Story: Locked Up (all chapters)

Authors: Blood_Covered_Pheonix

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Chapter 1

Title: Chapter I: It begins

The cold metal of the handcuffs dig into my wrists as the guard tightens them. “Yesh, why so tight?” I ask as begin to shuffle along the long hallway with the evil guard practically breathing down my neck.

          He stops me for the tenth time in the hour we’ve been in this thirty-foot long hallway. “What now?” I ask exasperated. Suddenly I feel a sharp pain explode in my left shoulder; I turn around to retaliate only to have the nightstick crash down on my right shoulder, this time with much more force making my knees buckle a little, I end up on my back after he sucker punches me in the gut. He kicks at my side but I roll out of the way and jump up, attempting to kick him; falling on my ass instead though.         

  The guard grabs me by my hair and pulls me to my feet. “Come on bitch, time to stop playing.” I grunt softly.

 He pushes me to the end of the hallway and through a door into a room that has two horizontal rows of cells running along each wall, except for the one that has the door I just came through on it.

There are about five cells in each row, instead of being a three-walled room with a barred section for a fourth wall, the cells are medium sized rooms with a six foot by three foot doorway, with a big plexiglass window on the door.“Welcome to the good behavior ward.” The guard says as he leads me to the left and up a set of stairs, and then to the last cell in the row. “Yo, Mag you in there?” He calls through the door.           

“Yeah, I’m in.” A smoky voice calls through the door. The guard unlocks the door and opens it. He takes off the cuffs and shoves me inside. I let my eyes scan over the cell; there is a toilet and sink in the corner opposite the door, two beds pushed against the walls one is completely unkempt with porn magazines, books and hair bands thrown all over it, with the shelf above it loaded with more porn and two or three books, also at the base of this bed is a cardboard box, I can only guess what’s in there.

The other bed is untouched, still made and everything, well except for the naked crimson haired, and blue eyed woman on it. I can’t help it as my eyes wonder up her body, taking in her toned legs, her smooth abs, the roundness of her breasts, the way the cold air made her nipples hard or maybe it was the porn magazine she was reading. She looks up and me a grins as she notices the scarlet tint of my cheeks.   

The mystery woman, who I take to be Mag, stands up and offers her hand to me. “Mag.” I nod. “Riza.” She smiles and grabs her jumpsuit off the bed, putting it on half way then folding it on her waist, shrugging into the white shirt and not bothering to tuck it in. Mag is about five feet three inches, and smells like axe.

I sigh and lie down on my bed and close my eyes, soon falling asleep.          I wake up to something snuggling against my body, I look down as I expect to see Craige, my boyfriend, but instead all I see is red hair. Blinking in confusion at first but then remembering that Craige is in jail for life, with no chance of parole, and he is the reason I am in jail for five years. I close my eyes against the memory and fall asleep again. In the morning I wake up to the sun shinning through the window behind my bed, groaning softly as I start to stretch.

I let out a soft whimper as I’m pulled back down and a face snuggles in between my breasts. “Hey, hey, hey don’t be so friendly.” I say as I attempt to push her away, it doesn’t work though she just nips my nipple. “Cool it, I’m still tired.” She says sleepily. “No get off of me.” I say as I try again. This time she rolls on top of me and uses her soupier strength to keep my arms down. “Calm down.” She says with more force. I whimper softly and let her snuggle back into the valley between my breasts. After an hour or two of Mag’s light snoring, and constant changing position, the lummox finally gets up and then goes to the toilet to take a shit, I close my eyes and go back to sleep, only to woken up by Mag a minute later. “Get up, I have to show you around today.” 

"Okay...."

 

Chapter 2

Title: Chapter II:My first day

Chapter II: My first day                         

  I sigh quietly as I stand up. I stretch and yawn quietly. I close my eyes and think to the day three months ago when the cops first showed up at my door, accusing me of taking part in the murder of Ray Garson, I’ll never forget it ever. I shake my head to avoid going back and reliving these past three months.                       

   I groan softly as I open my eyes, the light of the sun hurts my eyes. Mag points to toilet. “Go if you gotta.”  She says and I nod. “I’m good.” Mag sighs. “Just go.” I shake my head no. She sighs and the monotone expression she wore before turns to one of frustration. “Why don’t you ever listen?” She asks.  “Because I’m extremely pigheaded.” I say with proudly as a smile finds it way to my face. Mag shakes her head. “We’re not coming back here ‘till five O’clock, and I don’t care if you shit yourself.” She says and I stare at her to see if she’s bluffing, I don’t think she is, so I do the smart thing and drop my pants, I couldn’t care less if she’s watching. I quickly relieve myself and then stand up to wash my hands after I flush. “Trying to set a record Rizzy?” Mag asks as she settles herself onto the toilet. I smile a little. “Yeah, just a little.” I reply, hoping to confuse her.  “Not into putting a lot of effort into things are you?” Damn she figured it out! “No, not really.” I reply and collapse onto my bed, closing my eyes. “Tell me when we move out.” I say.                        

About ten minutes pass before I hear footsteps and the jangling of keys as a guard approaches, after stopping four times the guard comes to our door and unlocks it. “Rizzy, time to go.” I sigh and roll off the bed landing on my feet and walking to the door, waiting on Mag to lead me.                        

Mag leads me out of the cell, down the stairs and to the wall opposite of our cell. She pushes through a set of double doors into a hallway that has two doors and an open door way. She points to the door on the right. “That’s the laundry room and this,” She points to the door on the left, “is the shower room.” I nod and follow her to the doorway into a cafeteria. The cafeteria is room with a seven rows of tables in each row is thirty tables, each circular in shape, with eight chairs at each table, with a guard at every table. I follow Mag to the end of the food line where she starts to scan the room, after a minute she seems to find what she’s looking for.                        

 A few minutes later I’m sitting at a table with six women I do not know, well other than their names and what I think of them. Let me tell you about them.                       

 To my left sits Mag, to her left sits Blaze, who has her hair dyed and styled to look like fire, she has no boobs or extra body fat at all, and she has these piercing orange eyes. She’s a clown she tells stupid jokes and grabs all the attention. Next to Blaze is Kami, who I hate with a passion; she’s fat and loud, annoying as all hell. Next to her is Jaya, she’s quiet and is kind of okay, she has pale skin and very small boobs. Two seats to Jaya’s left is Namine she’s four feet five inches tall and so small, she weighs less than one hundred pounds, she doesn’t talk at all, she has gray eyes and brown hair. I wonder how she got in here. Hazel is next to Namine, she is black with green eyes; she’s average sized in the boob department she keeps her head down and is very quiet. Last is Amber she’s basically the photo negative of Hazel. I eat quickly and let Mag, Blaze, Jaya, and Kami talk to one another, not really listening to them.                        

Twenty minutes later Jaya takes our dishes to the dish rack and the girls form a line, the guard pats down Mag, Jaya and me with out incident, but he slaps Hazel’s ass and then Blaze grinds her crotch against his hand, the rest go smoothly though.

 After that Mag and I head to the back to the cell to get some body wash, when we get in the door, I see that there is a small box on my bed as Mag opens the box at the bottom of her bed, I open the new one to find  “Cujo”, “It”, and “Tommy knockers” all by Stephen King in it, along with three ring bound notebooks and a box of envelops, I quickly put that stuff on the shelf above my bed. As I finish Mag closes her box and grabs my hand and leads me from the cell I wordlessly follow brushing my blonde hair out of my eyes.                          

Mag and I strip and put our clothing in the laundry basket in the shower room, we walk to one of the showerheads and Mag adjusts the water temperature, after she decides that it is the right temperature, she steps under the spray long enough to get wet then she steps out and hands me the shower gel, it’s Axe Touch. I squirt it on the washrag and slowly begin to wash her down it takes a while, but I’m sure to get all the dirt and scrub hard. After I’ve washed everything except her hair, I push her under the stream of water, making sure it gets all the soap off.                        

I step under the spray as Mag prepares the rag, as I step out of the spray; I feel the soft caress of the rag against my skin. It slowly runs along my body cleaning it and leaving a trail of suds as it goes. I whimper softly when Mag finishes with my body, she then starts to clean my hair, I sigh happily as she slowly massages my scalp and scratches all the right spots. She puts me under the water and makes sure to get all the soap out. I do the same for Mag as I wash her hair. As I finish Mag leans in and kisses me gently at first but soon growing more rough, I know I should pull away from her lips, but I can’t I seem stuck to them. Mag pushes me against a wall and holds me there, her hand traveling around my waist while the other moves to my breasts, surrounding my left nipple with two fingers and lightly pinching it, it hardens instantly. I let out a soft whimper of need. “Please…” I start to kiss Mag’s neck blindly. She switches to the other nipple and treats it the same way; she kisses my neck and nibbles on my ear lobe. She starts to stroke down my quivering abdomen, teasing me until she reaches my wet slit. Which she begins to lightly stroke with a finger, before pushing two fingers inside me, slowly pumping them I gasp slightly in pleasure, I’ve never been this aroused before I never thought that I could get this turned on by a woman. I lean against the wall now, mewling in pleasure as Mag begins to pound me with her fingers. I let out a long, loud moan as I cum; Mag removes her hand and licks it clean, she picks up the rag and cleans me up. “Rizzy is quick.” She says teasingly.

I sigh and follow her to the laundry room, where we both change into new pants and a wife beater, wearing the jumpsuit top as an over shirt. For the next few hours Mag shows me around the library before taking me to the TV room, and then to the reward room. Afterward we have lunch with the crew from breakfast, but after lunch we all go to the TV room, we end up watching music videos on MTV though. After an hour Blaze and Mag start to play catch with an apple, we then turn it into a game of silent ball, I win and then we goof off and before I know it it’s dinner time, dinner is the same as lunch. Mag and me head up to our cell and I pretty much collapse on my bed, thinking about the shower and how I reacted to Mag’s advances, I can’t stop thinking about it. I have some morbid fascination with it; I keep replaying it in my head. ‘Why did I like it? I’m not a dyke or anything like that, am I?’  I sigh, I try to go to sleep but I can’t my body is craving Mag’s touch. I stay awake hoping Mag will come to me I do my best to pretend to be asleep, and eventually Mag comes lays next to me, using my chest as a pillow. I drop into a heavy sleep at about ten O’clock P.M.

Chapter 3

Title: Chapter III: The Mourning After

[Author's notes: Kinda short I guess, I think it turned out pretty nice R&R please, flames welcome.]

Chapter III: The Mourning After

              In the mourning I wake up to Mag palming my left boob as I a line of drool runs down her chin in to the pool of drool that is currently located on my other boob. Well I’m glad Mag has made herself comfortable. I poke her head.

            “Mag wake up, Mag you fat ass get up! I need to pee!” I say my voice rising in volume with every word, to the point that my throat hurt.  Oh and I forgot to mention that my mouth is less than an inch away from her ear.

            Mag’s head shot up fast, her hand squeezing hard on my boob. “Son of a bitch!” We yell at the same time. Mag was covering her ear, while I was almost screaming. “What was that, I think you broke my boob.” I started to rub it a little. Mag was yelling right back. “You almost broke my eardrum.” By this point we were on opposite sides of the bed glaring at each other.           

After about five minutes of silent glaring, my bowls decide that I have to go to the bathroom, so I stand up and go to the toilet, I relieve myself before going back to the bed. Flopping down on it lazily, curling into the corner. I close my eyes, just lying there. Ten minutes later, I know this because I was keeping count; Mag gets up and moves to the toilet.  I hear the toilet flush and a few soft footsteps, going to her bed. I hear the springs of a mattress groaning as someone sits on it. I wait a few minutes before I uncurl myself and lay out on the bed, scooping one of Mag’s porn magazines off the floor. It’s a Hustler.  I page through it, stopping at all the good pictures. After I’ve paged through it, I decide to stop at a picture and memorize its details.            

At some point Mag crosses the room and starts to look over my shoulder. The one I’m looking at has a blonde girl with a black guy pushing into her from behind, another guy fucking her mouth, while another girl licked her nipples.            

“Are you a lesbian or something?” Mag’s voice breaks my silent reverie and I jump a little. “No.” I blurt without thinking. “Then why are you looking a Hustler?” She asks. “Because Hustler has both men and women.”  I reply, not looking at her. Mag sits down next to me and flips ahead showing me the highlights of this issue. “Dude!”  I gasp as she flips to a picture of a guy pushing himself into a red heads ass while another chick squatted over her face, as another chick was sucking the red heads nipples and fingering her. Mag smiles and walks to the foot of her bed, she pulls a roll of duct tape from the mystery box; she rips the picture out of the magazine and tapes it up on the wall.
            I put the Hustler down and stare up at the ceiling, debating whether or not to ask one of the questions that have been haunting me for the past few hours. After ten minutes of silent debate, I finally open my mouth.            

“Mag?”            

 “Yeah.” Mag’s voice comes from the direction of her bed; I still have my eyes on the ceiling.           

“How did Namine get in here?”  Mag is silent for a little, thinking.           

 “She killed three people in a burglary gone wrong.” She says with a sigh. “She was different then meaner, tougher, loud, arrogant, a real butch.” She pauses to gather her thoughts. “Blaze broke her, beat her down, showed her she was nothing.” I turn on my side to face Mag. “How did she do it?” I ask.“She raped her every night, beat her in the mourning, and she made her beg for food and stuff.” Mag says rather quickly as though this is a subject she doesn’t enjoy talking about.  I nod. “So do you all do that to people?” I ask. Mag shook her head. “Just Blaze. I’m a slow mover, I’m soft and gentle, I don’t lead, I guide.” She said. “I prefer to show them a good time, and go from there.”  I can’t help but ask. “How do you decide, who teaches who?” Mag grins a little. “You teach your cellmate.” She said.  “You’re a good girl, Rizzy.” I can’t help but grin back at her.

 Mag stands up and grabs a brush off the floor; she comes over and sits behind me, and starts to brush the knots out of my long blonde tresses. She finishes a half an hour later, when my hair is straight and silky; it touches my shoulder blades now. She puts the brush down when she has brushed out her hair.  

My cellmate pulls my back against her and I ask. “Mag, why did you do me in the shower?” I ask. “I had to test you, Rizzy, you did good though.” I am suddenly stricken by sleepiness. “I didn’t to anything, it was all you.” I yawn. The woman slips her hand up my shirt and then the other down my pants. I’m too tired to be jumpy so I just close my eyes. “Just relax and enjoy baby.” A raspy voice says and my nipple and clit are twisted, rolled, and pinched, until two fingers enter me and start to pump me hard. I’m left helpless as a white-hot orgasm scorches my thoughts away.  “I got you Rizzy.” I hear a familiar voice say as I suck in a breath and lie still in the arms of the person who put me in this state.   

[End notes: SO what do you think?]

Chapter 4

Title: Chapter IV:The Truth

[Author's notes: At last the truth is reveiled or is it?]

Chapter IV: The Truth

I suck in a hard breath as my orgasm fades, leaving me spent and helpless in Mag’s arms. After I regain my breath and the after glow fades, I sit up and lean against the wall that my bed is pushed against.After a minute or so of serious debating, I ask. “Tell me something?”

“What do you want to know?” She asks. “How’d you get in here?” Mag sighs. “Why do you want to know?” I close my eyes. “Just forget it.” I grumble, annoyed with Mag for a reason I don’t understand.

But Mag doesn’t forget it; instead she presses me to answer, for five minutes until I finally come up with an answer. “I’m curious.” It sounds feeble to me but it’s all I can think of at the moment. My cellmate sighs once again and I open my eyes. “Tell me how you got in here then.” She says as she moves to sit next to me. I lean my head back and look up at the ceiling, thinking for a second before I begin.

“I guess you could say I was framed, I don’t know what happened the night that I supposedly killed a guy. It all started when me and my boyfriend Craig were sitting up on some mountain near the town we live in, in his pickup he’s got a camper’s shell on it, he had a futon mattress laying in there, with some blankets and stuff.” I pause, trying to remember what happened. “It was my birthday party, we had some whiskey and rum, other stuff like that and a cake. I was turning twenty-eight, anyway we were drinking and watching the stars, outside the truck, then we had some of the cake, which turned into a make out session, which lead to some fun on the futon.” At this point Mag chuckles a little. “So was Craig good that night?” She asks with a grin splitting her face.

“Considering that he was half drunk, I’d say he was good as usual, though he tried to ass fuck me and called me Ray.” I don’t know why but that part always stuck out in my mind. Mag just rolls her eyes and waves her hand to tell me to continue.

“I passed out and that’s all I remember, other than waking up in the middle of the night, the truck was moving, and I fell back asleep and woke up in the mourning, in my bedroom, I got dressed and went to work.” I lean against the wall more. “It’s not much I know, which is probably half the reason I wasn’t acquitted.” The red head, scratches behind my ear. “That still doesn’t explain how you got in here.” I nod. “I was charged as an accessory to murder, or an accomplice. I think it was the ladder though.” She nods. “Your turn.” I say.

Mag sighs. “I was charged with rape and molestation of a minor, breaking and entering, one count of murder in the first degree, and kidnapping, earned two life sentences.” As she says this, her voice is even, not changing at all, a forced and light tone holding the words together.

I nod dumbly, not repulsed by anything she had done, just surprised. “Who did you do that stuff to?” I ask, letting my curiosity run. Mag just shakes her head. “Another time Rizzy, another time.” I nod again.

We sit side to side in silence, the only sound coming from us is our breathing, I don’t know how long we sit there, not talking but using body language to communicate, but after some unmeasured but seemingly long time, I hear someone mounting the stairs and cell doors being unlocked, the light chatter of the breakfast crowd filling the void that I didn’t know existed until now.

After awhile, our door is unlocked and two guards step into our cell just as Mag and I stand up. One of them is toe headed, he’s pretty much your classic jock, a big muscle with a stupid grin on his face, and the other is tall with less muscle and sandy hair. I step forward as the second one begins to speak in a friendly voice. “ Riza Alister you’ve got a visitor.” I glance at Mag, she’s staring down the bigger of the guards, but she feels my questioning gaze. “Go ahead, I’ll be in the cafeteria with the gang, or maybe the shower.” I nod and head toward the guards, letting them lead me to the visitation room.

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After I quick search of my person and a few other things that I’d rather not talk about, I’m sitting, in a small room, at a metal table that’s bolted to the floor, with my left wrist cuffed to said table, the chain is long enough for me to stand up though, across from me sits my best friend, Lindsey. Lindsey is a tall Egyptian looking woman with dark hair and tanned skin and her eyes are chocolate brown. At the moment my best friend is staring at me like I’m a stranger. I grin a little. “Hey Linds, what’s with the stare?” I ask.

She manages to shake herself out of her stupor after a couple seconds. “You look rough, babe, bruised and such.” She says, I look over my self. The bruises from my beating two days ago are turning green and I’ve got a few scratches from diving to catch the apple when we were throwing it around last night. “Yeah, you know me, I just can’t keep myself out of trouble.” We both grin. “Hey I just came from a visit with Craig, he says that its your fault he killed Ray, he mumbled something about sex and cheating and then just shut down, wouldn’t talk anymore.” My good mood darkens.

“Tell him to go fuck himself next time you see him and tell him that when his cellmate ass rapes him, its his punishment for adding blame to the innocent. Oh and tell him, that I know the reason he killed Ray wasn’t me, it was the fact that Ray was going to leave him the night he killed him, he was going to leave him because he wanted all of Craig’s attention or none of it, he didn’t want to be a closet fuck.” I say putting emphases on every word. “Say it exactly like that.” I say as my good mood returns.

Lindsey nods, a questioning look on her face, I don’t feel like explaining so I just let her mull that over for a while. “Riz, what’s going on here, you can tell me I know you need to talk about something.” And just like that I told her everything that had happened here, the last two days replayed like a tape, she didn’t stop me once, just let me ramble on and rant, taking it all in. When I finished, I found that it felt wonder full to get all of that off of my chest, to get it out there for someone to hear. Lindsey just sat there her expression blank. “Riz that’s just wow.” She says and then offers her me her right hand, I grasp it readily with my own. “I’d bail you out, but I don’t have the money, Kendal’s love of shopping doesn’t help ether.”

Kendal is Lindsey’s fiancé; they plan to go to California to get married in a year or two, as soon as Kendal’s mom dies, she’s homophobic so her daughter marring another woman would not be a good thing in her eyes.

I grin a little. “So how is old Ken?” Lindsey grins back. “She’s great, she switched jobs and her libido has increased a lot, she almost made me pass out last week.” I raise a brow. “Did I really need to know that?” The Egyptian looking woman laughs a little. “Not really, but I gotta go.”
She stands up and comes to me, wrapping her arms around me; I do my best to return her hug. She pulls back and then walks to the door, glancing back at me one last time before saying. “I’ll be back in a few days, oh and I brought along some of your books and a few notebooks, they say that you’ll get them when they’ve been examined.” She opens the door and walks out.

The guard standing in the corner comes and uncuffs me, pushing me to the door that leads to the hall. “Your block has twenty more minutes in the cafeteria.” She says and pushes me into the hall.

I nod and head into the Cafeteria, finding Mag quickly and sitting down next to her, she notices my presence after a second and wraps her arm around my waist. She grins at me. “Hello Rizzy.” I smile back, feeling oddly happy because Blaze looks a little unhappy.

[End notes: Next chapter: What happens when the Riza and Mag's gang go outside for a day? Read and find out!]

Chapter 5

Title: Chapter V: The war begins

[Author's notes:

WARNING- This chapter contain sexual acts and refrences, violence and Adult Language!

The start of the main conflict is here!

]

Chapter V: The war begins

 

 

           I sigh softly as I follow Mag back into the fenced in courtyard that we’ve been in since after breakfast, we just came back from lunch. I’ll give you the run-down of the courtyard, there’s a section of open black top, next to that is three volleyball nets, two tennis nets, and five badminton nets, a little ways from that is about a foot ball field of open grass, and then a few big trees, providing shade, which is where the gang and I are hanging out.

              Well we’re kind of split up at the moment, Blaze, Hazel, Kami, and Jaya, who have been in horrible moods since breakfast are sitting at the very edge of the shady area, chatting quietly. Mag, Amber, Namine, and I are sitting at the base of a huge tree, Namine is sitting Amber’s lap and talking to Mag as I stare across the field and ponder about why the other four have their panties in a bunch. After twenty minutes, give or take, I figure that it must have been something that Mag did at breakfast because that seems to be coming up in Namine and Mag’s conversation a lot, but every time Mag glances at me and then changes the subject.          

               I give up on that for now and make a mental note to ask Mag about it later, instead I turn my thoughts on Blaze’s status as a leader of the gang, before I thought that Blaze was the leader, that all the woman feared, all except for my red headed cellmate, who I thought was like the right hand man of the operation, but now thanks to the split in ranks I see that Kami, Hazel, and Jaya are Blaze’s absolute cronies and Amber and Namine are more loyal to Mag. I sigh softly as I try to understand how this works out without total warfare between Blaze and Mag. My focus is broken as Namine says.        

               “…………… You better watch out, Blaze is totally pissed now that you’ve started to defy her, she was testing your loyalties at breakfast today, I think she’s gonna try to get rid of you, or just fix you-“ Namine breaks off with a small shudder. Mag just grins. “So it seems that the plot is about to thicken, as long as you girls stand by me, I think that I can show Blaze and her cronies their true place.”          

                Namine nods and pushes Amber to lie on the ground, using her as a pillow. They both close their eyes, falling asleep in a few minutes. I move into my cellmate’s lap quickly. “What did you do at breakfast?” I ask nonchalantly. She grins a little. “Blaze said that it was time I toughen you up and start beating you, so I told her to go fuck herself because I’ll never hurt you, not like that anyway.” I nod and lean against her more. “Thanks.”  I close my eyes and open them after a minute; I lean up and plant a soft kiss on her cheek.    

                 I close my eyes again, thinking back to the day Lindsey told me about Kendal, I was rather shocked that my best friend was gay, but it wasn’t that weird because when we were seventeen we had sex, I don’t remember why, but it was probably out of curiosity, the next mourning we walked off and never talked about it again. I think that was because we didn’t want to admit that it was the best sex we’d had in our entire lives, which was saying something because I’d been sleeping with guys since I was fifteen, and to this day I still haven’t had a more intense orgasm. I wonder if I should have slept with more women. My thoughts are interrupted by a voice.    

                  “Rizzy?” It says and I recognize it as Mag’s. “Yeah?”  “What’s it like out there?” She’s staring at the fence that separates us from the rest of the world.   “Cold, vicious, mean, and unforgiving, just like this place with bigger walls and a false sense of freedom.” I say after a minute of thought.   

                   “Twelve years, that’s how long I’ve been in here, I wouldn’t mind that, just as long as its freedom.” She wraps her arms around me and drops a kiss on my head. Mag starts to ramble in a low voice. I don’t listen to her instead I think about how Blaze got this powerful, until I’ve got so many questions swimming in my head, I’m dieing to ask a few.  

                    “Mag, how did Blaze get so powerful?” I ask, quickly interrupting her rambling. She opens her mouth but closes it quickly. “I’ll tell you tonight, in the cell.” I nod and lounge against her, leaning up to give her a soft peck on the lips, the masculine woman looks down at me and gives me a small, but heart warming smile.  I have this odd feeling that these next five years won’t be so bad.   

                   I close my eyes and I feel a hand slip under my shirt, a finger starts to trace lazy circles around my flat stomach, soothing me and slowly putting me to sleep.  I giggle a little as the finger finds my ticklish spot. Soon I drift into a deep sleep.  

                    I open my eyes and blink a few times, as I try to figure out where I am. It takes a second but I soon realize that I’m in my cell on my bed, with Mag nowhere to be seen. I slid out of bed and slip my shoes back on, I look out the window and see that the sun is about to set and realize that I missed dinner.  

                      I head to the TV room and find that neither Blaze nor Mag is in there, which worries me a bit, I start to head down a random hallway in search of Mag, after about twenty minutes I find her at the end of an old hallway with no cameras or guards. Oh and I forgot to mention that she’s currently glaring Blaze down and Blaze is returning that glare. Both of them have bruised knuckles and one of Blaze’s eyes is swollen shut, Mag’s bottom lip is busted open and she has a bruise on her left cheek.  

                     “Mag! Stop it! Your gonna get stuck in solitary if the guards see you.” I say loudly.   

                        “Shut it, I know what I’m doin’.” She retorts as Blaze lets out a spiteful laugh.                

                            “You should listen to your girlfriend, she knows your gonna get beat.” She laughs and Mag lunges forward and punches her square in the face, I hear a crunch and Blaze flies against the wall and slides down it, blood pouring from her nose.  

                             Mag grabs my hand in a tight grip and pulls me back to the cell, when we get into the cell she pushes me onto the bed, and pounces. Her lips claiming mine in a fiery and hungry kiss, which I do my best to return, her hands rip at my shirt as she tries to get it off. We break a part for a long minute of tugging and squirming, then completely naked we return to the bed.  

                             We skip the making out and I set my lips upon her left nipple, sucking and nibbling as she slides two fingers into my vagina, her thumb pressing against my clit hood. I let out a string of loud moans as I slid a hand down to her sex and slid three fingers into her, pounding her hard, moaning as she toys with my clit and thrusts harder, she finds a spot deep inside me that triggers an orgasm instantly, the white hot climax burns away my thoughts as my fingers play in the wonders of Mag’s pussy, soon a warm sticky liquid coats my hand as a body collapses on top of me.  

                                   At some point during the night, I cover us with a blanket and I drift asleep in Mag’s arms. I feel as though I’m forgetting some thing though. 

                                      In the mourning I smile as I wake up and look over Mag, her cheek and lip have swelled up a lot in the night and I remember that Mag was supposed to tell me about Blaze’s rise to power, but I realize that I don’t need to know anymore, Mag kicked Blaze’s ass last night and won the first battle of the coming war.

[End notes:

Next Chapter: The war has started and the armys are being chosen.

R&R please

]

Chapter 6

Title: Chapter VI: The army gathers

[Author's notes:

You can't fight a war without an army!

