Story: Camp Pawa (chapter 10)

Mandy found CC sitting near the boathouse where no one else was at this point of time, a lit smoke going in her hand. The shorter girl went up to the black clad girl and took a seat next to her with a smooth move, her eyes locked on to her.

Mandy looked at her girlfriend, and saw the stress that was flowing through. Softly, she put her hand on the girl’s shoulder, showing that she was not upset at all by this little turn of events. CC smiled a little, as the contact was made, but her look was one that made Mandy seem worried.

CC took a long drag from her smoke, and made eye contact with the shorter gal, handing her the half empty pack

" I swear... I did not know that she was coming here..." She said, her eyes locked on to Mandy.

" I know..." Said the girl back, lighting one for herself.

She leaned over and gave a little peck on the cheek, her free arm snaking around to hold the taller girl. CC smiled, as she looked deeply into the girl’s face.

" I have no damned idea how she knew I was here...." She said. " I wanted to get away and clear my mind..." She smiled and cupped Mandy’s cheek softly. " Meeting you, has done that... and a whole lot more... seeing her has brought back so damned much right now... I simply ran because I didn’t know how to handle it..."

" I sort of figured that..." Mandy said.

The girl took another drag off of the smoke, dropping her head a little as her brow furrowed in a moment of thought.

" Of all the fucking places to bump into Raven... this was the one place in the entire world that I thought I would not ever see her again..." CC said, her voice tightened. " I step out of a shower, having a great day and minding my own business then... WHAM! There she is getting off a damned bus!"

Mandy just cuddled into her girl, feeling the lean body finally relaxing as she spoke. CC pulled her closer and give a little kiss on top of the head

" She did come up to me and asked me something..." Mandy said, hesitantly.

" She did?" Said CC, surprised at this. " What did she ask you?"

" She just asked me if ‘ that was a girl called CC’ that she saw with me"

" Did you tell her that it was me?" Asked the girl, almost calmly.

" Sort of yes... an a sort of no..." Mandy replied.

" Sort of?" Asked CC, waiting for an explanation to this. " What do you me by ‘Sort of’?"

The shorter girl looked into CC’s face

" One of the greeters called them to gather to get their assigned cabins and bags before I could..." Mandy informed.

" So she does not know? She ran off without the answer from you... right?""

" I believe she has a clue... I sort of stupidly let it slip that I knew her name was ‘Raven’." She admitted. " Sorry."

The tall girl shook her head, she understood what the girl was saying now..

" Whether or not she got it or not, it don’t matter..." CC whispered, calming the distress of her Girlfriend. " Either way, in this sort of a small place, she is bound to find out sooner or later."

" Your... not mad with me? Did you want her to know that you were here?" Asked Mandy cautiously.

" It sort of ... just came out for you..." She smiled warmly. " I have done things like that so often, I know it was simply a reaction from you. Everyone just blurts out things every once in a while... we are human." She paused to smile, showing that she was not upset in the least with Mandy. " She would end up finding out that it is me anyways... No big!"

CC just looked skyward, stopping talking for a couple of moments as she hugged the girl close to her.

" Looks like we might be bumping into her a few times around camp..." The tall girl said with a small giggle of nervous tension. " It’s inevitable."

" Your with me now... hopefully that helps." Mandy said, feeling better that she had not done something wrong.

" Already is helpin’ me..." She giggled, enjoying the feeling of the girl’s closeness to her. She kissed the girl lightly and smirked. " At least I am not with her... got ya right here!"

" She is... pretty..." Commented Mandy.

" I think your way prettier, way more!" Smiled CC.

Mandy sighed on hearing the girl’s words, feeling the love that was right there. She felt very affirmed, and not threatened by CC’s history with Raven.. but some part of her was still worried if this girl could be some sort of trouble. If Raven was unaffected by her girlfriend walking in on her while she was with another girl having sex... what would this gal do? That was her only worry at the moment. Mandy was sure of CC’s commitment to her right now... but the wild card was this other girl.

CC’s starting to talk, breaking the shorter of the two out of her thoughts.

