Erin wakes to the smell of toast. She heads into the kitchen to see David preparing breakfast and looks at the clock
“Shit David it’s after 9.00”
“Yeh I’ve called in sick today.”
“You have…why.” She asked with surprise
“Thought we might do something together…shopping”
“David ...I had a great time last night but stop you’re going.”
He put a gentle hand to her mouth “Erin I want to take you shopping, it only requires a yes.”
Erin kisses him “Yes”
They shopped for clothes and David bought some toys for Matthew. They stopped off for a coffee and Erin continued to chirp on until she saw David shaking his head
“what.” She asked
He laughed “So when do the batteries run out.”
She made a face at him and drained the last of her coffee
“I don’t want to put any pressure on you but have you thought about the move to Canada.” He asked
Erin shifted a little uncomfortably “Ummm not really I don’t know.”
He nodded “Look it’s ok if you don’t want to go.” He said a little sadly
Erin grabbed his hand “Let me think about it ok, I haven’t made any decisions.”
David went to get the car and Erin picked up a few items from the pharmacy. She turned her mobile on and rang Tracey
“Erin….”
“Tracey hi.”
“I’ve been going out of my mind. I’ve tried calling you but your phone has been off, what the hell is going on.” Panic crept into Tracey’s tone.
“Tracey I know, I can’t talk I’m with David. I will try and drop by later.”
“Erin what’s going on…..I miss you please.”
“I have to go, I’ll drop by.” And Erin hung up. Her heart sank at the pain emanating from Tracey’s voice. What was she going to do, she had to choose one over the other. She loves David but her feelings for Tracey was as strong. Again she felt sick and decided to put it off thinking about it.
They got the shopping in and Erin looked at her watch reading just after 12.00pm when she was scooped up.
“Hey.” She called in surprise.
He sat her on the bench and kissed her, his arms rubbing over her body, down her arms.
“David” she nuzzled into his neck as his mouth trailed down her neck. He went back to her lips while his hand slipped under her shirt and bra and grasp her breast. A little pant of contentment passed her lips . He removes his hand and strokes the front of her jeans, rubbing into the folds and smiled when he felt her warmth
She breaks back
“David I have to do something first so I’ll be in the bedroom in about 10 minutes.”
He lifts her off the bench and squeezes her buttocks. “You read my mind you wicked woman.”
She rolls her eyes and pushes him away playfully
Erin goes to the toilet and pulls out the instructions of her test. While waiting for the results again her thoughts turn to Tracey and David, moving to Canada, who was she prepared to give up the most. Although her relationship had improved with her husband it was only a day and night , but she wanted to be with Tracey and she knew she would have to tell David but after the effort he's made, when was the right time. She looked over to the test applicator and compared the colour against the box.
She walked into the bedroom where David was already in bed waiting. He instantly noticed her change
“Erin…Erin what is it.”
She sits next to him and tears started to fall
“Erin will you talk to me.” His voice increases in panic “Have I done something…”
“David I have something to tell you.” But her voice disappears
David grabbed Erin “Oh god Erin will you tell me.”
“I’m pregnant.”
David looked at her in shock “are you sure.” He gasped
“I’ll need to see the doctor but I’m pretty sure.” She looked at him, worried about his lack of emotion
“But I thought they said we couldn’t have any more.”
Erin wiped her tears “well they were wrong, David tell me you’re ok with this.”
David couldn’t speak and when she saw his tears she knew instantly and wrapped her arms around him “David you’re going to be a father again.”
Erin stood inside Tracey’s house ready for the tirade
“What’s going on Erin, I need to know. It’s like you’ve dropped off the face of the earth.”
“I know and I’m sorry it wasn’t fair.”
Tracey pulls Erin in for a hug but felt no effort in return “Erin what’s going on.”
Erin looked down at her trembling hands
“ERIN” cried Tracey
Erin looked up and opened her mouth her voice hoarse “I’m so sorry I can't do this anymore.”
Tracey shook her head “what are you talking about.”
“I can’t see you…..it has to stop.”
“Erin no that's not fair, why, what’s happened. You can’t just stop it.”
“I have to” she spoke as confidently as she could
“But why....I thought you loved me."
Erin cringed “Situations have changed…”
Tracey grabs Erin “what the hell’s changed Erin, does he know? has he threaten you.”
Erin shook her head “Tracey I’m pregnant.”
Tracey released her “Really…congratulations but why does it have to change anything.” she whined
Erin took a deep breath for the final blow “We are moving overseas, David’s job has required him to go to Canada, so as his family we are all going.
Tears flowed freely from Tracey as she tried to make sense “No…Erin don’t do this please….I need you, I love you.” And rushes in to kiss her.
Erin started to fight but her own emotions were draining as it turned passionate. Tracey started at Erin’s clothing but gaining her senses Erin shoves Tracey back
“NO..Tracey it’s over….it hurts me too..... but.”
“BUT what Erin.” Spat Tracey
“I took a vow to love, support and be faithful to my husband, and I’ve already ruined one of them.”
“Don’t you love.” Tracey asked
“I can’t”
“DO YOU FUCKING LOVE ME OR NOT.”screamed Tracey
Erin held her breath and held Tracey’s gaze “No Tracey”…..she controlled her breathing “I don’t.”
“You fucking bitch, I hate you….get the fuck out of here.” Screamed Tracey
Erin leaves and Tracey slams the door behind her.
Erin pulls off the road and starts to cry uncontrollably. She could never tell Tracey how she really felt if she couldn’t even admit those feelings to herself. She gritted her teeth but the pain kept rising up, she opened the car door and vomited.
Erin spent the next week in bed. The doctor confirmed that Erin was pregnant and rest was required. Erin felt so weak and sick and couldn’t get out of bed even if she wanted to. David sat next to her and stroked her hair
“You know you can talk to me about anything.” He offered
Erin nodded. She sat up and hugged her husband and sobbed “Just hold me please.”