]

 

I groan softly as Mag’s teeth sink into the soft and sensitive skin of my neck, my cellmate’s hand starts to dance on my abdomen, causing me to let out a soft giggle, which turns into a few laughs, then a string of forced laughs as she zeros in on my ticklish spot. 

 

I roll over and playfully pin Mag’s arms above her head with one hand then lean down to kiss her as my other hand moves to her ribs searching for the ticklish spot that I had found an hour earlier. It takes a minute but I find it, Mag starts squirming under me as she lets out forced laughs. “Rizzy….gah….no…stop I beg….you.” She gasps as I tickle her. I relent and let her sit up, as soon as she catches her breath, though, I tackle her, laying on top of her, until she pushes me off a minute later. 

 

Mag then rolls on top of me and then uses her lips to catch mine in a hot, passionate kiss that brings memories of the night before to mind. We hold the kiss until both of us are blue in the face, then break apart gasping for air. We look up and grin at each other, and then Mag grabs a magazine and sits against the wall, flipping it open. I grab one of her books and put my head in her lap, looking at the cover of the magazine she’s reading. “Shonen Jump? I never saw you as an anime fan.” I say teasingly. “Yeah, I’ve always liked ‘Bleach’. “ She says as she reaches down to ruffle my hair.

 

I look at the cover of the book that I picked up, it’s defiantly a lesbian romance, sighing softly I open it and start to read. My muscular cellmate’s hand drifts down and starts to massage my scalp, I purr and turn my attention back to the book, getting lost in the story after I read the first page. 

 

We read until a guard comes and unlocks our cell door, even then, I’m little hesitant to leave the peaceful hideaway of our cell, knowing that outside is a battlefield, a transparent battlefield that is impossible to see if you don’t know it’s there. But after a minute or so Mag shuts the Shonen Jump and puts it on the bed. “Come on Rizzy it’s time to go eat.” She coaxes me in a soft voice; I nod and stand up.

 

I arch my back and stretch out the knots in my muscles, dropping to the floor and do a couple of push-ups. When I stand up, I put my hair into a ponytail. “So what are we doing today?” I ask as I grab my clothes off of the floor, putting Mag’s on the bed for her. I dress quickly and as I turn to Mag I see she’s finished putting on her pants and wife beater and is now shrugging into her shirt.  

 

Rather suddenly she pushes me against the wall, kissing me fiercely then pulling back and moving her mouth less that an inch from my ear. “We’re gonna show Blaze that her empire isn’t as sound as she thought it was, that not all are loyal to her, then tonight I’ll going to show you every way I can fuck you, all night long.” She whispers in with a tone that I can’t find the words to describe; it was like a threatening, lustful but almost loving tone.

 

She licks my ear and pulls away to go use the toilet and lets me to my thoughts, which I get lost in. All night long? I can’t last more than an hour much less a night, well maybe she’ll give me time to rest. She does seem nice enough to do that, or maybe we’ll just go ‘til one of us passes out then wait for them to come to and resume, that makes sense…. My thoughts are silenced by a pair of soft familiar lips placing themselves over mine, just lingering there, not moving at all.  

 

I pull Mag’s bottom lip into my mouth and suck on it lightly, kind of happy that I get to take the lead. I pull back after a few seconds, then I push my lips back against my cellmate’s, running my tongue along her lips before taking the invitation to enter her mouth, rousing my partner’s tongue, to entice it into a long fast paced, full contact dance. We break apart gasping for air, as I catch my breath I grin at Mag, she backs up a little but returns my grin. “Tonight Rizzy, be patient.” She says and grabs my hand, leading me out of the small room. 

 

As we reach the cafeteria Amber and Namine drop into step with us. “Blaze is in the infirmary and its been floating that you did it.” Namine chatters excitedly to Mag, who looks surprised, I too am surprised. “Yeah I did it.” My cellmate declares with a grin, but I can tell that it’s just bravado. Amber sighs. “That means that she and her cronies are gonna be after us.” Wait a second us? When did that happen? The green-eyed woman senses my question and replies. “Yes us, we’re a team now.” Yay, a team against an empire, I think bitterly. Mag nods. “We’re gonna need more people, find anyone that’s got a problem with her, turn them against her, show the people in fear of her that she’s not that strong. Last night I started a war and we need an army to fight it.” She says quietly.

 

Kami, Hazel, and Jaya glare at us as we pass their table, Mag just grins at them and grabs onto my hand. Mag starts to whisper. “Blaze plays dirty, she’ll attack a single person with three, she’ll jump people, don’t go anywhere alone. Watch your back. Namine you’re in the most danger, you’re her cellmate. Be extra careful.” She nods at an empty table, we sit down close to each other, and I, of course, am next to Mag.  

Four hours later I’m laying on a couch in the library, with Amber using me as a pillow, her short brown hair fanned out on my chest as she reads a book. Mag and Namine are recruiting I haven’t heard from them in twenty minutes, which is how long its been since we had lunch.

 

“You’re lucky.” The brown haired girl says suddenly.  

 

“Huh?”  

 

“If you’d gotten me or Jaya as a cellmate, you’d be getting gang raped and beaten at least three times everyday, because Blaze said so, but you got Mag she can openly deify Blaze, the rest of us are to tamed for that.”  

 

“Oh, okay.” I say dumbly, thinking that maybe this whole thing is my fault. I close my eyes and fall asleep.

 

 The feeling of a pair of soft lips on mine wakes me up, familiar lips pressing against mine; reflexively I kiss back, letting out a soft whimper when the lips pull away. I open my eyes to see the face of my cellmate, I take a moment to stare at her, her expressive blue eyes, high cheekbones, perfectly shaped nose, and to top it off natural cherry-pink full lips, all so beautiful.

 

“Dinner time Rizzy.” She says and strokes my cheek; I nod, standing up quickly. 

 

 My gaze wonders around the cafeteria as we enter it, but my stomach turns to a block of ice and my peaceful mood fades as soon as I see Blaze, Mag follows my gaze and sees her too. I feel my new found lover stiffen and I take a good look at Blaze, her hair is styled as normal, but her nose is in a cast and dark bruises cover her face, from her eyes a look of pure hate is aimed at the beauty walking next to me, which she returns with more hate. I clasp Mag’s hand in my own and murmur. “Don’t let her get to you.” She tears her eyes from the bruised up woman to me; her gaze softens as soon as she lays her eyes on me. “You’re right, I shouldn’t have let her provoke me like that.”  

 

As we sit down it dawns on me that the army’s have been chosen and the first march is close at hand. 

 

[End notes: Next chapter: The night that Mag promised Rizzy is here, but is Rizzy ready for what Mag tells her  the next mourning.]

Chapter 7

Title: Chapter VII:Night Time

[Author's notes: Sorry for the wait on this one, I couldn't really word it the way I wanted but I think I got it good enough now.]

Chapter VII: Night Time

 

I groan against Mag’s lips as she slams me into the wall that my bed is pushed against, doing my best to kiss back as the aforementioned woman darts her tongue around in an insane fever, her lips pushing, ramming and trapping mine. She forces her knee between my thighs and grinds it against my puss, earning a soft moan.

 

Putting my hands on her shoulders I push her back, causing her to stumble and almost fall, she grunts and looks at me, confusion showing in her eyes. I point to my bed and she grabs me around the waist, pretty much throwing me on the bed.

 

She crashes down on top of me, her lips searing mine then pulling back and slowly kissing down my neck, her hands tearing at my shirt. I roll us over, pressing my lips to my cellmate’s jaw.

 

My hands rip at her shirt, ripping most of the buttons off of the jumpsuit top and pulling her wife beater in half almost, my kisses moving downward, across her collarbone, down to the cleft between her breasts, licking the length of it, then kissing her right nipple, running the very tip of my tongue along the curve of her breasts, poking my tongue against the rubbery rose colored nipple hardens under my caress. I hear a sharp gasp and the body beneath me shudders.

 

I abandon the rosy-pink nipple and kiss down to the nest of black curls between a pair of muscled thighs, pulling down her pants as they get in my way and stopping to inhale the feminine musk coming from the pussy just below the curls. A strong hand guides my head to the juicing sex mound, I extend my tongue and lick the soaked slit, her tangy and bitter juices coating my tongue.

 

 

I push my tongue between her outer lips, spreading the inner folds of the flower like organ, the body jerks and shudders, a moan ripping through the otherwise silent room. My tongue finds the hidden jewel of Mag’s pussy, her clit. I flick my tongue against it’s hood, drawing a gasp from her. I busy my tongue with lavishing her sheathed jewel with long licks, while two of my fingers enter the hot and sticky depths of my cellmate’s vagina. Her clit slides free of it’s fleshy sheath and my tongue curls around it.

 

I thrust my fingers deep into Mag, letting my finger pads drag on the soft walls surrounding them, the pussy jerks closer to my face and a series of loud moans resound throughout the room, a spurt of spicy and bitter liquid covers my tongue and my fingers, I lick my hand and then clean my cellmate’s cunt.

 

I crawl up and pull my cellmate into a tender kiss, during which she rolls us over, her lips claiming mine as she turns the kiss into one of desperate need. Her hands rip at my shirt, effectively ripping it and then she death grips my boobs. I wiggle out of my pants before she rips them too. One of her hand pushes a finger into my pussy and then massages my insides, then that hand pulls away, but is replaced by the other one.

 

I groan loudly as two fingers ram into my cunt, fucking me hard as her other hand slips around and pokes an index finger against my anus. “What are yo-no not there!” I whimper as the finger plunges into my ass.

“Relax Rizzy, don’t fight it.” I take a deep breath and relax my ass, concentrating on the pleasure that the fingers in my twat are giving me pleasure. I groan as I feel a pair of lips capture my nipple, a tongue flicking over the rubbery nub.

 

Another finger slips into my ass, pumping me hard as the fingers in my pussy slow to a stop and start to pull out. I close my thighs around it. “No! I want it there!”

 

“Rizzy let my hand go, I need to grab something, open your eyes and look.” Open me eyes? I thought they were open, well that explains the darkness. I open my eyes and look at Mag, she pointing with her chin to a red dildo that’s very close to the bed, it’s a strap on, I think it is anyway. I release Mag’s hand and she reaches for it, grabbing it and putting it on with seemingly practiced ease. “Spread your legs a little more Rizzy.”

I do as I’m told, spreading my legs so that she can position herself as she needs to, all this time she’s kept her pace in my ass, steadly growing faster, my discomfort fading to slight pleasure. Mag slams the dildo into me, stealing a moan from my lips as my pussy contracts around it, she slams into me a few more times before settling into the fast-paced rythme she’s set in my ass, growing in speed almost every second, my moans turning to screams and my back arching high, an orgasm taking me away for a minute, then I drop back to the bed, a sticky fluid coating my thighs as Mag pulls out, she kisses me then carefully positions me belly down, my abdomin resting on a pillow. I’m left alone for about a minute.

 

I let out a squeak as my ass cheeks are spread and a cold, jelly like substance is spread around the outter star of my anus, then the anus itself, the inside of it and all that good stuff, needless to say I’m pretty greased up. I finger pushes into me with no problem and pulls out.

 

“Rizzy, relax your butt for me okay?” Mag’s voice says from behind me.

 

“Why?” I have a feeling that I know what’s coming.

“Just do it.”

“Okay.” I relax my ass, buring my face in a pillow.

 

In seconds I feel the warmth of Mag’s body pressing against my back, her rock hard nipples just below my shoulder blades. I also feel the head of the dildo pushing against the star of my ass. “Relax Rizzy.” She pushes the head in, slowly thrusting forward but not going any deeper, slowly loosening me, that I soon realized does nothing to stop the discomfort and pain that soon comes when she pushes about half way in. My ass clenches around her as my pain-filled sobs resound in the cell as she kisses the back of my neck and shoulders.

“Relax Rizzy.”

 

“Take it out.” I cry, trying to crawl out from under her.

 

“No, I’m not going to. If you unclench now, you’ll feel better soon, I promise.”

“Please!” I almost scream.

“Rizzy unclench now, you got ten seconds ’fore I start fucking you.” Mag growls.

I take a deep breath, slowly relaxing my ass, biting into the pillow as Mag slowly starts to ease the rest of the dildo into me. “Good Rizzy.” She pulls out and then pushes back in, the pain is sublime, I bite the pillow as I let ouf muffled sobs. Mag continues on unperturbed, ecreasing pace every thrust, soon slamming me mercilessly.

 

Though after awhile I start to adjust, the pain fading to that of a dull ache in my ass and a small jolt of pleasure filling me, soon Mag wraps her arm around my waist and lifts me slightly, her other hand slipping around and stroaking my wet slit with a finger soon poking it into my vagaina, then adding another one, and then third, finally a fourth, and then she just thrust her hand in up to the wrist, my sobs of pain becoming loud moans as I’m fucked, her hand keeping the same pace as the dildo, soon I let out a few barking moans, coming hard onto her hand.

Everything pulls away and I’m flipped ove, a tongue lapping at my pussy as the dildo is pressed against my lips. I suck it clean as those lips and that tongue take me to a world of pleasure.

 

________________________________________________________________________

 

The mourning light filters through the slits of my eyes as I wake up and look around, Mag’s naked body is entwined with mine, both of us are covered in sexual juices, sweat and a bit of blood.

 

Mag stirs and opens her eyes, looking around groggily. She disentangles herself with me and sits up, grabbing her shreaded wife beater and getting it wet in the sink.

“Sit on the edge of the bed.” I do as I’m told and Mag begins to wash me off, getting almost every part of me, then washing herself. “Rizzy you’re my giri now.” She mutters.

[End notes: so what'd you think?]

Chapter 8

Title: Chapter VIII: The First Attack

[Author's notes: This one took me while do to comp diffucties.]

                                  Chapter VIII: The First Attack


“What?” I yawn as I stand up.




“You’re my girl.” Mag repeats, her tone serious.



“What does that mean?” My stomach turns into a block of ice.



My cellmate shrugs. “I don’t know, a couple kid’s on my street when I was growing up always used to talk about, ‘their girls’, but I never understood what it meant, I’ve just always wanted to say it.” I sigh in relief.



“So where did you- mff-“ The rest of my words are muffled into Mag’s mouth as her lips claim mine, her tongue mastering mine, capturing my mouth as her own.


I kiss back as her tongue pokes and jabs mine, trying to rouse it, then resorting to nipping at it with her teeth. Soon our tongues are enveloped in a heated battle, my tongue lashing against hers in a desperate attempt to gain some sort of ground, her easily mastering my tongue and showing me my place.


Soon our kiss mellows to a slow dance, slowing even more until we pull apart. Mag wipes her mouth and grins, then turns around and starts searching for her clothes.



I sigh and follow her lead, looking around the room for my pants, I find them with a hole near the cuff, it’s pretty small but I still notice, after pulling those on I see my wife beater, which has been ripped nearly to shreds. It takes me a few minutes to find my shirt, when I do find it the first three buttons are ripped off, so it’s got a v-neck.

I groan as I look over myself. “I look like a whore!” Mag chuckles. “What’s so funny?” I ask, pretty irritated.

“Nothing really, you just look more like my whore than any other kind.” She replies. “Ha, ha.” I glare at her, still not happy. As I’m glaring I notice that most of her abdomen is uncovered and also that I seem to have ripped off her right pant leg at the knee. I can’t help but laugh.

Mag glares at me for a full minute as I laugh. “What’s so funny?” She almost pouts. “You look like a poor pirate.” I say after I recover, smiling. My odd haired cellmate tackles me onto my bed, pinning me and then slowly starting to kiss me, then moving down my neck, then a hot tongue traces a line from my collarbone to my ear, where Mag breaths huskily into my ear, saying things that only served to fire up a lust deep inside me.

Some how she unbuttons my shirt, still pinning me and whispering into my ear. I groan, my hips jerking for contact to my pussy, to appease the burning in my loins. A knee grinds into my sex, in a punishing way. I moan softly, humping the knee hard, driven on by my lover’s sick and perverse words. One of my wrists is released and my nipple is quickly surrounded and pinched, then the other one. I moan happily as the hand strokes down my belly to my hot and bothered pussy, it slips into my pants, ghosting its fingers along my outer lips. In an attempt to tighten my thighs around the intruder I find that the knee that I had loved previously now prevents my goal. I whimper in frustration, before being silenced by two hot lips touching mine and claiming them. The hand in my pants plunges two fingers deep inside me, causing me to gasp.

I loose my senses as her fingers pound into me, Mag nipping at my tongue and then my nipples, showing me who owns and pleasures me. I let out a long, drawn out moan as I come, my senses yielding and dieing, killed by pleasure. I regain some sense a few minutes later, with my lover cradling me and kissing my nipples. I pat her head and close my eyes, grunting softly and trying to push Mag away. “No, I wanna take a nap!” I whimper, pushing her away with more force. She seems to understand and pulls away, but she then forces me to sit up so she can button my shirt up, then lets me lay back down.





I let out a grunt as I open my eyes, letting the light of day sear them. I try to lift myself up only to be pushed down by a strong hand, Mag’s hand. “Stay down Rizzy.” A hand lands on my butt cheek, rubbing it.

“What are you doing?” I ask, already afraid of the answer.

“Just relax Rizzy.” My cheeks are spread and a finger traces down my ass crack, drawing a gasp from me. I stop to think long enough to realize that my pants are gone.

“N-no.” I whimper, trying to crawl away, but realizing that I’m on her lap and pretty well wedged in place. A cold probing finger pushes against my anus, I shudder in response. “Relax Rizzy.” Mag repeats, slowly working her finger into my bottom. After a few shaky breaths I manage to calm myself and control my body, my body relaxes slowly and my cellmate slides her finger in easily. “Good girl Rizzy.” She says, but I can only think of one thing. “Take it slow.” I whimper, burying my face into the closest pillow.

Her hand slowly rubs my back as she whispers soothing words to me, trying to quiet my cries of discomfort, she slowly pushes her finger in and out of my bottom as she does so the discomfort fades and I slowly start moan softly, letting pleasure wash over me. “Another one I want another one in me.” I demand few minutes later, as my hips jerk against the bed, wanting contact on my pussy.

“I’ve already got two in, you sure you want a third one?” Mag seems to be happy. I bite my lip as I think about it.

“Yeah, I’m sure.” So Mag starts to slowly work her third finger in, stretching my anus, I grunt and squirm on her lap, my back arching from a pain and pleasure collision, a string of moans escaping my mouth. When my lover has three fingers safely nestled in my butt she sits me up with my pussy hovering above her thigh, she starts to curl and uncurl her fingers inside me, my hips jerk for contact and she slams her thigh against my pussy, allowing me to hump it.


Within a few minutes I collapse against Mag, panting heavily as I recover from my orgasm. She slowly removes her fingers and then pushes me onto my back so that she can lick my pussy clean; once she has finished with that task she throws me my pants.

I pull on my pants and stand up; going to the toilet while Mag washes her hands. “How long ‘til breakfast?”

Mag smiles. “If you’re hungry I could serve you breakfast from my pants.” I blush dark red and shake my head. She continues talking. “But they already unlocked the cell, I was just waiting for you.”

I finish up and wash my hands; grabbing a ponytail and putting my hair up I open the cell door and head toward the cafeteria.



In the cafeteria I head straight for the line and look for Namine and Amber, I spot them at a table with a blonde I don’t recognize. After getting the usual crappy meal I head to the table and Namine introduces me to the blonde, her name is Cloe. A couple minutes Mag arrives and starts a conversation with Namine, and Amber starts chatting with the guard. I stare at my food as I eat it, letting my mind drift.


“So you’re the canary?” The question and its owner startle me.

“Huh, what?” I look up and see Cloe’s green eyes staring at me.

“I asked if you were the canary.” She says.

“Canary?” I repeat, not understanding.

“The newbie, the one that screams at night, you catch my drift?” She explains.

“Yeah I guess…” I sigh. “Why do you ask?”

She shrugs. “So I know who to blame when I get kept up all night by screams.”

“You might want to blame her.” I point to Mag. Cloe nods.

“True, so how long have you been in?”

I think for a second. “About a week.” The blonde just stares at me, “What?” I ask.

“How many people have you fucked kid?” She asks.

“None, the just got lucky I guess…”

“No I think you fucked the warden.”

“Lovely, so how old are you?”

“I think thirty six, why?”

“Because you look like you’re in your twenty’s.”

“Ha, ha kid you crack me up, so whatcha in for?”

“Accessory to murder, you?”

“Grand theft auto ten accounts, Petty theft over one hundred counts, violation of parole, and resisting arrest.”

“Sound a lot cooler than mine.”

“Yeah.”



Cloe and I stopped talking and I took the dishes up. The guard dismissed us and Mag went back to the room to get some thing so I went into the showers with Namine and Cloe



When we got into the showers there was three other girls in, since I didn’t have any soap I waited for Mag, but it seem she wanted to take forever to the other two left with out me. Ten minutes after the others left me, the door opens and through it strides Hazel and Jaya. I glare at them, grudgingly admitting to myself that they don’t look half bad.

They shower quickly and turn to leave, but as they head out Hazel sucker punches me, hitting stomach. I suck it up and slam the side of my fist into her head; she backs away from me as I pound her shoulders and head with punches. Jaya pushes her out of the way and charges me, her shoulder ramming in to my side. I grab her hair and pull her up, ramming my knee into her chest and then her abdomen I then turn and smash her head into the wall, hard as I can. Jaya drops to the ground, blood oozing from her head.

Next I grab Hazel’s head and beat it against the floor until she passes out, then I prop them both up in the corner. Mag be damned I turn on one of the showerheads and wash myself, going slow and enjoying the hot water while I have the chance. Fifteen minutes later I exit the laundry room dressed in the standard orange jumpsuit. I head towards the library, since that’s where we were set to meet up.



The walk to the library takes ten minutes and then it takes a few more to find Amber, when I do locate her I can tell she’s not happy. She’s not reading and just staring, brow furrowed at the wall. “What’s up?” I ask quietly.

“Blaze.” She spits out the name like a piece of rotten meat.

“What did she do this time?” I ask, my mood darkening.

“Ganged up on Mag, Namine, and me. Ten to three.” She curls her hand into a fist. “Mag’s in the infirmary, Namine went to find Cloe and I’ve been here.”

“Is she okay? I mean Mag and Namine, both.”

“Yeah, Namine is just bruised up. Mag passed out, doc said she’s got a concussion.”

“Damn, I just took out Hazel and Jaya, I’m gonna go check on Mag, you okay here?”

“I guess.”



The infirmary is more like a nurse’s office at school a small room with a desk, a bathroom, a scale, a closet and six curtained beds. Four of the beds are filled when I get there, Mag, Hazel, Jaya, and some red head.

I walk to Mag’s bed, she looks bad, her face pale and white, while her head is wrapped up, her arms and hands have been bandaged as well, her eyes are opened and she’s just staring at the ceiling, smiling.


“Mag?”

Her head twitches and she shifts her gaze. “Hey Rizzy, what’s up?”

“Nothing much, how you feeling?”

“Like shit.”

“Good to hear.”

“I think I might end up spending the day in here, go and keep an eye on Namine, she’s dangerous when pissed off.”

“All right.”

And with that said I give Mag a small peck on the cheek and leave the white room, my thoughts in one place.

The first attack, now we wait and recuperate.

Chapter 9

Title: Chapter IX: More?!

Chapter IX: So Many Changes



As I leave the infirmary and walk down the hall to try and find Namine I realize just how pissed I am, before I was so worried for Mag I didn’t notice it. But now as violent images of what I want to do to Blaze and her cronies I realize just how pissed I am and it scares me.


Before the police had knocked on my door three months ago, before any of this happened I was never a violent person, even as a kid I didn’t like fights, verbal or physical. Before the trial I was just you’re average normal piece of trailer park trash, I had a job at Wall Mart that kept the rent paid, food on the table, and clothes on my back with some money left over for a night at the bar every once and a while, I had a sweet boyfriend, a group of close friends and a simple life. Back then my worst worry was forgetting a birthday or anniversary, I didn’t have to worry about gang wars or anything of the sort. I know I’ve changed, I think back to how minutes ago I’d just glanced at Jaya and Hazel in the infirmary, without even a tiny feeling of remorse or guilt. I know that if I some how went back in time and told my past self that I was her, from the future, she wouldn’t believe me, because I'm not her, not anymore. I'm not Riza Alister anymore, now I'm Rizzy. Somehow I’ve changed, become violent, heartless Rizzy.


These thoughts make me sick and I turn my thoughts to how I had beaten up both Jaya and Hazel without a second thought, I hadn’t tried to control the animalistic nature that came over me and now as I thought about it I realized that I didn’t want to be Riza Alister anymore I was much more comfortable with Rizzy. My fists clench and I let the violent images flow, in a sick and perverse way, they calm me and as I search for Namine and Cloe a serine state comes over me.


After I had run out of ways to torture Blaze in my head, I realized that I had checked most of Namine’s hot spots and that only two remained, the library and the laundry room, in the days I’d spent with them I’d learned something about the group I operate in.


I turn toward the laundry room, knowing that if I cut through the TV room it would take me to a side door that lead into my current destination. As I open the door and step into the bleak room, letting the smell of freshly laundered clothing wash over me. As I look around I notice that there are only a handful of people in the room in various states of dress, all wearing the same thing. I know that they can’t see me because the door is in a corner that is blocked off by carts of dirty clothing. I slip past the carts and do a more attentive search of the room looking for Namine and listening for anything out of the ordinary. I shuffle around the room calling her name in a low voice, after about five minutes, it is a pretty big room, I notice an odd wheezing, no more like whimpering sound coming from behind a few of the laundry carts. I round them, still calling out for Namine, pretending not to notice the huddled form that I’m tracking with my peripheral vision. I hear a weak cry from the form but I can barley distinguish the sound so I just keep pretending until it says. “Rizzy!” The voice is hoarse and cracking but I recognize it, I whip around. “Cloe!” I gasp.


It is Cloe, but she looks different, her clothes are torn and blood oozes from wounds all over her body, her hands are caked with dry blood from trying to stop the bleeding. Her eyes aren’t focusing on me, they stare far off and I can tell she’s not in good shape. I have to get her to the infirmary. As the thought dawns on me I take a breath and look for the most serious wound, it’s deep one on her stomach that pouring blood. I place her hands on it and tell her to press as hard as she can, as she does this; I tear off the remainder of her shirt and tie it over the wound and then I grab other articles of clothing and patch up other bad wounds.


I quickly pick Cloe up, not even bothered by her weight, and sprint to the infirmary. Halls bleed together as I run, as fast as possible until I come to a dead stop in front of the nurse I blurt Cloe’s name and what’s wrong with her before placing her on a bed and fleeing to let the nurse do her work.



As soon as I leave the infirmary I find that my wobbly legs make it impossible to run anymore so I walk, in a numbed trance. I don’t know where I’m going or how I keep walking, I feel so drained, like I just ran four miles on a stretch.

As I look over my body I notice that my arms and knuckles are bruised, my hands covered in blood, almost none of it is mine. My shirt is splattered with blood, probably Cloe’s. I run my hand down my stomach and feel that I have a few bruises forming there along with a few on my legs, lovely.

Done with my self assessment I look up to figure out where I am, well other than being completely lost I notice that I’m in the hallway that Mag took down to go outside so I follow the hallway, happy to see that it takes me to a familiar corridor, the one that holds the library and TV room. I sigh and walk to the library, hoping that Amber is still there.

I search the library and find that while is nowhere to be found, Namine is in the library. I walk up to her and we stare at each other for a long minute, each taking in the other’s appearance. Namine is pretty bruised up, her lip is busted and both of her eyes are black, she’s got a fist shaped bruise on her left cheek and a cut above her eye. Her nose had been bleeding and from the looks of it had been broken and corrected. Her knuckles are bruised up and split open, one of her fingers is broken and her wrists are in pretty bad shape. Her clothes have blood on them as well, not nearly as much as mine though.

