It was the first time we made
love, but thank the Goddesses it wasn’t the last.
I asked Midna to stay that
night, and she did; she even stayed the next day. Grief for the passing
of my father continued to hang in my heart, but it did not overwhelm
me as it had before. The daily rigors of a ruling Hylian Royal continued
to threaten to break my figurative back, but I did not feel the stresses
as before. Midna’s love transformed me anew each day, and tossed me
into a great sky where the troubles of this life are practically meaningless.
A few of my courtiers noticed
the change in my eyes and gossiped among themselves that their Regent
Princess had finally accepted a suitor, or at least had written an excellent
new policy. I only smiled when I overheard the murmurs in the kitchens
and hallways.
Oh, but they had no inkling.
Months passed as short days.
Midna continued her search for the Hero Beast in the night, and often
came to be with me during the day. We made the most of our evenings
together, and watched the twilight come and dissolve into night. As
the pale moments between the recession of the light and advancement
of the darkness in the sky came and went, I considered how transient
our existence is. Our lives are nothing more than a brief flicker of
a struck flint in the face of a raging bonfire. And yet, however ephemeral
our passing days are, we consider them to be a deserved right.
Ephemeral...Mine and
Midna’s time together felt fleeting and immaterial, not unlike our
twilight vigil. We guarded our time together, cultivated those moments
and tended the tiny things in our relationship. She and I understood
that one night might be our last together, and that last night would
not leave without one more loving word, one more caress, one more kiss.
We are never guaranteed our next breath, especially not a chance at
love. But there I was, breathing Midna’s scent and reveling in love.
Impossibly beautiful moments. Ours was the miracle romance.
In the dark cover of night,
Midna and I talked for hours on end in my favorite length of gardens.
The first time I took her down from my room and showed her each of the
trees, flowers, and bushes, her mouth dropped and she openly stared.
“Do you not have a garden
like this in your home?” I asked.
The honey-suckle potent air
was clingy and delightful – I have always loved that smell. I heard
Midna suck in a lungful.
“I have nothing like this,”
she said. “Not anything I have can compare to this.”
We walked the carefully laid
cobble-stoned path and kept close to the shadows of the trees.
I spoke up: “What do you
have in the way of gardens?”
She answered, “We don’t have gardens. What natural beauty we have is in our sky.
My interest was immediately
piqued. “Tell me of your skies,” I said.
She blew air through taut lips,
creating a pbbbbbttt sound. “My Rose-elda, if I told you about
my skies, would you dash off to my world and leave your kingdom behind?
You wouldn’t have the reputation of a good ruler anymore, eh?”
“You would make a perfectly
good Regent in my stead,” I said, smirking. I doubt she saw it –
the clouds had shifted over the stars, blocking our light source.
“Oh, really, and what kind
of ruler would you be in my kingdom?” She asked suspiciously.
“Every good ruler knows that
the first thing to do when ascending the throne is to cut taxes for
their first year. Most likely I would cut all
taxes, run wine in the fountains and give free food – all of which
would be at the expense of the Twilight royal treasury,” I said, smiling.
“And what would that accomplish?”
Midna said. I know she already knew the answer.
“Your people would love me
to death and then when you came back to claim your own throne, you would
be forced to create new taxes to replenish the treasury,” I said.
“Your people would simply love
me – and be thoroughly disgusted with you!” I laughed.
“You would give them so much
food that they wouldn’t be able to work to make money for me to tax,”
Midna said with a playful surliness. I grinned and we continued to walk,
arriving at a circular courtyard with a wide entrance. I changed the
subject when we paused in the middle of the enclosure.
“This is the place where
it is said that the Hero of Time and our original Queen Zelda met for
the first time,” I said. Midna and I looked at the low platform at
the far north of the courtyard. Its steps were the perfect height for
a child’s feet – indeed, this place was given the unofficial name
of Children’s Haven.
“What is their story?”
She asked, gazing at the platform.
I began, “The Hero of Time
was a simple Hylian child raised in the Kokiri Forest—“
“What is ‘Kok-iri?’”
Midna asked. Her heavy accent butchered the word.
“It was
once a spirit that lived in an ancient, enchanted forest. These spirits
would inhabit the bodies of children and those bodies would never grow
old,” I answered.
“They never died?” Midna
asked.
“No, they never died naturally.
But many centuries after the death of the Hero of Time, they simply
disappeared. No one in Hyrule knows how or why – most Hylians were
never allowed in that enchanted forest under penalty of death,” I
said. “But you interrupted my story.”
“Sorry,” Midna said noncommittally.
It seemed her apology was meant to be taken at face value.
I began again, “The Hero
of Time was a simple Hylian child raised in the Kokiri Forest, and our
ancestor Queen Zelda was also a child at that time. Events happened
in the Hero’s forest that ejected him, and he began his search for
answers. He happened upon a girl in the marketplace of Hyrule who was
willing to help him, but the future Hero of Time later discovered that
the girl-child was none other than Princess Zelda.”
Midna interjected again, “Right,
because she shouldn’t have been married as a child, so she wouldn’t
have had the title of Queen.”
“Yes,” I was growing mildly
impatient. “She would not have been Queen at the time she and the
Hero met.” I lurched ahead in my story to keep Midna from interrupting
again.
I started, “Zelda and our
Hero—“
“The name of your Hero again
– what is it?” Midna cut in again.
I rolled my eyes to the midnight
heavens. “His name was Link, but we call him our Hero or Hero of Time
out of respect.”
“Since you called your Royal
ancestor by her birth name, it shouldn’t be an issue to call the Hero
by his birth name,” she said.
I was quite prepared to give
up and ask if she was ready to go to bed and sleep. But she asked, “What
is the rest of the story?” So I began again, but meant to give an
abbreviated version.
“Link and Zelda formed a
bonding relationship as children during their quest to protect the Triforce.
Then one day the desert demon King Ganondorf came and made a coup d’état
of the kingdom. Zelda fled with her guardian and was hidden, Link went
through his legendary sleep of seven years. After the seven years had
passed, Link awoke, defeated Ganondorf’s strongholds, and discovered
Zelda again; they married, had children, continued their line. And that
is all there is to that story,” I finished, stretched and took a deep
breath.
I thought Midna had been sufficiently
silenced, but apparently not. “How many children did they have?”
She said.
I realized how sore my muscles
were – I was ready for sleep. “They birthed four children,” I
answered.
“Hurrr,
that is interesting!” Midna whuffled – why it was interesting, I
couldn’t understand. I would have to ask about the average amount
of children Twili families had on another night. My weariness was starting
to show through as irritation, and I did not want to end this night
on a spat. She had one more question, though.
