Story: Camp Pawa: The other side of a coin (chapter 4)

Authors: Jdwheels

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Chapter 4

Title: Chapter 4 - Blindsided Heart

[Author's notes:

A deep love can come around and hurt you like a viper in for the kill.. and it's bite can kill a soul.

WARNING:  Chapter contains extreme language and subject matter. Disgression is advised.

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Chapter Four- Blindsided heart

 

 

It was dark outside, the wind which had been light all day, had now al but stopped. There was a hint of a heat up hanging in the night, a tantalizing tease to the summer weather that was coming quickly to Pawa..

Most councilors had gone off to bed, each were more than tired from the days duties of setting up things for the campers. Those tasks had continued until late into the hours of late evening. Tiredness ran amuck among every last one of the workers at Camp Pawa... except for one. Mandy was still wide awake in her bed, staring up at a shadow cast ceiling.

For an hour, the girl had layed in her camp bed, listening to the low toned snoring of Olivia in the bed next to her. For this hour, she had tossed and turned every which way humanly possible, but no sleep was coming to spell her. After this hour had passed, it was clear that sleep had vanished from her hands.

Her worries seemed justified, as she had twice tried to go and talk to Alison, to try and get some things answered. Both times, she had not been there, only she very curt acting Debbie was there in cabin twelve- and was no help in locating the pretty bookworm, and seemed so irritated at Mandy even having the audacity of asking her where Alison was. She decided not to ask that lady again, finding this Debbie woman to be very hard to deal with..

Out of options until morning came, Mandy had then taken a walk around the grounds. She busied herself with checking certain hiding spots she knew where Alison might have gone even this late. After three full rounds of the grounds in searching for the girl, she found that there was no sign of where the short haired girl had gone off to at this late at night, or any indication that she was in bed right now.

Frustrated, It seemed that the girl was nowhere ... or that Alison did not want to be found in the first place Dejected and now very much confused with everything, Mandy gave up for the night at that point, hoping that she would finally corner the girl one way or another the very next day... before she went crazy with all of this.

Mandy sat up and climbed out of bed, she felt like she could not lay there any longer. She pulled on just a pair of pyjama pants and a teeshirt and headed outside. Perhaps a smoke might help her calm down enough to sleep, so she could get up early and have that little heart to heart with her seemingly vanished girlfriend. It was the only thing her mind could focus on.

Once outside into the din of night, she lit the smoke and started to walk. She was glad that Olivia was a fairly sound sleeper, as she had not been very smooth at sneaking out of the room they shared. The woman just kept on sleeping, and she was grateful of that, as she got out without any complications.

Mandy headed down to the lakeside, taking one path that would eventually loop down to the lake, rather than the steep direct approach most people used on a daily basis back when she had been a camper. She did that on purpose, as this path was the one that curved the opposite way and went all the way around various cabins, including Cabin twelve, before looping back and ending up going down to the waters of Pawa.

She passed cabin twelve after a few minutes, and could see no lights on in the place even at the back. She thought about banging on the door like a madwoman, to force Alison to get out of bed so they can clear this whole thing up once and for all... but after dealing with the bitchy Debbie twice, she dismissed that all together. She just kept on her long rout down to the water, where she had sometimes found peace it the stillness of the lake.

The water was so calm when Mandy got there. It was like glass, the surface reflecting the moon so beautifully, and refracting it into little points of light that danced in the darkness. Just the sight of the calmness, made the girl feel better. She took a drag of her cigarette and decided to follow the shoreline for awhile, to clear her mind from all of this stuff milling around in her head like opposing sumo wrestlers.

The night held her tightly in it’s dimmed hands, making her feel strangely at ease. Dispite the fact that she was wearing only the pyjama bottoms and shirt, she was not the least bit chilly on this night walk, and that made it more plesant. She continued to walk on, keeping the single light that always was on over the edge of the camp’s dock in her sight for reference when she would go back.