I bring my gaze to her eyes and realize that she’s as pissed off as I am, molten rage burns in her eyes like lava and it’s etched into her face. “Where’s Amber?” I ask, my voice hoarse. “She went to her cell, to try and rest up. You seen Cloe?” I chew my lip and nod. “She’s pretty roughed up, real bad. Namine, from the looks of her she’d been stabbed, like with a dagger or something like it.” I flinch as Namine snarls. “Fucking bitch, Blaze she’s fucking dead tonight I don’t fucking care what those damn guards will do to me!” She clenches her fists and glares at a bookshelf, and then she softens and turns toward me. “C’mon, let’s go take a shower and I’ll tell you what happened.”

I nod, that doesn’t sound too bad actually. During the short walk from the library to the showers I tell Namine everything that happened from when she left me to when I found her in the library. She scowls and growls as I relate it and pulls faces that I would have laughed at if the situation had been different. Then as we shower she starts to tell me what happened after she and Cloe left the shower.

“Cloe got a visitor and I went back to me and Blaze’s cell, to relax some, not long after Mag pokes her head in and asks me if I wanna go with her and Amber to watch old slayer films, ‘course I said yes. So we left the cellblock and headed to the TV room but on our way there Blaze caught us in one of the smaller halls. They all just started on Mag, I couldn’t get ‘um off, as hard as I tried there were too many for me,” She looks down in shame. “I just couldn’t keep up and Amber bailed as soon as I told her to. After Mag passed out a couple of guards broke it up and they took Mag to the infirmary. After I found Amber and calmed her and then went looking for Cloe. I didn’t find her, so I came back to the library and waited for you.” As she finishes I step out from under the showerhead and give her a chance to wash off.

“It makes no fucking sense, Mag’s the ring leader so why did she stab Cloe?” I ask, as I play with my hair, forcing myself to stop watching Namine’s well-shaped form. I can’t help but stare at her small breasts, capped with pink nipples, with light colored areole surrounding them. Her flat abdomen, with sinewy muscles winding tight, her slim thighs that hide a small thatch of brown curls over her sex and her muscular but thin legs, even with the many bruises and cuts from her fight she’s still breath taking. Namine thinks for a few minutes before answering.

“She’s trying to send a message, give Mag a second chance, but she’s got to hurt someone to prove a point.”

“Fucking lovely!” I growl and learn against the shower wall to wait for Namine.

Namine finishes and we go to the laundry room to dress, then Namine says she’s going to head to the infirmary to check on Mag and Cloe, telling me to go to my cell and rest up.


After a minute of protesting I give in and go back to my cell, knowing full well that there’s no way I’m going to be able to sleep without Mag there. It’s a very unsettling realization; well I can at least try to sleep. Once I’m back in the cell I thunk down on my bed and grab Mag’s favorite pillow, it always smells like Axe deodorant, Touch sent to be exact, but under the smell of Axe is Mag’s own smell, sweat, cigarettes, and cinnamon, all mixed together. I bury my face in the pillow, breathing in Mag’s scent, letting it calm me as I close my eyes and let my mind float, hoping that it will help me fall asleep. As my thoughts wandered my body relaxed and I felt as though I were in Mag’s arms, her warm breath on my throat, her hand stroking my belly, I imagine her voice whispering all the things she could do to me as I slip a hand between my thighs. Comforted by those thoughts I drift into a light sleep, faced with odd dreams as my only obstacle to peaceful rest.




I crack my eyes open and let my eyes focus before I look toward the source of the voice that woke me, at first the burred form looks like Mickey Mouse (shut up I was half asleep!) then it evens out and the voice is suddenly familiar. “Mag?” I ask, still a little unsure of myself. “Yeah it’s me Rizzy.” She sits on the bed and I sit up and rub my eyes and look my eccentric cellmate over.

The bulky white bandages that covered her wounds have been taken off, except for one that covers the top of her head, probably covering stitches. Her face is covered in bruises, shallow cuts and scrapes. On her hands I see more bruises and her left pinkie is in a brace, her knuckles are wrapped up, she probably split them open. Her clothing obscures any other wounds. “Are you okay?” I ask feeling stupid. Mag pulls me against her and kisses my forehead. “I’m fine Rizzy.”

“How’s Cloe?” I ask, finally remembering that Mag wasn’t the only causality in this battle. Mag stiffens and her hand clenches. “She got sent to the hospital, last I heard she was still breathing, when I got out of the infirmary earlier I saw that Blaze was in, probably Namine’s doing.” I feel myself smile. “Good to hear, so how do you feel?”

“Like shit, how about you?” I steal a quick kiss to Mag’s lips. “Fine, a little sore, but otherwise good.” Mag moves to the wall and rests her back against it; I follow and put my head on her left breast, listening to her heartbeat. As my hand ghosts up and down her abdomen I feel a bandage and realize that it’s wrapped around her ribs. I close my eyes as she rubs my back, her warm hand moving up and down on my spine as I snuggle against her. I don’t know how long we sat there but I think we would have stayed like that forever if Namine hadn’t come to check on me, my face pushed against her chest, listening to the rhythmic beat of her heart, like a bass drum, my eyes closed as she stroked up and down my back.

At the sound of a throat being cleared, I look up to see Namine standing in the doorway of our cell. In addition to the injuries she had last night, there is a bruise on her left cheek and a large scratch on her chin, plus her black eye. She’s smiling. “Good to see you Mag, I thought you’d be in a bit longer.”

Mag smiles, I don’t have to look to know that she is, I can hear it in her voice. “That’s what I thought too, but my injuries were minor and since we kicked a lot of ass there was an over flow at the infirmary, so they let me go.” Her expression hardens and she clutches me tighter. “Cloe’s in the hospital, she’s gotta get surgery done.” Namine crosses the room and sits on the bed.

“We got Blaze, countered her attack, but now we have to out do her, she lives in an empire built of fear, now that word has gotten out that her little bitch Namine kicked the shit out of her last night, she won’t have much of an empire left, so now we have less to worry about.” Mag and I nod and a silence follows.

My stomach gurgles and Mag breaks the silence. "Rizzy's stomach has just sent us a message that tells me that it's breakfast tine." Namine agrees and we head to breakfast.

[End notes: R&R please]

Chapter 10

Title: Chapter X: The Plan

Chapter X: The Plan 

I yawn and stretch out across Mag’s naked body, snuggling into her breasts as she wraps her arm around me. “How do you feel?” I ask her. She pulls me against her and grunts. “No talking!” She whines as I plant soft kisses in the valley between her breasts. After a couple of minutes of my little annoyances Mag sits up and glares at me. “What do you want?” She demands, probably pissed because I interrupted her afterglow.

 

I look over her body, at the bruises that Blaze caused, at the supple curves that made up her body. Yet I still noticed how tough and cool she looked, even naked and uncovered she looked untouchable, still I couldn’t help wondering if I’d hurt her. “Are you alright?” I ask again. She sighs and pulls me against her.

 

“I’m fine Rizzy, I’m not gonna break after one small beating, I’m good. I’ve survived worse, a lot worse. Now let me take a nap, Namine said she’d drop by before dinner to get us.” She says and lies back down, pulling a blanket over herself.

 

I snuggle against her and yawn, closing my eyes and letting my mind wander to the questions that had been bothering me since breakfast, just to say it, it was now after lunch and Mag was taking her fifth nap of the day, before each nap her and I had fucked each other into oblivion. Anyway I’d been wondering about the whole war that I was in the middle of, certain aspects that didn’t seem to add up and just bother me.

 

The first of these things was Namine; she seemed so strong, so cool, why would she let Blaze dominate her if she knew how to organize a rebellion? Why would she let herself be dominated if she could kick Blaze’s ass all this time? Which led me into thoughts of Mag, Why did she just start resisting Blaze now? Why me, what was her interest in me, did I just arrive at a convenient time for her to use me as an excuse to start this thing and use me as a ploy to get support? Did Mag really like me or was I just a useful fuck to her? I open my eyes with a soft sigh and bite my lower lip.

 

Thinking of the possibilities made me feel sick, so I push those thoughts to the back of my mind. I close my eyes and will sleep to come, at least then I won’t have to think about these things. I let my body relax and force my mind to drift in the direction of the last time Mag and I fucked, letting those thoughts lead my mind into the oblivion that is sleep, peaceful oblivion.

  

I groaned softly as I stretched out, cracking an eye to see what had woken me up. I hear a soft whimper and open my eyes fully as Mag tightens her grip on me, her warm arms wrapping around me. It takes a second for my eyes to adjust to the sudden flood of light, damn I need to find something to use as a curtain, but I look up at my cellmate’s face and find a troubled expression there. Her eyes are closed, her mouth and the rest of her face twisted oddly, looking like she was scared.

 

I reach a hand up and stroke her cheek, her eyes shoot open and she recoils from my hand, looking around. Trying to figure out where she is, I realize, my heart dropping as her shoulders slump and her eyes lose a little of the light that is there when she remembers where she is. She looks down at me, a smile quickly forming on her lips as she leans down to kiss my forehead.

 

Acting quickly, I press my lips to her’s, catching her by surprise. I tighten my arms around her as I feather light kisses down her jaw and neck, up to her ear. I give her a lick on the outer shell of her ear before asking. “What’s wrong?”  Mag grunts, pulls away and shakes her head. “Nothin’.” I wrap my arms around her and pull her against me. “Don’t lie, I know something’s wrong, tell me.” She shakes her head and kisses me tenderly. “It’s nothing, Rizzy. Just forget it.” She doesn’t give me a chance to protest as she wraps her arms around me and kisses me passionately, her hand dipping between my thighs. “Nice and wet aren’t we Rizzy?” She teases me as she feels how wet I am, two of her fingers slipping into me with ease as I let out a soft moan.

 

Mag flips me around and lays me on my back, her lips still covering mine as her tongue dominates mine in a passionate battle. Her fingers pump in and out of my soaked cunt with no rhythm as she pulls her mouth from mine. A mewl works its way out of my throat as one of my nipples is surrounded and suckled, my lover works another finger into me as she sets into a sort of twisting thrust motion, forcing mewls and moans from me as she fucks me.

 

Yet as she works so diligently Mag manages to arouse me further, rather than helping me toward my peak, teasing me so well that it makes my sex ache with need even though she’s already inside me. “Sssss-Stop t-ta-Tha-Teeeasing meeeee.” I pant helplessly as she continues. I get no reply and the teasing continues, soon my body is soaked in sweat and I’m so hopelessly aroused I can do little more than let out gasps and moans as Mag continues her little game.

 

“Do you wanna come Rizzy?” Mag’s voice holds an almost mocking tone as she asks the question. I gasp and nod franticly. “Y-Yes!” I whimper. She tenses her fingers and in one twisting motion thrusts her whole hand into my pussy, I gasp as my body shudders in both pain and pleasure, my pussy clenching around Mag’s hand as she pushes her fingers against my very core.

 

A white light flashes in my mind and my eyes, closed so tight, shoot open, then my vision dies. I’m left to instinct, my body goes wild and my mind is cut free from it. My body fights for air as I heave heavy breaths. My vision returns and my senses come rushing back, my body on fire, my ears tingling as my gasps reach them; above me is Mag, smiling, no grinning down at me. “You’re so tight, I wish I had a dick to feel this with.” She says. I look down at the now very sticky juncture between my thighs and realize Mag still has her hand inside me. I whimper softly gyrating my hip and pushing her deeper into me. “More!” I moan.

 

My cellmate shakes her head and slowly pulls out, in the reverse of the twisting motion she used to thrust in. I whine loudly, rolling my hips, as I still want her inside me. “Shush Rizzy.” Mag orders, but I ignore her and let out a string of whimpers as I slip a hand down to my sex and rub it softly. A little less than a minute later I feel and hear a hand collide with my ass, I jump at the pain. “Bad Rizzy.” A familiar raspy voice scolds me as strong arms scoop me up and deposit me on a lap; a hand places itself on my back to hold me in place.

 

“Mag wait, no not this.” I whimper as I try to squirm away, though to no avail I’m stuck. Three more stinging slaps rain down on my butt as I whimper out pleas for mercy, another seven hit me each one harder than the last before a gentle hand rubs my butt. “Good girl Rizzy.” Mag kisses my ear and then behind it. I whimper and bury my face against the bed. “You spanked me!” I growl vehemently at her, still hiding my teary face in the bed. Her voice is tender as she replies. “Only so that it would make this feel really good.”

 

I let out a small groan as I’m flipped onto the bed on my back; I spread my legs as a body settles between them. Cold hands come up and spread my lips apart, my juices hanging like string from them. My cellmate dips her tongue into the exposed fruit and licks carefully, stimulating the most sensitive spots hidden in my folds. I roll my hips and wrap my legs around her, pushing my pussy against her mouth, driving for more contact. She licks expertly, avoiding my clit, heading only for my sweet spots, and driving her tongue against them. My toes curl against her skin and my head leans back as I mewl incessantly, my pussy gushes my sweet lubricating nectar, even though I know she’s just getting started. I grip the sheets as Mag traces a very sensitive point with her tongue, letting out a soft moan. Her tongue ventures inside my vagina and immediately traces the very inside of it, my hips jerk forward and my toes curl more, a gasp comes out of my throat.

 

Her tongue traces every millimeter of my love hole that it can reach, finding soft and sensitive spots not even I knew existed. As she explores, my body becomes more and more worked up, my leg began to shake every time she touched a sweet spot, and my clit began to feel like a hot splinter of metal in my pussy. Soon I am drenched with sweat, burning with lust for her, but it feels so good I find myself not really minding that she was teasing me.

 

I feel moans rising in my throat as she begins to trace her way out of me, she hits every spot that makes me melt inside, and traces over it so slowly it’s almost painful as the pleasure rips through my body, when she finally traces her way up to my clit, tears of pleasure run down my face. A set of full lips wraps around my clit, cooling the burning there and also forcing a moan from my throat, a light sucking ensues causing my back to arch slightly as my hips buck. “Mag!” I gasp as I reach my peak, though I still don’t get a break. Mag continues suckling on my clitoris as she pushes two fingers into me and pumps me hard, my climax is long and drawn out, my mind burns out and my body collapses, my pussy gushes and I let out all sorts of sounds, before passing out.      

  

Awhile later I wake up and sit up, looking around the cell I share with the crimson haired wonder dyke. Behind me I hear a soft chuckle and turn to Mag, she’s flashing her trademark grin. Lying stretched out on her bed, naked as the day she was born, is my cellmate. “How long ‘til dinner?” I ask, rubbing my tummy. She turns to the window and looks out. “Not long I’d say.” 

 

I crawl up to her and lay down next to her, wrapping my arms around the warm body and laying my head on a broad shoulder. Strong arms hold me close as they pull a blanket over us. I close my eyes and relax, allowing myself a peaceful moment, with no thoughts or ideas, just comfort and closeness. Mag seems to know everything.

 

All to soon my peace is interrupted by a familiar voice breaking the silent reverie between Mag and I. “C’mon you guys, dinner time!” Namine pipes in a loud voice. I grunt, but Mag sits up and drags me with her. I open my eyes in time to see a ball of orange come flying at my face, luckily Mag catches it. “Get dressed, hurry up. I’m hungry!” She barks hyperly.

 

“What the hell has got you so happy?” Mag grunts at her as she stands up and starts pulling on her clothes.

 

“Blaze and Kami are in Solitary for two weeks!” The brown haired woman announces.

 

I stand up slowly and start getting dressed. “How?” I ask.

 

“They beat Mag up in plain sight of the guards.”

 

Mag finishes getting dressed and runs a comb through her hair a few times before grabbing a brush and running it through my hair carefully. I put my hair into a ponytail and shrug into my jump suite shirt, buttoning it up to the top three buttons. “Awesome.” Mag smiles and wraps her arms around me. I pull out of Mag’s gentle embrace and walk out of the cell, after latching onto her hand with my own.

   

The food line in the cafeteria is pretty short and most of the tables are empty or close to it, we progress through the line quickly and as I look around I can’t find Amber anywhere. “Where’s Amber?” I ask, still looking around for her. Mag shrugs her shoulders, but Namine pipes up. “Every other Wednesday we have a work day, where most of the good behavior ward goes out and picks up trash or mops floors. Basic janitor work you know, they do that for a day. I dunno, but Amber always does them.”

 

As we settle at a table not far from the cafeteria door I look around, no Blaze, none of her gang is here. “Where’d the rest of them go?” I ask.

 

Namine seems to understand the question and shrugs. “Tomorrow Blaze goes into the Box so maybe they’re spending the day together.” I glance at the guard sitting at our table; I’ve seen him before. He’s short and skinny has dark hair and lightly tanned skin. “You heard anything knew about the girl that got stabbed last night?” I ask boldly.

 

He nods and looks up. “She made it through the surgery, she’s recovering right now. She had a couple infected wounds from previous fights that they cleaned up. She should be fine.”

 

Relief spreads through me and a smile cracks across my face. “Good, thanks.” I look down at my tray and start eating the disgusting steak that is being served without one grimace. Mag and Namine strike up a conversation among them and leave me to my own thoughts. All I can think is that Cloe is gonna be fine, meaning Blaze failed and that we would prevail when we attack them back.

  

After dinner Mag leads Namine and I back to our cell. Mag and I settle on the same bed while Namine takes the other. “We have to come up with a plan.” Namine says.

 

“I couldn’t agree more Namine, but first Rizzy what’s on your mind?” Mag responds. I shrug at her. “Nothin’ really just normal stuff.” I answer sheepishly. Mag shakes her head and kisses me tenderly, whispering. “I know that’s a lie, now tell me what’s wrong.”

 

I take a deep breath as she pulls away. “It’s the timing of this all, Mag how come you didn’t kick this stuff off before, you and Blaze weren’t the best of friends why did you wait so long? Namine why did you let Blaze fuck you over if you could kick her ass this whole time?”

 

Namine fiddles with the sleeve of her jump suite, hesitating a few seconds before answering. “I was afraid of her, she had so many people backing her up, I knew I’d get killed if I raised a hand against her, I didn’t have a cause. Now I have back up.”

 

Mag grins a little. “You think I’m just using you, don’t you? That I just need you as a reason to tell myself I’m fighting for, right? Wrong, I’ve never really had a problem with Blaze before but now she asked to much of me, she knew how I liked you, that you were special to me, but she still told me to beat you around. I said no!”

 

I sigh and wonder if I should ask another more important question, then before I can change my mind I blurt it out.

 

“Why Cloe?”

 

Mag leans her head back. “Cloe wasn’t the only target. All of us got attacked that day, but Cloe got it the worst. I don’t know why, maybe it was just the chick that stabbed her, maybe she went a little over board. I don’t know and I don’t want to but the point is the attack was against all of us, not one.” I nod and lean my back against the cold and bumpy wall, looking at the toilet.

 

“Which leads to the plan for our counter attack, me and Namine have been thinking about our first real attack on Blaze but we only ever produced small tidbits, we’re going to have to put them together if we want to make a good plan.” Mag starts off. “We think we should go after all of them, not at once though, too loud, but pick them off slowly. There are no security cameras in the cells, and guards usually get lax around lunch time, the shower room is sound proofed, has no security and is made of stone, and the last one, outside there is this little nook that most guards don’t know about and it’s a blind spot for all the cameras.”

 

“That’s good but we have to wait for things to cool down here, the guards are stepping up their vigil for awhile, it’ll be at least a month before we can even think of trying shit like that without getting our asses thrown back in with the regular jail birds.” Namine points out. Mag and I both nod.

 

“That’s a nice start, tell Amber in the mourning. For now Rizzy has a little bit of a debt to repay to the woman between my thighs, you’re welcome to stay and watch.” A dark blush heats my face and I can feel the heat rising to my ears, I glance at Namine. She’s stretched out across the bed, watching intently. “Looks like Rizzy got a little stage fright.”

 

Mag pounces me onto the bed; her lips claim mine once again. “Don’t worry Rizzy, just ignore Namine.” I shake my head, pulling away from her. Mag grabs me and holds me against her. “Be a good girl.” She ventures.

 

I whimper and turn in her arms, kissing her soft bruised lips, her arm secures itself around me and pushes me down her body. I push up her shirt and kiss her bruised tummy lightly, my fingers gripping at the waistband of her pants as I tug them off. My kisses trace lower, growing more faint as I near Mag’s hot pussy. She’s soaked and scorching, her pubic hair damp and matted with her juices, so sensitive and ready for my touch that her hips roll and buck as I trace a finger around her outer lips.

 

I spread her pussy out with my thumbs, blowing on her clit to earn a strangled whimper of pleasure. “Rizzy!” She hisses desperately. I set my tongue between her folds and lick up all her nectar, avoiding her clit as much as possible, enjoying the feeling of control as I feel my cellmate’s body beg for release and hear her trying to restrain herself from begging for it.

 

“Rizzy don’t be so mean, give Mag what she needs, and make her feel good.” Namine’s voice cuts through my reverie and I glance up. I see Mag’s sweating body, her back partially lifted off the bed, thighs soaked with her own juices. I see Mag completely at my mercy. I give Mag’s pussy a good long lick before I jam three of my fingers into her loose hole. I feel her pussy begin to contract around my fingers, hear her gasp for air, see her body surrender to my touch, taste her sweet juices and smell her sex scent.

 

“Good girl Mag.” I say feeling good. “Now go lick Namine out, I’m sure she’s nice at wet over there. Show her how good you made me feel.” I sit up and shake my head at Mag’s request.

 

“Aw come on Rizzy, live a little.” The smaller woman whimpers. A smile works over my face as I look over to Namine and see that she’s buried her hand into her pants, her eyes burn with desire.

 

“What’s in it for me?” I ask playfully.

 

“You avoid another spanking.” I jump in surprise as Mag grabs me and shoves me off the bed, sending me to the cold floor. I whimper as I hit the cement, looking up at Mag, not daring to move from the sprawled out position I landed in. She looks down at me coldly, though I still see the compassion in her eyes and I realize that this is just a game to her. I pick myself up and move towards Namine, slowly as I don’t really want to do this, the threat of another spanking enough to make me do just about anything.

  

When I get close enough Namine grabs me and jerks me onto the bed, she yanks off her pants and spreads her thighs. I glance back at Mag, and she shakes her head. I lie next to Namine and settle my lips onto her already stiff nipple, suckling roughly. My hand traces down her lightly muscled abdomen and comes to rest at the wet juncture between her thighs. “Only my mistress gets the pleasure of my mouth.”  I punctuate my point by thrusting a finger deep into her soaked cunt, she whimpers with need and drives her body against my finger. I push two more deep into the brown haired woman as I move behind her, penetrating her hard with my fingers, showing no mercy. Before long Namine hits her climax, her pussy coating my fingers in love juices; I with draw my fingers and wipe her sticky mess all over her face and then push my fingers into her mouth. “Clean them.” She complies and suckles her juices from my fingers.

 

I hear the creak of springs, then steps on the cement before Mag tackles me to the bed. “Good girl Rizzy.” Mag praises me when I don’t struggle, so I smile up at her. I glimpse Namine standing up and pulling on her pants as she leaves. “No more!” I plead, wrapping my arms around my dominant cellmate, burying my face in her boobs. I’m rolled over and held tightly against a warm body.

 

My eyes close and my thoughts trouble me once again. I think of what I had just become, a whore who allows herself to be spanked when she doesn’t behave. I’ve become a slave to Mag, even calling her my mistress. I bury my face in my new mistress’ breasts even farther and force my mind blank.

 

Chapter 11

Title: Chapter XI: Seeing Another Side

 

 

 

CHAPTER XI: Seeing Another Side 

 

 

 

A soft groan leaves my lips as I sit up and stretch out the sore muscles in my body, I sigh and glance over my naked form. I’d lost more weight in the past two or so months than I had in my entire life before coming to jail. I shiver as a draft passes through the room, causing my nipples to completely stiffen. I grab a blanket from the pile of bedding on the floor and wrap it around my body.

 

A familiar moan reaches my ears and I glance down at its source, smiling at the body huddled under three blankets. After a moment a fuzzy crimson colored mop of hair emerges from the blanket, bleary blue eyes gaze at me and I’m greeted with a small smile. My cellmate slowly sits up; the blankets dropping away to reveal her well shaped body. “Mournin’ Rizzy.” She mumbles and grinds the heel of her palm into her eye.

 

“Good to see that you’re awake. Tell me is it normal for my ribs to stick out like this?” I reply. She rubs her eyes and blinks a few times before squinting at me, studying my body for a good ten seconds before she answers.

 

“Yeah that happens, you should try eating more and going to the weight room.”

 

“But half the shit they serve is illegal to feed to dogs and the chicks that hang out in the weight room creep me out.” I pout cutely.

 

“You are truly one of a kind Rizzy.” My cellmate shakes her head in disbelieve. “Now where did our clothes go? I don’t remember where I threw them.” I shrug and wrap my arms around her neck. Pulling her in for a chaste kiss before letting myself fall on the bed, fighting a shiver at the sudden rush of cold air.

 

“It’s cold, warm me up.” I invite as a grin cracks across my face.

 

“Clothes are much warmer.” Mag answers and get off the bed to go search for them, securing a blanket around her shoulders as she does so.

 

“Why are you being such a prude?” I pout. She lets out an exasperated sigh.

 

“I’m not being prudish, I’m fucking cold and I’d rather like to have a pair of pants on right now!” She looks over her shoulder at me. “Are you going to help me look?”  I stand up and pull my blanket closer around me; deciding to look around the door.

 

After five minutes of shuffling around our cell, I find my pants and Mag’s shirt at the foot of the bed. I groan softly when I realize what that means; I have to look under the bed. I drop to all fours, bringing me closer to the cement floor, which is right now emulating cold, and look under the bed. I find my cellmate’s wife beater and my shirt.

 

I glance over to Mag, who is now shaking out the blankets on the other bed. “Find anything?” I ask. She shrugs and drops the blanket that she’s holding. “Don’t be like that, you’ve got no reason to be pissed off so stop being stingy.” She drops to the ground and looks under the bed, reaching under it and pulling out my wife beater.

 

“Here,” She balls it up and throws it to me. “Try to remember where my pants are now.”  I nod and think back to when I undressed her the night before and come up with one answer.

 

“Check behind the sink.” She turns and looks at me strangely but turns to look anyway, giving me a perfect view of her shapely bottom. She grabs something and stands up slowly, turning and giving me a dirty look. “Don’t ask me, I just threw it there.” I grab my pants and pull them on as my bed headed cellmate begins to do the same thing; about a minute later we both finish dressing.

 

She lies down on the bed and I follow, using her shoulder as a pillow as she wraps her arms around me. I cover us with a blanket and sigh. “Sorry about earlier.”

 

“Don’t sweat it just be quiet.” Mag answers and kisses my forehead. “Ready to hear the plan me and Namine have been working on?” She asks. I nod in response.

 

“Well you know that spot that I showed you, the one past the courts, between the building that has the weight room and the pool and the eastern wall. They got no security cameras in there and up to an hour after lunch they don’t have a guard directly posted there and none of the other ones see what goes on there. All right so our master plan is to have about twenty of our peons start ten different fights at certain areas of the yard. It’ll turn into one big brawl in minutes; the guards will have their hands full worrying about that. Meanwhile you and Amber will be leading Blaze and her cronies to the spot where Namine and I will wait and commence operation beat down. Cloe will be look out, you and Amber helping of course and we split when she gives the signal. I figure we give it another three weeks, to give Cloe some more time to heal up.”  She explains.

 

I pull her tighter against me and sigh softly. “Fighting, scheming, raping, stabbing. How in the name of Fuck did this shit happen, how did we come up with the idea that putting a bunch of criminals in the same place would reform them! I was a fucking casher at Wal-Mart less than six months ago, I lived in a trailer park the worst thing I had to worry about was a late car payment. Now look, I’m here, fighting off crazy dykes who wanna see me scream when they shove a dildo up my ass, fighting off crazy dykes that want to stab me, finding my stabbed friends and now plotting to get back at the crazy dykes who caused all this shit! Is our justice system so fucked up that we can’t see that the innocent are among the guilty, that the guilty corrupt the innocent in our prisons?”

