pinned “you are all mine.... I’m going to split that little cherry of yours wide open.”
Hailey scream, was slapped again. She could see what was about to happen to her sister and struggled. She was momentary dazed when she felt him push inside hard, thrusting deeper each time, she was crying.
Antonia fought her attacker again, but her punched her and ripped at her panties. He pulled himself out, Antonia still groggy from the punch wasn’t lucid. Hailey saw what he was about to do and closes her eyes, but couldn’t shut her ears to the screams from Antonia as she was being raped
Antonia felt him inside her, the pain, burning, she struggled but he was too strong. His hand over her mouth, ramming in and out.
Hailey reached up and around, she could feel the guy ontop was about to reach his peak. She grabbed the glass vase and with all her strength hit him in the head. He fell to the ground.
Hailey got up, the guy ontop of his sister was about to react when she hit him in the head
“Antonia get out, run.....” Hailey screamed
Antonia was up and at the door, she pulled it open and ran to the street screaming. Hailey was almost at the door when the guy who raped her sister grabbed her and threw her back into the living room. Hailey's rapist was back on his feet, took off his ski mask and looked at the blood on his fingers.
He sneered “you fucking slut”
Antonia was on the other side of the road screaming, and then it echoed around the neighbourhood. Two gun shots. Antonia faced her house shaking. She heard two car doors closing and car racing off.
She started to walk back to the house “nooo Hailey....Hailey” she screamed.
She ran back into the house and on the floor in a pool of blood was her sister. Antonia collapsed beside her and picked her up “Hailey please...don’t die.....please.....”
Hailey looked into her young sister’s eyes and held her hand squeezing it “Antonia” was her last words as she died in her arms. Toni cradled her sister screaming
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Toni was about to fall when Lauren grabbed “Toni... Toni...it’s ok, I’ve got you.”
Toni couldn’t focus on Lauren, her eyes were all blurry. She couldn’t remember the last time she had tears like this.
Lauren look at the broken shell of Toni, and her heart broke too. She brushed aside the tears, but they were quickly replaced with more. Lauren looked at her, a different feeling washed over. Toni was gorgeous, her tears of pain staining her face, her sudden vulnerableness caused something to happen inside of Lauren.
Lauren launched at Toni’s lips, her tongue going down Toni’s throat. Toni was taken by surprised almost gagging at the sudden forcefulness but didn’t push her away. She embraced Lauren and kissed her back, snatching kisses between breaths, and tears. She back up and collapsed against the couch. Lauren didn’t relent, and eventually Toni was on the floor with Lauren on top kissing her all over.
Toni pushes her back a little trying to get air, but Lauren didn’t stop and attacked her lips again. Toni’s hands grasps Lauren’s back, pulling her hard to her, running under her shirt.
Lauren sat up immediately, still straddling Toni. Toni also sat up and both girls grabbed at Lauren’s shirt and removed it in one movement. Toni wrapped arms around Lauren’s back and kissed her deeply, her tongue darting inside Lauren’s mouth. Lauren broke the kiss, and arched back as Toni’s lips trailed down her neck and she latched onto her breast, licking it, sucking on it.
Lauren felt a sudden rush deep inside her, not like anything before. She wanted to explode, scream, and yell. She began to collapse backwards, Toni following her down, still kissing her, fondling her.
Toni couldn’t think straight, she had gone from the pain of remembering that night again to sexually attacking Lauren, she couldn’t stop herself, she wasn’t being stopped and didn’t know how far to go
“Toni.... Toni”
Toni stopped and looked down at Lauren. She had gone too far and was scared “I.. ummm” and started to back away
Lauren stopped her, kissed her, she lifted her hips again “Do something.... I need more....I need you inside me somehow....”
Toni broke the kiss, grabs at Lauren’s shorts pulling them down. Lauren was lying naked on the floor in front of her. She felt unsure,.... she had never done this before.
Lauren grabbed for Toni again, her tongue teasing outside Toni's mouth “cmon Toni I know you have wanted to do more than just kiss me, you know what to do... please
Toni had never thought must passed kissing, but now she wanted Lauren more than anything. She let her hand drift down between Lauren’s legs, massaging her patch. She slipped her finger into her wet slit and almost collapsed onto Lauren from the sensation it gave to her.
Lauren closed her eyes feeling Toni’s finger invade her. She lifts her hips and opens her mouth letting Toni’s tongue back inside. She maintains Toni’s passion, and grasps tightly when Toni penetrates her slowly.
Toni snatches hard at Lauren’s lips, as she thrusts quicker and deeper into Lauren, every spot she touched produced sounds of pleasure from both of them.
Lauren turns her head “oh my god.... yes.....” her body starts to shake, her voice quivering. She holds Toni begging for some sort of end “Toni.... please"
Toni removed her finger and felt the little tightness higher it up. It made Lauren buck and scream under her in a most wonderful way. She felt Lauren clamp down, then shudder again.
Lauren held onto Toni for a long while, head buried into her shoulder. She had no words, and didn’t think she could even speak at what just happened. All she knew was nothing like that had ever happened to her before, even when she was with Ritchie.... “
Toni was afraid to look at Lauren. Lauren pushed her up and Toni rolled over, closing her eyes, ashamed of herself. She put a hand over her face trying to hide.