“For Queen Zelda and the
Hero to marry,” she said. “You called her your ancestor, did you
not?” I nodded.
“Then you are their
descendant, true?” she asked.
“I am,” I said simply,
then took her by the arm. I was finished for the evening and ready for
sleep. “I’m taking you back to bed,” I commanded.
“Aaah-haaa,” Midna drawled.
“So you are going to be the leader in the relationship now?”
“I wasn’t aware there
was a leader in our relationship!” I said.
Midna’s face twisted into
a smiling frown, but she didn’t answer.
I laughed, feeling my shoulder
muscles unwind and smooth out. I led her to bed and the noctural activites
that awaited. When the sun rose the next morning, Midna was already
gone, yet I felt the sensation of a lingering kiss on my mouth.
“I love you, too, Middie,”
I whispered to the air.
~~~
Midna didn’t come to me at
all that next week. She didn’t come at night, she didn’t appear
at twilight, she didn’t come at all. Her absence threatened to consume
me, but I had no reason to suspect that something was wrong. It wasn’t
until a fortnight after our last night together past, I knew in my heart
of hearts that something was amiss, but in the occasions that I rolled
back into my subconscious to see what was on our mental bridge, nothing
appeared to be out of place. I did not hear her singing or her odd speeches
to the cosmos and this distressed me.
It wasn’t until over a month
after her departure that I felt an odd disturbance in the air around
me. The memory of the silent bridge made me reach out into my mind to
attempt touch Midna over our mental bridge. With a cold shock, I realized
that something that something was missing since I had last searched
our mental planes for her. Midna’s presence could not be felt at all,
my mind’s eye could not perceive through the dark fog and the air
had a humid, stifling feel to it.
I sat in my meditating room
when I probed our bridge for the second time after her departure. My
meditations took place on the wooden floor in those days, with staring
sessions at colorful, abstract mural on the northern wall to help with
my spiritual ponderings. Normally the mural calmed my soul, but at that
moment it symbolized the turmoil and chaos that was just beginning.
It was just beginning, and I wasn’t doing anything to stop it…
...Couldn’t do anything
to stop it. Too late came the strange, clarion call.
My subconscious tickled and
I dove back into my mind. My mind’s voice called to Midna from my
side of the bridge. “Middie…Midna!” I searched, praying for an
answer, but received nothing, not even a hint. I quickly made the decision
to walk over the bridge and onto Midna’s plane – I was only beginning
to feel the desperation for help.
As I walked over, several streaks
of red formed on a tall, distant boulder on Midna’s plane and began
making intricate patterns as it spread onto the ground. At first its
development was slow, but as I came closer to investigate, they spread
more quickly.
My mind screamed alarms. I
called for Midna again and no one answered. The lines began traveling
towards me. More alarm bells sounded in my mind’s ears, but when I
turned to run my feet felt as though they were clad in iron. The patterns
formed about my feet and were holding me in place; I cried out for Midna
– if she was there, she would be the only one who could help me. The
red lines made my feet sting and burn, my calves and shins were icy
cold. The lines were crawling up my legs!
Powerful hands grabbed my shoulders
and pushed me forward. The lines on my legs broke and I began running.
The hands continued to stay behind my back, urging me on. I didn’t
think to look behind me. The importance of leaving the encroaching lines
behind was of utmost importance.
I touched the safety of the
bridge, and the lines sank onto the ground. Hissing steam came up as
the lines sank into the ground in piles. I took gasping breaths and
finally thought to look at the one who saved me.
A furry, red haired, tiny,
dollish looking creature floated at eye level. If it stood on the ground,
it couldn’t have been more than three feet tall. “Who are you?”
I asked hoarsely
“Midna,” the imp said.
Her voice scraped my ears – even at low volume her voice sounded shrill
and thin.
“You call yourself Midna…?”
I said, not understanding.
“I
am Midna!” She cried.
I stared at Midna with my mouth
open. “What has happened to you?” I whispered.
“No time…Zant’s coming…you
must be ready…get back to the throne room…” Midna’s words came
out in an incoherent tumble.
“He…Zant…Zant’s coming
to me? Why?” I said.
“Zelda, I don’t have time,”
she said. “You must stand firm. His desire is to make the Light Kingdom
an extension of the Twilight. How can I make you understand – what
am I not saying? His desire is to conquer Hyrule! Don’t surrender
to him, whatever happens, please…please,” she said, head bowed.
“Go…get out,” she said, and turned away.
My voice choked in my throat
in protest as I stared at her back. Was she abandoning me? No…it
couldn’t be…
I left the depths of mind,
haunted by her sobs.
~~~
I slipped out of my inner world
and left my meditation room immediately. As soon as I emerged, I began
calling orders; my home was soon to come under attack, and I would not
stand by and see Zant’s Twilight blot out my sun.
In answer to my calls, guards
snapped to attention, ran for the armory and distributed weaponry. The
servants left their duties and I directed them to the underground basement
that was built for such a time. I on the other hand, refused to go down
with the majority of my household. Courage would be my armor, strength
my shield and power of mind my weapon. I would stand with my soldiers
and face the danger head on – I determined to fulfill my role as Regent
Princess to the fullest. Would it be enough?
I walked at the front of a
retinue of my guards, and my lead general, Riekkan handed me my mother’s
sword – a subtle work of beauty. Pearlescent, smooth, perfectly balanced.
Deadly. It was forged with the ability to slide through an enemy’s
heart like a knife through soft butter.
I walked with decisive steps
into my throne room where I would soon meet this Zant. I would not come
to him – he would come to me. I did not sit on the throne my father
and I had so often played on as an adolescent. I stood on the front
of the dais to receive the best view of the main entrance. Riekkan shouted
positional orders to my soldiers, and I silently berated myself for
not setting up doors to provide some measure of defense. It had always
been tradition for the throne room to be free of doors – an indication
that the Royal Family and the people whom they governed were never to
be separated. ‘Still, I thought, doors might have served
as some barrier to invasions.”
When the marble floor under
my feet began to shake, my mind shivered; I forced it to focus on the
moment, focus on defense and an opportunity to attack. Plaster came
down in tiny flakes from the ceiling and walls as the ground underneath
my feet trembled. I looked to the doorway and what I saw almost caused
me to my knees.
A fog – not unlike the fog
that had been in on Midna’s mental plane – had risen and covered
the entire doorway, black atmosphere edged with those same red lines.
I tried to take control of my breathing, but when a blast of cold, foul
air shrieked into the room, I forgot about any kind of control.
Monsters, hideous monsters
charged at lightning speed into the room, grabbing up my soldiers as
they hurtled. Riekkan gave the signal to charge to those who were still
on the ground and I ground my teeth as those Twilit creatures grabbed
up my soldiers one by one and broke their necks with sickening crunches.