 

“What did you expect, huh?” She flips us over, pinning me with her arms, her warm body looming over me. “This is America, home of the overly medicated psychotic quakes and druggies that become leaders. We reform through punishment by our peers; ‘you’ll never do whatever crime you committed again if I bonk you up that ass for five years’. That is how it works!” She presses her lips to mine tenderly. “You act like a princess in a fairytale land and it comes back to get you Rizzy, what did you expect jail to be?”

 

“I expected all this, I was ready to get used to it. I can deal with constant abuse. You and Blaze, it all seemed so nice I got used to it, then all this happened. The start of the war, it fucked me over. A month ago, Cloe got stabbed and it fucked with me more, I can’t stand it now. You, all of it! One day your taking your time, fucking me nice and easy, two hours you’ve got a dildo in my ass, screaming at me.” I rant, taking a breath. “I was ready to take this shit when I first got here then you were nice and Blaze didn’t seem so bad, I got used to it then everything changed and I got fucked over.”

 

“That’s how it works here, in this Good Behavior Ward we have to put on a goody two shoes act for the guards, then we turn around and start doin’ all the shit that you’d expect a normal inmate to do, but sneakier.” Mag replies. “That’s just how it is. Though I have been wondering something.”

 

“And that would be?”

 

“How’d you get in here from the start?”

 

“Nothin’ too special, I just cut a deal. When the cops arrested me I knew that they had enough evidence to convict me, even though I didn’t do shit. So told them that I could help them get rock solid evidence on Craig if they put in a medium security prison, in the good behavior ward. I knew Craig well enough to find anything they needed. I thought I could deal with a few years among well behaved women.” Mag nods and sits up.

 

“Time to brush your hair, sit up.” My eccentric cellmate orders me, I groan but grudging oblige. Sitting up cross-legged in front of my lover, back facing her I straighten up and shake out my blonde mop.  She starts by running her fingers through it, to loosen it. She takes her time and slowly teases the bigger knots apart with her long and nimble fingers, never once tugging hard enough to cause me pain.

 

As her fingers weave through my hair I begin to space out, my thoughts wandering to my current situation, how all this had happened and grim ideas of what the future may hold. When Mag sees the time right to use the brush through my hair my thoughts switch to what had happened in the past month. It has been relatively uneventful, when Blaze and Kami got out of Solitary they didn’t try for a revenge spot, Mag and Namine think that they’re plotting something big, kinda like we are, but I failed to mention that when we were discussing it in the library.

 

Cloe was released from the hospital a week ago, she’s got at least five hundred stitches in her abdomen. The warden gave her special permission to live the infirmary, with visitors and everything, she can’t really walk without someone to lean on and she doesn’t talk much, in fact the only person she talks to is the nurse. I don’t know why, the nurse claims it’s emotional trauma, Namine says she’s full of shit. I’ve gone down everyday to see her, we take walks never long ones, but yesterday she made it all the way to the TV room.

  

My sex life is nothing if not exciting. Mag has assured that I am the carpet-munching queen; I think I spent most of the month cleaning her cunt. I’ve also become more anally receptive, not too proud of that one and I’m not going to share how it happened. We’ve drabbled in S&M and BDSM, for both of which my cellmate was a creative thinker, but I’ve decided that both sexual methods are for the insane and the depraved but Mag and I qualify in both fields so that doesn’t make for much of an excuse. I’ve been in three-sums and four-sums, Namine and Amber filling the extra roles.

 

A slight tug on my hair pulls me back to reality. “What?” I snap, knowing that my lover wanted my attention.

 

“You need to stop spacing love, it makes having conversations with you confusing.” She answers.

 

“Was I mumbling again?”

 

“Yeah.”

 

“God I have to stop that!” Something else I’ve recently discovered about myself, I space out when I relax and often mumble tidbits of what I’m thinking. It really makes me wonder if I talk in my sleep. “What do you have on your mind?”

 

Mag continues brushing for a minute, completely silent, I don’t ask again because I know she heard me. Mag takes time to think about everything that may be related to her life before she was thrown in jail. Because of her pause I know that I’m treading on thin ice and should navigate carefully, there’s no telling how she could react if I say some wrong or she just flips out on her own. My last encounter with my unstable cellmate’s past sprained my ankle. “Nothing.” She lies.

 

“Don’t give me that, what’s up?” I reply quickly.

 

My cellmate is silent again, this time only for a few seconds. “Do you think that its wrong to touch a kid if you’re trying to show them that previous sexual abuse isn’t all that their part down there are for?” She finishes brushing my bangs back into place as I bring my hand up to my mouth and start chewing on my thumb nail, thinking hard for a couple of minutes.

 

“I don’t know Mag, touching kids is wrong but for something like that it seems right, but at the same time. You could hurt the kid emotionally and physically with shit like that; I guess it depends on the situation. What brought that up?” I glance back at her, noticing a particularly troubled look on her face as she glides the brush through my hair again.

 

“When I was growing up in southern Philly my mom married this scumbag named Jake Almond. I think I was seven then, mom worked at a gas station on the weekdays, so she didn’t need a babysitter, but a little bit before my eighth birthday she started working graveyard at Hooters on the weekends. That’s when things got shitty. Jake babysat me while my mom worked; we played all sorts of games. I ‘d suck on his head and he’d get me all hyped up with his fingers, then he’d tell me to rub my pussy against his dick, I’d do it ‘til he came. Then he’d get mad at me for touching myself and punish me. Once he made me spend three hours with three of my fingers up my bum. When I was nine he taught me how to deep throat and that a good slut always swallows, he also taught me how to give a hand job and how to make masturbation look sexy. I got my first period when I was ten; he fucked me during my bleed. Told me the blood would lube it and that his dick would make me hurt down there because I was a virgin. He was a scumbag, but he was an honorable one. He didn’t fuck me until he knew it wouldn’t harm my body permanently. I liked him, for two years he fucked me, unprotected of course but never once came in me; Jake made me feel loved. One my thirteenth birthday he grabbed a lubed condom and used half a tube of KY on the outside once he had it on. Kept telling me to rub my butt the way he’d showed me, and then he licked my butt loose. I didn’t figure out what he wanted to do until he had me bent over the side of the bed and was rubbing the last of the KY Jelly on my butt. He thrust in slowly, telling me I was a good girl. Then he started fucking me hard, it didn’t hurt so much, it was just uncomfortable, and he’d lubed me well. After Jake came he fingered me ‘til I came in his hand. He sent me off to bed so he could clean up. After that I never saw him again.” Mag explains slowly. “Next day when he went to work he got arrested for raping and molesting me.” I hear Mag shudder slightly. “The next month was hell for me, gynecologists, rape kits, DNA that stuff. Jake went to jail and my mom sent me off to a recovery center.”  She takes a soft breath and sets the hairbrush down.

 

“I don’t know how anyone found out. I never told a soul and neither did Jake, we always finished hours before my mum came home and I was quiet while we fucked, he never said my name so the neighbors didn’t know it was me he was fucking. I never figured it out and my mom would freak out when I brought it up when I got out the recovery place.”

 

“What’s that got to do with what you said before?” I ask slightly perplexed as to where this conversation was headed. I hear Mag take a breath as though she was about to answer, but I hear no words. A pregnant silence hangs between us for what feels like endless hours, then Mag lets out the held in breath. She takes in another breath, quickly exhaling then inhales quickly, exhale, and inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale, inhale, her breathing growing more rapid as the uncounted minutes pass.

 

It was sudden, a quick lunge and grab, but in less than a second I was trapped in a violent embrace. Mag was holding me tight against her body, her chest heaving and her eyes holding a wild look that I had never experienced before, she was radiating anger and rage, every second seemed to increase her need for violence. As she held me I only whimpered meekly, not bothering to struggle against her already knowing that I was out matched in strength. 

 

Lying slackened in Mag’s arms I found myself opening my mouth and saying. “Mag what’s wrong?” She made no effort to reply, only shifted her grip on me so she could move her hand. Her hand began to descend from my mid riff down to the waistband of my pants, it moved slowly, making my skin crawl as her fingers tickled my cold skin. My throat was slowly drying up and my sex was tightening with arousal as it heated. “If you want to fuck, you know you don’t need to restrain me for it.” I try, wondering if this is some weird turn on for her.

 

Once again I get no answer. Her hand creeps into my pants, drawing a shudder from my body as she moves closer to the quickly pooling molten heat in my body; reflexively my body jerks toward her hand. A cold hand cups my pussy and rubs it gently, a finger probing in and massaging the soft outer flesh of my most intimate organ. I sigh softly and close my eyes as a friend joins the finger and they both enter me, thrusting in deep then scissoring apart. The two fingers work diligently, massaging every sensitive and soft spot in my pussy, bringing me closer to climax with every millisecond as time slowly inches past. My body sets a flame from excitement; my pussy burns for release as I let out ragged cries. My climax draws near and I can feel the tight knot deep in my belly about to explode from tension.

 

The fingers draw nearer to the spot hidden in my flesh that only my lover’s long fingers could have ever reached. “Almost there, baby. C’mon!” I pant, squirming against Mag’s body as her fingers ghost over the nexus of my pleasure. I jerk my hips and flail about to attempt to put pressure there, failing though.

 

A sudden shock of pan courses through my body as Mag curls her fingers and jams her nails into my nexus, digging into the flesh. I gasp and whimper, falling limp in her arms again. “Don’t do this.” I whine pitifully as she lets out a dry chuckle. She tenses her fingers and rips them out of my pussy, drawing a soft whine from me as I bury my face against her. “Please!” I beg. “No more.” Her fingers plunged into me, this time only lubricated by blood as my arousal has dried up. They scissor apart, stretching the laceration causing more pain, then curl and tense against my inner wall on the opposite side of the previous scratch. A yowl of pain escapes me as my agitated cellmate rips her fingers out of me again. “You’re hurting me!” I squeal.

 

Mag releases me and throws me onto the bed, with a barley seen motion she smacks me across the face. “The pain hasn’t even begun yet.” She informs me, her voice is flat and cold. She leaves the bed and goes to her cardboard box and roots through it, looking for something for a good two minutes before she straightens up with an orange dildo in her hand. The dildo was a little thicker than her fist and about eight inches long, not including the handle.

 

I glance at the cell door, closed and locked, most likely for at least another half hour. When I look back at Mag she’s got the dildo secured in her strong hand and is mounting the bed. I press myself against the wall, praying that I will phase through it. Mag grabs me and tells me to put my hands behind my head as she positions me in the middle of the bed, and I hasten to comply. Mag’s large body looms over me, her eyes staring down into mine.

 

I search her face for some sign of amusement, I long to hear her chuckle and let out a dry throated laugh, to laugh at my expense. I want her to say it was just a sick joke. In her face I find anger and rage, even hate, but I can find no reason for those things to be there. Her beautiful blue eyes crystallized and distorted by rage. I bite my lips together to stop from whimpering as she spreads my thighs apart. I turn my head to the side and screw my eyes shut as strong hands grasp my calves and move my leg farther apart so she can fit in between them, a body moving closer to my vulnerable pussy. The tip of the dildo presses against my abused opening, drawing barley stifled whimper from me.

 

My cellmate thrusts her arm forward driving the dildo into me without even a second’s hesitation. Oh, God the pain. Ripping and tearing my already injured pussy as it thrusts in the dildo forces it’s full length into me. I knot my fingers together and try not to pull my own hair as the air fills with high-pitched shrieks. The dildo pulls out and then slams back in, I screech in pain as my back arches, letting out small breathy whimpers agony.

 

What felt like hours later I had become silent and still, Mag was pounding away in my bloody pussy as I attempted to zone out, getting smacked every time. Giving me a final three hard thrusts, the rapist pulls out of my pussy and relocates the dildo so that it’s pushing against the opening to my ass. I don’t even flinch, but just stare up into her eyes, begging with only my eyes for her to not do this.

 

Mag turns from my gaze for a second, but when she turns back and looks down at me I see remorse and guilt written in her eyes. She straightens up and walks a couple feet away from me before throwing the orange dildo back into her box. I scramble to the corner of the bed that is jammed against the wall and press my back to the concrete as I curl into a little with my hands cupping my injured pussy. I pull up my pants but still keep my hands inside them to try and ease the aching and throbbing.

 

My cellmate doesn’t try to return to the bed, she just sits on the other bed and looks at me for a while. Then she tries to speak, but closes her mouth before she can form words. I look up enough to catch her eye then point to the edge of the bed with my chin. She understands enough and comes and sits at the edge of the bed. I pull my hands out of my pants and crawl over to her, resting my chin in her lap. “I screwed up big time.” She states.

 

“Yeah, I know.” I reply wiping my tears on her pants. “But will you do it again?” I ask looking up at her expectantly.

 

Mag shakes her head. “I don’t know Rizzy, I’m so fucked up. That shit I just did to you, a moment ago seemed perfectly logical, now I think that I’m a fucking psycho rapist.” She sighs and closes her eyes. “I don’t know if I will, that’s never happened before, so I’m not sure about myself anymore.” I nod and sigh, snuggling against Mag’s thigh.

 

I bite my bottom lip and then say childishly. “Make my pussy stop hurting.” Mag shakes her head.

 

“I can’t Rizzy, not without hurting you more.” I nod and wrap my arms around my unstable cellmate’s thigh. Mag reaches down and pets my head.

 

“Why aren’t you mad and spiteful or acting hurt?” She asks. “I just raped you, why aren’t you mad?” I shrug.

 

“I’m furious, but not at you, or this part of you. I’m mad at the other part, the different part. You, the remorse, the conscience are not the same person as the one who did this. I can feel the difference.” I assure her, closing my eyes and letting her stroke my hair. 

Chapter 12

Title: Chapter XII:Fear

I grunt moodily as Mag attempts to move out from under me, interrupting the first nap I’ve been able to take since she raped me. She stops moving and strokes my hair. “Breakfast.” She says patiently and wraps her arms around me as she sits up, forcing me to sit up too.  

“I’m not hungry.” I protest, snuggling against her boobs. I whimper as the warm, soft pillowy comfort is pulled away as she stands.   

“Don’t lie, you are hungry. You haven’t eaten anything except the little bits that I’ve smuggled back from dinner, you drink from the sink, you haven’t left the cell in a week.” She slowly stretches out her muscles. “You need to eat.” She insists.   

“Walking hurts.” I whine and sprawl out on the bed to stretch out my sore and knotty muscles. Mag grabs my shoulders and pulls me off the bed, setting my on my feet causing my tired body to stumble against her.   

“C’mon Rizzy you need to get moving and walk it off.” She encourages but I shake my head and then let myself fall on the bed.   

“How about this, you brush my hair and then I’ll consider going to breakfast.” My cellmate lets out an exasperated sigh but grabs the hairbrush from the shelf above my bed. I sit up, purring as she sits behind me. She runs her fingers through my hair, dislodging the bigger knots gently. “Is Namine still pissed?” I ask.  Mag sighs softly. “Yeah, she still won’t talk to me.”   

“Why is she pissed off? She’s fine.” I lean back as Mag begins to scratch my scalp.   

“She feels betrayed. When this crap started I promised her that I wasn’t like Blaze, that I didn’t hurt people for no reason. Then this happened,” She pauses. “And now I’ve gone back on my word, I’ve betrayed you both.” Mag prods me to sit up straight so she could start brushing with the hairbrush. We sit in a comfortable silence as she guides that brush through my shoulder blade length hair. About ten minutes later she finished with the brush and placed it back on the shelf and I can clearly hear her stomach demanding food. She deftly braids my blonde hair into a braid that reaches the nape of my neck. She pulls me into a loving embrace that I stiffen against and resist. The red headed woman quickly releases me, murmuring a soft apology as she plants a quick peck on me forehead.  

My slightly depressed cellmate stands and offers a hand to me. I take it and she pulls me to my feet, I wince as my bare feet hit the cold cement floor. Then I realize how cold the prison is now that it’s December, it’s probably so cold because the warden doesn’t want to waste money on heating. I shove my feet into the thin white moccasins that the state of Connecticut calls shoes and shuffle after Mag to the cafeteria.  

When we arrive at the cafeteria I find Namine and Amber at a table in the far left corner of the huge room as Mag gets into the food line. Namine is slumped against the table with her arms hiding her head and face. Amber is directly to her right watching the shorter woman absently. I sit across from Amber. “What’s up?”   

“Huh?” Both of them jump at the sound of my voice. “Why so glum?” Amber shrugs and points with her chin to Namine. The auburn haired woman sighs and shakes her head, not bothering to lift her head. “What’s wrong?” I try again, wondering what was making the normally confident woman act so meek. My friend picks her head up and lean it against her hand, shaking her head in silently refusal to answer. But I am shocked by the look of her face to notice that. The right side of her face is covered in welts and over lapping bruises, so much that it looks like one giant bruise.  Her nose is crooked like it has been broken and recently reset, her left eye is bruised along the brow, making it droop slightly. Her right eye is swollen shut, both of her lips are split open, and there is a hand shaped bruise and claw like nail marks on her neck. “What the hell happened?” I gasp, strangely fascinated by the beaten face in front of us. Namine chuckles and shakes her head.  

 “Blaze!” A raspy voice behind me growls. Amber and I jump at the sudden intrusion. I glance back as my redheaded cellmate rounds to the seat on my right, as she sits down the morose woman’s bruised face hardens and turns away from us. I snatch a browning apple from Mag’s tray and squeeze it gently. It squishes in my hand, great it’s rotten. Never the less I bite into it, grimacing at the trademark sourness of a rotten apple. To distract myself from the taste of my apple, I watch as Mag attempts to negotiate with Namine.

Carefully studying her determination hardened face as she coaxes Namine to listen to her, her voice is low and gentle, but my mind won’t process the words anymore. As Mag talks Namine cocks her head to one side, she appears to be listening at least for now. Mag notices this too as her voice gains the confidence and her eyes flash with gratitude. Yet I still cannot focus on her words, it’s like she’s speaking a different language. Then a sudden wave of pain torments my head, and my vision goes white then my eyes drop closed. I feel my body slide sideways and I can’t stop it.  

I fall, for what feels like hours, my body waiting for an impact that never comes. Then something soft, yet rigid closes on my shoulder, I stop falling. I’m pulled against something similar, but bigger. A voice calls out, ringing in my head like a bell, dislodging another wave of pain; I think I cry out in an attempt to make the pain causing voice go away. Something shakes me causing the pain in my head to spread to my face, now it too begins to throb. I grunt to make these pain-causing annoyances to stop, but they continue. I force my unwilling eyes to open, whimpering as the sudden flash of light makes the throbbing in my head worse. Blurry figures loom before me, cool hands rest on my hot face while a soothing voice croons at a whisper, but it’s words I do not understand. 

I blink a few times to clear my vision before the faces come into focus. Above me is the unfamiliar face of a middle-aged man with gray receding hair and soft brown eyes; he cradles me in his arms. The man is the guard at the table, until a minute ago he had gone unnoticed. He tries to say something but his voice is too loud and his words are drowned out by pain. Then suddenly Mag appears at my side, her voice drops to a gentle whisper as she asks. “What’s wrong?”   

“I don’t know.” I rasp in a whisper. Her cool hand ghosts over my forehead and her fingers press on my eyelids, dragging them down to shut them. I feel myself being transferred to my cellmate’s arms as my muscles slacken and my body goes limp just before my mind goes dark.     

Pain slices through my already throbbing head as a wall of white appears before my eyes. A shadowy hand shaped figure swoops toward my face, it is ice-cold as it lands on my face drags my eyes closed. A gruff voice whispers, “Keep your eyes closed.” And I drift away again.  

My eyes drift open taking in the world in a blurry, fuzzy form and I notice that my head doesn’t hurt, or even have any feeling. A blur of yellow hair and glinty silver metal hovers above my face, its mouth opening and closing rapidly. Only a minute later do I realize that it’s talking. “…. Gave you an I.V drip…help the pain…” That is all I can catch of the garbled and distorted speech. I nod absently and close my eyes, intending to blink but my eyelids are too heavy to lift and I end up falling asleep again.  

I wake with a start from the black pit of a dreamless sleep. Blurry eyed, I sit up and look around me. White wall, white beds with rails and restraints, pea soup green flooring. Infirmary, I realize quickly. A blonde nurse comes over to me, her spectacled face kind. “Hey,” she greets, I nod in response and she smiles at me. “Looks like the morphine wore off.” She comments as she puts a hand on my shoulder and pushes me down, I don’t resist.   

“What happened?” I croak, confused.   

“You fainted in the cafeteria.” She says, placing a thermometer in my mouth. “Don’t talk.” I nod. “You were starving, fatigued and a bit dehydrated.” The blonde retrieves the thermometer from my mouth, glancing at the read out before setting it aside. “We used a mild sedative and some morphine to keep you asleep while your body healed itself. We also kept up a glucose drip up to nourish you.” She reaches down and grabs one of the Velcro cuffs attached to the bed and secures my wrist into. “Sorry policy.” She explains and traps my other wrist.   

“How long was I out?” I ask, glancing down at the IV protruding from the crook of my elbow. “Do I still need that?”   

“Almost two days, and no you don’t need the IV, it’s just a glucose drip.” She says, quickly jerking the needle from my arm and taking the bag from the hanging stand. She set those on a bedside tray and then covered the wound with a piece of gauze held in place by a swatch of medical tape. Then she disappeared, leaving me Vectored to a hospital bed. The day that followed was the longest of my life, stuck in a starchy, stiff bed. White walls surround me, a row of four identical beds,(one occupied by a crazy old coot who growled and barked every time someone looked at her) to my right. The room I’m in is a small rectangular off shoot of the main infirmary, separated from it by the wall on my left; the nurses come in through an open doorway, which the noises of other patients drift through the doorway. Late in the day I was brought dinner, a half-frozen microwave chicken breast with half cooked frozen peas and warm milk. Lucky me I got to feed myself, unlike dog lady who was fed by Sami, the blonde nurse, and threatened with enemas every time she snapped at the nurse. After dinner I spent an hour studying the lovely white wall that separated me from the other patients, like Cloe. Sami had allowed me to keep my left hand free off the restraint because I was well behaved. Sometime during my appraisal of the sloppy paint job on the wall, Mag arrives as silent as a ninja in her orange jumpsuit; against the white back round I still don’t notice her. Until the raspy barking of dog lady roused my from my reverie, I glanced over at the old woman and saw the familiar figure.

I took a few seconds to recognize the lush curves, the baby blue eyes and her crimson hair, cut short and left spiky. Mag, the name resounded in my mind, making my placid thoughts stir and begin to read her body. Mag’s trademark grin had collapsed into a tight line of uneasy tension. She had my full attention as I had her’s, the bitch was now barking loudly, like a threatened dog, but I barely noticed. What I did notice, however was a peculiar feeling rising in my gut, a creeping cold feeling that made my skin tingle and my palms sweat, I vaguely recognized it as apprehension of some sort. My pulse jumped, but I was not angry, or aroused, my breathing came faster, shallower but I still didn’t understand.   

 A worried look passes over my cellmate’s face as our gazes lock; her baby blue eyes burn against my own, which stirs the feeling more, increasing my already rapid body functions. “She’s having a panic attack.” Sami’s voice announces, causing me to glance over to dog lady; whom the kind nurse and one of her other colleagues are trying to calm. My cellmate takes a few steps closer, a primal instinct to escape, run seizes me but my rational mind, and the Velcro restraint, stops all actions to do so. Mag approaches quickly, her easy-going demeanor turned predatory by my fear-crazed mind. My vitals peak and I begin to hyperventilate, but Mag climbs into the bed with me anyway. She envelops me in a lovingly embrace, by some strange miracle, I calm down and snuggle into her body. “It’s alright Rizzy, I won’t hurt you.”   

I open my eyes and look up at her, breathing in her musky smell. “I’m so afraid of you, I tremble even right now.” I say, bringing to attention the fact I was shaking like a leaf in the wind. “But at the same time, this feels so right, I love it when you hold me, fuck me, caress me.” I stop and sigh. “I don’t know what to do.”   

Mag smiles at me and closes her eyes. “Go to sleep Rizzy.” She commands and I close my eyes, letting my thoughts wonder for a while until I do finally drift off to sleep.

Chapter 13

Title: Chapter Xlll: Dealing with it

I wake with a start, pulling away from the arms holding me. A yellow blur appears next to me, checking my pulse as it chatters to me. Ignoring the chattering blur, I look down to the other person in the bed with me. Mag lies there, gazing up at me her eyes asking me if I can deal with her. The blur I come to recognize as Sami, the nurse stops talking and moves away. “I’m not afraid, Mag, at least not right now.” It was true, I don’t fear her; I’m not trembling, no panic attack, or gut wrenching feelings.  

 

 

“I don’t get you.” Mag grumbles, shifting from her side to her back. My stomach flutters nervously as her blue eyes regain their playful, almost predatory look She pats her chest, inviting me to lie down.  

 

 

“I don’t get me either.” I shake my head at her offer, lying next to her. “Just stay like that, okay?” I carefully extend my hand to her face, cupping her chin in my palm. My thumb strokes up her cheek to her temple, her skin is sweaty from sleep. I move my thumb across her forehead, feeling the hard bone of her skull under the soft skin, tracing down the bridge of her nose I push against the cartilage gently. I feel her face twitch as she tries to her face away, but I daringly turn it right back. “No, stay like this, you don’t scare me like this. Just stay submissive.”  

 

 

“Rizzy that doesn’t make sense. “ Mag interrupts, crossing her arms over her chest. “You’re just power playing!” Her face hardens, contorting angrily. My gut tightens and my mouth goes dry. I feel my hands begin to tremble again. 

 

 

“Why would I fake this?”  I ask quietly, raising my shaking hand to her face, which softens. “Why would I want to fear you?” I carefully cup her chin again, shaking her whole head with my trembling.  

 

 

“I dunno Rizzy, but how does this make sense, how can you only fear me when I’m not being submissive?” She sighs, but uncrosses her arms and closes her eyes. “Have your way with me.” She admonishes.  

 

 

“Don’t move, okay?” I clarify as I move my head to her shoulder. My cellmate nods, leaning her head back. I move my thumb over her strong chin, then to her soft, pinkish lips, over sideways across her cheek, last across to her ear. Down her tough neck I continue to stroke, her muscles completely relaxed against my fingers, now that all of them have joined the massage. She doesn’t even tense when her body shudders against my light touch across her clavicle. As I reach the collar of her shirt, I mumble to her. “It does make sense, sort of. Before you were acting normal, when you raped me I mean. Completely normal, then you just snapped. So if you aren’t acting normal, then you won’t hurt me.” I trail off, rubbing her tummy. Mag squirms under me, helplessly, whimpering. “That tickles.” I jump and cower against the red headed woman as a hand grabs my shoulder.  

 

 

“Mag you have to leave now, they started the half an hour call on lights out.” Sami’s kind voice cuts in. Mag shifts to get out of the bed, stopped by me pushing down on her belly.  “Don’t move,” I glance up at the blonde nurse. “Gimme a minute please?” She nods, motioning that she’ll give me five minutes then Mag’s gone. “When I get back to the cell, this isn’t just going to go away.” I say turning my attention back to my cellmate. “We’ll have to figure something out, okay?” Mag nods. “Then I guess you’re going.” I scoot back so she can get up. Mag crawls over the metal bar on the bed and straightens her jump suite when she hits the floor. Sami appears from around the corner. My cellmate flashes an innocent smile. I stare at her, she stares back, and for a minute we just look at each other. Our eyes asking the same question, yet neither of us can understand the question. Sami clears her throat, breaking the spell. I catch a last glance at my lover’s face, so soft, so tender, vulnerable. Then she turns away, and so do I. I hear her clothes swish as she moves away, around the corner. I close my eyes and let my mind wonder just what we wanted from each other with that stare.  

 

 

I hear the click of Sami’s shoes as she approaches my bed. “You didn’t even notice, did you?” She says, and I crack an eye at her. “I released your other arm, Mag was laying on it, but still and I disconnected the monitors, you never even noticed them though.” I glance over to confirm what she’s saying and find that I am indeed free. “Spread your legs,” The kind nurse orders suddenly. “I need to change your catheter.” I whimper in protest, opening my eyes. 

