Story: Awakening (V2) (chapter 3)

Authors: YuriFanGirl

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Chapter 3

Title: Chapter Three: Seduction Demonic

[Author's notes:

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Awakening

Chapter Three: Seduction Demonic


I spent most of the time I wasn't with Starfire with my nose buried in the tome.  I figured knowing more about the changes I may or may not experience down the line certainly couldn't hurt anything.  Most of what I learned wasn't really a cause for concern but a few of the closely related passages made me stop and think.  There were certain conditions laid down for the mating cycle that needed to be met and I had no desire to test the limits of them.  I decided that I would explain everything to Starfire after we got back from the club and proceed from there depending on her response.  For better or worse... it was time to get the truth...


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First Dance

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-Raven-


    I had to fight down the unfamiliar urge to squeal when the knock came at my door.  Looking at myself in the mirror one final time I decided that the outfit, while utterly embarrassing, felt oddly liberating.  Never before had I shown so much of my ash-gray skin and after seeing myself like this I decided that would have to change.  I also cast one last furtive glance at the large tome that lay atop my bed, the various warnings and insights about my situation cycling through my head before focusing my gaze on the door.  Trembling with a mixture of nervousness and excitement, I hit the button to open it.

    “Hey, Rave', I was wonderin' if you had a minute to talk... about... damn girl, what're you wearing!”  With a shriek I hit the button again to shut the door in Cyborg's face.  Heart rampaging in my chest, I summoned my cloak and threw it around my shoulders before hitting the button again.  He looked me up and down and shook his head.  “Liked it better the other way, but whatever.  You got a minute?”  

    “What?” I asked with a mixture of indignant anger and embarrassment.  The mechanical man scratched uncomfortably at the back of his neck for a minute before deciding on how to proceed.

    “How are you feelin'?”  I looked at him quizzically for a moment before sighing and lowering my gaze.

    “So you've noticed?” I asked, deciding to skip to the point and spare him the trouble.  “I figured that you'd be the first to catch on.”

    “Wasn't gonna say anything at first, figured it was just something personal but then Star started acting funny and all.  Goin' off the timing I'm sure it has somethin' to do with that whole mess with your father.  So... what's goin' on?” he asked finally.  I gave the mechanical man a sad smile.  Of the male Titans, I held the most respect for Cyborg.  Beast Boy was only tolerable due to his childish nature and Robin... well, even outside of my dislike of him because of the situation with Starfire I found him to be more than a little stuck up and arrogant.

    “It's a long, miserable, story but for you I guess I'll...” I could sense Starfire coming down the hall and frowned, my gaze shifting over to the tome that lay on my bed.  “Actually, I think this could explain the situation better than I can,” I said, picking up the book and charging it with dark energies.  “Just focus your thoughts on what you want to know and it'll open to the information you're looking for.”  I paused for a moment before handing him the book.  “Use the dark half for questions about my... father's side of me.”  He studied my face for a moment before nodding.

    “Thanks, Rave', I wouldn't ask if I didn't think it was important.”

    “I know...” I said quietly before turning as Starfire stepped up to the open doorway and frowned upon seeing the disappointed look on her face.  “What's wrong, Star?”

    “I have been most excited all day to see you in your new clothing.  It is okay though, Raven looks glorious no matter what she dresses herself in,” Starfire said, putting on an obviously fake smile.  Cyborg laughed as he reached over and jerked the cloak off my shoulders.

    “No need to be sad, Star, she's just shy!”  Cyborg shouted before erupting with laughter, only to pause when he realized he was the only one laughing.  Starfire's wide eyed gaze had brought a furious blush to my cheeks, forcing me to turn my eyes slightly sideways as she looked me up and down.

    “Raven... you look...”  I felt a swell of pride in the fact that she couldn't even finish the sentence.  Facing her fully, I took in the alien girl's own appearance with an appreciative up and down look.  For the most part she'd simply made alterations to her normal outfit but the effort was not lost on me.  The top she wore now left her shoulders and neck bare, relying solely on the girl's deceptively ample breasts to stay aloft.  She'd also replaced the forearm guards she normally wore with a pair of silver bracelets and her high boots with a pair of short heels.  The effect on the whole was staggering to my senses.  The mere sight of so much more of that gorgeous orange skin of hers made the burning in my stomach almost unbearable.