Riekkan sent out another wave
of troops, but I knew we were sending the men to their immediate deaths.
I gave Riekkan the signal to stop attack and begin defense – there
were only a few soldiers left, and it would have been meaningless to
attack again. Nonetheless, I unsheathed my mother’s sword and white-knuckled
it and focused on preparing for the next imminent attack. It was a maneuver
made more to reassure myself more than it was preparation to tear into
those monsters.
Suddenly, a deep darkness cast
over the massive room and in the dimness I perceived something—a man
or beast, I couldn’t tell—walking up to me, steps heavy and slow.
Realization hit. Visual details
revealed. My mind turned white.
A steel helmet carved into
the shape of a monster’s head with an oddly curved tongue sat on shoulders
covered with thick, black cloth. Thin, blue, glowing trails decorated
the cloak which It wore. Tassels hung from the sleeves where there should
have been hands, and metallic boots heavily clanked up my carpet to
the dais, leaving scores in the floor.
After I stared at the marks
in my floor, I noticed all my soldiers were gone. They were mercilessly
killed and out of the way – they would not make resistance anymore.
My only choice was to face this catastrophe head-on and with strength,
but I felt more alone than I ever had in my life.
The creature, Zant, spoke in
an guttural tone, “It is time for you to choose: surrender or die.
Oh yes, a question for all the land and people of Hyrule... Life? Or
death?!” The sound of his – or it’s – voice grated on my ears
and made me want to cover them.
I spoke to block out the sound
of his grotesque baritone, “Life or death for whom, Zant?”
In the blink of an eye, Zant
flew into my face and screamed, “I am King
Zant!” His boots smashed up onto the dais on which I was standing,
dislodging tiles. I swung my sword at his helmet and he took three steps
back. “I do not recognize you as king!” I cried. “You are
a usurper and you will never be a true ruler. Your power is worthless
and has been handed to you for a short time. Consider your days numbered.”
I stared at his helmet for
a few brief moments. I could only assume that he was looking at me through
those bulbous metal eyes.
“My question Zant. Answer
my question!” I softly demanded. If I had allowed fear to leak into
my voice, I would have been decimated.
He spoke again, this time with
more peevishness than before. “If you surrender, life for you and
your people. If you fight, death for you,” he said.
I aimed my sword between the
eyes of the helmet. “If I fought you and met my death, what would
become of my people?” I asked.
“They would die soon after
you,” came his answer. “Be sure of it.”
I have told my husband time
and time again – I would rather be burned alive than have my citizens’
blood on my head. I made my decision and didn’t think twice. Choosing
surrender, I dropped my mother’s sword.
“Then so be it,” I said.
It was in this way that I signed
my name on the darkness that spread across Hyrule.
My watch on Zant’s helmet
broke as I looked at something floating in the corner of my eye. A slender,
black, squarish object spun slowly up towards the ceiling, and was followed
by hundreds more – more and more all around the room. The Light that
I had taken for granted all my life was extinguished, and everything
I saw was drenched in a hazy, yellow-brown miasma.
Zant took advantage of my distraction,
walked up to my person and leaned into my face.
Zant turned and lifted his
head to the high ceiling. He spoke with reverence. “Our new Twilight
Princess has taken her place...” To whom he was speaking, I
did not know. An entity? What righteous entity would bless the coup
of a righteous kingdom?
Zant faced me. I stared at
the helmet until he raised his arm and swooped it over my head. I ducked
to avoid being smashed in the face and I hit something hard. It wasn’t
until I opened my eyes that I suddenly realized I was in my bedroom.
“Stay there…until my god and I have need of you.” Zant’s voice
echoed ominously in my ears. The door locked behind me, but I ignored
it.
My brain raved with questions.
‘God? What god?
‘Is this the same
“god” that was created by the pre-Twili race?
Is Zant searching for Midna’
s piece of the Fused Shadows? Does he have the other pieces? If he
gains all the broken parts of the Fused Shadow, what will happen?
How much more powerful will he become? Will this Twilight in my Lighted
world be permanent? What then would it take to save us from Twilight
and Zant? Could we even be saved? Is Hyrule being punished for her sins
against the Goddesses? Do they punish by sending evil usurpers?”
I needed to do something to
keep myself from going mad, and went to the window to watch the town
market. What I saw made me want to weep - Twilight covered the marketplace
and my people were slowly being engulfed. In their places, blue tongues
of fire lit and their physical forms could no longer be seen. It appeared
that the people were dying and their souls wandering the earth, full
of resentment and desire to return to their ordinary lives.
I turned away from that sight
which both horrified and condemned me.
A fierce, cold draft came through
my room. There wasn’t a way I could light a fire in the hearth –
Zant and his minions wouldn’t give me anything that could be turned
into a weapon. Needing warmth and comfort, I went to the wardrobe in
the corner and pulled out a long, black cloak. It had been created long
ago for stealth by the Sheikah remnant, but it kept the draft from reaching
my skin, but the thick clock did not seem to be enough. I pulled out
a scarf – a gift from foreign dignitaries of the desert. Made from
a deep purple, silken material, it was perfect for my face and neck.
Thoughts whirled again:
I have just lost my kingdom to one of the most evil and power-thirsty
usurper kings in Hyrule’s history
and I’m here thinking about clothing. Midna had told me not to surrender,
but I wasn’t left with much of a choice.
I half-heartedly called Midna’s
name and was overjoyed to see her rolling out of the unlit fireplace.
It quickly became clear that she did not reciprocate the feeling of
joy, in fact, she was furious. She dug her sharp fingernails into my
neck and shook my head with all her strength.
“I told you, I told you,
I told you, NOT to surrender! What have you done?!” She howled.
In a violent burst of anger,
I threw her across the room onto the bed. “And did you do any differently
when Zant came to you for your surrender?!” I screamed back at her.
Midna again flew into my face.
“I didn’t surrender, you empty-headed naïve bitch! I was thrown
out!” She shrieked.
My hand surged and I slapped
her hard across the face. We stood staring at each other on opposite
sides of the room, both of us panting in fury.
Midna stared at me with a long
spectrum of blinding wrath, deep understanding and infinite love. My
anger broke and I began to shake with the expended effort of keeping
up my end of the fight. I slowly sank into the nearest chair – the
shame on my face was evident, I’m sure. Stunned at the bestiality
of my behavior, I could not look into Midna’s eyes. I pulled the hood
of the cloak over my head and looked away.
My hand rested on the arm of
the chair and I felt Midna sit on my arm. I didn’t make the effort
to move, I simply cried. The day had been too much for me to handle.
I failed my father, I failed Midna, I failed my ancestors, I failed
the gods, I failed my country.