 

 

“Can’t I just use a bed pan?” I plead. The nurse shakes her head and I part my legs slightly for her. “Okay, there.” She pushes my knees farther apart, reaching between my thighs and tugs the small tube from my urethra. I close my eyes again. “So when can I get out of here?”  

 

 

“Tomorrow after lunch.” She answers, carefully pushing another tube back in the small opening, drawing a grunt from me.  

 

 

“You’re sure?”  

 

 

“Yeah, we just have to keep you over night for observation.” She pushes my knees closed. “I guess I shouldn’t ask but is she the one that tore you up?”  

 

 

I sigh and nod. “Yeah, she is.” 

 

 

“You’re so calm about it, how are you so calm about stuff like that?” She asks.  

 

 

“I’ve got to live with her, but it doesn’t bother me that she did it. I just don’t like that she could do it again and hurt me more.” I try to explain. 

 

 

Sami clicks her tongue. “Yeah, I get it.” She passes a soft hand

over my forehead. “Try to get some sleep, hon.” I close my eyes to obey her, and then I fade to bleak sleep.  

 

 

I open my eyes slowly, letting out a soft groan. I rub the sleep from my eyes as I sit up, looking around. An unfamiliar nurse is circling around the bed that dog-lady is passed out in. She’s a little bit older then Sami, with brown hair and gray eyes. Her face is hard, unkind or focused. I can’t really tell. “Where’d Sami go?” I ask. 

 

 

“She left, her shift ended.” The nurse quips without even glancing back at me, I move to lie down but her rough voice cuts in. “Don’t bother, you’re getting out of here now, the paperwork’s done. I’ll bring you something to change into; you probably want to get out of the ass gown.” She finishes with dog lady and disappears around the corner. “Hey, the piss bag is empty, you might want to go.” Her cheese grater voice calls. “I’m going to pull the catheter when I come back.” I sit cross-legged on the bed and let out a loud groan as I realize that my bladder is rather full. I close my eyes and let my body relax. Soon my belly tenses and my bladder releases. Peeing with a catheter is kind of like wetting the bed but without the stain and warmth.  

 

 

“Hey I peed, come collect your spoils!” I call loudly to the older nurse, stretching my legs.  

 

 

“Gimme a minute, wouldya!” She yells back. A few minutes later the nurse appears with a navy blue jumpsuit. “They brought up the normal uniform, you can deal until you get a chance to change.” She says, setting the clothes on the bed. She glances up at me she gives me an annoyed look. “What are you waiting for a magic word? Spread ‘em.” Suddenly she is focused on my legs. I quickly spread my knees. The impatient woman reaches between them and yanks the tube out. “Alright, off the bed and change.” She gives a final order then disappears again. I practically jump over the bed rail, feeling the paper-thin hospital gown flutter open in the back. I locate the pants to the jumpsuit and push my legs into them, pulling them up quickly. I shrug out of the gown, setting it on the bed. I struggle into the tight white undershirt on, then shrugging into the jacket. I slide my feet into the sandals. I adjust the clothes, finding that they tightly. 

 

 

I turn around, moving to look around the corner that had separated me from the other patients. On the other side of corner is the part of the infirmary I have grown familiar with in the last few weeks. Twenty beds, about half of them filled, are lined against the walls of the large rectangular room. Cloe’s bed is set in the corner closest to the door to the hall. The blonde said to occupy that bed was dozing off, her hair tousled around her head; her scrub shirt was riding up to reveal the medical tape over her stitches. The story behind the scrubs still makes me giggle. When my friend had first returned she was put into a flimsy, backless gown, she had damn near killed herself refusing treatment until she was given something respectable to wear. It took half a day in the infirmary for Cloe to get a set of blue nursing scrubs. I walk up to my friend’s bed, giving it a good shake to rouse her. As expected Cloe whips her whole body around to face me, her body instantly crumbling into an expression of pain. “Hey, Cloe.” I grin smugly.  

 

 

“Rizzy!” She growls, holding her right side around her ribs.  

 

 

“Sorry, I guess I shouldn’t have done that.” I rest my hand on her cool brow. “You don’t have a fever anymore, that good.” I note. Cloe tisks at me impatiently before opening her mouth again. 

 

 

“So why are you in here? I saw Mag carry you in but she won’t say anything about it, neither will Amber or Namine.”  

 

 

“Just passed out in the cafeteria, that’s all.” I decide to omit, ‘because I was dehydrated from cowering in my cell for a week.’ The blonde seems satisfied and raises the hem of her shirt further.  

 

 

“They changed the tape on here, its clear now so you can see the stitches.” She explains, almost excited. “It looks so cool.” There they are, a line of tight stitches that span three or four ribs in length and are about an inch wide, set on the right side of her rib cage. I had been wrong about Cloe getting stabbed, as it turns out, she had just been slashed. 

 

 

A voice behind me makes me jump. “What are you still doing here? Get your ass out of my infirmary!” The asshole nurse barks at me.  

 

 

“Calm down, Ally, its just Rizzy she wants to talk to me for a minute or two.” My blonde friend interjects. The mean nurse leaves us alone. Cloe waves away my incredulous look. “You just have to know how to talk to her.” She explains smugly, as though it’s that simple. “Maybe you should get back to Mag, she’s probably not back in her cell yet; you could surprise her.” 

 

 

“Yeah,” I mumble. “I guess I could.” I continue quietly “See you Cloe.” I turn toward the door, feeling a numbness surround both my mind and body. As I step out of the infirmary, it feels almost leaving a shield, a bubble of protection. I head down the hallway, wondering if I should head back to cell right away. Even as I debate the my feet carry me to the cell block, I don’t even register it until I’m ascending up the stairs to the level of my cell. I find that with each metallic clank of the stairs my pulse pounds a little faster, my breathing jumps as I reach the top step. I continue on the clanging metal walkway, my heart pounding louder in my ears as I get closer to the cell. When I reach the door peer in, much to my relief, I find the cell empty. My heart slows down as I move into the familiar setting of the small room. I cross the tiny space to my bed; I reach up and pull a notebook off the shelf above it.  

 

 

I pull the pen from the ring binding and sit down on the bed. I open the notebook to a blank page and start another letter to Lindsay. I start by describing the conditions I’ve been living in for the past month, since I last wrote to her. Next I vaguely hint at my rape, then go onto explain of my solitude in the cell. Last I outline my brief stay in the infirmary and mention my panic attacks. I sign it off and seal it in an envelope that’s already got the address scrawled on it. I place it underneath a stack of novels. I lay back down on my bed, stretching out comfortably across it. I take off the tight jacket of my jumpsuit and bunch it up to use as a pillow, letting my body fully relax as I drift off to sleep.  

 

 

Rather than the painkiller induced blackout sleep I’ve been experiencing in the infirmary, I get to return to the cycle of nightmares and fitful rest. The nightmares are unpredictable, sometimes random people are raping me, other times stabbed or slashed by Mag or Blaze, but most of the time they are much worse, things I get scared of just thinking about, things I’ll never willingly talk about. Last week I get used to it, when I would wake up hysterical my redheaded cellmate would always ready to calm me. Now things have changed, my subconscious has me ripped from my lifeboat and now rejects Mag. Any way after a particularly gruesome reenactment of my fearful mind’s vision of my death at the hands of Blaze, I jump to awareness. A pair of strong arms encircles me as someone’s hot breath touches my ear. Still groggy, I turn to see my captor. 

 

 

Mag. Laying in her usual spooning position behind me, she sleeps harmlessly. In retrospect, she looks almost cute. I feel her arms twitch as she stirs, my heart jumping a few beats as she reflexively hugs me against her. I go till in her arms as her scent invades my nostrils, Axe deodorant, sweat and her natural scent mix together in a comforting concoction. Suddenly I’m released, well almost thrown, from Mag’s arms as she fully wakes up. “Sorry.” She croaks, her voice effected by morning dry mouth. I flip onto my back from my side and look at her. My cellmate is lying flat on her back; her right arm, which is the closest one to me is bent with her hand tucked behind her head. While her left hand lies lifelessly at her side, her head is cocked toward me; her shaggy mop of reddish hair is surprisingly flung out of her eyes.  

 

 

“It’s okay.” I assure her. “Just don’t move.” I slowly move over to her watching for tension in her muscles. I lay down next to her, resting my head on her upper arm with my right arm strong across her abdomen. “Tell me how you got in here, no lies.” I order her quietly. A few minutes pass as she thinks about what I’m demanding, she thinks for so long that almost give up and walk away. Then she answers, but not in words, instead of saying something she just flicks her hair into her eyes and looks away. 

 

 

“Give me a minute, let me think okay?” She mumbles. I nod to her reaching up and tilting her head back to face me. 

 

 

“Take your time.”

[End notes: Okay, I probably won't have another chapter up for awhile, I have stuff for school to do and that's taking up most of the time I would use for writing. But school starts soon and that's creates alot of writing time.]

Chapter 14

Title: Chapter XlV: Going back

Mag took a breath and directed her attention to the ceiling. “I don’t know where to start, there is so much shit. So much happened!” She groans.

 

 

 

“Just go all the back to the beginning, where things started to get bad. I don’t care how long I have to listen.” I answer her. My cellmate nods and sighs, then turns her attention back to me. Her blue eyes are filled with longing and pain; I can almost feel the sorrow within them. 

 

 

“I don’t know when it started, the good, the bad. It’s all stuck together and I can’t pry it apart. Rizzy this is something that I haven’t thought about in years. Even when I was thinking about it, it was so hard to figure out. You have to give me some time to get everything straight in my head, let me sleep on it and get back to you tomorrow, huh?” I sigh and her eyes flash with an unreadable emotion. 

 

 

“Take your time, I can wait.” She nods and closes her eyes. I watch her jaw set as she turns her face from me. I lift my head from her arm and look for my makeshift pillow in the dark room. “What time is it?” I ask, wondering how long I had been sleeping. 

 

 

“Around nine.” Mag mumbles as she turns away from me and toward the wall. I blink in surprise, seven hours. I haven’t slept that long since the night I had been raped. I sit up on the bed and leave my red haired cellmate to her thoughts. I stand up and cross the room to the other bed. From the shelf above it I pull a small LED light and a novel. I flip the book open and switch on the light, and then I begin to read. 

 

 

My eyes open slowly to take in the dim cell. I sit up and rub the back of my head. I hear something metal hit the floor and roll across it, along with the sound of something heavy landing on the floor as well. Across the room Mag stirs and rolls over, a grunt passing though her lips. My eyes search the floor around the bed for the fallen objects. Less than a foot from the edge of the bed I notice the book, splayed open on its spine. I reach down and pick up the book; I must have fallen asleep while reading I muse. I find the light not far from the previous location of the book and pick it up as well. I reach up and replace both of the items on the shelf where I had found them last night. 

 

 

I shrug out of the white undershirt, baring my upper body to the freezing temperatures of the cell. I feel my nipples harden and begin to throb with the pain of exposure. I lay back on the bed with my hands resting on the concave expanse of my tummy. My left hand finds its way to my left breast, cupping it gently as thin fingers surround the throbbing nipple. The pads of my fingers scrape against the nub with delicious friction, I hiss with pleasure as the rough surfaces begin to tweak the rubbery knot. My right hand however wanders in a different direction. It breaches the waistband of my pants, moving to cup my pussy. It strokes my labia, bringing warmth to them and allowing my slick arousal to come and wet the soft flesh that they protect. I whimper as the fingers delve into the warm depths. They stroke the soft inner flesh and bring more of my juice. They probe my vagina, avoiding the newly healed flesh at its perimeter and lightly touching inside of it. Meanwhile my body jerks and contracts as I masturbate. Finally my hand gives a final subtle flick of the sensitive bud at the top of my sex. Then my consciousness gives to a rushing wave of pleasure and my body surrenders itself to the current of passion. 

 

 

As my body quivers, slowly relaxing, I return my hands to my abdomen, smearing my sticky arousal around my navel. I close my eyes. My mind, tired from my orgasm decides to slip into the vise grip of sleep. I do not dream, instead I feel as though I’m resting in a dark womb. A safe feeling makes my sleep restful. At least until I wake up, as my body rouses itself I get the feeling of falling. Falling out of a dark suspended position, down into the hallow space below. My eyes ease open, the world blurring before coming into focus. 

 

 

I sit up and begin to look around, accessing how things have changed since I passed out. The door stands open and I notice that the soft hum of occupied cells has dwindled to a murmur of life. Breakfast time most likely I decide, finally noticing that my red-haired cellmate is missing from the bed she had been sleeping on earlier. I stand up, my breasts giving to the pull of gravity as they sag low on my chest. On the corner of the bed, folded neatly is one of the orange jumpsuits. A soft smile crosses my features as I realize that this was a gift from Mag. I strip naked, though at this point all I’m doing is loosing my pants. I dress into the pants and black undershirt, leaving the jacket so that I may enjoy newfound warmth in it when it got colder later in the day. 

 

 

I pass the day reading a book, well many books. Waiting for my cellmate’s return I manage to finish the novel I started last night and move onto a much smaller one, after I finish that book I pull out another one. Soon I had read four books and the sun as beginning to set. Mag would come back soon I realized as I put the books away. I lay back down on the bed, resigning myself to wait. Soon I find my mind wandering to the red haired woman, specifically what we had discussed last night. Would she be able to find the words to explain how she ended up in jail? Even then, would she be able to tell me? These questions weighed heavily on my mind, and I could not keep my thoughts far from them. 

 

 

Either way I allow my thoughts to stumble into and across the concept. My eyes drift closed as my bony fingers wander across my rib cage. The noise from the world outside the cell grows as the other inmates return for night lock up. I turn my attention to the door as I wait for my cellmate’s return. A few minutes after the hum of life returns to the cells around mine the woman who has been dominating most of my thoughts crosses the threshold of the door. She moves to the open bed and sits down on it with a soft sigh. She buries her head in her hands. “What’s wrong?” I ask. 

 

 

“Everything.” Mag answers cryptically, massaging her temples with her middle and index fingers. 

 

 

“Come sit over here.” I offer, but she shakes her head. 

 

 

“Why? So I can lay down like a good little girl while you probe my mind for all my insecurities?” My red headed cellmate sneers. 

 

 

I close my mouth and stand up; summoning every bit of courage I have as I march across the cell to her. I stand in front of her, looking down at her as I wait for her to look up. She doesn’t look up though, for a lonely moment I stand waiting but it never happens. So gathering what is left of my bravery and strength and grip her shoulders and shove her hard backwards, knocking her flat against the bed. I crawl up her waist and straddle it, my hands circling her wrists and holding them against the bed. Mag’s muscles are tense but she makes no attempt to move. “Well you have my attention.” She relents as I rest my forehead against her her’s, my breathing barely controlled as my pulse jumps rapidly. 

 

 

“Tell me what’s on your mind.” I command. 

 

 

“I’ve just been thinking, about things that you wouldn’t understand.” She answers evasively. “I’ll explain after I answer your original question. Now get off of me!” I nod and gall of off her onto my side on the bed. I whine and roll onto my back.  

 

 

“Start when you’re ready.” I grab her hand and hold it in my own. 

 

 

“You sure seem to getting more comfortable around me fast.” She snaps. 

 

 

“Yeah, I guess I am." I reply dispassionately. “Now lets stop chatting and you start telling.” 

 

 

Mag sighs softly. “It started when I was adopted after that shit with my step-dad and the therapy place, my mom said I was damaged and she couldn’t deal with me. She put me up for adoption at age fifteen, I didn’t expect anyone to bother with me and I was sure I’d be in an orphanage until I was eighteen. Surprisingly I was wrong and after six months an old couple adopted me. Jace and Windie were there names. Windie was in her forties and Jace had just hit fifty. Their daughter, Rachel had just died in a motorcycle accident and I guess they needed a replacement.” Mag said her words turning bitter by the end of the last sentence. “I lived with them fairly pleasurably. I had chores to do around the house, which I did as often as I could without neglecting my schoolwork and later, my jobs. I went to a public school, didn’t have many friends though. When I was sixteen I got a job at the local pizza place then at seventeen I had a car and I was working two job, attending school, and babysitting on the side.” My red haired cellmate explains. “One of the kids I took care of was an eleven year old who hated being alone in her house because it was big and dark and made odd sounds. When her parents would go out, I would watch her, sometimes I would take her to work with me.” 

 

 

“A little past her twelfth birthday I had a day off from both of my jobs and her parents were busy so I spent the night at her place to keep her company. Her name was Corrine, by the way, and she had this beautiful blonde hair and the darkest eyes I’ve ever seen.” Mag closes her eyes and sighs as though she has a mental picture of Corinne locked into her head. “That night I noticed that she was holding herself and when she would lay down she would curl up into a ball and cup her pussy. I asked her if she was okay and she said in this pitiful little voice. ‘Daddy gave me a birthday present I didn’t want.’ Poor kid, I asked her what she meant by that but she just shook her head. I asked her if I could feel inside her to see if she was hurt. At first she didn’t want to, but I managed to convince her that it would be okay and wouldn’t hurt.” The woman opens her eyes and stares blankly at the ceiling. “I told her to take off all her clothes and lay on the bed for me, I told her to cover up with a blanket so she wouldn’t be cold. I went to her parents’ room and grabbed a condom from the nightstand drawer, the kind that’s lubed then I found a small bottle of gel lube. I went back to Corinne’s room and found her laying on her back, completely naked and uncovered by even a blanket. I sat down on the bed and told her that I was going to put the condom on two of my fingers and feel inside of her, she nodded but in her eyes I could see this despair and pain that made me so ashamed of what I was about to do. I had to do it; I had to know if she was hurt. It bothered me that I didn’t know why she seemed to be in so much pain. I kissed her, as I looked into her eyes I brought my lips to her’s, in an attempt to tell that it was okay and I wouldn’t hurt her. She pulled away and tilted her face away from me. So I ripped open the condom and put it on my fingers, then I used the gel to lube up her insides so it wouldn’t hurt as much, hopefully not at all.” 

 

 

“I pulled her into my lap and cradled her in my arms, she was so soft, so pliant. With my mouth right next to her ear, I was able to whisper to her everything that I was going to do, so she could prepare herself for it. Holding her like that with my fingers at the opening of her vagina I asked her one last time if it was okay for me to do this. She just nodded. I gently pushed the two fingers in, but there was almost no resistance. At first I thought it was the lube doing its job. I realized that she was loose, really loose; I think I could have gone down to the third knuckle on my third finger, but I didn’t want to push it. I began to feel around, exploring her sensitive inner flesh. Corinne had these welts and scrapes around her pussy, all over it actually. I sunk in up to the third knuckle and I could still feel them as far back, just inches apart. By the time I had realized the extent of her injuries Corinne was squirming and on the verge of tears. She was sore, inside of her pussy she was fucking sore.” Mag laughs with bitter disgust. “She was twelve, you don’t hurt kids like that, fuck a kid, make her feel good sure, but hurt a kid like that no. What had happened to her was fucking insane. He father did it; he raped her on her twelfth birthday and her mom held her down so he could. What the hell was wrong with them? How could you do that?” She rants, her face livid with rage from years ago. “Corrine told me, more or less that her dad had been the one to hurt her and her mom helped, that was how I figured it out.” 

 

 

“I wanted to kill the bastard, more I wanted her to know the pleasure that sex should bring, but she was so banged up inside I would only hurt her.” Mag breaths a heavy sigh and her eyes moistened with unshed tears. “So I pulled out my fingers and told her that I was going to make her feel really good. She didn’t want to be touched so I asked her if I could lick it better, she didn’t understand what I meant and agreed. I took the condom off of my fingers and threw it away. I made her lay against the bed and pushed her thighs apart so I could get my face close. Corinne was freaking out at this point, the last thing she wanted was teeth in that area and kept trying to close her thighs to keep me away. In the end I just used my hands to hold them apart while she struggled against me. When I finally did get my face close enough to start licking, she was resistant to the pleasure, kept jerking away until I really set in with determination. By that point I was frustrated and wanted her to just give me a chance, so I started licking with the full length of my tongue. Inside her pussy, on her outer lips, I was everywhere. It took less than ten minutes after that point to get her to come for the first time in her life. It was pretty hard on her, since the clenching muscles aggravated her wounds so when she did recover from the initial orgasm, she just wanted to drop off and sleep. I made her clean up and get dressed for bed.” Mag smiles at the fond memory then bites her lip. 

 

 

“We didn’t talk about it at all, it was like it never happened. For months, we just acted like it had never happened and life continued on as normal. Some nights when I would watch her, I could tell that her dad had been up to his dirty deeds again. She would limp or not want to walk and she put off going to the bathroom for as long as possible. When I finally got to stay over at their house again, she forced herself on me, just about. We were in her bed, talking as we tried to go to sleep and I could feel her hand stroking my leg, my thighs, then my pussy as she talked on like nothing was happening. By the end of night she’d given me an orgasm and had three of her own. We developed a relationship, we would fuck when we got the chance, but around other people we never gave off any relationship other than friendship, for years this went on. Until she was sixteen and I was twenty-one, I was still living in my parents house helping pay bills and all that. Windie and Jace were good to me, they didn’t want me to be out of the house and alone so we came to that agreement. I had pretty much become a member of Corrine’s family by that point and could come and go as I pleased because I had my own set of keys. He dad still did his dirty deeds, but she had gone through puberty and the physical effects weren’t as damaging. Emotional was a different story, I couldn’t make love to her pussy to pussy, and I couldn’t be on top of her at all. I didn’t mind really, I loved her too much to care about those trivial things.” 

 

 

“One night Corinne’s parents were going out to dinner and we were both stressed out and just needed a release. We gave her parents twenty minutes, and then we made love. Locked in her room with the lights off with only the dull romantic glow of a solitary candle to light the room. I came onto her skilled fingers so many times that night, and I teased her into her small orgasmic spasms at least three times. It took a while but by the time the candle burned down we were exhausted. I made myself dress for bed and pushed clothes onto her as well. We fell asleep together, locked in each other’s embrace. When I woke up she was whimpering my name, it was still dark, but just barely. “ Mag sits up and turns away, she pulls her knees to her chest and rakes her hand through her short hair. “It was pitiful really; her dad was raping her while I was right next to her. Corinne was half asleep and thought it was me. I was so pissed, I couldn’t help myself, and I just lunged onto him. We fell off the bed and I heard Corinne turn over and fall back asleep. Her dad recovered quickly and pushed me off of him. He wrestled me to the ground and pinned me on my back.” 

 

 

“He was holding my arms with one of his hands above my head. He used his other hand to spread my thighs and forced his way between them. For a moment he was kind of sitting with his cock against my pussy, I could feel it with need, with desire. Corinne’s father then jammed his cock into my pussy and rode me like a whore. A few minutes of hell passed with his dick plunging in and out of my unwilling sex before he blew his load inside of me. He lay there for a few minutes before pulling out and rising to his feet. He said ‘I know what you’ve been doing to my daughter, and I’m sure a few twisted facts could land you in jail. No one has to know what went on tonight, next week it will happen again and you will be here. You will be here next week, or I’ll have to report you to the authorities.’ He left the room. After he left I didn’t know what to do. So I crawled back onto Corinne’s bed and I curled up to a ball and cried. I cried myself to sleep and then slept the whole next day.” 

 

 

“I wasn’t stupid, so I showed up in Corinne’s house the next week. Her dad made me kneel in the foyer and give him head with his wife and kid watching he took me to the living room and threw on the couch. He fucked me there, spilled his seed in me then pulled out of my pussy and said ‘You may go.’ In less than a second Corinne was on me, crying and sobbing apologies at me.” Mag hunches over farther, her shoulders shaking as she takes a heavy breath. I sit up and pull her into a tight embrace, allowing her to neck. I murmur soothingly to her for a few minutes until she’s ready to continue. “I calmed her down and we took a bath together. She was so afraid to touch me like I was made of glass but she got over it and I got her into her bed with me. I made her make love to me.” 

 

 

“Things continued like this for about a year, every Saturday I would be fucked my her father, but then her father didn’t care what we did. It all worked very well, except for the fucking part, which could be pretty unbearable at times. Then the thing that ruined my life happened.” Mag sighs. “One Saturday while he was taking me one night I was really stressed out, I didn’t want him inside me. It hurt more than usual so I fought back a little and tried to squirm away. He pinned me to the bed and stuck his dick up my ass. Corinne was watching from the doorway, she always did. I don’t know why but when she heard me crying, mostly from frustration. She snapped and jumped onto her dad. She beat him off of me and then protected me from him when he got pissed and tried to get rid of her. I was to busy trying to disappear to notice exactly what was going on.”    

 

 

“What I do remember was laying in her room with her nuzzling my breast and suckling my nipples afterwards. It was obvious she was concerned for me, mostly because I felt like I was torn almost in half from the anal sex. I managed to drift off with Corinne still attached to my nipple.” Mag sighs and attempts to pull away from my embrace. I hold tight to her, instead forcing her to rest her head against my shoulder. “After that night, her parents did everything they could to keep us apart. A few changes in her schedule so that she was busy when I had days off. Then they changed all the locks in the house so I couldn’t get in anymore. I didn’t give up though; a few switched shifts and I could catch her walking home from her piano lesson or her study group. Her parents were usually lenient when it came to truancy so we would take the longest root possible to her house and just talk as I walked her home. After a few weeks her parents caught on after that they had a car drive her everywhere. They forbid her to see me, and that really pissed me off so I took off work one day and just camped out across the street from her house. I waited; I waited all day for her to come out. Ten hours after I camped out she came out of the house, then I had to trail her for six blocks to be sure she wasn’t being watched. I just walked up to her and said hello, she recognized my voice and smothered me in a hug. She took e to a café and we talked over hot coffee and donuts. She told me that her parents were going ape shit about me and didn’t want us to have any contact. We chatted for an hour, pretty much about nothing. Small things until she asked me if I wanted to run away with her. I said yes mostly because I didn’t think she was serious. We finished off a pot of coffee and three rounds of donuts in that hour then made plans to meet the following week. It became a habit, we would meet every week at a different place for two months.” 

 

 

“When we were both comfortable with what was going on she started to ask questions. If we were to run away where would we go? How would you support us? That kind of thing, soon she had a plan, and money saved up. I was so stupid and so blinded by love that I agreed to her plan. I just wanted to hold her in my arms and make love to her without having to deal with her parents. So three months after we started talking again, I took all the money out of my bank account. I’d used most of my pay to fix my car up and change the plates. I had bought canned food and a hot plate with a camp out dining set. It was all piled in the back; the rest of my money was for gas. She had almost a thousand dollars for when I ran out. We hit the road around three a.m. on a Friday. Her parents reported Corinne missing a week later.” 

 

 

“What a week it was, we went from town to town picking roads at random and finding a placed to camp out. Nights spent together, casually making love and whispering our sweet nothings. Mornings spent debating the importance of life and love, afternoons spent driving together, only to do it all again. That was truly the best week of my life. After her parents reported her missing we had to be more careful. With her image and mine blasted in every major newspaper and broadcasted on every news network we had to be more careful in blissful days gave way to wary travel and constant paranoia. Our soft banter became heavy discussions of where to go next, how to escape if we were found. Six months passed, the first two very tense then the excitement slowly tapered off and we could relax again. The discussions were lighter and more precautionary. By the fourth month we were almost as relaxed as the first week. Still wary we managed to push it to a year. We were so connected by that point I felt I could barely go an hour without feeling Corinne’s touch. I knew that I could never lose her. I like to think she felt the same. A year became eighteen months. In the end I wasn’t caught on a kidnapping charge, no nothing that glorious, no car chases, just an unpaid parking ticket. When we were arrested for the unpaid ticket, they ran out prints. Mine got a hit on a kidnapping charge, Corinne’s hit in missing persons.” 