    “You look beautiful, Starfire...”

    “Right, I think I'm gonna go so you two can get to... whatever you're doing,” the mechanical man said uncomfortably, easing past Starfire and out the door.  “I'll just leave the book in your room when I'm done with it,” he called out as he made his way down the hall.

    “...glorious...” she finally manged.

    “Are you ready to go?” I asked.  After a moment she shook her head and looked at me clearly for the first time.

    “Yes I am, this is most exciting, is it not?” she asked, a sort of nervous glee in her eyes.  I smiled and held my arms out for her to which she paused and looked at me with that adorable head tilt.

    “I... uh... don't really want to fly wearing this,” I said, blushing as I tugged on the skirt.  She giggled behind her hand and nodded before floating forward and wrapping her arms around my neck.  I paused a moment to savor the wonderful feeling of her skin and breathe deeply of her sweet scent before enveloping us in darkness and teleporting us into the city.


-Starfire-


    “I do not think Jinx was being honest when she told us of this place,” Starfire said coldly.  I could feel her aura flare during the mention of the pink haired girl.

    “I didn't sense any deception when she suggested it,” I offered after a moment, the building did look more like an old meat packing plant than anything else though.

    “Maybe you were distracted by her and could not measure properly?” she offered with a hint of accusation in her voice.

    “What's that supposed to mean?” I asked, bringing a hint of scarlet to her cheeks.

    “I... I am not sure,” she said quietly and turned away.  “I think it would be best if we simply went to another place.  Terra once took me to a club of dancing on the other side of the city, it would be better if we went there instead.”  I paused at the nervous tone of her voice.

    “Is something wrong, Starfire?”  She looked at me a moment before lowering her eyes.

    “I do not trust Jinx.  I feel that she has something planned for you that... that I do not like.”  I smiled and put my hand on her shoulder.

    “I don't know what I did to deserve someone like you in my life, Koriand'r... but whatever it was I'm glad it happened,” I said quietly.  Her eyes seemed to sparkle at this.

    “It is a rare treat when Raven uses my real name... I, too, am grateful for the fortune that brought us together.  You are the greatest friend I have ever had.”  We shared a quiet moment before I stepped forward and put my hand on the door.

    “I say we go in.  The worst that can happen is we beat up some thugs and spend a little more time together.  That's not too bad if you ask me.”  She seemed to think about it for a moment and stepped up next to me.  Grinning broadly I pushed open the door and found pretty much exactly what one would expect from the outside.  The entirety of the massive room was lined with various areas for cutting and packaging large quantities of meat.  There was something else though, a strange disturbance seemed to permeate through the floors into the heels of my shoes.  I summoned a pool of darkness and sent it out across the floor to find the source of the disturbance.  “It's over here,” I said quietly, reaching out to take her hand and guide her through the darkened factory floor towards the carefully hidden entranceway and threw it open with a surge of power.  We were instantly struck by a wave of warm air and hypnotically pulsing music.

    “She did say it was a club that was under the ground, yes?” Starfire suggested sheepishly.  I merely grinned and took her hand as we descended the steps, making sure to close the entrance behind us.  It took all of three seconds to determine exactly what type of club this was.  No matter where you looked there were women dancing, women flirting over drinks, or women locked in steamy kissing sessions.  I swallowed nervously and sneaked a quick peek at Starfire to see her reaction, my heart falling when I saw the disturbed look on her face.

    “I... is something wrong, Star?” I asked after a while, my palm suddenly feeling sweaty in hers.

    “It is just odd...” she said slowly, her tone sending icy cold fingers of dread to work their way around my heart.  “This looks very much the same as the club of dancing that Terra took me to.  Do men not dance on this world?”  I let out a choked laugh, my suspicions about the tomboyish blonde being confirmed.

    “I... well I'm sure they do, it's just this club is only for women I think.”

    “I see!” she said in wonderment.

    “Starfire...” I began nervously, a glimmer of hope I hadn't been expecting burning in my chest.  “Did... did you enjoy it?”