“Midna, you need to leave
before you are caught,” I managed to choke out. “I’ve already
ruined your plans for keeping the Twilight out. I’ve shattered your
intentions to receive your crown again. I won’t have you caught. It
would make things worse than they already are.”
Midna moved from my hand into
my lap. For her height, she was certainly heavy. She pushed her hands
into the hood of my cloak and gently brushed it aside, then leaned forward
and kissed my lips. I only cried, “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry…You
told me not to surrender and I did,” I said.
“Yes,” she answered simply,
with no hint of malice or anger. “My words were not to surrender.
But now we move on from here,” she said firmly.
“I must find our Hero Beast
– our hour of need is more urgent than ever,” she said. “Zelda,
I would take you out of here in a moment if we didn’t both know that
would allow Zant to track us down. I must ask you to stay and be our
Twilight Princess until I return.”
“Yes,” I said quietly.
It was the only thing to do.
“Also, we cannot allow anyone
to know about…us. I’m petrified of Zant’s discovering it and using
you to twist my arm into something horrible. Please understand, Rose-elda.”
She murmured, kissing my tears away.
I held her as close as I could
to my breast for as long as she would let me.
After listening to our breaths
move slowly in and out of synchronization, I said, “You must go.”
Midna nodded. “Please stay
strong until I return,” she said. “And I will return.”
“Strength will be my shield,”
I answered.
She smiled a genuine smile
and prepared to leave.
“Zelda,” she whispered.
“Watch me.”
I lifted my head and she rose
to the window. My mouth dropped as her body was split into hundred of
tiny pieces and the pieces floated through the window. My mouth
dropped further as the bits assembled again together to create Midna’s
body again. I could hear her laughter through the window.
“Like it?!” She shouted
through the window, and I came up and touched the cold glass pane. I
smiled when she kissed the window, pressing her lips against it.
She waved and I watched until
the last of her shards absorbed into the air. There wasn’t anything
to do after that beyond watching out the window and listening for anyone
coming up to see me. I went to bed for what proved to be a fitful sleep.
~~~
Indeed, the days crawled on.
Zant’s endless cycles of guards assigned to my tower were hardly a
source of entertainment. I had nothing with which to occupy myself;
I wasn’t given any paper or ink, nothing with which to conduct research,
and certainly no weapons to practice with. It became my experience that
with the routine of boredom came also deep worries that would not have
bothered me otherwise.
Will the crops grow with
Twilight on our land? If they do not, what will become of my people?
Will they be forced to leave Hyrule, become immigrants of another world?
What will happen to our population if they are forced to leave in droves?
Our economy would crash, our military would be nothing to speak of,
and the national damage would be next to impossible to reverse.
Where is my mother’s sword?
Where has it gone…How can I make the Arrows…The Arrows!…My power
– what little power I have – is nothing in the face of Twilight…and
Zant…and his “god”…Who will save my country…Midna by herself
is not strong enough…and together, she and I are still nothing…Where
is she?...Why am I here…Why was I born
for this time…
Tedious inertia set in, my
mind slowly being sabotaged. I kept my mind busy from childhood, and
in captivity, there remained nothing to do. My worries ate my mind alive
– viewing the marketplace in my window did nothing to ease my mental
anguish. I never saw human faces, only blue tongues of flame and yet
the sneaking assurance that my people were in fact alive and
just imperceptible to the naked human eye gave me a small amount of
encouragement.
One day, I began pacing and
over just a few moments, the pressure on my mind became too much. My
hands shook and I longed to grab hold of something and break or bend
it with all my might. My thoughts were a ridiculous mess – really,
they couldn’t be imagined as thoughts at all; just utter chaos.
At the point where my brain
could take no more, I separated my spirit from my body, rose out from
the room, through the ceiling and the roof, reached the outside and
breathed the Twilit air.
It was an ability I had practiced
for years, but I did not need it until that moment. There wasn’t any
way that I could have taken any more mental torture – something had
to cave in or else I would have lost my mind.
I allowed my spirit to float
high and I looked down at my home, now Zant’s headquarters. I observed
it from an aerial view, and I realized how insignificant it was in the
face of the horrors that had befallen it – and what was I?
I looked up to the skies, folded
my hands in supplication and prayed, “Goddesses, hear your servant
– please, I ask of something from You. Send the one who is to be our
Hero. Our need only increases with each passing hour. I will sacrifice
everything I have if You awaken him to our need.” Deep in my heart,
I felt they heard me.
Everything?
“I will sacrifice everything
I have, even my life,” I said and I meant it.
With freedom comes sacrifice,
Zelda, and sacrifice could come at a
great price. Everything?
“Yes…everything,” I said.
I became concerned that Zant’s
servants would find my body in the room in its deathlike state, so I
sank and continued to sink until I was settled back into my physical
person.
~~~
One day after several days
of not knowing her whereabouts, Midna returned. The door was opened
slightly to allow for air circulation but only achieved in letting in
drafts. As I paced up and down the middle of my room, I swore loudly
that whoever had thought that it appropriate to let the door open would
be the first to have their heads taken off when I regained the throne.
I heard her murmuring on the
staircase, but when Midna pushed through the door, I was shocked to
see her riding what appeared to be a common timber wolf. My first reaction
was amazement at how she had tamed it.
As they walked up to him, Midna
proudly announced, “I found him!”
It’s him…truly him?”
I asked. “Your Hero Beast?” I looked at him carefully and started,
realizing how blue eyes the creature had.
“Hmmmm….”she murmured
with a strange look. “Admiring my new slave, Princess? Isn’t he
handsome?” Midna bragged, reaching behind her to pinch the wolf’s
rump. The wolf twitched and growled at her as she gleefully kicked her
heels against his sides.
“Not a slave, Midna,” I
said. “Not a slave.” This wolf – was he the Hero sent from the
Goddesses?
Midna ignored my statement.
“Poor thing, he has no idea where this is or what's happened...”
Midna sang as she tugged on his silky ears.
Why doesn’t he know?
My mind asked.
“So, don't you think you
should explain to him what you've managed to do? You owe him that much...
...Twilight Princess!”
Ah. So she hasn’t
completely forgiven me yet.
I didn’t know yet if the
wolf had a human mind that could understand my story, but I related
it all to him. Hardly had I finished before we heard Zant’s guard
stomping up the staircase – to discover the source of the noise we
were creating, no doubt. “Please go,” I told Midna and the wolf.
“The guard is making his rounds and I wouldn’t want you to be caught.”
Midna heard as well, and didn’t
waste any time in tugging on the wolf’s ears to show him which direction
he was supposed to go. They dashed out the door and I heard Midna call
softly, “His name is Link.”
Link.