 

 

“They took Corinne away from me, that in itself almost killed me. A few months in holding cells ended with a twenty-year sentence for kidnapping, sexual abuse and rape of a minor, reckless endangerment and refusing to pay a parking ticket. Six years later I met Blaze. In those six years I wrote two hundred letters to Corinne, I still have them because I had no where to send them. I just felt like I had a gigantic hole in me and I needed to fill it with whatever I could find that would give me hope of seeing her just one more time. To tell her how much I loved her.” 

 

 

“The first time I saw you, after so many years I thought you were my love, my angel finally coming back to me. Even after I realized that you weren’t her, I couldn’t touch you. Your eyes and hair and the way your body looks, it’s like an older version of Corinne. I felt like I finally had my reason to live back, like I had a purpose, to protect you. I think even now if I can keep you safe and not hurt you, then maybe you’ll become just like Corinne and I’ll be able to be as happy as I was back then.” 

 

 

“You only care about me because I remind you of your first girlfriend? You don’t like me as a person; I’m just your little pet project to protect as some fucking quest to regain your lost love? Is that all this is?” I ask, feeling myself get angry. 

 

 

“Yes, but it really isn’t that horrible. I do care about you in a different way or understanding. Physically, you’re Corinne and emotionally you’re Rizzy. It’s like that. I can’t explain it.” Mag sighs and forcefully pulls away.

[End notes:

To those of you who enjoy reading my works: I apologize profusely for the delay in between this chapter and the next. The computer that I normally use for my stories has been down and my mother doesn't have the money neccisary to fix it. The one I'm using now doesn't have Office and the word processor it does possess has only the basic formatting capabilites, that have little support on most websites. I do not know when the computer will be fixed but I promise I have not abandoned any of my stories.

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Chapter 15

Title: Chapter XV: Getting Closer

[Author's notes: I have all but given up on getting my other computer fixed and because of this fact, I will start to update on this one.]

Two weeks passed quickly after the night of Mag’s confession. Cloe was released from the infirmary yesterday, she’s been resting in her cell. In all that time I’ve done nothing exciting, just gone through a normal prison routine. Namine has set in motion the basics of the plan to beat Blaze’s face in. Two chicks have started to argue and have almost come to blows a few times, Mag calls them the guard bait. We’re still just setting the stage though, Cloe’s part in our plan still has to be explained to her, but that’s simple so it should only take a few minutes. After that its all down to how well we do enacting the plan. Another week, Mag says, and we’ll be ready to go.

During the passing two weeks, I had time to think on our plan and its repercussions. Initially I thought that to attack Blaze and send this message would end our problems. Then as I began to think more and listen more to what Mag and Namine discussed I realized that I couldn’t have been more wrong. Attacking Blaze would show that our little alliance against her gang and their reign of terror has real power and poses an actual threat. Things would be more dangerous for everyone, a scary thought by itself made scarier by the realization that our alliance members may desert us out of fear. Though I hope these people who are helping us rally against Blaze will stick with us when things get heated and I pray they will weather the storm of the war we’re starting. But I can only hope.

Shaking my head I look down at myself. I’m lying with my hands tucked behind my head on one of the cell beds. My eyes gaze upward, trying to discern the features of the ceiling that I can’t see because the dim light of the moon does not reach it through the window. Mag is fast asleep, her arms wrapped around me while resting her head against my shoulder. My red headed lover is troubled in her sleep. Her brow is creased and her lips set downward, her hands twitch and her arms spasm. I gently put my arm around her, a touch that almost immediately soothes her. Mag snuggles closer to my body and reluctantly opens her beautiful blue eyes, shaking the fading red locks from her eyes. “What time is it?” She mumbles, blinking tiredly.

“Time to sleep.” I answer, chidingly. “You have to rest you haven’t gotten a full nights sleep in almost a week.”

“What about you, you’re up all night just about.” Mag retorted.

“That’s because I have to worry about making sure you get enough rest.” Mag falls silent then winks at me.

“I can’t sleep because you’ve been denying me what my body truly needs.” She pouts almost convincingly. “Give me what I need Rizzy.”

I decide to play along. “What do you need?” I ask, kissing her forehead.

Mag whines an grasps my hand. She guides it down to her crotch. “I need to be fucked, I need you.”

“Why should I give you what you need?” I ask, cupping her pussy through her pants.

“I’ve earned it.” I can hear her desperation.

“Are you on your rag?” She nods and I smile, recalling how horny and how easily manipulated Mag becomes when she’s bleeding. “Do I need to make you feel better now? She nods again. “Say it.” I taunt.

“I need you to make me feel good, to fuck me.” She says surprisingly obediently.

“Strip and show me your desperation.” I command, getting caught in the rare moment of dominance. The red head complies wordlessly, stripping down to the tight fitting panties that contain her padding. She hesitates but removes them as well. I pull off both of my shirts and push her down on the bed, climbing on top of her. Mag wraps her legs around my waist, I can feel the warmth of her pussy press against my stomach. I press back, pushing her flat against the bed again. Her arms wrap around my shoulders as she gyrates her hips as I meet her lips with me own. Her pussy leaves hot and sticky trails across my abdomen. My arms move around her, getting between Mag and the bed as I cup her ass and use it to guide her gyrations.

We kiss passionately as her pussy grinds against me. Her body presses closer to mine as I grip her ass. Our breasts brush together, with delicious friction. I push my abdomen against her harder and begin moving my body against her rhythm. My cellmate’s body arches against me as a soft, breathy moan escapes her mouth. I feel a viscous, warm liquid slip onto my abdomen, then slide down it. I sit up and disentangle myself from Mag. I look down at my stomach and see that its covered in Mag’s bloody cum. I growl in disgust and stalk over to the sink, turning it on and splashing water on to my stomach. I clean most of the blood off and use a blanket to dry off. When I return to the bed Mag is stretched out on her side, still naked with her pussy trickling blood onto her thigh. “Clothes.” I remind her, wondering how she manages to ignore the cold that still reigns over the place as she languidly rolls her hips and sends a small gush of her juices onto the bed.

My cellmate slowly stands up and grabs her clothing from the floor. I pull my shirts back on and lie down again, waiting for Mag. The red head finishes dressing in a little over a minute and returns to my side. “Do you feel better?” She nods. “Good.” My lover yawns and lays her head down, falling asleep within twenty minutes. I, however, stay awake, thinking of the consequences of the fight we’re going to cause. I am awake until the sun rises, only then do I manage to catch an hour of sleep.

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I sigh as I exit the cafeteria after breakfast. Mag walks ahead of me with Namine at her side as they discuss the progress of their plot while Cloe and I make faces and tease Amber. Amber leaves us to go hang in the library while the rest of us head into the shower room. My cellmate ran out of body wash awhile ago, she’s waiting for her supplier to get a good shipment because she needs more and hair dye and other non essential supplies.

After stripping down to our naked skin, the four of us gather around two shower heads that are already on. I let Mag lean against the wall and soak up the heat of the water for a few minutes, turning my attention to Cloe. The blonde’s body looks smaller than I remember, but weeks of bed rest has the tendency to do that. Along her ribs runs an indented scar with stitching points running along it. As I focus again I notice that Cloe is leaning on Namine, letting the slightly shorter woman embrace her from behind. I ponder over the display of affection, Cloe had never had much time to grow attached to Namine. Namine hadn’t showed such interest in Cloe either. Maybe they had grown closer while Namine visited Cloe in the infirmary. So where did Amber fit in? I didn’t get a lot of time to ponder that because Mag grabs me and pulls me against her.

“Try not to make you’re head explode, Rizzy.” She teases me, her hands already at work in my hair. I sigh and lean back against her, surrendering my body do her.

“You’re so mean to me.” I reply dramatically, almost mewling as she carefully massages a tender spot on my scalp. “But your fingers are amazingly talented at bringing me pleasure all over my body.”

“Don’t get used to it.” I pout as her hands move to my waist. She pulls me under the spray of the water and begins to help whatever soap she was using in my hair work its way out. Once she finishes with my hair she lathers her hands with soap and starts to wash my body. Her touch is soft as her hands track over my body, spreading soap trails along it. She presses her lips against my neck as her hands round the slight curve of my buttocks.

“I love your body.” Mag mumbles. “It responds so well to me.” Her hands track up my abdomen, cupping breasts and pinching my nipples. I lean even more heavily against her, letting her squish my breasts in her hands as she draws me even closer. Mag presses her lips to mine, I kiss back. My cellmate pulls away from me as I try to turn around and press closer to her. “Come on Rizzy its time to get out of the shower. “ I whine as she tugs me to the laundry room to dry off. Ten minutes later I am dressed and Mag sends me at the library with Cloe while she and Namine go to meet with the fighters that will be key in our plan. As we walk to the library, the blonde drapes her arm around my shoulder, pulling me close.

“Hey!” I push her away gently, only for her to return to that position. “Stay off of me!” I push her away a little more forcefully this time. Cloe takes the hint, mumbling an apology and letting her arms drop to her sides.

When we get to the library I find Amber stretched out on one of the sofas, nursing a broken finger and some bruises on her face and a double split on each lip. Yet when I crouch down next to her, Amber smiles at me. “The guards won’t be much of a problem now.”

“What do you mean?” I ask, slightly perturbed by her calm.

“They’re super on edge, all it took was a little bit a insulting the warden for me to get this fucked up. Just hope that Justina and Carmine watch their asses.”

“We should get that finger taken care of.” I reply, ignoring her previous comment.

Chapter 16

Title: Chapter XVI: Fight

[Author's notes: For some reason all of my works have been a lot shorter as of late. Bare with me through the shorter chapters....]

In the end Mag let Carmine and Justina keep their faux fight string out for two weeks, to put more tension on the guards. I think it was working pretty well, forty inmates were sent to solitary in the last week for being suspected of smuggling weapons in for fights. Everyone knows it’s a shitty bravado though. At the moment it stands that we have at least eighty girls ready for that fight. Poor guards are going to have a hard time with this one. Aside from Carmine and Justina I have no idea who is actually going to fight. I do know that our plan will finally be enacted today. Today will be an eventful day for sure.

Mag pounces on me, jarring me from my thoughts. Her lip press against mine before she pulls back and grins. “Today’s the day Rizzy! So it’s about time you got up so we can eat.” She crows happily, her black red hair flying around she face as she shakes me.

“Alright I’m up. I’m up, love.” I sigh sitting up and pushing her off of me. “You’ve been wound up for the past week. You’re like a crack head.”

“What’s your point? I’m just excited that’s all.” Mag returns defensively.

“You need to settle down. If things are supposed to run smoothly we can’t have you jittering around and giving us away.”

“You’re way too on edge for this. You have to relax or you’ll blow your part. Now remember, you and Amber have to take out Kami and Jaya so that we’ll be able to take out Blaze, but after those two are down you need to lead Blaze to us, oh an Hazel. I almost forgot about her. Your part is among the most vital.”

“I know Mag we’ve perfected and gone over the plan.” I snap as I stand up. “After breakfast you and Namine will go to see Justina. I’ll go with Amber to see Carmine. We give them the final brief, they get organized by lunch. After lunch Blaze will go to her cell, you guys will hit the yard and get in position. Cloe takes up her post. Amber and I take out Kami and Jaya in the cell. Blaze should follow us out to the courtyard. By then you will have triggered the fight, the yard will be in chaos. Blaze comes to you, Cloe plays look out. We beat Blaze, then drop out of the fight, calling self defense after being jumped in the yard. The whole unit gets put on lock down for awhile. That’s the plan and the predicted outcome.”

“Good, now come on. We’re gunna be late if you don’t hurry up.” Mag rushes me. I slip on my shoes and shuffle out of the cell behind her, pulling my hair into a messy bun.

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The cafeteria is tense, tension from the guards, tension between Carmine and Justina, and the uneasy tension of those at our table. Everyone else in the cafeteria hung their heads and ate inconspicuously as possible, barely talking at all, practically kowtowing before the guards in their learned subservience. This tension made the atmosphere almost impossible to eat in. Everything was heavy and oppressed, soon the horrible tasting food became a distraction from the heavy atmosphere. Actually tasting the food made me want to barf it back up. I think I finally understand bulimia. After we finished eating, I beg Mag for a minute back at the cell before going to complete the first stage of the plan. While there I barfed up whatever rubbery microwave meal that was served in the cafeteria. Mag gently patted my back and gave me a hug. “Wash out your mouth.” I complied and used the sink to get the taste out of my mouth.

“I think it tasted better the second time around.” I tell Mag as I sit down in her lap. “Just give me a minute.” She leaned down and gave me a small kiss on my forehead.

“I can’t give you a minute, we have to go, you can take a nap before lunch.” She says gently. “Come on, don’t be a baby.”

“You’re so mean to me sometimes.” I whine as I stand up. “The last thing I want to do right now is orchestrate a fight that will involve Blaze.”

“I feel the same way but we have to for the good of everyone in here. We have to get rid of Blaze . This is the first step. Its important to do this, so come on let’s go.” Mag ushers me out of the cell and leaves me to go to Justina’s cell. I head to the next cell block to find Carmine.

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I wake up from my nap to Mag pressing her lips to mine gently. “Hey.” I greet hoarsely as her lips trace down my necks. “You’re horny.” I groan as her fingers rub my pussy though my pants.

“I can’t help it, I get excited before stressing events. We’ve got twenty minutes before lunch, its enough time for a quickly.”

“Okay. Hurry up.” I hissed as Mag’s hand works its way into my pants.

“Don’t think this is it. You’ve got to do something for me.”

“Later.” I kiss her urgently to shut her up. The fingers that begin to caress my inner folds are shockingly cold, which for some reason brings my arousal into the wet stage. I whimper as her first finger slides inside me, quickly followed by a second one. “Fuck, that hurts.”

“Hurts, what do you mean hurts?”

“I mean its causing me pain.” Mag gently withdraws her fingers.

“Take off your pants.” She commands, leaning into kiss me. I wiggle out of the orange garment and prop myself against the wall with my legs spread. She gives me a kiss before sinking between my thighs. Her hands rest on my thighs, gently holding them apart as her mouth sets to work. Her tongue focuses of my clit, her lips open and close against my labia, her hands massage my thighs using their strength to keep them spread apart as I twitch and wheeze as she brings me closer to orgasm, only to stop right as I hit the threshold of my orgasm. “Give me a minute.” She replies to my whimpers and pleading cries. “Put you’re hands above your head.” She orders me after an attempt at masturbating I comply quickly, waiting for her to finish me off. She finally gets up the nerve to what she planned. “I’m sorry if this hurts Rizzy.” She whispers as her first finger slides in. I press closer to her, trying to bury her fingers as deep into my cunt as possible. Her second finger is a big enough jolt to send me over the edge, I whimper into her breasts as I come. She lets me curl up after withdrawing her fingers from my pussy.

“I’m tired.” I whine, closing my eyes.

“No sleeping. Come here finger me quick before we have to go.” I grunt and sit up on my knees for a minute, inviting Mag to come closer to me. She scoots closer, pressing against me. I slip my hand into her pants, my head resting on her shoulder and her head resting on mine. My fingers are greeted by her slick and hot folds. I slowly slide a finger inside of her, revealing in the small sounds she makes as I pleasure her. My second finger drags a mewl from her lips, a fierce thrust making her moan quietly into my ear as her breathing gets heavier. My thumb pushing on her clit brings her body closer. A hard thrust gets me a hard moan followed by a bite on my ear, soon my hard thrusts have Mag clamped down on my ear while her arms wind around me, pulling me hard against her. She thrusts against me hard, taking my thrusts with mewling cries. “Come on, Rizzy. We don’t have much time.” She pleads.

“I’m trying, how far off am I?” I ask.

“Shit, shift your focus to the right a little lower. “I follow her directions and receive a soft groan as she hisses. “There!” A few quick, hard thrusts bring her to her edge. I let Mag ride her orgasm before I withdraw my fingers and clean them up.

While Mag basks in her afterglow I pull my pants back on and put my shoes on. She soon sits up, looking happy. A quick hug and kiss are shared between us before Namine slaps the cell door and sticks her head in. “Lunch time!” She calls cheerily before pulling her head back from the doorway. Mag gives me another kiss and a pat on the back before standing up and walking out of the cell with her usual swagger. I groan as I stand up and adopt my normal fear bowed head and shuffle out after her.

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I exit the cafeteria, happy to be out of the heavy environment, my hands are deep in my pockets as I trail Blaze back to her cell with Amber slinking along my flan but not obviously. Hazel and Jaya are flanking Blaze with Kami on her six. I follow until we hit the cell block then I dip into a different cell and let Amber take the lead. I sit on the bunk for awhile before walking out and moving across the black into a different cell. Amber comes in a few minutes with a report.

“Blaze and Jaya are fucking, Kami and Hazel are lying down together. We wait it out and then move in.”

“Want to head to my cell? Its got a better vantage point.” I propose. Amber nods and walks out of the cell with me leading to mine. Once we’re there I lay across my bed and let Amber hang in the doorway to watch for Blaze and Jaya to drop off and hopefully sleep..

“So, shit. What’s the plan? That’s the one part that we never planned.”

“Well once Blaze drops off, we could go in, you pin her down and I’ll take care of the other three. Though we have to be super quiet about it. Everyone else will be quiet and cool. They know not to alert the guards in any way, no matter what. Blaze slipped up before when she beat up Mag, so she’s not gunna do it again.” Amber replies.

We wait ten minutes then Amber tells me they’ve all dropped off. “So I’ll go in first. You trail for a few minutes and make it look like you’re looking for me when you come in. I’ll take care of Jaya too.” I whisper as I stand up. I stop before I pass Amber, giving her a confident smile before moving in and giving her a kiss. Amber wraps her arms around me and kisses back for a minute before pulling back.

“For luck.” She offers.

“Yeah, for luck.” I reply. “When this is done, we should convince Mag and Namine to let us fuck, as a celebration. She nods and pushes me out of the cell.

I bury my hands in my pockets and skulk down the landing and past the guards at the door up to Blaze’s cell. Kami and Hazel are out cold while Blaze and Jaya cuddle close in slumber. I come close to Blaze’s bed and see the pillow on the floor. I grab it and lay it over Jaya’s face and press hard. As I hold the pillow in place, she twitches and tosses her head, but she doesn’t give enough of a fight to dislocate the pillow. I count the seconds to three minutes before pulling back the pillow. As Mag had told, she had passed out. I hear Amber’s footsteps coming closer as she pretends to look for me. I quickly drop the pillow and deftly slip onto the bed behind Blaze, my arms slip under arm pits and my hands cup over her mouth. I wrap my legs around her’s to keep them restrained. Amber pokes her head in experimentally, then lets recognition drift through her stance and she saunters into the cell nonchalantly.

She walks to Hazel and rolls her off the bed, putting a foot down on her throat to silence her and to stop her breathing. Hazel is decidedly more raucous, she opens her eyes, gasps soundlessly and weakly pounds the floor. While Amber is dispatching her Blaze wakes up and silently being to struggle against me. It takes a lot of my strength and self control to not let her go while being quiet. Kami is also awakened but takes a minute to become oriented enough to do anything. By the time she is coherent, Hazel has passed out. Amber removes her foot from Hazel’s throat and moves away from her unconscious body. Kami rolls off of the bed, landing heavily on her feet inches from Hazel’s face. She looks around lazily before she spots Amber then look at Blaze and sees me. She crosses the room in one step and pulls me off of Blaze and throws me across the room in a fluid motion. I land on my arm and hear and fell my eleven pop in a sickening way. I quickly get up off the floor and B-line for the door, only to be intercepted by a skinny hand pushing me down before a scrawny body crawls on top of me. “Mmm fresh pussy. I could grind this.” Her hand slips around my neck and squeezes . “What are you doing in here, huh bitch. Is this Mag’s offering? Her sacrifice to please the goddess she has angered?” She taunts quietly as she squeezes harder. I groan lowly and go limp, letting my body attempt to breath naturally. Blaze hold her grip for another minute, during which I almost pass out for real, before she lets me go. As soon as her hand leaves my neck I bolt up, knocking her off of me so I can take a few quick steps out into the guard’s view. I slow to a normal walk and hang my head again. I hear Blaze’s footsteps behind me followed by Kami’s heavy steps. Amber falls into step beside me and grabs my good hand, squeezing it supportively. We break apart and she head for a different route to the yard. I run through my mind the locations of the guards, praying that I’m not wrong and that I can lead these two where we need them.

I pick up the pace and head out to the yard. As we head out the door I see that the fight has already started. Most of the people on the yard have turned on each other. Guards run about in a fever pitch, taking down one fight and leaving the contenders to get trampled by the rest of the fights. I take advantage of the chaos and speed up even more, almost jogging to Blaze from catching me. Finally I round the corner into the golden spot and find Mag, Amber and Namine are leaning against a wall waiting for me. I can’t see Cloe but I know where she’s hiding. Mag strides past me as I slow down, heading for the wall. Amber and Namine flank Mag as she walks to meet Blaze and Kami. I cradle my dead arm and slide down the wall resigning myself to watch the unfolding events.

I don’t see the first few punches that are thrown, all I see is Mag slowly leading Blaze back into this place weaving back from Blaze’s punches and trading in a few blows of her own to Blaze’s stomach. Namine bullies Kami back as well, darting around and aiming hard kicks and punches to her legs to drive her back and hopefully to the ground. Amber has gone to her other post helping Cloe with look. Mag gets a head shot on Blaze, disorienting her long enough to know her down. My cellmate quickly straddles Blaze, reigning punches down on her face and upper body. Namine keeps Kami busy by continuing to weave around her, aggravating her with biting punches and stinging kicks. Kami falls before Blaze lulls into unconscious but Namine just keeps pounding on her head until Mag pulls her off.

I stand slowly, still cradling my arm and walk over to Namine and Mag. As I pass Blaze I turn my face from her ruined one. Her nose is badly broken and one of her cheek bones looks smashed., the rest of her face is cover in blood. I don’t let my gaze venture over Kami. By the time I make it to Namine and Mag, Cloe and Amber have joined up with them. We all huddle together and look out on the fight raging across the yard.

END

Chapter 17

Title: Chapter XVII: Killing in the name of

[Author's notes: Finally updating again! Hope you guys didn't give up hope on me.]

I groan softly as I stir against a warm body, an arm wraps around me and pulls me even closer. “Mag.” I mumble. She snorts and opens her eyes to gaze at me bleakly. 

 

“What is it?” She asks with sudden urgency. 

 

“My arm hurts again.” I whine, lifting my arm to show her my immobilized elbow. 

 

“I wish you’d stop harping about that. Namine crushed her knuckles and she’s not complaining, now is she?” Mag grunts at me and turns over. I frown and cuddle against her from behind. 

 

“I’m sorry. It really does hurt; I wanted you to rub my shoulder.” I apologize. “I wasn’t harping, I was asking. Besides, it‘d be impossible for Namine to complain to you. You haven’t seen her since you got out of the infirmary a week after our coupe.” Mag grunts and turns back around. She sits up and leans back against the wall. She pulls me into her lap and gently feels across my shoulder blade for a knot. She quickly finds the spot that is knotted up and works the muscle gently until the releases. I snuggle back against her as she maneuvers my thin frame so we can lie down together again. As she pulls me tight against her, she begins to whisper. 

 

“Well I talked to her in the infirmary and during meals before they stopped letting us go to the cafeteria. In that time she did not complain to me at all. Speaking of Namine, I hope that Blaze hasn’t come back yet. She’ll probably beat the shit out of her first chance she gets. On lockdown, that won’t be too hard.” 

 

“Well it must have been like two months since we’ve started lockdown. Our last shower was about four days ago and I didn’t see her, though its kinda hard to see when there are close to five hundred women crowded into that tiny room.” 

 

“Really, two months? It’s been that long? Your elbow must really be fucked up pretty bad.” She whistles. “I only broke a few fingers and my nose. The way the guards are treating it is like we fucking murdered someone. They’re really hassling us, but maybe it’s just for the easy pussy they get out of it. No need to duck into a dark corner. We can’t leave the cell and it takes the guys less than ten minutes to finish up, turning out the cell takes that long so they’ve got an explanation.” I nod. “Then the twisted ones always stick a nightstick up my ass.” 

 

“It sucks that they took all our stuff and stopped mail. How long will it be like this? I’m really tired of some bitch shoving her baton up my ass during a ‘search’.” I complain. 

 

“Couple months more,” Mag answers. “Probably be getting checked every day for another month, then the mail after the checks become weekly. We’ll most likely get out, if I counted this up right, around April.” 

 

“So, what month are we in now, do you figure. I’ve been counting days and guessing. Right around January, I think.” She answers. My mind explodes with thoughts. I missed Christmas. Not even Lindsay came to visit me. That shouldn’t have surprised me though. After her sixth visit she couldn’t face me anymore. I looked too different, she told me in letter a few weeks after her last visit. She still wrote on occasion and sent books for me to read. Well she had before mail was shut down. Maybe visitation was shut down too, maybe she really had to come see me for Christmas and been turned away. I hoped that was the case. Even though my family couldn’t care less about me after I moved out, and then hadn’t once tried to contact me since I’d been in this shit hole, I found that I was more bothered by Lindsay’s abandonment than any of that stuff. “You look like you just got punched, what’s wrong?” Mag cuts into my world with a question. 

 

“Nothing, I’m just thinking.” I tell her. 

 

“A dangerous practice. Haven’t you learned not to spend a lot of time thinking?” She scolds me. 

 

“Well, it does seem to be counterproductive most of the time.” I reply. “You sure seem to spend a lot of time thinking.” I add defensively.

 

“Well, geez, I’m sure a picture to envy, aren’t I? I’ve lost the love of my life, then lost all my standing with my friends over a look alike, only to regain a few of them and then start a war with the woman who might have been my best friend at one point in my life.” Mag practically spits. 

 

“Hey,” I reply soothingly. “You need to stop this moodiness, if you keep getting angry like this, I’m gunna have to start sleeping under the bed for protection.” Her grip on me tightens. 

 

“Stop saying stupid things. I won’t get mad if you don’t say stuff that makes me mad.” She growls.” Maybe I’ll just beat and rape you, then offer you to Blaze when we get out of lockdown. That’ll end my troubles, won’t it?” 

 

“Now you’re just trying to scare me. You’d never do that, after all the progress we’ve made. You’d never go back to her.” I throw back at her. A wry smile crosses her lips. 

 

“She’d never take me back after this. Not after what we did. That doesn’t matter, though, you’re right, I’d never go back to her; she may have been my friend at one point but not now. She just a power hungry bitch now.” Mag sighs 

 

“Tell me about her, before things became like they are now.” I request. 

 

“Well, we’ve got all day, Why not?” She grants. “Let’s wait until after morning checks.” I nod and settle myself to wait. _____________________________________________________________________________________ 

 

I pull up my pants as I stand from bending over my bed, behind me a female guard pulls the glove from her hand and places it in the plastic bag she carries. I try to ignore the prison guard who stands next me, his dick buried deep into Mag’s vagina. Her fists ball into the sheets and her eyes hold a glazed over look. She’s completely zoned. I sit down on the bed next to her and lay my hand on the side of her face comfortingly. She doesn’t come back out of her zone, but she visibly relaxes under my touch. They guard pulls out of Mag’s pussy and buries himself deep in her ass as he comes. Mag regains lucidity as he pulls out and wipes himself off. “We’re not gunna check this whole block tomorrow, think of it as a little thank you for being so complaint.” He says, his voice dripping with self-satisfaction, as though he thinks we believe his lies. We both know he’ll be back tomorrow when it’s my turn. He turns and walks out of the cell, his brunette partner following him and scolding him for fucking every one of us. Mag pulls up her pants and scrambles onto the other bed. I give her spaces as she buries herself under the blankets and pillows. I know that after twelve years of this place,  it’s not the rape that bothers her, but the fact that she’s been raped almost every other day for months and is rarely given the opportunity to wash herself off and out. That was something both of us were struggling with. I give her a few minutes before I climb under the blankets and press my body against her’s. Mag envelops me in a fierce hug, nuzzling at my neck with her head resting on my shoulder. I lay my head on top of her’s and hum soothingly to attempt to calm her. My cellmate grips me tighter as I slowly begin to cradle her in my arms. After about ten minutes of cuddling Mag takes a few deep breaths and calms herself. 