Lauren gently stroked her face “Toni it’s ok....”
Toni completely turned away and cried
“Toni.... I’m not angry....please look at me, everything’s alright.”
Toni looks at Lauren through tears, she was now sobbing. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean for this” stuttered Toni “I don’t know what came over me, I’m soooo sorry.”
Toni sat up as did Lauren and held her “Shhhhh it’s ok.....you didn’t do anything wrong.”
Once Toni had regained her composure Lauran stood up pulling Toni with her. She took her hand and walk to Toni’s bedroom. Toni closed the door to her room and faced Lauren.
Lauren touched Toni’s cheek then pulled her into kiss. Slow, no expectation, just reassuring Toni that everything was still all right.
Lauren removed Toni’s shirt and touched her chest, hand caressing along her breasts and down her stomach. Toni’s body slightly shudders. Lauren couldn’t help but touch her again. She had never been with anyone sexually other than Ritchie, and now she was touching, caressing Toni. She didn’t feel confused, or ashamed of what she was doing, just the sense that Toni really needed her and she wasn’t going to abandon her because Toni didn’t abandon her, or because Toni was a girl. It didn’t matter to Lauren.
Toni backed away but Lauren wrapped arms around her “its ok”
She unbuttons Toni’s pants and pushes them down. Toni steps out and stands before Lauren naked. Lauren wraps arms back around Toni, who does the same and they stand holding each other, rocking against each other. Toni nuzzles down and takes Laurens lips, her intentions clear that she wanted more than just this and Lauren obliged kissing her back, snatching her lips.
Toni groans when Lauren takes hold of her breast and sucks at her nipple. Lauren felt it harden in her mouth, she let her tongue flick across it causing Toni to groan louder and grasp her tighter.
Lauren pushes Toni back until she is on her bed then climbs on top. “lie down” she encouraged
She had no idea what to do except to imitate what Toni did to her. Lauren’s hand felt its way down and rubbed her fingers into Toni’s blonde public bush. It felt soft to touch, she could now smell Toni’s scent.
Toni opens her legs, her breathing quickened. Lauren watches Toni expression when her finger slips down into her pussy. Toni looks at Lauren “that feels good”
Lauren started to lose her senses from feeling Toni’s wetness around her finger, making her own desires flare again.
Toni pulls Lauren into a kiss, unleashing her tongue. Lauren’s finger was at Toni’s hole and pushed inside. Toni’s opening was tight, so Lauren pushed in harder. Toni moaned and gripped Lauren’s tighter
Lauren stopped, remembering the forced intrusion of her rape. Toni touched Lauren’s face.. “its ok... I’m fine, just go a bit slower.”
Lauren push in as far as she could, then withdrew, then each thrust deeper than the last, quicker than the last.
Toni body lifted with each stroke and groaned with each penetration. Lauren wasn’t sure if she was doing anything right
“Toni.... I don’t know what I’m supposed to do...how to”
“You’re doing fine, just don’t stop....” she reassures
Lauren continued to stroke harder, deeper, longer. She slipped out and rubbed the swollen spot which ignited Toni. She cried out, wrapping her arms around Lauren and kissing her neck. Lauren didn’t remove herself, drawn to the pulses from Toni’s pussy. She slowly touched at Toni’s spot again, causing her to buck into Lauren, while Toni’s tongue was down Lauren’s throat sucking all her air.
“oh god. Oh god” repeated Toni as she felt another wave
Lauren rubbed harder until the final release and the pleas from Toni for her to stop. Toni eyes were closed, breathing deeply. She slowly open her eyes, they were blurred again.
Lauren wiped the tears away with her hand, then kisses the others. She rested on Toni’s shoulder, stroking her face. She kisses her gently, to reassure her again that everything they did was all right. Toni closes her eyes and they fall asleep.
***
Toni woke to the sound of the front door closing and someone calling her name “Antonia, get in here”
“shit... Lauren.... wake up, you have to go”
Lauren opens her eyes and yawns “huh... what”
“My mum’s home, you need to get dress and go quickly.”
Toni already had her clothes on.
Lauren smiled “why don’t you just tell your mum you are.... working on me.... as a school project” she joked
Toni put hands to her head in frustration “Lauren please.... this isn’t a time to joke.”
Lauren dressed and was mostly out the window when she turned around.
Toni was peering through her partly closed door when someone was behind. Toni turned around and was met with a pair of lips. Toni held the kiss until she heard her mum.
Lauren smiles “I dare you to call that a cheap shot” she leaves via the window
Toni sat on her bed with a book, but was just replaying over the whole afternoon. It was the happiest day of her life and couldn’t believe that one person, that Lauren could be that person to lift her from her doldrums.
Toni’s door open and her mum stood there furious “all bloody day and what do I get, your clothes all over the place, dishes in the sink. Life isn’t a free pass you know; sometimes you have to put a little effort in. So how about you get off your throne Antonia and help us out, life’s not all about you.”
Her mum left and Toni’s good day already started to slip away, she threw her book at the wall as the darkness moved back into her life.