    “Oh yes!  Many of them wished to dance with me and buy me sweet tasting drinks.  They were all very nice, I had a glorious time!” she said, her aura flaring wildly as she bounced in rhythm with the music.  I glanced nervously at the throng of scantily clad women that filled the room, the fear of the lust that burned inside me building rapidly.  The tantalizing view was suddenly replaced with Starfire's concerned face.  “If it is too much for you we do not have to stay.”  I shook my head, unwilling to pass up such a chance no matter the risk.

    “I need to do this, Star... and you'll be with me, right?”

    “I will not leave your side, Raven,” she said, giving my hand a reassuring squeeze before floating in the direction of the dance floor and tugging me along.  “Come, I will show you some of the moves of dancing I learned last time!”  As if on cue, the instant we stepped foot onto the dance floor the fast paced music died down into a slow and easy romantic melody.  I swallowed hard over the lump in my throat.

    “I... I guess we'll have to...”

    “Oh, these are my favorite!” she exclaimed happily, taking my hands and placing them on her hips before slipping hers around my neck and pressing in against me.  The combined assault of my thumbs caressing her bare waist, her body pressed tight against mine, and the most powerful wave of her sweet scent I'd ever been struck with left me trembling against her lithe body.  “You have nothing to be afraid of Raven,” she whispered sweetly into my ear.  “Think of my body against yours and feel safe.”

    'It's your body I don't trust myself with...' I thought dreamily as I nodded and pressed myself closer against her as we rocked slowly back and forth.  The feeling of our breasts and our hips rubbing together ever so slightly as we moved was absolutely incredible.  I was, however, surprised to find that the sexual tension I had expected did not come.  Rather, it had been replaced by something else entirely.  Something deeper and infinitely more intimate.  It was like I could feel every single movement of her body flowing into me, the sensation of skin against skin was heightened a hundred fold and every single hint of her scent was making my body tingle.  I slid my hands up and down her waist a few times before tracing them around to the small of her back to tease the warm orange flesh there.  I heard her gasp and pulled away slightly, just enough to catch sight of the graceful curve of her neck.  Unable to resist, I leaned in and pressed my lips against her skin, relishing in the silky warmth it provided.  It was like paradise...

    “Raven... the song has ended,” Starfire's voice drifted through the haze of exhilaration.  I opened my eyes and saw that everyone had returned to dancing as usual, the rhythmic throb of trance music echoing within the walls.  I pulled my lips away with an audible pop, surprising myself with the knowledge that I had been suckling joyously on her neck.

    “That was... that was incredible Starfire!” I shouted, slowly peeling myself away from her body.  “Is it always like that?”  She smiled and shook her head.

    “I do not think so.  It was not like that with the other girls I danced with... I am excited to find out if the other moves of dancing are as wonderful when I am with you!” she said, also sounding somewhat dizzy.  I caught the faintest hint of a spicy scent and turned towards the writhing throng of women in search of its source.  “Is something wrong, Raven?”  I turned back towards Starfire and shook my head.

    “So... um... do you think you can teach me to dance like them?” I asked, motioning towards a pair of girls that were grinding their hips together and caressing each others bodies with reckless abandon.  Starfire's face flushed as she nodded shyly.

    “I am most grateful that you asked...”

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Rejection

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The memory of Starfire's hips bucking and grinding against my own as her hands caressed almost every inch of my body would forever be burned into my mind.  The night at the club had been one incredibly exhilarating moment after another and it pained me to have to leave that wonderful place.  I made several mental notes to thank Jinx for giving me such a wonderful insight into the depths that Starfire's wild passion could reach.  Every new discovery I made about the beautiful alien girl had me falling deeper and deeper in love with her and what's more, the hope that she would accept my love was soaring ever higher.


I felt invincible... and unfortunately... feeling invincible is only the first step to realizing that you're not...



-Raven-


    “Thank you so much Starfire!  This has been the most incredible day of my life!” I shouted, flinging myself into her arms in much the same way I would expect from her.  She laughed lightly as we rolled in the air above the tower and returned my hug joyfully.

    “I am very grateful to you as well, friend Raven, for the same reasons you speak of.  I have never felt as free as I did while dancing in your arms.  So many wonderful feelings I had not yet experienced!  There was much learning for both of us I think.”  There was only one word of that I didn't like.

