A/N: Before I get started I would like to inform all the readers that I do not own Naruto or any song mentioned in this fanfic, they all belong to their respective owners. This is my first Naruto fic so please be gentle and R & R. Thanks! ^.^
A Hidden secret
(Rated M for Cursing, and Emoness) This story is about Shoujo-ai/Yuri/GirlxGirl, Lesbian love. IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT DON'T READ IT DAMN YOU!!! YOU'VE BEEN WARNED!! (HinataxSakura)
Chapter 1
Hinata’s Emo Side
This part of the story takes place during the Chunin exam arc.
(Hinata POV)
I was nervous, as I usually was during this time of day, though it seemed to increase tenfold whenever I thought about him. He always made me feel secure inside…but whenever I wanted to confront him about my feelings I always ran away, or fainted due to the amount of blood rushing to my cheeks. Though today I finally felt totally alive, I felt that every pore in my being was about to cry out and yell "NARUTO I’M IN LOVE WITH YOU!!" before it had a chance to reach my lips. I had to tell him today…I just had to. I couldn’t live with myself If I didn’t…. my whole being couldn’t hold it in any longer…
When I left the ninja academy I noticed him talking with the rest of his team. Sakura, Sasuke, and his sensei Kakashi seemed to have been interested in the topic. I swallowed the lump in my throat and walked toward them. As I approached I began to realize what they where talking about.
"Naruto! How many times have I told you not to order such a large meal…you’ll only weigh yourself down before your match."
"Oh come on Kakashi-sensei! I need to eat! I need all the strength I could get!"
"Naruto, you know you won’t be able to beat anyone if you gorge yourself like a loser"
Naruto swerved on Sasuke-san and immediately I saw rage in his eyes…luckily for Naruto I stopped him before he could throw a fit on Sasuke’s face.
"Um…N-Naruto-kun…"
He turned toward me with those beautiful blue eyes of his and immediately the rage just vanished, replaced by his usual perplexing kindness.
"Hey Hinata-chan! What’s up?" I glanced away from his aquamarine eyes and noticed that the others were staring at me almost awkwardly I felt myself fidget a little but finally got enough courage to ask one simple question to his sensei.
"Um...K-Kakashi-sensei...I-Is it ok if I can talk to Naruto-kun....alone...Please?" the last part of my sentence was almost dangerously quiet but lucky for me he understood.
"Of course Hinata-san you may see him..." then turning to the others he said.
"Come on you two lets leave them alone for a while."
Silently they leave...but, and this is just a hunch, I swear I saw Kakashi-sensei smile under his mask.
"So..." Naruto-kun said with a happy smile "Whatcha wanna talk about Hinata?"
"U-Um...first is it okay if we could go to the training area? Naruto-kun?" I wanted this to be as private as possible...it will kill me if anyone found out that I was in love with the blonde haired boy.
"Hmmmm Sure! I could use a warm-up before my fight!" he said with a smile and we were off.
At the Training area...
When we walked into the clearing my heart beat almost painfully I felt sick...I almost felt like my future depended on this. That my whole being was going to fall apart if I didn’t tell him this sooner or later...it all had to happen now.
"Ya ready? Hinata-chan? I won’t go easy on you!" He said with that same lovely smile on his face...but I couldn’t move, the blood was rushing to my face faster than ever before...I had to say it now!
"N-Naruto-kun...um....I didn’t ask you out here to spar with you...I...I have something to tell you...."
"Hmm?" My Naruto-kun said with that cute curious look on his face..."What’s that Hinata-chan?
This is it! I have to say it now! I have to!!!
"I....I......I I’ve been thinking about you for a long time, and I just want to be with you forever…Naruto-kun...I-I-love you"
I said it! After all these years of holding back my feelings I finally said those three words I have only said in my dreams! The weight I have been feeling vanished from my chest...but soon...it all started to pile up again as I saw his face twist and contort.......
"W-What? You WHAT?"
"Naruto?" I said shakily tears welling in my eyes... "What’s wrong?"
"I’m sorry Hinata-chan...But I can’t return your love..." He said with almost a hint of sorrow. "I’m in love with another..."