The Hero chosen by the Goddesses. The name given to all the Heroes whose
destiny it is to save Hyrule from damnation. My mind spun – the legend
was made flesh in Link.
They must have made it safely
out, because the guard glanced into my room and then sauntered back
down the stairs, bored.
My prayers were solely for
Midna and Link from that day onward; I prayed that they would never
be captured in their quest to bring Zant down.
I held my own counsel in my
heart about Link, and turned back to watch the rain fall through the
window. I noticed that it had stopped, and somewhere, something deep
in my heart rejoiced. My prayers
are being answered.
~~~
I counted the months that passed
by my woman’s cycles. One month gone, two months, three months, four.
Little changed inside my walls,
but outside them, Hyrule’s future shifted always. The future rested
on Link and Midna, but the importance of their – our – mission did
not sink in until after the final mental conversation Midna and I had.
It started in the regular manner – Midna’s account of her’s and
Link’s cross-country adventures and skirmishes. The discussion suddenly
took a strange turn.
“Do you know what I am, fair
Rose-elda?” She asked that morning.
“Yes, you are the ruler of
the people of Twilight,” I answered. “But sometimes, I don’t think
I know what you are about – not completely.”
Her answer was cryptic, to
say the least.
“The Ruler of Twilight…The
Ruler of Light…and the Mirror of Twilight will separate them forever.”
I understood the phrases well
enough. But the name ‘Mirror of Twilight’ shook my brain to the
core.
“Yes, Zelda. The Mirror of
Twilight is seldom mentioned, and never lightly,” Midna said.
“I understand you,” I spoke
across our bridge. “It was a device created by the Sages to banish
only the worst criminals in Hyrule’s history – those who attempted
to break into the Sacred Realm and claim The Triangles for their own.
But how does this relate to your original question?” I asked.
Her sigh was shaky. I longed
to reach out, embrace her and absorb her warmth.
“I am a descendant of the
tribe that almost broke into your Sacred Realm,” she said.
Terrible as it sounds, I was
not surprised. “I guessed as much –“ I started.
Midna interrupted, “Your
ancestors banned mine to the Twilight World.”
My face flushed. “The ancient
Sages were my tutors, they never told –“
“They wouldn’t,” Midna
said bitterly. “They’re too consumed with their own self-righteousness
to truly care about what they were doing, and they will not start by
feeling sorry for us – my people – now.”
Stunned, I could not speak.
I was looking into a part of Midna I had never seen before.
Midna turned her back on me.
“We are an evolved race –
we are no longer a corrupt, greedy people. We seek peace and harmony
with one another, and yet your Sages see fit to continue to punish us.
Zant’s insanity seems to be the strongest indication.”
I leapt in. “How is Zant’s
mental implosion the Sages fault?” I asked.
“Zant would not have felt
the need to dethrone me if he hadn’t been feeling pressure from somewhere,”
she said. “I can only assume that it is the result of your Sage’s
continued punishment.”
She left then, without another
word.
“Wait!” I cried.
Midna did not answer or return
to me that night.
~~~
It was a long time before she
spoke again on our mental planes, but she did meet again. If she continued
to be bitter, or even remember our conversation, she did not make it
apparent. To fill the silent voids that sometimes stretched between
us, she rambled about her adventures and Link’s achievements. When
Midna began speaking of Link more often than she did not, I wondered
if their relationship had begun to progress beyond the slave-Mistress
relationship.
Well into the fifth month after
I had seen them last, I slipped into my subconscious to have my daily
conversation with Midna. Except, there was no longer a way for me to
reach her…our bridge had been irreparably splintered. Panic rose.
How would I reach Midna? Was she even aware that it was broken?
My frenzy grew for over an
hour. It broke only when I heard the heavy pant of an approaching animal.
I hoped that it was Link and Midna, but if it wasn’t? I didn’t have
much time to wonder. The wolf with blue eyes, Link, squeezed through.
However, I had eyes only for
Midna.
She lay on his back, limp and
powerless. Something or someone had tried to kill her and failed,
but it was obvious she was fatally injured. Her coloring looked bad
and her hoarse breathing alarmed my heart. It would soon be difficult
for her to gather air. When she began to drop off the wolf, I dove forward
and caught her.
My eyes would have filled with
tears if my hot desire to keep her face in focus for as long as possible
wasn’t so strong. I held her to my breast as she spoke through her
labored breathing. “Please... Please tell me... How do we break...the
curse on this one? This...is the one... You need him...to save your
world! That's why... Princess... Please... You must help Link...”
I cannot say how much I wanted
to weep and scream while she spoke. I had to keep calm – any extreme
emotions I felt she would be able to sense and those would only serve
to worsen her condition. As I held her to my face, Midna tangled a weak
hand in my hair and whispered strange, convoluted phrases I couldn’t
understand – perhaps she was praying then?
“You must help Link.”
Her last plea echoed in my mind. I observed Midna’s breathing and
coloration for a little while more. And then…
…soul separation.
…what I had been practicing
for years. The act of parting the soul from the body while the body
still lived. But as I watched Midna die, I understood that more than
just separation of the body and soul was required – I would have to
give up the life of my body if Midna was to live.
This…this was the sacrifice
the Goddesses had called me to make. This was how I was to help Link.
And Midna. My mind coiled in preparation.
I softly addressed the woman
I loved in my arms, “You are our last hope and you act in my stead.
I cannot let you die, so please accept this.”
Slowly, I let go of the threads
of my life, my heart, my soul, my power. My physical senses dulled,
a buzzing in my ears began, and my vision began to snow. I felt physical
strength drain from me, my breathing turned shallow, and the magic that
once blazed through my veins cooled. Simultaneously, Midna’s color
began to return, and her own breathing waxed strong.
The transition between our
bodies was almost finished when Midna shouted, “Princess NO! Link
stop her!” Link only stood gaping. She should have known that it was
too late. The life in my body was gone – it was Midna’s. My spirit
stood in her – my physical body was dead.
The Goddesses asked me if I
was willing to sacrifice everything for the sake of Hyrule, and I said
yes. It was not physically painful, however, it was spiritually painful.
Memories of my mother, my father, my tutors the Sages, everyone I had
loved slipped away from me. My mind was weak, submissive and would be
ruled by Midna’s. Her memories would become mine, her thoughts and
my thoughts would be the same.
I wouldn’t have had it any
other way.
~~~
Hours felt like days and days
felt like years.
Everything Midna and Link worked
for I witnessed through her eyes. My anger grew with Midna’s when
we saw my home quickly enclosed in an evil atmosphere after we had left
my home. I rejoiced when the ancient Master Sword was withdrawn and
Link restored to his human form. Inside and alongside Midna, I fought
the creatures that tried to stop our progress.