" Come on then... We cannot let her get in between us..." The girl said. " We’ll go to lunch.. hopefully it is edible... do our camp thing and just have fun... I say to hell with her... I have you!!"

" Yeah..." Said Mandy, happy to see the confident and very assured CC back in charge, then a thought suddenly entered her mind. " No one knows of our relationship, right... would Raven if she found out, and if she is that nasty of a person... ‘out’ you for being a lesbian to get back at you for some warped reason?"

CC paused, a little shocked at the question that the girl had just came out with. Her face quickly softened, as Mandy waited for her to say something back.

" Never thought of that...I see why you had to go there though..." CC said, thinking for a second. " You know.. I think she would not do that..."

" You sure of that?" Mandy asked while taking a drag from her cigarette.

" She would have to out herself in the process, to prove that fact... so she probably won’t though..." CC said, her voice coming out strongly. " I know that her family has no clue to the fact that she is a lesbian, and she always said that she was fine with them never ever knowing that... my parents already know that I am attracted to girls, and has accepted it... but I don’t go around announcing that I am a lesbian either."

" So she is still not going to end up saying a word of it around here, you really think?" Probed Mandy, making sure of the facts.

CC shook her head and squeezed the girl tighter to her.

" I truly don’t think that she could never go that far with her own life... She manipulative, but not stupid either..." Thought CC, then looking into Mandy’s eyes. " I am more than pretty sure that she won’t say a word. she was the one that cheated on me anyways."

" That’s right..." Mandy said, feeling a little better.

" So hopefully, we don’t have any trouble from that skank little whore." Spat CC, the noticeable accent on the last swear words pointed to her still large feelings of hurt that she had endured from Raven. " Let’s go and eat then!!"

The two girl’s leave the lakeside after tossing what was left of their smokes, and head off to get their lunch, as the heat of the day seemed to have gotten even hotter in the last few minutes. Holding hands until getting to the top of the hill, they both were reaffirming on another in silence.

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Late afternoon came, and the humidity of the air was literally squeezing down on the entire camp. Many of the activities were cancelled because of the heat, and lake swimming was the order of the day.

Cabin five had been down at the lake swimming as well, cooling down after being broiled by the sun. It had helped. But now they were just lazing around their bunk area, waiting for Miss. Olivia to devise some activity that would not be involving the sizzling orb in the sky for the rest of the day, until supper would be served

CC had gone off with Councilor Olivia, to help gather up some stuff for an activity she had came up with, while most of the others waited in the barely cooler Cabin. Sweaty and restless, the group just tried to relax but the heat even inside was next to intolerable.

Mandy had just changed into her only sundress she owned, hoping that it would help out against the heat. It did to some small extent, but she still felt very sticky and uncomfortable. She giggled, as she found herself wishing that Camp Pawa was a ‘Nudist Camp’ for the length of the heat wave.

" That’s just silly!" She said to herself, amused at herself for even coming up with it. She wanted to tell CC what she had been thinking, knowing the girl would get a big laugh out of it.

Donna suddenly appeared from nowhere, and tapped the girl on the shoulder. The girl had been the only other one that had been missing from the cabin while the councilor and CC was gone,. Knowing how the girl was and all, perhaps she had seen ‘a hunk’ or something and wanted to tell her all about it.

" Hey, Hey..." She said, still as overly bubbly as ever. " Have I got a whale of a surprise for you!!"

Mandy turned and smiled ast her friend.

" A surprise?" She asked, almost not wanting to ask.

" Yep.. a damn good one at that." Donna said, seemingly almost ready to burst.

" What has your mind cooked up now?" Said a suspicious Mandy, knowing very well that Donna’s surprises were always way out in left field.

The red head giggled and hopped once in place, the excitement that she was feeling very evident. Mandy waited, knowing that this might be one real whopper she was going to drop on her.

" I found you a way amazing boy... and he has seen ya around, and liked ya." She said, her words literally racing out of her.

" Donna!!" She gasped.