    “Friend Raven...” I muttered quietly before I could stop myself.

    “Is something wrong?” she asked, pulling back to fix me in her emerald gaze.

    “Starfire... we need to talk.”  Picking up on the seriousness of my tone she nodded and floated us down to the rooftop and waited patiently for me to continue.  Looking into those sweet and innocent eyes I found my resolve beginning to falter.  The idea that what I had to say might hurt her in some way made it almost unbearable but I knew I couldn't let things continue as they were, not after tonight.  I took a deep breath and spoke the first words.  “I can't do this anymore Star... spending so much time with you like this has been so wonderful... but so painful as well.  I lived my whole life alone and locked up in a near emotionless prison with your sweet presence merely teasing me with what it was like to be normal... to be happy.  And now that my emotions are free... now that I can feel everything for what it is... now that I can enjoy your presence with every fiber of my being... it scares me...”

    “Raven...” she said quietly, reaching out to gather me in her arms but I pulled away.  

    “I'm scared because I want to be more than just your friend, Koriand'r... you're so perfect... so absolutely beautiful that I can barely contain myself.” I took her hands in mine and locked my eyes with hers, taking in her nervous excitement and using it to fuel to resolve.  “I... I want to be... I want what you have with... I want you to love me in the way that you love Robin!”  It passed through her eyes and her aura so quickly that I would have missed it if not for my heightened awareness of the girl.  A shear tidal wave of confusion as was to be expected but just tinging the edges of it... was disgust.

    “I... I was not expecting you to say that... I do not understand, Raven, I thought that you...”

    “I know you don't understand... part of me kept telling myself that you wouldn't no matter how much you seemed to enjoy being with me... but I just had to try.”

    “But... why would you feel that way for me?  You are a female, it is not natural.”  I turned away, my heart unable to bear it any longer.

    “I'm sorry Koriand'r... I hope that someday you'll understand...” I whispered as the darkness enveloped me.


-Starfire-


    Eyes bleary with tears, Starfire halfheartedly hovered down through the tower, bumping into walls and tables as she went.  She had never understood the feeling of being numb on the inside until this point.  She had never before known the ache of having all of your hopes dashed to pieces until this night.  She had never, in all of her life, felt as sad and lonely as she did right now.  The alien girl didn't know or care where her flight took her, she only hoped it was somewhere less painful.

    “Hey, Star, you and Rave' back from... Starfire?”  She looked up blearily to see that she had made her way into the living room and had three sets of eyes upon her.

    “I...”

    “Starfire, what's wrong?!”  Cyborg reached her first and shook her lightly by the shoulders.

    “I...”

    “Where's Raven?”  The mentioning of the dark haired girl managed to bring her thoughts into focus.

    “I am the heart broken...” she whimpered, bottom lip trembling as tears began to swell in her eyes.  “Raven... such sweet words she said to me... told me I was beautiful... I thought... I thought she wished me to be her Rentrap Evol!” she wailed as the sadness broke through.  Cyborg's human eye went wide as his programming translated the Tamaranean words.  He just barely managed to keep from dropping her.

    “What's a... whatever the heck she just said?” Beast Boy asked, glancing nervously at Robin.  The mechanical man paused for a moment, unsure of whether he should tell them.

    “It's... a promise of love for life kinda thing... like getting engaged only more important... like a soul mate,” Cyborg said before returning his attention to the heartbroken girl.  “Starfire, I need to know what she said, it's important.”  The girl nodded and tried to sniffle back her tears.

    “She did not swear the... the life love with me.  I do not understand... she said she wished to be my father...” she whispered pitifully, nearly giving into the tears again.

    “Father?” Cyborg muttered before shaking his head.  “What did she say exactly?”

    “She... she had just told me how beautiful she thought I was and then she... she said she wished I loved her like I love Robin.  I told her I did not understand because she was a female too... she became very sad and left... I hurt her and I do not understand how!”  It took all of five seconds for the situation to play itself out in Cyborg’s head and he shook it sadly.