She came upon a solitary figure sitting on a grass and sand bank just a few hundred feet down the shore. She could see by the moonlight overhead, that it was Alison that sat there in the dim. She felt her emotions rise to levels she never experienced before, but she settled them th best as she could and went up to the girl. This would end right now... she thought as she approached.

She noticed that the bookworm sat there, wrapped in a beach blanket, totally not knowing that she was there in the first place.

" Alison..." She said, breaking the quiet.

The girl with the glasses jumped and looked up to where a voice had came out of. She seemed more than shocked to find Mandy standing there. She said nothing, but stared at Mandy with this odd look in her face.

" We have to talk..." Started Mandy, obviously she was not feeling like mincing any words with the girl.

She sat down beside the girl on the sandy grass and looked at her. Even in the moonlight, Alison look so beautiful, and she felt the well of her love to her all of a sudden... that was making this hard for the long haired girl to continue.

" I will ask you straight out...What’s going on with you?" She said, as bluntly as she could.

" Going on..." Alison stammered, her voice trembling.

" Don’t do that...passing it off... we always have been honest with one another since we had started to go exclusively with each other..." Mandy warned. " I heard about the phone call you got and that it was a woman who had said that she was your ‘sister’..." She paused to calm herself. " I found out, and I know for a fact that you don’t have any sisters."

The girl fidgeted a little, not once looking at Mandy for a long time. She made no attempt to say anything, which made the long haired girl worried.

" Is this a girl you have been seeing behind my back?" Bluntly said Mandy. " Have you been cheating on me? Are you?"

Alison looked right into Mandy’s eye, there was a strange look dancing behind her dark colored stare.

" It is... and is not what you are figuring out..." She finally mumbled.

" Which is it." Said Mandy, now getting pissed off. " Cheating or not cheating?"

Alison nodded, seeming knowing that she needed to say exactly what was happening to her lover.

" The person who phoned me was my friend, Leena." She said. " She called here for me."

" That is the one whose a nurse? The one you have been friends with since grade three?" Inquired Mandy.

" That’s her"

" Is she the one you are seeing? I did not know she was even gay." Said Mandy breathlessly.

" No, She is married, not gay..." She said so calmly. " She phoned me and pretended to be my ‘sister’... all because I had asked for her to phone me here at camp, and to make sure no one knew her at all..."

Mandy was not understanding that point. She shifted to look right at Alison, locking her focus on to her.

" Why would you get her to phone you? She asked, as flashed of CC flooded her fear. " Are you sick or something.?"

" I am not sick... it is something else..." She blurted out, knowing that Mandy went there instantly.

" Then what the hell is going on!" Mandy said, her frustration and anger beginning to show.

Tears began to trickle from the bookworm’s eyes, the drops sparkling like little diamonds in the moonlight. Mandy held her breath, as something about the tears made her pause and watch for a moment.

" I did not want to say anything yet, because I did not want to hurt you... you are such a great person, who I care about... and love." She stammered. " We have been together four years... graduated high school together and everything. I love being with you but I never wanted to hurt you..."

" Hurt me... why... what would this phone call be about that could hurt me?" Mandy said. " You being all secretive and doing stuff behind my back hurts me.. what could hurt me more?"

" Because of what has happened..." Alison bluntly said, with a flatness.

" Did you contract something from someone?" Asked Mandy, feeling the rollercoaster of emotions flooding her. " You got VD from a one night stand or something.

Alison lifted her head, and leveled her heat right at Mandy.

" No..." She said. " She told me that I am pregnant."

The words hit Mandy like a runaway locomotive. Her mind spun with the answer she had gotten. She looked at the girl with her mouth open, she felt a cold chill engulf her.

" Pregnant?" She stuttered, not believing what she heard. " Did you just say that your pregnant?"

" Nine weeks to be the exact...." She calmly said.

She looked at the girl, her anger now taking over.

" You cheated on me with a guy? You fucked a guy" She shouted. " That is the only way possible...I sure as hell know that I could not have gotten you pregnant. Who? Who was it that you fucked?"