The tears were pouring down my face now, I felt weak, and I wanted to die...after all these years and only to be rejected! This can’t be happening to me! I couldn’t stand any more...my body felt numb my legs couldn’t handle the weight of the truth...I could never have him....even if I became stronger I could never be with him. I felt droplets of rain hit my back like little daggers piercing me repeatedly. I was there on my knees, my legs unable to move from where they were, the dirt turned to mud beneath me...I didn’t care anymore...nothing mattered anymore.
"S-Sakura-san? Is that who you love Naruto?" I said with an almost dead tone...
"....."
His silence was the only answer I needed
"...I’m sorry Hinata-Chan....but I just don’t love you like that...."
"I understand Naruto-san...I will...stay out of your way..."
"We can still be friends Hinata-chan! Really!" He said with a smile, his damn happiness returning. I couldn’t stand to look at him anymore, I just wanted him to go away and leave me be.
"Friends...that...sounds good....Naruto-kun..."
"Great! Heh heh! See ya later!" I hear him run off in the mud and through the foliage back toward the village. My body felt terrible, numb, it felt like I had been punched in the gut. I couldn’t stand it. I didn’t even feel like doing the chunin exams any more...I just wanted everyone and everything to go away.
(Sakura POV)
When I saw them leave, I felt numb, the only person I could thing about at that moment was Hinata, I cared for her deeply...ever since she first joined the academy I always looked after her from afar. Her beautiful violet colored eyes, her silky smooth skin, everything was perfect about her. I never wanted her to feel angry or depressed because every time she was I just wanted to hold her in my arms and comfort her, defend her from the stresses of the real world for just a few moments. When I saw Naruto return with a smile on his face my heart dropped, I swore she finally told him her feelings. My mind was doing summersaults my one chance for love was gone! I clasped my head in my hand, the sheer pressure of depression washed over me like ice cold water. Of course, it really didn’t help that it was raining ice water on the village at the moment. Though it was of little consequence, my heart was shattered into a million pieces.
"Sakura, you okay?" said my bird haired friend, and teammate "You look pale."
I immediately forced a smile and spoke in my usual chipper girl voice, the one I so despised with a passion.
"Oh it’s nothing Sasuke-kun! I-I must have just ate something that didn’t suit well with me! I’ll be fine honest!" I gave him my disgusting "happy" smile as best as I could…he must have bought it because he just looked at me awkwardly and shrugged.
"Whatever, I’m gonna stock up on kunai knives. Just get out of the rain before you catch a death of cold."
He said finally leaving me to my despair. I appreciated his concern but my love for him is all an act, I only care for him as a friend, I could never love him as my boyfriend…he’s too Emo for my taste. The only reason I keep the act going is to ensure my place within the village…if they found out I was a lesbian, I’m positive that I’ll be kicked out of the ninja academy and the village. That’s the last thing that I want, but if it were possible I would be with Hinata forever. But at the moment that was the last thing on my mind, currently I was wondering where Hinata was and where she took Naruto.
"Hey Naruto…"
That self centered idiot looked at me with a smile on his face, I’m sure he was definitely happy inside.
"What's up Sakura-chan?"
"Um…where’d Hinata-chan, take you?"
"Oh, the training area…why?"
I felt a blush coming on my face….mainly because I wanted to hide my true intentions from him and the world.
"Oh no reason…"
he gives me this weird fox like stare and then he heads toward Ichiraku ramen mumbling about the Tenkatsu ramen or something.
My heart sunk to the lower reaches of my body, I only wished that Hinata was ok. Something told me though that I was pushing my luck.
I headed toward the training area down the same path I have taken time and time again. My senses were getting jacked up due to the rain which practically drenched my clothes and made my hair cling to my face. It was annoying, but I was more concerned about my Hinata than anything else at the moment. I continued to walk down that path until I entered the clearing were Kakashi-sensei trained me and the others our first time together.
And there I saw..
"Hinata! Why are you still in the rain?" I rushed over to her, and wrapped my arms around her quivering body. Her wet body against mine felt really good and I could already feel myself get even wetter (which wasn’t due to the rain by the way) but suddenly I felt her soft gentle hands against my face, her skin was soft to the touch. The next thing I knew I’m sent flying across the slippery surface of the grass 5 feet from where I used to be! I was shocked I never knew Hinata had so much strength in her, but why did she do that?