During the rare times we rested,
I watched with Midna while Link – our Hero – slept. He had a monstrous
snore that consistently kept Midna awake, hence the reason why she was
often the night watch. To keep him more quiet, poor Midna would roll
Link onto his side, his back, and his stomach but it seldom mended his
snoring.
Link was also quite the eater
and often picked for himself strange fruits and vegetables out of the
fields of Hyrule without examining them too closely. Once, in his hunger,
Link ate a poisonous fruit – Midna was forced to create for the foolish
boy a combination of water and salt to make him bring it back up. In
his panic, Link did not think to ingest salted water to help himself,
but in the end, he proved to be grateful. I’ve never laughed so hard
in my life as when Midna screamed a long string of profanities while
Link vomited terribly.
He was foolish in some things,
but certainly not in most things. Link had the ability to dispatch a
group of enemies in very quickly and many times he emerged from a one-on-one
fight with nary a scratch – if he did, it was negligible. I felt Midna’s
admiration for him, and it seemed to me that there were feelings developing
between the two of them. I was confused though – were those Midna’s
feelings, or were they mine? Were they coming from both our hearts?
Nonetheless, I couldn’t help but feel pride in how mine and Midna’s
hearts had melted into one, how her thoughts were indistinguishable
from mine.
But there was not a way to
prepare for the discovery of Zant’s god, the one he had mentioned
just before he caged me in my room.
We on the site of the Arbiter’s
Grounds, the home of the Sages’ spirits and the old dungeons of judgment.
It was a question we had to ask but it was an answer we weren’t anticipating.
“Ganondorf,” said the Sages. It was the only word needed, the name
that evoked terror and chaos. I felt Midna’s limbs slacken and her
spine bend in despair.
“You're just now figuring out where Zant got his power?” Howled Midna. “It's far too late!”
The scourge of Hyrule, the
dark angel fighting against the Goddesses’ hand of fate for centuries
had become strong through Zant, and quickly becoming more powerful than
before. Without a doubt, Ganondorf could eventually become impervious
to any attack made by a mortal.
After nearly half a year journeying
to find the shards of the Twilight Mirror, we returned to my home, the
House of the Royals. Midna and I understood then why the evil barrier
had been created. Ganondorf had no intention of allowing anyone but
Link and Midna in – he had created a trap, using my body as bait to
lure them in.
After months of hard work,
Midna was in full possession of the Fused Shadow, the ancient god-object
the pre-Twili race created after shunning the Goddesses. Midna awakened
the power inside and almost instantly, she was transformed into a monstrous
creature, armed with a frightening spear. With a stab that could shatter
anything, she broke the evil barrier.
She had tremendous power, but
I remember the horror that she felt when we discovered what had once
been home to my soul in that cavernous throne room. Ganondorf had my
body within his physical grasp. We didn’t know what he would do with
it – we were not even aware of what he could do.
“So you're Ganondorf,”
said Midna. “I've been dying to meet you.” The cool tone of her
voice belied the fury I felt rising in her heart.
“Your people have long amused
me, Midna. To defy the gods with such petty magic, only to be cast aside...how
very pathetic,” the dark demon said. “Pathetic as they were, though,
they served me well. Their anguish was my nourishment. Their hatred
bled across the void and awakened me. I drew deep of it and grew strong
again. Your people had some skill, to be sure...but they lacked true
power. The kind of absolute power that those chosen by the gods wield.
He who wields such power would make a suitable king for this world,
don't you think?”
Midna became speechless with
anger. “Conceited bastard!” She screamed. Did Ganondorf understand
the chords struck within Midna’s heart? And mine? He must have –
his first act of violence proved it.
He gained control over my soulless
body and used it to attack Link and Midna. I remember Midna’s cries
when Ganondorf’s spirit filled my body to the breaking point. I understand
now that the threads between her heart and mine communicated pain. My
body was still alive to a certain point and Ganondorf’s possession
hurt us both. It was almost too much to bear – my mind shrieked with
the strain.
Link did everything he could
to fight Ganondorf but leave my body somewhat unharmed. The attacks
that Ganondorf used my body to create were nothing short of appalling.
The boy to whom Midna’s heart had warmed parried and blocked, but
never directly attacked my body. I remember feeling that first, small
sense of pride in him and Midna smiled in the mental connection we had.
“We needed him after all, didn’t we, Rose-elda?” My spirit wept
with pain, but it also wept with joy at the sound of Rose-elda,
the special name I hadn’t heard in a long time.
“It seems we did,” my mind answered.
At last, Link weakened Ganondorf
and Midna took the chance to summon the Fused Shadows and rip him out
of my body.
With the absence of evil inside
the body, I could inhabit it once more and I cannot express what it
felt like to be home after nearly a year of being away from it.
When I opened my own eyes once again, Midna was hovering inches above
me. “Princess…” she choked.
“Middie…” I whispered.
Words were not needed.
I heard softly shuffling feet
and I looked around Midna to see Link, shyly smiling at me. As we held
each others’ gaze, I wryly thought that he was far more handsome in
person.
“How does it feel to be back?”
Link asked, blushing as he spoke.
I was struck then at his age.
He couldn’t have been more than eighteen years old – and yet he
used all his strength to help to topple the most evil regime Hyrule
has ever known. Would that every person made the choice for such sacrifice
for the greater good!
“It feels….,” my voice
scratched uncomfortably from months of unuse. “Just right.”
He grinned at me and I couldn’t
help but smile back. The dimples in his cheeks were…darling, for lack
of a better word. When I gazed at his eyes, I saw none of the terrors,
pain from battles, months of hard work, months of sleeping on hard ground
in the open air. I only saw excitement, joy…and love?
“I’m so happy you’re
back, Your Majesty,” he said, bowing.
I watched his every muscle
move. He was, in one word, beautiful. My words came automatically, my
heart giving meaning to them. “It is an honor and a delight to be
back, Link,” I said. “I am in debt for your protection and-“
Our interaction was cut short
by a crackling in the air, and the distinct smell of evil. Ganondorf
appeared in his spirit form, ready to fight all over again.
Midna growled. “What?! Again?
The son of a bitch!”
I stood up unsteadily and began
to muster up a shield of protection around us, but it was clear to me
that it wouldn’t be remotely enough. Link drew his sword, but can
a sword cut through spirit? While Link and I were busy with out battle
preparations, behind my back, Midna prepared one of the Twili warp points
above mine and Link’s heads. I heard the sound of the point crackling
and looked above just in time to be physically removed from the room.
In my last glance at her, I watched her assemble the broken pieces of
the Fused Shadow with a serene smile on her face, her face turned to
the sky beyond the ceiling.