" Does it matter now?" Flatly asked Alison.

" Fucking yes it does." Screamed back the girl. " Who was the bastard that screwed my girlfriend?"

Alison took a long breath in, while she looked at the very distraught girl who looked at her with a face that made her own heart ache.

" Allen Perot.... he is the father of my baby." She said. " He was the one that I was with."

Mandy knew that name. He was a guy they both new from other people, a engineering student who was taking biotechnology courses with Alison to further his range in the field. He was a tall, thin lad with a big infectious smile and had a almost shy quality to him... they had met him the first year they were at University after joining a birthday party for another person they knew. After that, Allen had became friend with them both.

" Oh no... He raped you then?" Gasped Mandy, figuring the obvious at that moment, hoping that was it.

" He did not rape me... I wanted to have sex with him." She said so meekly. " We fell in love over the last half year, and the sex just happened one night before I could find a way to tell you what I was feeling to him without hurting you in the process.."

Mandy felt her heart sink in her chest.

" Did you just tell me that... love him?" She whispered, so unbelieving of what she had heard. " But... you have said that you love me..."

" I do love you, so much... you are my first love ever, Mandy..." Alison said, her voice now quivering." I never would have thought that I was bi-sexual, because I always seemed to be attracted to girls.. but I found him to be so attractive to me..." She said, explaining herself. " I love you still... that has not changed... but I love Allen as well."

Mandy felt her body shaking, her eyes welling with tears yet her anger was blocking any of it from coming out.

" But you slept with him... and you are telling me that you were also sleeping with me? Living with me? Building a life with me, and I was building it with you also?" Mandy said, her mind racing away. Her hurt choking her from the inside. " How could you?"

" I made love to you... because I do love you. I cherish all of those times even now..." She said, trying to explain herself. " That never changed... but I made love with him, because I lover him as well..."

" You cheated on me, got yourself fucking pregnant and you still have the nerve to say that you still love me??" The girl screamed, jumping to her feet to stand over Alison.. " That is just plain bullshit!!"

" I never wanted to hurt you... it just happened when you went out of town..." She said, the last words trailing off into the night. " We had been seeing each other for a little while... we found ourselves alone and... you know..."

Mandy felt her blood beginning to become boiling, and found that she was clenching her fists hard against her legs. She felt a rage that was far from what she had felt before. She glared at the girl on the bank, hatred flooding her.

" I cant believe it...You cheat on me, and want to just accept this crap of you loving someone else?!" Mandy screamed as loudly as she could.

" I wanted to come clean... but I needed to find a way to tell you before I did..."

Mandy was now beyond angry. She stopped her first instinct she had of slapping the girl across the face, and just glared into the face that looked up at her.

" I won’t stand for you doing this to me like this! Ever! You can find your way back to the city when this camp is over..." She yelled, feeling that anger flow from herself. " You then get yourself out of the apartment and out of my life! We are so fucking through.. hope he can trust you to be faithful to him... I don’t think you will be though."

" I do love you, and I want for you to know that before i told you all of this..." The girl tried to say.

" Fuck that, you bitch!!" Mandy screamed, surprising herself at the level of swearing she was doing... yet not caring one bit. " You just can go to hell!"

Mandy turned and started to run. Her anger was changing into tears, and she did not want to give the girl the satisfaction of seeing how hurt she was feeling. Down the beach she fled headlong, head in her hands. She could hear Alison calling her name, but she ignored it and continued on.

Alison now stood on the beach watching the girl run off. With tears of her own pouring down her face, she could barely follow the figure as it race head along away from her like as if shot out of a cannon. She patted her still flat stomach as she stood there beside the waters of Lake Pawa.

" What have I goddamn done?" She said to herself.

She knew one thing for sure, on thing that her inside of herself was screaming at her all of the time... she had hurt the one who had seen the real her, and that is the one person who now literally loathed her. She could not blame her in any way.

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