 

“You wanted to know about Blaze, right?” She asks, pulling herself away from me as she kicks the blankets off of herself. My cellmate sprawls on her back and closes her eyes. 

 

“I was just starting my third year in here when Blaze was transferred. She was quiet, not sheepish, but quiet in that offsetting way that makes you feel like you’re being plotted against. She understood that she was the newcomer to the cell and that she would listen to me, that I would decide when we fucked. Standard prison code, you know. Anyway, after the first month I started to like her, I liked to talk to her before we slept to see what going through her mind. Well one night she asked me what I thought of cleaning up my act and trying to transfer to the good behavior ward with her. I told her to get to that ward you had to take a lot of dick and I wasn’t about to do that. She let got for a few months, then brought it up again. That time I asked her why she was so fixated on getting up there. She said that she had a plan to unit that ward under a system much like the normal code, but it would be based off of trust and friendship so no one was killed and the prison system wouldn’t be as dangerous for us. She worded it a lot better and it made more sense, but deal with what you got. I was inspired, though, and I told her that I would make it into the good behavior ward before the end of my fifth year. So I cleaned up my act and became a bitch for most of the guards. I ended up getting transferred four months after Blaze; we were put in different cells. That didn’t matter really because she’d already recruited half of the war to her cause and was hopeful about the rest. What was important was that my cellmate was one of her recruits. They were all fairly loyal to, so I learned that I didn’t have to fear getting beaten down and raped for looking at someone wrong. It was peaceful for a few years, maybe three. Then all but a few of the people of the people in the good behavior ward were united under Blaze. We were something like lovers at that point; I was a little bit like her second in command and consort at the same time. We were rolling strong until a few of the outliers got together and made themselves into a gang. They started beating us around so Blaze and I brought the might our alliance down on them, crushed them into compliance. Then we realized that for the good of everyone we could beat all the newcomers into compliance before that ever rose against us. It seemed like overnight we became a gang. After that it became like this game to Blaze, figuring out how abusive she could be without losing her followers. That point was were things really turned bad. We were just serving her at that point, like dogs really, keeping those we thought were below us in line. Things just kept going like that for the longest time. For five more years until I decided that I wouldn’t beat you just to please her. You know the rest.” As she finishes, Mag pats the spot on the bed next to her. I lie down and curl up against her. “That doesn’t matter now does it? Things are the way they are and we can’t change it.” 

 

“Those who don’t know their history are doomed to repeat it.” I interject with a smile.  

 

“You just say things like that to hear me ramble on.” Mag replies teasingly. 

 

“Yeah, so what?” I return, cuddling up to her. I sigh as a thought occurs to me. I look up at Mag, suddenly somber. “What are we going to do about Blaze, right now she’s probably so pissed off, she’s liable to kill one of us after she comes back.” 

 

Mag blows out a breath and directs her gaze at the ceiling. “Yeah, I know. I’ve been putting off thinking about  it. You’re right, though and it’ll probably be Namine she goes after, because of the ease of access, but we already talked about that. It’s a depressing thought, we can’t do anything about it either. Maybe Blaze will be too weak to try anything until we get out of lockdown, then we can better protect her.” 

 

“Hopefully we get out of lockdown before she comes back. Its been a long time, and she should come back soon. I’m guessing she’s mostly healed and just recuperating, most likely in the infirmary at this point. She couldn’t have stayed in a hospital this long.  Viewing that its highly unlikely. If things go as you predicted they will, Blaze will probably be back with regained strength  long before we get out of lock down.” I bite my bottom lip and gnash it between my teeth thoughtfully. “This sucks.” 

 

“Yeah, it does and we can’t do shit about it, can we?” Mag leans down and presses a gentle kiss to my forehead. “What did I say about thinking?” She asks teasingly. “Look how those thoughts have distressed you.” 

 

I tilt my head up and pressing my lips against her’s, turning  in her arms to straddle her waist. Mag’s hands move to cup my bony ass, squeezing  it gently before her hands trail up my back, dragging my tank top up. I lift my arms up and let her pull the shirt off. When the hem clears my head I look down at Mag to find her swallowing as she gazes up at me. Her hands track from my thin shoulders down to my bony chest to my small breasts, her thumbs touch the dull and unresponsive nipples before tracking down my ribs. Her fingers fit into the valleys of my skin that are left  between my ribs. I avoid her eyes so I cannot see the disgust in them. Her hand move from my ribs to my narrowing waist. “Rizzy, why do you do this to yourself? You’re wasting away before my eyes.” She closes her eyes and turns her head to the side. I reach down and start unbuttoning her shirt and then throw it open. 

 

I marvel over her body. What had once been muscled was now loose skin, looking at her arms I notice how thin they’ve become. Her breasts, her beautiful high breasts with perky rounded nipples, have shriveled and withered down to phantoms of their former beauty.  Yet until now I have managed not to notice this. “What about you?” I ask. “What happened to you?” 

 

“One meal a day isn’t enough to keep me healthy, my body digested most of my muscle mass. I’ve been trying to build it back up but I’ve been so exhausted lately.” 

 

“Well then how do you expect me to keep from starving like this? I have no muscle to digest.” 

 

“You don’t eat more than twice a week or if you do, you end up throwing it up when you think I’m sleeping. That’s not a problem of circumstance, that’s you being stupid.” She throws back at me. I shift my gaze downward, shame heating up my face. 

 

“It’s not my fault that stuff makes me sick anyway. You know that, I haven’t been able to keep anything down since they stopped letting us to the cafeteria to eat.” I retort lowly. 

 

Mag’s hands gently massage my waist and move down to my ass again, squeezing the small amount of flesh there hard. “Fuck this.” She curses. “I don’t have the energy to argue about this anymore.” I nod my head and bite back the urge to inform her that she was the one who started it. I let her pull me into a kiss before rolling onto my side and motioning for her to do the same. My formerly red headed cellmate turns and entangles her legs with mine, moving her to press her breasts against mine. I rest my head on her shoulder, nuzzling at her neck and enjoying the warmth of her skin against mine. Her hands grip my ass possessively while mine strain to hold her bottom as well. Her head rests heavily on mine. As we press closer together Mag shirts her grip to cradle me in her arms protectively. I nuzzled closer to her and manage to fall asleep. _____________________________________________________________________________________  

 

I wake up to the sound of the door unlocking, a high female voice calls in. “No search, girls. We’re letting you out of lockdown because you’ve been so well behaved lately.” I start to get up but steady hand pushes down to keep me in place. I stretch my limbs out while I wait for Mag to move her hand. I sigh as the weight lifts from my back and her arms slide under me to pick me up. She hoists me into her lap and cradles me.  

 

“What month is it? I ask. 

 

“We’re in March, more towards the end. I guess I was wrong, huh? We got out a little bit earlier than expected. We even got mail back a few weeks ago.” 

 

“Blaze is back.” I mumble. “Saw her in the shower, remember.” I mumble, snuggling against her breasts. 

 

“I know, and I hope that doesn’t spell bad things for

 

Namine.” Mag answers, pawning through my hair. I nod. 

 

“We should probably go stretch out our legs and grab breakfast in the cafeteria.” I suggest. Mag grunts in protest. 

 

“Let’s wait for Amber to show up, and then go check on Namine.” She says with finality.  I don’t argue with her and settle myself to wait, like always. 

 

What Amber, finally does slow up, looking smaller and more frail than usual, I’ve become so comfortable that Mag has to pick me up and carry me out of the cell. While we head over to Namine’s cellblock, Amber chatters about Cloe. Apparently the starvation had weakened Cloe’s immune system until she became deathly ill, then was taken to the infirmary, again. Amber says the guards told her that the blonde was regaining her strength after having her diet return to normal and would return soon. She also says that a lot of time worrying about both Namine and Cloe. When we reach our destination we find the cell empty, no Blaze and no trace of Namine. Mag steps in and looks around. “No sign of a struggle, no blood, or anything. Beds look fresh, just flipped or replaced. My cellmate gets down on her knees to look under the bed when she flinches back. “What the fuck?” She exclaims, getting onto her belly to crawl under the bed. She drags a bloody heap out. I can barely make out a basic human shape, and the bright orange of the prison jumpsuit is barely discernable. 

 

Amber steps closer to kneel by the bloody jumpsuit. She and Mag quickly unravel the limb of the bloody body. I stand and watch, my stomach descending lower as the heap begins to look more and more like Namine. Finally they finish and I realize that the heap really is Namine, covered in blood; beaten and broken. Mag wordlessly picks her up and walks her out of the cell, with Amber following at her heels. I slowly walk into the cell, looking at the beds, scanning the floor, the walls, and ceiling for blood, for a sign of a struggle. I flip the mattress that Namine was under; it’s covered in blood, explaining why it was flipped. On a hunch I go over to the other bed and lip that mattress up as well, nothing fresh. Shaking my head I walk out of the cell to kind Kami standing in front of me, I turn to find Jaya behind me. 

 

I look around wildly for a guard of a camera, but I find none, I bite my lip as I realize that this was a trap and that Blaze had just caught me. Kami motions for me to go back into to sit next to me. Kami gets down on her belly in front of the other bed and reaches under it with both arms. She carefully pulls something from under it. As she stands I realize that the thing is a mass of human body. 

 

Blaze straightens up and pulls herself to her full height. Kami pulls something out of her shirt and hands it to Blaze. The lanky woman take the object and flips a blade out of it. Panic rises in me, freezing me in place. Blaze crosses the room slowly, allowing me to study her face. The parts of her face that had once been smashed is totally reconstructed, leaving only the stars from the reconstruction, which are small, neat lines that have mostly healed. If you hadn’t known her before, you’d not have noticed them too much. When Blaze gets to the bed she places the blunt edge along my neck, letting me feel the icy coldness of the blade against my skin. She tilts her head from side to side, studying her reflection on the knife at different angles. “You know what, Rizz?’ She asks suddenly. “You know for the longest time I couldn’t understand what was so special about you. I couldn’t fathom why Mag would choose you over me. Then I realized that I’m not fucking you. I think I’m going to satisfy that curiosity before I decide what I’ll do with you. She flicks the blade closed and fixes me with her icy, penetrating gray eyes. I swallow and reach up to unbutton my shirt. She smacks my hand away and pushes me on to my back. Her lips settle with surprising gentleness on top of mine. 

 

She coaxes me into kissing back, her lips moving to open my mouth to her prying tongue. Her hand slips up my back to entangle in my hair and pull it back enough to make me tilt my head so she can trace her kisses down my neck, sucking on my pulse point as she slowly flips open the knife. I gasp as the point touches my chest. She flicks her wrist and one of the buttons on my shirt flies off. Her lips capture mine again, pulling all but a thread of my attention to her, leaving just enough for me to notice the loosening of my shirt until she pulls it from my shoulders. Blaze pulls back from my lips and looks down at my emaciated body. Her eyes, alight with hunger, hold no judgment; no opinion is expressed within them. She grips my ribcage, her fingers fit neatly between my bones. The lanky woman straddles me, taking her hands to mine and guiding them above my head. She holds her one hand on my wrists while the other hand strays down into my pants. Her trailing fingers make my skin tingle. Her lips kiss down my chest sensuously, making my nipples stand against the fabric of my tank top, Blaze senses this obstruction and begins to trail her hand back up, dragging the hem of my shirt with it, until the tank top rests safely above my elbows. She strokes her hand back down my body, brushing over one of my nipples teasingly. I swallow as her hand breaches the waistband of my pants. I stretch out, letting her hand graze against the fatty mound of my sex. Her lips close around my nipple, her tongue playing across the mottled surface tentatively. Her nimble fingers play gently with my folds, teasing blood into them and engaging my arousal. Her free hand entwines with one of mine, squeezing it supportively. My gasps turn into low moans, her fingers speeding and slowing at her own rhythm, using the reactions of my body as her guide. Soon my stomach begins to tighten and I arch slightly, bringing myself closer to her fingers. Her thumb and forefinger close around my engorged clit. She bites gently on my nipple while pinching my clit a little bit harder, using her body weight to keep me down so I don’t arch away from her. The ball winding in my stomach pulls taunt, pulling my breath away. Blaze pulls her lips from my nipple and moves to kiss my lips. As I part my lips to accept her’s, I feel her finger slide into me agitation my bruised but slick flesh. I moan in spite of myself, letting the tension in my stomach release just a little bit. Her tongue asserts itself into my mouth, conquering all corners of it, while her fingers find my sensitive spots that haven’t been maimed by my frequent rapes. Blaze starts trailing her fingers along my walls, pressing on those especially sensitive spots and feathering over those that were painful. Her intelligent fingers tease me expertly, tugging on the muscles that will release the tension within me, only to wind them tighter. The lanky woman finally grows bored of my whimpers and pitiful cries. She gets little more serious, her thumb flicking mercilessly over my clit as she carefully traces her fingers around me. As I feel the tension within me begin to tremble she starts talking. “I think I understand Mag a little better now. You’re quite a cutie when you’ve got a few fingers inside that pussy of your\'s. Still not much competition for me though.” She sighs and twists her wrist a little, flicking her finger against my most sensitive spot. Rather than the loosening all at once, it slowly weakens, giving me a small, unsatisfying orgasm. 

 

Blaze pulls her fingers from me and laughs at my disappointment. “Did you think that was for you to enjoy?” She mocks me. “That was for me, to investigate something.” She picks her knife up from the bed and flips it closed. She reaches into her pants and sticks it somewhere. “Let’s go to your cell now.” She orders, picking up my tank top and shrugging into it. 

 

Jaya leaves her post against the door and heads down to my cell. I file out after, following with my head down. Blaze sets in behind me. Looking around, I discover that the guard still hasn’t returned from the infirmary. I bite my lip nervously, trying to keep from faltering in my step. Jaya disappears into the cell before I walk in. As I round the threshold of the cell door, I notice that Jaya is nowhere in the room. Blaze doesn’t give me time to look around much before she enter as well roughly latching onto my shoulder and spinning me toward the closest bed. I land painfully on my butt, only to be jerked back further on the bed by my shoulders. 

 

Blaze wraps her arms around me, holding my body tight against the mass of her bones. I hear a rusty spring release and out of the corner of my eye I see a flash of reflected light. I feel the coolness of the blade against my stomach. I inhale sharply, I feel the point penetrate my skin, and burning pain spreading from the wound across my abdomen as the blade digs in deeper, sliding up to the hilt. I feel it begin to slide upward, warm blood spilling from me rapidly. “Tell Mag that this is her final warning. I’m willing to allow her to redeem herself, if she is willing.” She hisses before shoving me onto the cold stone floor. I’m kicked over and the knife removed from me. I hear the sound of measured footsteps leaving the cell as I gasp and try to hold my stomach together and stop myself from bleeding out. I cry out weakly, panicked and unable to summon my voice enough for a good shout. Slowly I notice that I begin to feel cold, loosing feeling in my fingers and toes, soon the numbness begins to creep into my whole body. My head and eyes feel so heavy; all I want is to sleep. My eyelids won’t move closed, however and my eyes begin to dry, stinging endlessly until I am so tired that my eyes stop seeing and I fade away.

 

Chapter 18

Title: Chapter XVIII: Soldier on

[Author's notes: Only two more chapters left, hope you guys enjoy.]

The books on the shelf across the room mock me. From my bed I can see the cracks in the spine of “Cujo” from her opening the too far. I can see the corners of “the Green Mile” sticking up from her absently thumbing them while she read. I can remember her shoulders slumping, her head tilting forward as I rested mine on top of her’s. I remember the way she squirmed under me, the feel of her tiny body clinging to me, and most of all the feeling of her pussy around my fingers, her lips pressing against mine, the feeling of her tongue in my mouth, the friction of our thighs rubbing together. Even as I remember the feeling of these things and relive them as sensations ghost across my flesh, the feeling of her clammy skin and her dead weight brand themselves deeper into my memory, the feeling of her cold, sticky blood on my skin returns no matter much I try to score it from me, even worse is the distant look in her dried out eyes and the huge cartoonish slit in her abdomen. 

 

 

More than the books, though, my new cellmate mocks me. She’s American Indian, big muscled butch, the kind of chick that lives in the weight room, which is pretty much what she does. Her name is Moira, she nice enough, and quiet too. She respects me and my belongings, doesn’t ask about the books that I keep planted on that shelf or about the bloody jumpsuit that I keep tucked under my mattress. It’s not Moira that bothers me though. It’s the fact that she’s in the cell taking up her space, replacing her in the eyes of the prison and state that mocks me. After she died, she was cremated, and her friend that was always sending her letters came to collect her belongings and ashes. She left a few of her favorite books behind at my request but took all the letters and notebooks. When that woman left, all that was left of her was the jumpsuit and those books, no more mention of her anywhere, except in my mind where I could always see her lank blonde hair swirling about in my peripheral vision, or her pen that she always hid in the sink moving about faintly as she scribble down the day’s events, at the end of the week she always compiled them into one summary and then at the end of the month she took those summaries and added them together. 

 

 

Moira has only been in the cell for a month, but it’s pretty obvious that she isn’t easily intimidated, if I was still as active in our little alliance, I would have recruited her, doesn’t matter anyway, Namine already has. After she died, things lost their meaning, the world lost color and I lost hope. Namine a few weeks in the infirmary, she had a few broken ribs and shoulders mostly. After she was able to visit me she kept trying to fix me, make me feel like we hadn’t failed and now we were wounded but that we had to get healed and hit her back. I blew her off the first few times, and then she got more insistent, I told her to back off but she didn’t. Moira came into the cell, and now she chases Namine off whenever I seem to be bothered by her. 

 

 

For whatever reason we never got put on lockdown and there was no investigation to find her killer. It didn’t matter though, because everyone knew who had done it. Everyone knew that the alliance had failed to protect the person it had been created around. Namine shrugged it off, said that stalling out now would mean victory for Blaze. She’d kept going, kept scheming up ways to get Blaze back. It didn’t matter to me anymore though; I have nothing left to car about because she was my last hope. This war that I started doesn’t matter to me anymore because my army was built on one person and it has crumbled in the absence of that person. Another reason this war no longer concerns me is because I’m getting reviewed for parole next month. If I pass, I’ll be out within three months. Then I’ll really have escaped the drama, I’ll never see Blaze again and then everything I do won’t remind me of her. It feels like a far off dream, but I’m so relieved that it’s within my grasp. All I have to do is keep my head down and I’ll be able to get out for good. I haven’t told anyone yet though, I don’t have reason to. It would just depress them because they’re not getting out just yet.

 

 

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Namine studies me from across the table, her left arm draped over Amber’s thin shoulders while her right hand stabs absently at the pasta on her tray. To my left sits Moira, to my right is an empty chair. I glance at my left peripheral, noting the position of the orange, red and yellow blob and deciding that it has not moved. I check my right peripheral, clear of threats. I return to Namine who is now chatting with Cloe, her gaze wandering about as mine does, always returning to me or the chair next to me. 

 

 

“Stop scanning, nothing is going to happen.” Moira orders both of us, looking up from the tray she is hugging close to her body. 

 

 

“You don’t know that!” We snap back in unison, returning to our search. 

 

 

“She hasn’t made a move since, well since Rizzy died.” Amber cuts in. 

 

 

“That just means she has something big planned.” Namine sighs. I bite my tongue to cut back that need to reaffirm Namine’s point.  

 

 

“Remember what happened last time she decided to lay low for this long?” I ask cursing my lousy self-control as everyone but Moira puckers their faces into looks of distaste. 

 

 

“Well now it seems that she’s achieved her final goal. She killed the reason for the resistance and at the same time all but eliminated the leader.” Moira retorts. “Or am I mistaken? I may have come to the wrong conclusion from what I’ve heard.” 

 

 

“You’re right, and you have a point.” Amber answers. 

 

 

“That doesn’t mean we should let down our guard.” I overrule her. “She’s not one to leave something half finished.” 

 

 

“The resistance isn’t finished yet.” Namine states then pauses. “Once you’re done grieving and you come to your sense you’ll be read to start up again. We’re planning something for that occasion.” She smiles conspiratorially.  

 

 

I chose to stay silent, deciding to allow her to have her fantasy. There was no reason not to let her dream. Besides, she had a point, without directly saying it Namine had reminded me who was really running the resistance. She was already running the resistance, why would she need me as a figurehead anymore? She could let Blaze go on thinking that she’d broken down the resistance and hit her with her pants down because I am so broken by her death. I lower my head and started to fork the soggy pasta into my mouth, chewing slowly as I think. Continuing my previous line of thought, I could completely disappear, as I’m fairly sure that I’m going to soon enough. Namine would continue business as usual without me. She’s been orchestration things from behind the scenes anyway. All my brilliant ideas started with her feeding them to me, critiquing them, praising me into sharing them. In reality she’s the one that encouraged me to branch off in her own way, her gentle hints at the oppressive rule and how it could be changed gave me an idea that I  acted on within a stupid impulse. After that Blaze was pissed I knew that I had to do something, I drew on Namine as I always have been. Maybe she really is my friend and is just trying to help me, or maybe she’s just using me to accomplish her own goals. It doesn’t matter to me though, because at the time it served my goals as well and that is really all that matters. I’ve accepted the fact that I was just a representative demagogue, something that she could easily groom Moira into being when I leave. Things will be fine without me I conclude as I choke down last of the noodles. I look up and scan around the table, Moira has finished her lunch as well and relaxed a bit, Amber has drawn herself closer to Namine while she and Cloe converse back and forth idly. I glance at the empty chair next to me and feel the hollow of my chest begin to ache. 

 

 

I stare blankly down at the tiled floor of the shower room, the tears tracking down my face mix with the lukewarm water spewing from the fount above my head. I grind my teeth and lean all my weight on the hand that is braced against the wall. I need to get out of here and fast, fuck this place and all its memories. Fuck Namine and her plans; fuck Blaze and her empire of fear. Fuck all of it. I just need to get away from it all.  

 

 

An arm secures itself across my midsection as something heavy rests itself against my shoulder blade. “What do you want?” I ask crossly, hoping my voice doesn’t betray my current state. 

 

 

“You’re upset!” Blaze states, something akin to bemusement coloring her voice. “She wasn’t worth this. Why don’t you see that?” 

 

 

“If you’re just going to mock me, then leave me alone.” I shrug her off and turn to face her, letting the stream of water hit my back. 

 

 

“That’s not what I meant, I’m not mocking you.” She returns her hands to her sides and straightens up, her eyes hold determination and her lips are pressed together into a grimace of purpose. “I just came to tell you that I killed her for you. She was weak and she was making you soft. You know what happens when you get soft. You’ve got to realize that when Riza first came around, I did what I did for appearances. You could have come to on the DL and explained I would have let it go. But you went about everything the wrong way. I did what I had to. I danced for you because I’ve got that soft spot that you touched. I only ever touched you once, out of necessity. Everything else was a warning, but that last one was the last one that I can afford to give. You’ve got two weeks to shape up or I’m going to have to take you out.”  

 

 

“What are you talking about? You know everything you’ve done since this shit started has been power play. You’ve been fucking with us the same way you fuck with your dogs. You just love testing people’s limits. That’s all you care about now, the rush of power. That shit might be what you tell yourself, but it isn’t going to work on me. You know what?  I was gunna let you alone. I was gunna keep my head down because I couldn’t fucking remember what the point of fighting like this was. Now you’ve reminded me. Now you’ve given me a reason. Fuck, killing her, that was unforgivable; but twisting it into some lame rationalization, that’s evil. Now I’m back and I’m out for blood. It’s time for you to pay, Blaze, its long past overdue. Just be ready for it.” I laugh and push past her, striding confidently through the door to the laundry room. My grief suspended, lifting all my worries, I was finally able to see what was truly important. I had to avenge Rizzy; I just had to give her spirit peace before I could have any myself. 

 

 

During dinner out table is mostly silent, Amber and Cloe having fallen silent while they eat and Namine is busy scanning. Moira is hunched protectively over her tray. I glace down at mine, frowning at the potatoes and green beans on my plate. I stab a potato and bring it to my mouth. While I chew, I stir the remains around my plate with my fork. “So you were right Namine. I think that it’s time to stop grieving and get even. I’ve got to avenge her, you know.” I clear my throat. “So what was that plan you were hatching up?” 

 

 

Namine looks over, a grin lighting up her face. “I thought you’d never ask. After dinner I’ll drop by your cell, it shouldn’t take too long to explain your part.” 

 

 

I smile back at her. “I can’t wait to hear it. It sounds like you’ve been working on this for a while. I’m sure it’ll turn out well.” I say, optimism lifting my spirits and improving my attitude. Cloe and Moira look at me in surprise but quickly offer me supportive smiles. Amber nudges Namine with her elbow, silent communication that I choose to interpret as ‘she’s back’. I lean back in my chair and relax, thinking only of my new goal and the peace it will bring to me, but mostly how it will give peace to Rizzy so that both of us can move on. For the first time in months, I feel free and unburdened. I feel that my life has purpose now beyond any I’ve felt before. 

 

 

To me it seems that even though I’m going to have to take the life of someone who I have cared about and who has cared about me, this new path is what I need. It feels like once she is dead I will be saving a life, not ending one. I hope this feeling holds even as I stand against her to do the deed. It’s too bad that morality is so fickle because even now I doubt myself, even though I feel what I need to do is right. I should follow my own advice and stop thinking about this. 

 

 

Less than half an hour after we were dismissed from dinner, the entire crew was gathered around my bed with a rough sketch of the prison’s facilities and a collection of monopoly and wizard of Oz games pieces. 

 

 

“Starting off we have Blaze,” Namine dropped Dorothy onto the cell block, “with Kami, Jaya and Hazel.” She dropped the Cowardly Lion, the Tin man, and the Scarecrow beside Dorothy. “Amber and Cloe will be just outside the door,” She dropped the shoe and the top hat on the door to the cell block. “They’ll serve as the distraction, though the method has yet to be decided. I will pick a fight with Kami; her temper really is problematic for her. I’ll lead her into the shower; our other alliance member s will make sure that it’s clear. That leaves Moira with Jaya and Hazel. She should be able to get them into another cell block then keep up a nice distracting fight to occupy more so that Mag can lead Blaze into our little sweet spot. It’s the hallway that you guys got into a fight in before. There is no camera and the guards will be preoccupied. We’re working on smashing the cameras that would see you heading there and learning the guards shifts and patrols. The last thing we want is for you to go down on a murder charge, so with preparation it should take us awhile. At least a couple week, though I’m envisioning a month, possibly a month and a half. You’ve got time to think about it and tell us if you’re in.” Namine arranges the games to fit her final vision. “Also we can only keep this up for the minutes, fifteen at the most, so you’re going to have to work fast. 

 

 

I nod. “I’ll think about it, could you give me some time to myself, I need to really consider this.” Namine nods and gathers her things, folding the map and stowing the pieces in her pants. 

 

 

“Don’t rush the decision; it’s your life that you’re betting here.” She advises me as everyone but Moira files out of the cell. Once they are gone I lounge back and stare at the ceiling. If I take up with Namine I could bring peace to myself and still get out before they start the joke of an investigation that will end with the warden signing off on a cold case. Should I turn Namine down, I could find peace outside, with no risk of wasting more of my life. I bite my lip; dammit I didn’t want to think more about this. I let out a sigh; my stomach is knotted up from my conflicted thoughts. I feel someone sitting down on my bed. Arms wrap around my waist and a head on my abdomen, I stroke Moira behind her ears. If I walk out on Namine there is no guarantee that I would ever find peace. At the same time there is no guarantee that I will have peace even if I do side with her, I could avenge Rizzy and then feel remorse for ending Blaze’s life. It seems that I’m fucked either way. Moira turns and brings herself up to her knees, moving so her face hovers above mine. I turn my face to the side, I hear her chuckle.  

 

 

“Don’t get stressed out over this, Namine has everything planned so you won’t take the fall. Besides, even if you do, it’s not like more time in here would be so different. After a few years this place is so easy to understand and get along in. Just help us take out Blaze, with her gone things would be so much better even if you did take the rap for it.” I pat her ass, signaling for her to get off. Moira dismounts, brushing a kiss onto my lips. 