In the next blink of my eyes,
I stood on the wide open fields of Hyrule. The sky had an ugly, pallor
to it – ominous gray and yellow. I heard hard panting and looked to
my side to see Link standing beside me, just as horrified as I. “She
took you out with me, Link?” I cried.
He nodded in disbelief, his
eyes darting about. I drew close to him and saw tears forming in his
eyes. It suddenly occurred to me with a hard shock that Midna might
have been in love with the warrior boy, and he with her. I took a deep
breath and looked away from him as the thought blared in my mind.
A loud crash deafened me, and
a small running distance away, Ganondorf sat on his great black horse.
He raised his arm high above his head, and I saw something in his hand
but could not make out what it was. That is, until he snapped its spire
and dropped it.
My heart crunched with Midna’s
Fused Shadow piece – Ganondorf was the victor. Anger flared into deep
rancor and I screamed a battle challenge at the evil man. His only response
was a rude gesture.
I began breathing deeply, focusing
my attentions on the battle just starting. Link drew his sword and steeled
himself for the oncoming battle, but I stilled his hand and our eyes
met in understanding. There was only one way this battle could be won.
I prayed for the good spirits of this world to intervene on our behalf..
“Spirits of the light! Wielders of the great power that shines far
and wide upon the lands of our world...In my hour of need, grant me
the light to banish evil!”
The Spirits granted my prayer
and their power surged through me. I felt strength seeping into my limbs
and mind as the energy seared my veins. Light and took the opportunity
to touch Link in his mind, making a bridge between us, just like Midna
had done so long ago with me.
I looked into his eyes and
waited until his wonder ceased so he could look at me – and not just
at me but into me. When his eyes finally met mine, he smiled
a foolish smile and blushed furiously despite the situation. “Link,”
I said. “Would you grant us the last of your power?” The battle
we were about to face was far bigger than any sense of royal superiority
I could have felt, so I bowed to him, waiting for his answer, waiting
for either yes or no. I wouldn’t be able to kill Ganondorf
without Link – I knew I wouldn’t. Nevertheless, I wanted the choice
to be Link’s
I felt him slide his hand into
mine and my heart quivered with anticipation. I will,” he said with
a confident smile. I raised my head and our gazes met. I think we both
felt it then – we had a bond that could never be broken, even beyond
death.
The battle began. Link wielded
his sword, I, my mother’s bow and the Spirit’s Arrows of Light.
We fought to bring Ganondorf down together, and Link gradually wore
the Dark King down enough to plant the ancient Master Sword squarely
into Ganondorf’s black heart.
All done.
I ran to Link to praise him,
to embrace him, to kiss him even, but I paused when I realized Link’s
eyes were filled with tears. There was one who could not share in our
joy – one whose victory was as much as hers as it was ours, but had
thrown herself in the path of immediate death to save her lover and
friends. But Link loved Midna as I had. The slightest pang of jealousy
pricked my heart. Midna has always been mine. Whose is she now that
she has gone to the Plane of the Immortals?
But I could feel no true grief
and could not explain why. I knew the sadness was there, but it did
not manifest itself in the same way that it had with the death of my
father. I had expected blinding pain from the heart, dizzying mental
anguish. Where was it? Had I become too callused?
I regarded Link and the envy
rose again. I mentally slapped myself for being so selfish. The boy
had spent more time with her than I had, how could he not have
loved her in some fashion? And I couldn’t exactly say that I have
some sort of feeling for Link either.
Even as our victory rose in
front of us, confusion and a double feeling in my heart grew. I knew
I loved Midna - that much was certain - but I was also aware of a tenderness
that could grow into love for Link. The feeling of liking someone of
the opposite sex was strange and new, and not just a little thrilling.
As memories of times with Midna
flickered before my mind’s eye, finally, my heart clenched and cried.
How could she die? I never even considered that she could – in
my youthful naivety, that possibility never occurred to me.
You are not the only person
who grieves. I heard Link’s quiet sobs and without thinking, I
touched his shoulder. He almost didn’t notice, but then when he registered
my touch, he looked at me…with that look of love again. It was
love! My heart caught in my throat when I at last understood.
I heard voices many leagues
away from where we were standing and turned towards them. The Light
Spirits were assembling. I thought at first that they were holding some
kind of council in regards to Ganondorf’s death, but when they evaporated,
I saw a small figure sitting on the ground in their places.
I sent Link up the hill to
see what they had done, but before he reached the top, my heart told
me what he would find – Midna, in her true, resurrected person.
~~~
As we three held our private
celebrations and watched the people of Hyrule hold their ruckus festivals,
I observed Link and Midna’s interactions. The boy was quite enamored
with her – that much was obvious. He constantly made puppy eyes at
her and it was times like those that I felt jealousy for both of them,
Midna in particular. I understood that Midna was, at the least, very
attached to Link – she probably loved him. I also knew that tenderness
for Link resided in my heart and it was my suspicion that Link returned
the feelings.
I contemplated our situation
at my dining table in my private quarters adjacent to a small but airy
green garden. ‘A sordid, twisted love triangle we’re in,’ I thought
to myself.
There was a part of me that
wanted Link, to feel a kiss from his mouth, to feel his hand touch mine,
to hear him whisper in my ear. However, there was a bigger part of me
that wanted Midna – I longed to feel her hands on my breasts and the
apex between my thighs, longed to kiss her soft neck, longed to feel
our hips touch one another.
I did not eat much at that
particular supper. Link ate as though he hadn’t eaten in months. The
sight of him stuffing meats, breads, fruits, and fresh vegetables into
his mouth reminded me at once of the game my father and I used to play
– “Court Jester Parade.” I remembered all the fat suitors shoveling
food into their mouths, taking advantage of the free food courtesy of
the Royal Family. Link had better table manners than they had, but I
couldn’t believe the sheer volume of food he managed to stomach.
The thought of my father and
our games brought tears to my eyes. My heart ached for him, it ached
for Midna’s eternal embrace, it ached for a moment alone with Link.
I think now that the aching was a result of the “high mountaintop”
that I was coming down from. The emotional high of defeating Ganondorf
combined with the memories of the small battles leading to his death
was enough to make me thoroughly insane. Midna looked directly at me
as and she seemed to understand what was happening. She politely excused
ourselves from Link’s company and went into my garden.
“I still love you,” she
said before we had reached the shadows of a grove of orange trees.
“But you love him back,”
I countered.
Midna sighed and watched a
bird scuffle about in the leaves. “Love is more complicated than I’d
ever imagined. I loved you the same moment I first laid eyes on you.
And yet…with Link…you grow close with those whom a year of your
life is spent.”
The part of me that loved Midna
despaired. “What can I do to win you back?” I said.