" Well since you have been so hesitant to meet boys here, I thought you needed a good ol’ kick in the ass... and I went searchin’ for you" She smirked, almost exploding with her own enthusiasm. " I promise he is very cute, clean cut and o so fine!!"

Mandy looked at the girl, and shook her head.

" Why did you do that?" She sighed, looking at the girl as she was not quite knowing how to respond to this.

" You were bing such a stick-in-the-mud..." Donna said, a little confused at the lack of reaction from her friend.. " You needed a push... He’s the friend of Barry, the boy I like... so I thought we could hook up with them together... that way you are not trying to wait for the boy you like... meeting boys help that out."

Mandy shook her head.

" No thanks!" She said, not knowing how to bridge this situation, as her mind fluttered to CC.

" What the hell?" She said. " Are you crazy , gay or something? I have found you a very yummy looking guy, who seems so nice... and you are not going to take that chance and run wit it"

" I would like to choose on my own..." She said, trying not to lie or show her uneasiness to Donna

" What is there to say? You don’t have a boy... I found you one..." Pleaded Donna a little more. " I took the hard part away... all you got to do is meet him, and let the sparks fly, girl!"

" I would like to choose who I like or not like, and not be pushed into things..." Mandy restated, trying not to hurt the girl’s feelings. She knew that Donna was only trying to help in her own way.

Donna shook her head.

" Just come with me this evening and meet him after campfire for a bit..." The girl pleaded. "Barry and Kirk, that is his name by the way, is looking forward to meetin’ you... come on and take the plunge!! The guy oozes with foxiness!"

" I don’t know..." Mandy muttered nervously.

" Oh come on... just for a few minutes.. at least check this dude out... you might change your mind... he is beyond cute!"

Mandy sighed, as she felt cornered by the well intentioned girl She could not reveal her relationship with CC, or her now understood ‘preference’ towards girls... she really did not want to hurt her friend’s feelings either. This felt like a no win situation, and she was sandwiched right in between.

The short girl rubbed her sweat covered brow, while Donna waited for some sort of answer from her.

" Let me think about it then.... I don’t wanna rush into anything..." She came up with, the only thing she could of without lying.

" That’s the spirit! That’s all I could ask for I guess!!" She said, almost as excited as if Mandy had agreed right off the bat. " If you do come and meet Kirk, I think that you won’t regret it!! He is such a looker!" Said the girl, as she skipped away. " I’ll talk to ya about it after supper."

Donna skipped off to talk with the very demure Lori while she waited, perhaps the redhead had found a guy for the meek girl as well. Mandy did not doubt that Donna could have found a boy for the very introverted Lori, because of the fact that she was probably the most boy crazy girl in this entire place.

Mandy moved and sat on her bed, her mind now was going like crazy. She thought of these types of situation since she had finally admitted to herself that she was not attracted to boys, expecting that something like this might happen. With Donna around, and the fact of who she was, she should have seen it coming a mile away. Admittedly, she had totally missed the boat on this one.

For awhile before her best friend had moved away, the both of them had been talking about this exact thing. Lucy had always wondered if Mandy was gay, and had given every indication that whether or not she was, it would never have mattered to her. For Mandy, it was not official in her mind back then, but she always had felt very different even when Lacy had a boyfriend. Meeting CC here at camp had finally put that question to bed, but the fear of the bad stigma attached to it had made her wonder and fear all at the same time.

Now it felt a little scary for people might figure out that she was attracted to girls, she had no clue how to straighten things out without being found out. No one would understand her... and she was very afraid of things that might come out after, if she had admitted to how she felt. She put her head in her hands, trying to think on what it was that she needed to do.

She looked up and saw CC come in with a huge armload of stuff just behind Miss Olivia. As the woman took the odd looking things from CC, Mandy waved to her and beckoned her to follow. She nodded slowly towards the girl, seemingly knowing that something was very much up with Mandy.

CC was finally emptied of her load, then followed quickly, seeing the very stressed look on Mandy’s prettiness. Miss. Olivia just let the two girls go off, opting to explain things to the remaining cabin girls in their absence... rolling her eyes a little in the process.