    “Starfire, that's not it at all!  She thought you were in love with Robin like a life lover... we all did actually,” Cyborg added, throwing Robin a curious glance.  The boy wonder merely shrugged and shook his head.  Starfire's tears came to a sudden stop.

    “Raven does not wish to be my father?”  Cyborg shook his head.  “She wishes to swear the life love with me?”

    “Well, I think so, but Star, I've got something important to...”

    “I am coming Raven!” she shouted, pushing away from the mechanical man and flying up the stairs towards the dark haired girl's room.

    “This could be bad guys...”

    “Tell me about it, it's weird seeing Star fall apart like that,” Beast Boy muttered.

    “I ain't talkin' about Star... Raven's in trouble...”

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Diverging paths...

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My chest hurt, and not just the metaphorical heart ache that came from being rejected by Starfire.  It literally felt like my heart was going to rip its way out of my chest.  My skin was burning, and not in the pleasant way it did whenever my lust was reaching its peak, it felt like it was about to melt from my bones.  It seemed like my whole body was rebelling against me as my yet to be sated lust ran rampant throughout my system.  Thought and motion seemed to blur together at random and, without any recollection of how I'd gotten there, I found myself back outside the club leaning against the heavy doors and clutching at my chest.  My rampant emotions ceased their swirling for barely a moment and I could taste the bitter misery that consumed me.  My love, the only thing I could ever say I wanted with all my heart to be fulfilled, had been denied to me by the very nature of the world itself.  I was unfit, unclean, undeserving, and... unnatural.  A freak with no place in the world.


But then it occurred to me in my half mad state that there were always other paths beyond the ones we felt were destined to us, other ways of forging our journey through life.  And there was always... always... someone else to love...



-Raven-


    I paused for a few moments to watch her dance.  She was alone but that was purely by choice as I could feel the desire from the women around her without even a hint of effort.  The attention was well deserved I noted as my eyes took in every graceful curve her fantastic meta-human body had to offer.  Every movement held a deadly sort of grace to it and before long I found it much more hypnotizing than the music itself.  I began to drift closer, catching an occasional hint of that spicy scent she carried in that deliciously pale skin of hers.  Her rhythmic dancing combined with the music and that lofty aroma were putting me into the somewhat familiar state of dizzy euphoria.

    “Hey!  Who the fuck do you think you... Raven?”  I shook my head to clear it and realized I had a hand firmly placed on her ass.  She quirked an eyebrow and grinned like a cat that knew it was doing something it shouldn't before slowly starting up her dancing once again, inching back towards me until we were pressed together.  “Figured you'd be all cozy with your princess after that show you put on earlier.  I never would have guessed she'd be such a hell cat on the dance floor.”

    “She didn't want me,” I said blankly, barely registering the shock on her face as I took her hips in my hands and began moving in tune with her.  Part of me felt a rush of exhilaration, the other part felt numb.

    “She could have fooled me... but then I don't really see you as a vanilla kinda girl,” she said, spinning around and mounting my leg.  The feel of her heat against my thigh was almost unbearable. The dizzy euphoria was quickly changing into rampant lust.  I buried my face in her neck and nipped at the tender flesh while my hands snaked down to give her surprisingly supple backside a good squeeze.  She pushed me back and kissed her way up my neck to tug gently on my lower lip with her teeth.  “Figured a more exotic flavor would be right for you,” she whispered, eyes hazy with lust.

    “Jinx...”

    “Raven...”

    I leaned in and kissed her.  The moment our lips touched, I knew my life would never be the same...


    The alarm sounded for a full two minutes before I managed to summon up enough willpower to drag myself out of bed and phase into my leotard, noticing with some distaste how snug it felt against my body.  Falling out of shape was always a clear indicator that things were going downhill for a crime fighter and I was no exception to the rule.  The previous months had been such a mixture of bitter and sweet that I could never really decide if I was happy or depressed.  I sighed at the reflection the mirror offered me; hair long and unkempt, bags under my eyes from lack of sleep, and said weight gain all rolled into an ugly package I barely recognized anymore.  I took a final longing look at the bed before wrapping myself in darkness and teleporting to the main room.