“When you died for me…you
had my heart for all eternity,” Midna whispered with emotion in her
voice. “I don’t know of a pure soul in the world who wouldn’t
appreciate such a sacrifice, but I will always love the woman who died
so I could live.”
She held me and kissed me,
holding me firmly. “I love you, my Rose-elda.”
“I love you, too,” I cried.
I kissed her again and when
we broke apart, I smiled through the tears in my eyes and hugged her
tightly. As we walked back to join Link, she said something rather random.
“You will be expected to marry. Your kingdom will need the security
of future heirs.”
“Will you marry me?” I
asked, half teasing and half serious.
“I wish that were possible,”
Midna murmured. “I believe that your people will pressure you to marry
our dear hero.”
“But…he loves you…doesn’t
he?” I said. Midna grunted.
“He loves me as a seventeen
year—old can. He will grow up, and while he won’t forget me, he
will soon desire a wife,” she said. “I’ve seen how he looks at
you. When your people see that he has tenderness for you, Link will
be their natural choice.”
“You said he was raised on
a farm. How on earth can a farm boy be suitable for kingship?” I asked,
trying to stall for time.
“You must be joking, Zelda
– he was indeed raised on a farm, but he was chosen by the Goddesses
to save your kingdom and mine. What better husband can you find other
than him? He would be more than suitable for the office of King.
Your deities, nor mine, would choose an unworthy hero. If he does not
want to a leader in that regard, you could be sole ruler and he would
be your consort,” Midna said.
“He is too young to be a
husband,” I said, attempting to stall for more time.
“Young – yes. But give
him a year yet,” she said. “I anticipate your being excellent for
one another. He needs someone who is matched according to his strength
and power and you need someone to be your shield as you fight the battles
of life. You truly are naturally made for one another.”
“And we were not made for
each other?” I asked. Midna was silent.
I was stunned at Midna’s
match-making, but I gave up trying to evade the issue at hand. “I’ve
never loved anyone but you. How can I love a man?” I asked.
“I should have never trained
you up to the ways of women lovers,” Midna shook her head. “I have
caused more trouble than I imagined.”
I turned her face to me and
held it. “You have not – and will never cause any trouble - through
you, I have learned to love. And you did not train me,” I said. “I
came into the world prepared to be the lover of one woman and one woman
only. I only needed your awakening to realize it. You came to me at
a time when I despaired of feeling again, and I will be eternally grateful
for the Goddesses’ gift they sent to me,” I said passionately.
For the first time, I saw tears
coming up into Midna’s eyes. My heart reached for hers and we met
on the bridge in our minds.
“I will…always…love you,”
I said. Midna wept.
We joined Link at the dinner
table shortly thereafter. Midna and I both worked to control our emotions
and Link watched us both carefully, nibbling on a piece of cheese. He
looked to Midna, looked to me, then spoke quietly.
“How do you fare, my Lady?”
He asked.
“I’m well, Link, thank
you,” I said. He was not completely at ease around me at the time,
but I wondered about the truthfulness of Midna’s predictions in regards
to Link and I marrying one day.
That evening, Midna eventually
said that which I dreaded to hear.
“As my dear friends know
well, I cannot stay here. I must return to the Twilight Realm and take
control of my kingdom once more,” she stated. I said nothing, but
Link’s mouth dropped open. Apparently, the notion hadn’t occurred
to him.
~~~
Midna and I made the best of
our last days together. We walked through the sprawling fields of Hyrule
and swam together in my favorite lakes. Under the cover of night, Midna
slipped into my bedroom from hers and we made love with urgency and
a poignancy that had not been present before. Once, during a warm, springtime
rainstorm, she dragged me out of bed and into my secluded garden and
made love to me there with a power I had never seen before. I remember
how I touched her lips, her neck, her breasts and her center with my
tongue, willing my senses to imprint her scent and the sensation of
her forever in my heart.
Many times, we took short walking
tours through Hyrule and made those short walks last as long as we could.
We never had a retinue with us; it would have been an invasion on sacred
moments. Often, Link accompanied us on our excursions and Midna tried
to help Link acclimate to my presence. Her diligence succeeded, and
eventually Link and I came onto equal ground and we talked with more
familiarity.
It was too short a time with
Midna. We left for the portal to Midna’s home, the Mirror Chamber,
four weeks after the fall of Ganondorf. My Middie, while loathe to leave
us, understood that her people needed her to provide stability once
again.
In the last hour, Midna stood
tall and proud on the glowing platform that would soon take her home,
and spoke her last words to us. “Well...I guess this is farewell,
huh? Light and shadow can't mix, as we all know. But...never forget
that there's another world bound to this one.”
“Shadow and light are two
sides of the same coin,” I said. “One cannot exist without the other.
I know now the reason the goddesses left the Mirror of Twilight in this
world. They left it because it was their design that we should meet.
Yes...That is what I believe.” I tried to call on the emotional control
that I had been trained as a royal to have, but I didn’t quite succeed.
“Zelda,” she said softly.
“Your words are kind, and your heart is true. If all in Hyrule are
like you…Then maybe you'll do all right. Thank you...”
No, Middie. Thank you.
She walked onto the platform
that presented her to the Mirror, and turned to us again. It appeared
as though she was trying to say one last word to us, but only a single
tear to emerged from her eyes. As I watched, she pushed the tear towards
the mirror. I remember wondering briefly why she did it.
I understood a moment later.
The Mirror began cracking with the contact from the tear.
Link and I whirled about to
watch its splitting and Link looked as though he wanted to run and grab
Midna off the platform.
But I knew this was way of
things – I had to let her go.
Midna faded away…to her home…and
the Mirror broke into millions of miniscule, irreparable pieces. Link
cried aloud, but I just let the tears fall. It was finished, but Midna’s
memory was not.
I never saw her again…
…I never saw her on the bridge
that we made…
…I never saw her in my bedroom
again…
…I only saw her in my dreams.
~~~
It has taken me
three years to completely absorb everything that
transpired in that time and put it down into writing. Even now, I can
barely hold back the tears, as fresh as the day Midna left.
Midna was right when she
said that my citizens would ask that I marry the Hero chosen by the
Goddesses. Loving him a great deal by then and wanting to please my
people, I did so.
Midna was right when she
said that Link and I were created for one another. It took some adjustment
to being married (the long line of suitors are gone forever!) and it
especially took time to learn making love with a man, but I must say
that I enjoy the state of being married and the bond of past suffering
and trial that Link and I share.
Many mornings, I wake up
in Link’s arms and I feel his sleeping breath on my neck.
Its times like this I can’t help but smile
– for no particular reason.
Let it be known throughout
the land of Hyrule, for this age and for future ages
– this is not only a story of good triumphing over evil.
It is a love story.
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