"You…" her voice was like pure evil escaping from her being, her eyes where hidden by her bangs, which made her look murderous.
"Never call me that again…" She raises her head and she looks at me like I’m the lowest creature on earth, I feel my heart explode in my chest, my Hinata, that gaze I found so beautiful and desireable was now twisted and distorted to pure malice. For some reason her eyes where no longer that beautiful light violet, but a dark and murderous dark purple that sent chills down my spine. And her voice somehow seemed older, more like she grew about 10 years or so, but her body was still the same.
"Haruno Sakura…my life was ruined because of you, I swear I will make yours a living hell! From this day forward we are enemies, and I swear, you will die by my hand." She turns and walks toward the entrance of the training grounds, but turns suddenly and looks at me once more.
" Hyuuga Nata, remember that name. For I will not forget yours."
She starts back up toward the village and I am gazing after her in disbelief my Hinata is now my sworn enemy?! What have I done to deserve this? Oh gods what have I done?!?
(Nata POV)
I’ never felt so pissed off in my life, I hated everyone, everything, my parents, my clan, my village, everywhere I looked was just another piece of worthless crap that needed to be thrown away. I was walking down the cobbled path toward my house around the corner from the training academy, little kids rushed past me playing their sick ass game of hide and seek. It didn’t matter to me, all that mattered to me at the moment was to get away from everything. I felt something hit my leg and I realized those disgusting brats kicked a ball in my direction.
"Excuse me ma’am can we have our ball back?" said one of the little roaches, her hair pinned up in a fashionable display of her future self: a whore. I grasped the ball firmly and dropped it. It connected with my foot and went flying into the forest and disappeared from sight. The screams and anger of the kids and parents was music to my ears. I guess spreading the hate makes one actually feel better huh?
I finally made it to my house, the walls were cleaned and polished to a shine, and the maids were running around like chickens with they’re heads cut off…which seemed rather interesting at the moment…maybe I’ll ask dad to get me some live chickens later on today. I continued further inside and found father cooking some sushi, fried rice, and dumplings.
"Ah Hinata, Your home! I was worried since it started to rain." His face then changes from one of relief to worry
"Are you alright? It looks like someone punched you in the face." I didn’t want to bother him with a fucking explanation, all I wanted to do was go in my room and be left the hell alone. So I told him what I felt like telling him.
"Stay the fuck out of my business and suck a dick Dad."
His reaction was predictable, the oh-my-god-what-did-you-just-say-look on his face and then topped with the ‘go to your room and I’ll deal with you in a minute" shtick. I didn’t care about the prick. I could kill him if I wanted to…but that’ll only reduce ‘the old and senile people who shit in their pants’ population. I finally made it into my room, my white bed, white walls, and violet carpet all burned my eyes, the bright colors reminded me of that bitch Sakura and that prick Naruto.
I took my clothes off and threw them into some unforeseen location and plopped into my bed, the tears streaming from my eyes. I really didn't care at the moment, all I wanted right now was to sleep, and forget everything...
(Sakura POV)
I couldn't believe what happened! My only one true love has declared me an enemy before my eyes! I felt like a Zombie as I walked back to my house, ignoring my friends, and the concerned tones of their voices, all i wanted to do was try to figure out why Hinata wanted me to die so badly. I kept wandering what happened to Hinata in the training area that set her off so badly...and who the hell is Nata??? I only hope everything would fix itself in the morning, but somehow I doubted that would happen.
My mom kept asking me stupid questions but I ignored them all, no one would be able to understand my grief. No one would be able to understand how I feel right now...all I wanted to do was to shun the world for what they did to her...and for tainting my beautiful angels heart. I collapsed in the bed and fell asleep...praying to the Godesses that my Angel would return to me.
A/N: Yea I know it's short, I just wanted to get this thing started and see how you guys like it. I hope you guys enjoyed it, (yes I know no yuri so far...that'll probably be in the next Chap.) so tell me how you liked it please ^.^
P.S. I apologize for the retype….i just realized that her mother is never mentioned in the series (as far as I know) and as such I decided to go against it. Again I apologize for the change! (Bows)
well I hope you enjoyed the little fix up….heh….
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…..Don’t kill me! :runs:
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