    “Hey,” I say to the others who have obviously been waiting for me to arrive.  Robin looks as if he wants to reprimand me but the words die on his lips.  Cyborg and Beast Boy barely even look at me, the distant yet friendly relationship we once shared now a thing of the past.

    “Friend Raven, it is good that you have come,” Starfire says, floating over to me and smiling.  Of course she had forgiven me.  It simply wasn't in her nature to hold a grudge.  Still though, her friendly affection was more out of pity than desire, even if she didn't realize it.  To be honest, I wish she had taken up the indifference the others had but I didn't have the heart to tell her.  Even after everything that happened, her feelings still meant so much more to me than my own.

    “Thanks, Starfire,” I say quietly, barely paying attention as Robin outlines whatever is happening that requires our attention.  I sigh as I realize even this has fallen into a routine of half caring babble that I ignore until the always present...

    “Titans go!”  There it was, the call to action.  He'd say the words and we'd all jump to it using our various methods.  It was all so...

    “Wait!” a voice called from the top of the stairs.  I turned to see her... well, them really, the only light the world had left for me.  Jinx stood at the top of the stairs, leaned against the railing for support with one hand bracing the side of her enormously swollen belly that managed to look even larger on her petite frame.  “Were you honestly just going to leave your girls behind without goodbye kisses?” she asks, tapping one slipper clad foot impatiently.  I floated up to the top of the steps with a smile and kissed her on the lips before placing another one on her belly.

    “You know, I thought you were just being snippy, but I'm starting to think you were right...” I said, tugging uncomfortably at my leotard.

    “Oh relax, you look beautiful,” she said, glancing irritably down the stairs as Robin cleared his throat impatiently.  “Guess you'd better get going, you take care of yourself out there.”

    “I promise,” I whispered, stealing one final kiss before making my way downstairs.  I managed to catch sight of Starfire's downcast expression before she hid it behind her usual smile.  “Let's go.”


    I pulled away from the kiss and reeled backwards as if I'd been struck, falling to my knees as the impression from the vision seared itself into the back of my mind.  I'd only had a few visions like that in my life and unfortunately they all shared a common theme... the wrong path for my life to take.  The tears came all too easily as I realized my chance for happiness in the future was almost non-existent.  I could feel Jinx kneel down with me and lean her head on my shoulder.

    “Jinx... I...”

    “I saw it too,” she said quietly.  “It's sweet that you would love me so much... even with how huge I was carrying that baby of yours... but I know the wrong thing when I see it.  Looks like my bad luck lives up to its name with you, Raven.”

    “I'm sorry...”

    “Nah, don't be.  I should have known better after seeing the two of you dance earlier.  I've always had a problem trusting my gut...”

    “I thought I picked up on your scent, why didn't you say anything?”

    “I was the DJ,” she said with a giggle.

    “So then you...” I trailed off at the memory of the slow song's timing.

    “You can thank me later, just go and get the girl or whatever it is you hero types do.  This city would be shit without you protecting it,” she said, finishing with a wink.

    “I don't even know where to start... but I'm going to try,” I said, voice filling with a measure of confidence.  I stood and lifted her up with me, our eyes met and I smiled a sad smile before pulling her into an embrace.  Our lips came together for a gentle kiss as the memory of eight months of love and affection faded slowly into the back of our minds.  “Thanks Jinx,” I whispered after pulling away, taking a few steps back and gathering the darkness around me.

    “Hey Raven?” she called out.

    “Yeah?”

    “If things don't work out like they're supposed to... or if you and Starfire just want some extra company... promise you'll come and see me?” she asked with a nervous smile.  I grinned and nodded.

    “I promise,” I said before vanishing with the darkness.

    “I hope so,” she whispered to the empty air, a single tear rolling down her cheek.  “I gave up everything I was so you would notice me...”


To be continued...

[End notes:

As you might have noticed (probably not ^_^) there's been a total restructuring of the story here to better pace things out and to incorporate the added content.

I hope you're liking this stuff because I'm absolutely in love with it.  Please drop a review and tell me what you think so far!

Oh! The new chapter, titled Emotional Chaos, is still being edited so it should be out in... probably the next few days depending on time constraints.  See you soon!

 

In Loving Memory of Kasumi Lien Li Masters

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