 

 

“How do you know so much when you spend most of your life in the weight room?” I question. “It’s not that simple anyway. If it was I’d have no problem deciding, at the moment I’ve got other priorities.” I tell her, watching her closely as she moves across the room. I turn my head back to the ceiling and begin to contemplate these things again.  

 

 

The next morning I’m still awake and thinking about it. No matter how I weigh it, my head tells me to refuse Namine, but then my gut tells me to side with her. I bring my index finger to my mouth and start chewing on it, blood flows into my mouth so I switch to my middle finger. My eyes drift themselves closed while I chew thoughtfully on my knuckle. I’m still conflicted as to what I should do, but I think I’m going to side with my gut, my head only got  into trouble anyway, I decide. 

 

 

After the guards unlock my cell door and announce that its breakfast time. I tell Moira that I’ve made my decision. She smiles but doesn’t ask, allowing me to brood over the decision for as long as I please with no pressure. We walk to the cafeteria together and join up with Namine, Cloe and Amber at a table. We get in line together, joking and chatting about the prison and the guards. By the time we sit back down at the table with our breakfast of sausage and bacon, we’ve delved onto the subject of sex, specifically the guards we’ve bedded over the years. Moira says that she’s had at least fifty in the six years she’s been in the prison system. I tell her that she’s full of shit, after twice that amount of time I’ve only gotten thirty. The guard at the table chimes in and says that he’s done over a hundred inmates in a year, so it wouldn’t be that impossible. I tell him to mind his own business, like every guard who’s heard our plotting seems to. 

 

 

Towards the end of the meal I nudge Namine and tell that I have an announcement. “Yes or no?” She questions aloud to the whole group. I bite my lip, indecisively for a minute before I answer. 

 

 

“Yes.” A smile spreads across her face slowly as my words sink in. the rest of the group nods and smiles back at me. Namine leans in and presses a kiss to my cheek. I wrap my arms around her. The guard clears his throat.  

 

 

“Now girls, if you’re looking for something, I can come by your cell block tonight. I think it’s been long enough since my last indulgence.” We laugh him off, pointing him to Moira who grins at him.  

 

 

“I don’t know handsome, it’s been quite a while since I fucked anyone. I think I’m out of practice.” He swallows. 

 

 

“Give me the cell number, I’ll lock up tonight.” Moira grins even more and gives it to him. “I’ll bring condoms and lube.” He stands up and dismisses us quickly. Amber and Cloe trade a few chaste picks while Namine jealously pouts, glaring at Close who will most likely get a harsh punishment before the end of the day. 

 

Chapter 19

Title: Chapter XIX: Dust in the Wind

Namine rests her forehead on the heel of her palm, exhaling softly.  I lean back against the wall, sighing as the cold seeps into the backs of my arms. Moira hunches over the now evolved map, tracing her finger over one of the arrows and checking the time written next to it. “There are too many guard patrols; we need another couple people to start a fight or a revolt around the area of cell block ‘D’.” She states. “If we do that things will be way too suspicious and the guards will be patrolling more or they’ll drop gas on us.”

 

 

 

 

 

I run my hands through my hair. “We could fake a medical emergency as well as the other fight and Cloe and Amber’s distraction; something serious enough to gain attention but not enough to warrant a really quick response. Maybe a seizure, people have those often enough that it would draw enough attention but the guards wouldn’t try to move them or call back up.”

 

 

 

Namine looks up, resting her chin in her palm. She shifts her weight around, moving the bed slightly, and reaches over to turn the map towards her.“That might work; our main problem is the lounge, most of the normal patrols center there. There are always two of them within ear shot of the hallway that Mag needs to get across to hit that sweet spot. Using your idea, we could draw the guards enough to give you a small window to pass. The guards would be close so Blaze would never try anything there.” She traces her finger around the map, envisioning the movements of guards. She circles around for a few minutes before tapping a spot to the left of the lounge, at the apex of a hallway that ran parallel to the one I need access to. Namine picks up the pen that she’d smuggled from the library, scribbling down a code and time. “As far as preplanning, we’re done. Now we’ve just got to figure out who is doing the newer parts, we can start asking for volunteers tomorrow.”

 

 

 



   

 

 

“Not tomorrow, I need a day to go back to the weights, my muscles are weakening.” Moira interjects.  

 

 

“You can ask in there then, tell us the results before dinner.” I respond. Moira glances at me and nods. 

 

 

“Alright, then we’ve got a mission for tomorrow. Let’s hope things turn out favorably.” Namine announces. “I’m going to head out, see you tomorrow.” She rises, carefully folding the map and stowing it between the pages of an old comic book.  She hides the pen between the wall and mattress of my bed. While Namine performs her ritual, Moira stands, moves to the other bed and strips off her jacket and pants, leaving her in a white beater and white panties. She lies down as Namine crosses to the exit. 

 

 

Once Namine is gone, I grab my pillow and throw it to the head of the bed. I arrange myself to cradle the pillow with my head on it. “So, when are you going to tell them?” Moira asks after I settle in. 

 

 

“Tell them what?” I ask. 

 

 

“Don’t play dumb, you got approved for parole three weeks ago.” 

 

 

I sit up and look at her, dumbfounded. “You should stop slinking around like you do, you’re like a super spy that gathers all the information you need to completely understand everything around you.” She smiles. “I don’t know, next week maybe. I just haven’t had a reason to them; I don’t know when I’m leaving yet, when I find that out, I’ll tell Namine so that she can get her plan together by then.” 

 

 

“You’re still going to help her, then?” 

 

 

“I gave her my word and I’ve got my own reasons to take out Blaze.” 

 

 

“Those reasons would be?” 

 

 

“Spy around some more and you might figure it out.” She smiles and waves her hand dismissively. 

 

 

“Go to bed, already.” I sink back down, closing my eyes.

 

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“August tenth.” Moira whispers in my ear as she wraps her arms around my abdomen. 

 

 

“You’re sure?” I ask. She nods and gives me a peck on the cheek. 

 

 

“Be good; tell Namine when she comes to the cell tonight.” 

 

 

“Since when am I your bitch?” I question, pulling her arms off of me. “All this, be good bullshit, the way you talk to me and order me around. You make it seem like you’re topping me, and you ain’t.” I turn around and face her; she looks away from me and nods.                    

 

 

“Alright, I’ll step off. Point still stands; you have to tell her tonight.” She stands her ground. I nod. 

 

 

“Thanks for the information though.” She shrugs. 

 

 

“Don’t mention it.” I smile. 

 

 

“I’ll be sure not to.”

 

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Namine hunches once again over the map, pen in hand as she makes little marks that only she can decipher. “Janet, you said, was the faker, right?” She asks. 

 

 

“Yes.” Moira answers. 

 

 

“The girls watching the shower room?” 

 

 

“Mike, Tiffany, Flo and Tina.” I answer. 

 

 

Namine checks names and time with us for the next half an hour until she’s satisfied that the map. After she’s folded it and stowed it in the safety of Batman and hidden the pen, I speak up. “I’ve got something to tell you.” 

 

 

She looks up at me, curious. “What is it?” 

 

 

“I’ve been approved for parole. I’m getting out on the tenth of August. Can you have everything ready for the ninth?” 

 

 

Namine takes a few seconds to digest this before jumping at me, wrapping her arms around me and giving a delighted shriek. “Why didn’t you tell me you were being reviewed? I could have cleaned up to make you look better.”  I shrug. “Anyways, I could definitely have everything ready by then, but are you sure you want to take a risk like that?” I nod. “Okay, then I’ll make sure to have everything ready by the eight so we can get it done on ninth.” She presses a kiss to my lips and stands, leaving quickly. Moira retreats to her bed and strips herself down to her skivvies again. I settle myself in facing her, my blanket pulled up to my chin. She grins at me. “What are you waiting for? Go to sleep.” I smile back, saying nothing. 

 

 

We wait together as the sun sets and our cell becomes darker. Finally the sound of jingling keys reverberates up the staircase. Moira turns onto her back, pulling her panties down and slipping her hand between her thighs. As the jingling gets closer, Moira’s excitement grows.  Just as Moira begins to moan, the sound of footsteps stops outside of our door, a brunette guard pops his head in and smiles before stepping the rest of the way in. Moira pulls her hand away from herself and cleans her fingers seductively. The guard smiles and struts over to Moira, dropping his pants before hopping onto the bed. He quickly pushes his semi-rigid member into her pussy. They grind against each other, humping and pumping faster and faster until Moira comes, causing the guard to lose it as well. He kisses her as he pulls out.  “Three days.” He says sweetly. “Come to the weight room tomorrow, I’m stationed there all week.” He dismounts the bed and redresses. She pulls her underwear up and turns to smile at me. She mumbles to herself dreamily before she passes out. I smile and shake my head, turning over and closing my eyes. 

 

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Days pass by quickly, listening to Namine and the others set up the circumstances of Blaze’s demise, quickly becomes my daily activity. Occasionally I go to the weight room with Moira and work out. Other times I hang out with Namine, acting as an errand boy while she works at large tasks like introducing a cue system. Most of the time though, I just stay in my cell and read her books, remembering the way she looked as she read them, trying to figure out what made them her favorites. Some days I don’t even leave to eat or shower. When Moira told me one morning that I only had three days to muscle up to beat Blaze, I thought she was full of shit. She drags me to breakfast so that Namine could tell me, Namine agreed with her. I ended up spending the next three days in the weight room and the next two nights doing pushups and sit ups. 

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When the ninth finally came I was ready. I wasn’t nervous like I was expecting, simply ready. I had no fear, my mind set on my goal and towards my form of absolution; I had the feeling of a knight on the way to battle. In the morning, I wake early and go over the plan in near whispers with Moira. Once our cell is unlocked I move quickly to the cafeteria. I choose a table and watch for my comrades, signaling them to me. Namine smiles at me, obviously proud of her puppet. I smile back, hiding my disgust for her attitude. My mind relocates itself to the goal, my task. I shake my head, a goofy smile planted on my face. 

 

 

“You’re going to nap after lunch today, right?” I ask, Namine attempting establish a time line. Namine nods. 

 

 

“You make me sound like a little kid.” She complains. 

 

 

“Well what adult nap?” I ask teasingly. 

 

 

“One who enjoys sleeping?” She shoots back. Twenty minutes after lunch lets out is when she will give her cue to begin. Forty minutes after lunch is when I will start to do my part, I gather from her verbal code. I flash the number four on my fingers to show her my understanding. She shows me number three. I nod my head to the side. I watch as everyone flashes numbers, peace signs, and other sign language cues to Namine, indication their positions in order of required readiness. Every mistake she sees she corrects with nods of her head and facial expressions, all while we chat lightly. We explore topics of the quality of food, the books in the library, and spend a lot of time on the TV shows we watched outside prison. By the end of the meal we’ve secured the entire plan and I’ve learned more about ‘Will and Grace’ than I care to know. 

 

 

As we file out from the doors of the cafeteria, I watch everyone break off in different directions beginning to find their positions and prod other into theirs. I turn back to my cell, watching as Blaze trots toward her’s, half a hallway ahead of me. I locate Kami, Jaya and Hazel in loose arrow around her. I look for Amber and Cloe, but find them nowhere. Moira, I had watched leave in another direction while Namine was hanging the direction of the lounge. I keep a close eye on Blaze as I sluggishly move to my cell, covertly making sure she goes where we need her to be. Once I’m sure that she’s taken up a position within her cell, I duck into mine for a round of one hundred pushups and two hundred crunches before I lie down and listen for the sounds of Cloe and Amber’s supposedly unmistakable distraction. The sounds of moving feet, people talking, and clanging of cell doors lulls slowly until only the sounds of the patrolling  guard’s jangling keys can be heard clearly. I listen intently for what feels like a long time until I hear two pairs of scurrying feet head for the cell block’s door. I raise myself into a sitting position, listening more intently for the hints of what was happening. 

 

 

I hear Cloe’s flirtatious giggling, then the sounds of wet kisses. Amber mumbles something that sounds inviting, following by a bassy rumbling reply. Cloe giggles more, inviting something else. The sound of jingling keys resonates through the cellblock. The same bassy rumble calls out something, which is answered by an eager but slightly higher masculine voice. Four pairs of feet set off at a measured pace. I hope those two know what they’re getting into. As their footsteps recede I hear, barely, another male voice eagerly agreeing to something. After that dies away, quiet shuffling of feet is heard inside and outside the cell black as people moves into the positions for our plan. Once again I listen for the next cue, which will be my signal to move. Soon enough the sound of tumult spreads, small fights break out in rapid sequence, medical emergencies with no apparent cause begins to unravel the structure of the system. 

 

 

Before long Moira pops her head into the cell, signaling go time. I jump off the bed and follow her out of the cell. While the sound of tumult reaches the block, none of the sights do. I see Namine, moving in from the side. Moira and I approach slowly from another angle, dipping into another cell to watch as Namine walks up to engage Kami. It’s not long before the cow takes a swing at Namine. The small woman sighs as she sidesteps, taunting Kami. She slowly creeps backwards, allowing Kami a few glancing blows and a solid hit. All while taunting and striking back, luring her back towards the doors to another cell block. When Kami is safely down the hallway, Moira and I come out of hiding. We dart up to the cell, where Jaya is looking in the direction that Kami disappeared in. “I don’t know she said she could handle it.” She calls back into the cell before Moira punches her in the face, knocking her onto her side on the ground. I crouch just outside the door as Hazel begins to rush Moira. When she clears the doorway, I spring and take her legs out from under. I make sure to slam her head against the concrete for good measure. I stand and collect myself, keeping a wary eye on the doorway. 

 

 

I turn and walk into Blaze’s cell fearlessly, finding her sitting on the bed half groggy. “Alright, you want to take me out? I’m giving you the chance. A fair fight, just you and me but for that to happen you have to follow me though the shit storm that’s been orchestrated for this event.” Blaze looks at me for a few seconds, deciding, before nodding and standing. 

 

 

“Lead the way.” She sneers. 

 

 

We leave the cell, dodging Jaya and Moira as they duke it out. We travel to the cafeteria, past it and through the library. Even as we pass the lounge we see no guards. We do hear them though, a fact that keeps me on edge, causing me to walk ever faster when I hear yelling or running. We sneak past the seizure victim and finally come into the hallway that leads to the safe spot. I slow down to a leisurely walk, taking my time and collecting myself as Blaze hovers in my blind spot, her arms folded across her chest. “It didn’t have to be like this, but you know that already. That doesn’t matter though; I don’t think either of us cares anymore. You have your goals and I have mine.  All that matters now is that my goals and your goals are opposing and one of us has to submit or die.” She speaks, mostly to herself. 

 

 

We reach the end of the hallway and I open the door to a long abandoned storage closet. She steps inside and turns on the light. I follow her inside, closing the door behind me. She’s already sunk herself low in the corner in a ready stance. I pull myself to my full height, bringing my arm up to chest level. We stare at each other for a long time before she lunges at my legs. I kick her face, knocking her back. She jumps back up, lunging again at my, this time aiming to punch into my stomach. I open myself, taking the punch to score a blow to her head. 

 

 

She remains in a dazed state while I collect myself again, blocking out the pain. Blaze pulls herself unsteadily to her feet. I take a few steps to reach her, my abdomen aching from the hit. Before I manage to strike, she’s recovered enough to make another solid hit, this time my left shoulder. She kicks at my legs catching my right knee. I fall hard onto my left knee. Blaze jumps onto me, her teeth snapping at my neck. I summon enough strength to shrug her off, causing her body to roll off of me and hit the cement hard. She grips her hand and moans, scrambling to her feet only to lose her balance and fall onto her ass. I catch my breath and summon my strength as I throw myself as her, using my weight to keep her pinned as I full my fist back and bury it as hard as I can into her stomach. Her body convulses then she vomits some food, digestive juices, and blood onto me and herself. I jump up to brush myself off, she turns on her side, groaning and she clutches her stomach. I walk around her body, looking at her. She removes her hands from her abdomen to place them on the ground to stand up. I kick her arms out from under her, causing all her weight to come down on her face. I hear a sickening crack and see blood begin to flow onto the floor. I hear a sickening crack and see blood begin to flow onto the floor. She picks herself up slowly, tottering as blood rushes out of her smashed nose. A macabre bubbling sound is heard as she breathes out. Her arms return to an up stance, shifting back and forth to stop from falling over as her balance faltered.

 

 

Her eyes are glazing over and losing their luster. I dart in and punch her gut again, causing her to fall on her ass, retching up blood. I follow her, kicking her chest to knock her back, leaving her prone. I place my foot over her throat, pressing down. I put all my weight on my foot, looking away as her frantic squeals and bubbling die down. My leg begins to cramp as I feel her body begin to thrash, but I only press down harder. Once I’m sure she’s done for, when the stink of excrement rises from her body, I remove my foot and look at her face. Purple and bloated her face stares at me with bulging eyes. I turn and head toward the door. 

 

 

With my dirty deed done, I feel none of the freedom I had hoped for. At the same time I feel none of the guilt I had dreaded. Even though I had killed someone and avenged my lover, I felt nothing. I turn off the light and close the door behind me, shuffling down the hallway. I see only the floor and the walls, I hear yelling, groaning, thumping and crying. I don’t care, though because there is no body attached to the sounds. I make it to the laundry room and change my clothes and then go back to my cell, where Moira is waiting for me. She demands, apprehensively, the results. I give her thumbs up and sit down on my bed. 

 

 

“She’s dead.”            

Chapter 20

Title: Chapter XX: Happy Ending?

The yellowish plaster on the wall is cracked across the whole face, giving the impression of many pictures crisscrossing over one another. The sides of the trunk at the foot of the bed have so many names, carved into them that I had to put mind on the lid. The bed is lumpy with springs sticking up everywhere but the bottom left corner. However, this little hole in the wall, as shitty as it is, is home until I save up enough cash to buy a better apartment. I won’t be able to do that until I get a better job than the bar tending I’m doing four blocks down the street for practically two dollars an hour, after taxes of course. I sit down on the bed carefully, looking at the suitcase that is full of white T shirts and blue jeans. I kick off my shoes and curl up onto my side, avoiding the sharp springs. 

 

 

In the end, I was released before the guards ever found Blaze’s body. When I was discharged, I took her-Rizzy’s books and the old letter that I’d hidden that had her friend’s address on them. I threw away almost everything else though; I ended up keeping some hygiene products and my dildo. Even though I have accomplished the two things that I thought would give me peace, I’m still haunted by her. Every blonde head that I see generates her face in my mind; I hear her whispering in my ear. My memories of her, however, are no longer accomplished with pangs of pain, and now that I have left the jail it is harder to remember her because I don’t have to look at the places that she lived in. I’ve decided that after I’ve got a better job and apartment I’m going to track down Rizzy’s friend’s house and see Rizzy’s ashes. I’m hoping that will give me the closure I need.  

 

 

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I wiggle my shoulder in my too-small coat as I step out of my building into the chilly   November drizzle that falls from gray pre-dawn clouds. A hard breeze blows past me, invading the thin lining of the thread bare monstrosity squeezing my shoulders together. I glance at the time displayed on the back two blocks down the street, making sure that I’m not late. I still have twenty minutes, enough time to stop by a gas station and pick up something quick for breakfast and walk the remaining twelve blocks to the sock factory that I work at for four dollars an hour. I move quickly down the street and duck into the gas and go for a few minutes to buy two seventy five cent hot dogs and a dollar twenty five cent cup of hot coffee. I walk outside and continue on my way to work, eating the hot dogs and finishing the coffee when I reach work. 

 

 

Today is the day that I’ve decided to go to the backwater town and see if I can find Rizzy’s friend’s house. I work from five to two, so with the bus ride out there factored in I should make it there by five. I kind of hope that she didn’t move and that she won’t call the cops on the crazy woman who showed up on her doorstep who asked to see the ashes of her friend that died five years ago. As I suit up for work, I slip the envelope with her address into my pants pocket.   

 

 

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I shiver against the wind again, squinting at the envelope in my hands. I use the pink tinted light of twilight to check the address on the envelope. The twenty seven on envelope matches the twenty seven on the rusted and dented mailbox in front of the gravel path that leads to bungalow that had a depressing black and white color scheme with purple curtains and a natural finished porch. The house is mildly dilapidated, broken pains under some window windows, large chips in the paint and a few rotted spots on the porch. The house fits in with the rest of the neighborhood; many houses have a similar looking design. Some are two floors; some larger still but are split into two smaller rentals, but most of them have the same dreary chipped paint, the rusted metal fixtures, the window damage, and plain rotting porches. I look around a time, only a few teens are about so close to dark, riding skateboards and rollerblades around the street, popping tricks using the raised parts of the road. 

 

 

I take a deep breath, wiggling my shoulders again grimacing as I hear part of the seam of the jacket rip; I’ve got to stop shopping at thrift stores. I stick the envelope back in my coat pocket and bury my hands in the waistband of my jeans. I run across the street to the relative cover of the porch, carefully avoiding the obvious weak points. I stand apprehensively for a minute before moving my right hands to my coat pocket and knocking with my left. 

 

 

The reply that comes is so delayed that I consider walking away. The door is snatched open by a petite woman who’s dark skin and hair call to mind an Egyptian woman. It’s her alright, I recognize her from all those years ago. “Whatever you’re pedaling, we’re not interested.” She snaps, moving so close to the door. 

 

 

“Wait!” I blurt, putting my foot in the jam. “I’m not selling anything. I just want to know something, but I have to explain things first.” She eyes me copiously, but opens back up, steeping outside in a pair of slippers and housecoat.  

 

 

“What is it then?” She shuts the door behind her. 

 

 

“Well four years ago, almost five really, my cellmate Rizz-Riza died. You claimed her ashes and you sent her letters. We were lovers, of a sort, and ever since then I’ve been a wreck. I just want to know if I can see her grave or her urn to say goodbye.” The woman scowls at me.  

 

 

“Riza wasn’t a lesbian.” 

 

 

“Jail changes people.” I answer, biting back a sarcastic remark. 

 

 

“I don’t believe you. I think you’re just trying to get into my house and rob me. You could have easily memorized my address from the letters and then set out on an easy scam.”  She looks accusingly at me as she says this.  

 

 

“That’s reasonable, and I can’t give you anything but my word at this point.” I admit, shrugging. “All I can tell you is that I loved her, I loved her enough to kill the person who murdered her. I loved her enough to avenge her.”
 Her eyes widen as she steps back, reaching for the door. “I’m not going to hurt you though; I’ve got no reason to. Know this though; I’ll be up her at least once a month until I see her.”
 

 

 

“Why?” She asks hesitantly. 

 

 

“I loved her, and the last time I saw her, she was lying on the ground with a gigantic hole in her abdomen. She was killed because of something that I started and I never had a chance to say goodbye or-“My voice breaks and my eyes start to sting. “Or apologize. All I want now is closure. I want to say goodbye to see something of her, I want to channel my apology to her spirit by something she would be attached to. That and I don’t ever remember telling her how much she really meant to me.” I confess. “All I want is closure, just to see what is left of her. I’ll only need a few minutes. Please, let me see her.” I beg. 

 

 

“My name is Lindsay.” She says, opening the door and backing into her house. “I’ll let you see her, only because I can’t stand to let someone walk around with that much guilt on their conscious.” She nods, allowing me to follow her inside before shutting the door. I shudder as the warmth seeps back into me, reawakening the dormant nerves in my skin. On the inside the house is a lot more appealing. The room is painted calming lavender while the furniture is coordinated shades of brown and blue. Lindsay leads me down a hallway that is painted the same shade of lavender that has three doors going down it. She opens the first door and walks into the room behind it. I stick my head in to a room that looks like it once was a guest bedroom; the paint is a serene blue and the carpet flooring a forest green. At the end of the room is large desk that has been turned into a shrine of sorts. Pictures, persevered flowers, candles, and notes sit are arranged in an arch around a bronze urn. A long barrel lighter lies on top of a small end table not far from the door next to an incense holder. She moves inside, lighting the incense and candles. The new illumination allows me to see that the pictures are pictures of Rizzy. I walk up and kneel in front of it. My throat closes as my eyes sting and burn with tears. I look at the pictures with blurring vision, taking in her beauty, I see her as she was before I met her, revitalized and reenergizing her. Here she is not skinny and waifish, but full of energy, her body fuller than I had ever seen it. I start sobbing as I look at more of the pictures, reminded of what I had lost. The dull throb in my chest that I have lived with for years begins to grow in intensity, until every heartbeat feels like a stab wound. I clutch my chest, closing my eyes as I begin to collect myself. My breathing slows and my vision clears, my nose stops running and I clear my throat. I look back at Lindsay, leaning against the door. I reach my hands toward the urn. She shakes her head; I nod and pull my hands back to my sides. I bow my head and clasp my hands together. 

 

 

“It’s been a long time Rizzy; I wouldn’t be surprised if you don’t even remember me. If you do remember me, you’re probably pissed at me, after all, I I’m the reason you’re dead. You know that though, but I’m not here to beg forgiveness I’m just apologizing for it. I came to see you a final time, well Lindsay might let me come back, to say that I’m sorry for killing you. You know that I didn’t, but it was my fault anyway, for a few reasons.  More than that I wanted to tell you that I killed Blaze, I got away with it too. I don’t know who got blamed for it, frankly I don’t really care. All that matter is that I did her in, that I avenged you and stopped the war. I also wanted to tell you that after I lost you, I realized that I was a lot more dependent on you than I thought. I realized that I loved you more than I thought I did. I loved your more than I loved Corina. I’ve miss you a lot I had to work up my courage for a while to come do this. You picked good friends; Lindsay is a really good person to let an ex-con into her house to a dead lover. Rizzy I hope you’ve been listening because I’ve just told something that I’ve been sitting on for five years. If you haven’t been listening before, listen now because I want to tell you a really big secret. I want you to know my name, not my nicknames, but the name my mother gave me. Its Margaret, you’re the only one that knows that, aside from my mom, but I think she’s dead now. “I rise and begin blowing out the candles in the order they were lit. As the last candle goes out, I notice that I feel lighter. That the pain in my heart is gone, that my every thought is no longer panged with feelings of loss and regret. I think that is the peace that I’ve been searching for, that I’ve been deprived of for years. I back out of the room, glancing over my shoulder so I don’t run into Lindsay. After I back out Lindsay closes the door behind us. I hear footsteps coming up behind me, before I have a chance to turn and look an excited voice chirps. 

 

 

“Honey, who is this?” A short and wiry woman comes darting past me, her brown wavy hair bouncing around her shoulders. She comes to a stop by the darker woman. They exchange pecks before Lindsay turns to me. 

 

 

“This is my wife, Kendra. Kendra, this is a friend of Riza’s. Her name is-“ 

 

 

“Mag.” I cut her off, smiling apologetically. She shrugs to Kendra.  

 

 

“She came to make amends with Riza for something that happened between them. I thought we could open our doors to her, let her come by every once in a while to see Riza.” Lindsay finishes. 

 

 

Kendra casts an appraising eye over me. “That would be incredibly kind dear, I agree with. Mag you’re welcome here whenever you wish to talk to Rizz-ball.” 

 

 

I grin and dash to them, enveloping both of them in a bear hug. “Thanks so much you two. You don’t understand how much this means to me. How could I repay you?” 

 

 

“Tell us what happened in there, how she changed and what lead up to her death. If you give us a small part of the story every time you stop by it’ll be repayment enough.” Lindsay answers. 

 

 

“I have a few of her old notebooks that she wrote it, those will probably tell some of the story. I’ll bring them over as I find them.” I reply. 

 

 

“That sounds wonderful.” Kendra extends her hand to me. “It’s a deal.” I shake her hand, smiling as she leads me to the kitchen. “Come I’ll make some tea and you can tell us about yourself.” I don’t protest and start mentally rehearsing what I’m going to say, hoping that the right words will start off what I hope to be a long friendship between this couple and myself.

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