Story: Tomoyo's World -Part 0- Bitter Fate (chapter 6)

Authors: Risa Kaijuu

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Chapter 6

Title: Chapter 5



Chapter 5



After Sakura had gone home Tomoyo got back up, took her bath, and went down for dinner. Since she was answering Sonomi's attempts at conversation with little more than single word answers, her mom decided this would be a bad time to mention Sakura...


After dinner Tomoyo excused herself and went up to her room. She tried to do some studying but was unable to concentrate, so she watched some educational things on her television and then did some email for a while. But later, as she tried to put down what had happened in her diary she felt the tears coming again, so she stopped, got ready for bed and watched some more television. It was a distraction, and she knew she really needed a distraction for a while. But the 'while' turned into rather a long time. It was two in the morning before she gave up watching and tried to sleep; but no sleep came. All she could think about was Sakura. *It had been a terrible mistake letting Sakura talk me into sharing the bath. We aren't little kids anymore, and...and she is everything I ever wanted... How can I expect to control myself under such tempting circumstances? I had been doing all right before the bath incident though and now that I am back under control I should be able to handle being with Sakura again. And I really want to spend as much time with her as I can before I have to go back to her school... I just have to be careful, that's all.* Once she had made this decision she began to actually relax and feel just how tired she was. And in little more than a minute she was asleep.


The following morning she not only failed to wake up at her usual six o'clock, she was still sleeping when Sakura called at eight.


"Sakura-chan?" she managed to mumble.


"Tomoyo-chan! Are you feeling better? I was so worried, I couldn't sleep. You do feel better don't you?" Now Tomoyo was really awake and remembering what she had decided the night before.


"Yes, I do feel better. Much better. I think I was just really tired. But I am fine now."


"May I come over and see you?" Sakura asked hesitantly. Tomoyo thought about this for a moment before answering.


"I have a better idea. Why don't you call Syaoran and see if the three of us can get together and do something today?" After a moments hesitation, Sakura agreed and in a couple of hours, the three of them were in Tomoyo's car with Aoi driving. It was a pleasant enough day, and Tomoyo got her confidence back. Her control was working well, and she was actually having fun. *Sakura-chan and Syaoran are really cute together. He is even more shy than she is!* That night Tomoyo decided it was going to work. She had proven to herself that she could maintain her control even while spending hours with Sakura. *Now if I can just maintain this control when I am alone with her, I should be able to stay here and enjoy my visit. I can always say I'm sick if I start to lose it again.*


So Tomoyo stayed and did manage to get some real enjoyment out of spending Christmas with her Sakura-chan Her secret was to include Syaoran whenever possible and concentrate on her plan for the two of them. On her way back to school she congratulated herself on her wonderful control, and then started crying. She told herself that it was just the relief of letting go her control for a while. It felt good to just relax and cry. She was safe from Sakura now, and she knew that Aoi would take care of her safety from others. So she cried all the way back to her apartment.



[End notes: Story is continued in "Tomoyo's World -Part 1- World Turned Upside Down"]

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