Wishful Thinking (part 9 of 24)

a Sailor Moon fanfiction by ladyhades

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15 days

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"Wait, you did what??" the princess cried.

Mars cringed. 'Yeah, some brave warrior.'

Venus shook her head. "I can't believe this..."

"Look, we had to. He's obviously a threat." Rei grumbled defensively.

"Well, I know he seemed kind of daft sometimes, but really..." a 
confused Venus replied, eyes wide.

The princess shot an accusing glare in Mars' direction, and the fire 
soldier actually took a step back.

"Hey," Rei held up her hands, as though she were calling a truce. "It's 
our job to protect you., and that means retaining crazy boyfriends who 
work for the dark side."

Minako winced. "Dumb move, Mars."

Rei threw a panicked look in her direction and took another step back, 
still holding up her hands, as if to ward off Serenity's blows.

"Crazy boyfriend??" the princess cried. "It sounds like he just wants to 
protect me too!"

"By siding with Beryl??" an incredulous Mars questioned.

"That's enough." Venus declared, stepping between the two. "I'll 
question him myself, and get to the bottom of this, but from the initial 
sounds of things, our crew did the right thing. Honestly, Princess, 
please take a moment to think about it clearly. He's on the side of the 
woman who intends to destroy us all."

Serenity's eyes welled up with tears, and Rei felt a sharp pang of guilt 
in her chest. 'Great. This whole time, all I wanted to do was make sure 
she didn't get hurt. Complete Mission Failure.'

The princess stood stock still, head bowed. She clenched her fists so 
tightly, she was visibly shaking.

Minako rested a hand on her shoulder, and spoke gently this time. "Hey, 
why don't you sit down for a few minuets? It's a big shock to get first 
thing in the morning."

"Sorry." Mars muttered quietly. "I just figured telling you myself was 
better than finding out at an inopportune moment, from some insensitive 
fool."

Venus raised an eyebrow, and cast a sardonic look in the fire soldier's 
direction.

Rei shrugged helplessly.

"You know," Serenity murmured, gaining their attention again. "I didn't 
love him. Everything is always duty, duty, duty. I'm sure you all 
understand what that's like. I'm supposed to choose a good, strong 
husband, so we can carry on my family's line. All the other suitors just 
seemed so wrong for me, you know? But he seemed so warm, and kind."

She raised her head, and the tears running down her cheeks hit Mars 
where it hurt. "I wanted it to work. I thought I could even grow to love 
him. I did honestly care about him, but it doesn't matter now, does it? 
It's all going to end anyway."

"Princess, please don't say that..." Mars tried weakly, voice cracking.

Serenity shook her head sadly. "I was trying so hard to make my mother 
happy. I thought this huge ugly mess would go away if I ignored it long 
enough. But even he was on Beryl's side, fooling us all. It's my fault 
really, I should have seen through it sooner."

"It's not your fault." Minako proclaimed fiercely. "Don't try to pin the 
blame on yourself. He deceived us too. As your guardians, we failed you. 
We're supposed to weed out people like him."

"What...what if the information he gained through being with me causes 
our downfall?" Serenity whispered tearfully.

"First of all, he's in our custody. That means he has no chance to 
report what he's found. Secondly, as long as there's a breath left in 
me, the only downfall that's going to occur is Beryl's." Mars replied.

Serenity smiled weakly, though it didn't reach her eyes. "Really?"

"Of course." Venus said with a grin.

"Alright." the princess replied quietly. "I'm going to just freshen up 
before I go see my mother. And...I'm sorry I yelled at you Rei."

"It's ok." Mars smiled. "I'll be out here waiting, whenever you're 
ready. Take your time, ok?"

Serenity nodded, and slipped back into her room. Once the door clicked 
shut, Venus let out an exhausted sigh.

"Sounds like you had an exciting night, Pyro."

"Yeah." Mars muttered tiredly, rubbing her eyes.

"You ok?" Venus questioned softly. "You look like you didn't get any 
sleep. Anything you want to talk about?"

Rei almost told the blonde everything, right then and there. The creepy 
voice, the horrible crawling feeling, and her god awful doubts, but her 
brain went into self defensive lockdown.

"I'm ok. Just thinking about Pretty Boy."

Venus chuckled darkly. "Yeah, I guess I should have let you beat him up, 
way back when."

"Could've should've would've." Mars grumbled. stifling a yawn.

"You sure you're going to be ok? I can pull a double if you want." the 
blonde said with a warm smile, lightly resting a hand on Rei's waist.

"No, I'm ok. You should get some rest yourself, and besides, we'll need 
you to question the prince. If I go near him again, they'll need 
tweezers to pick up the pieces."

Minako nodded slightly, and brought her eyes up to meet Rei's. "You 
know, I've always wondered how someone so sweet could be so violent."

"The princess is violent?"

Venus rolled her eyes.

"What?" Mars asked, feigning ignorance.

The blonde turned her features down into a rather serious expression, 
and crossed her arms. "Whatever. It's nothing." she replied in a flat 
monotone, though her eyes sparkled with mischief. "I'm gonna go punch 
some random guy in the head now, and then sit all alone and think dark 
thoughts."

A smile tugged at the corners of the raven-haired woman's mouth. "You're 
doing it all wrong you know. You have to get drunk first. And besides, 
it's pretty rare for me to punch random people in the head."

Venus shook her head with a laugh. "I'll work on it."

"See that you do." Rei replied with a smirk. "Now you better get going. 
I've got a job to do, and I can't do it with you distracting me."

"Really can't have that now." the blonde whispered, pushing up slightly 
on her toes to kiss the fire soldier. "Can I see you later?"

Mars tried to control the dopey grin that spread across her face, but 
failed miserably. "Of course."

Minako slid out of Rei's arms and took off down the hall, turning back 
briefly to blow her a kiss, leaving the fire soldier alone to deal with 
a rather distraught Serenity.

Mars rested a hand on her hip and scratched the back of her neck 
absently. She had the sneaking suspicion that it was going to be another 
long day.

As if to confirm her suspicions, a timid princess stepped back out into 
the hall, and cast a guilty look over at her bodyguard. "Would it be 
alright if you took me to see him?"

Rei crossed her arms, and gave the princess a weary glare. "Are you 
kidding me?"

"Please Rei? Only for a moment. I think it will help if I hear it from 
his own lips."

Mars groaned and clapped a hand to her forehead. "You know that's a bad 
idea Serenity."

"Please Rei?" she tried again, resting a gentle hand across her 
soldier's forearm, and batting her eyelashes.

"I hate blondes." Mars grumbled in defeat. "You're going to get me in 
trouble, you know that?"

"Thank you Mars." The princess breathed thankfully, wrapping her arms 
around Rei and hugging her tight.

"Yeah yeah, whatever. Let's get this over with." the warrior mumbled, 
shaking her princess off. She didn't like the surge of conflicting 
feelings it gave her, but chalked it up to exhaustion.

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Rei pushed open the door to the brig and stepped aside, allowing her 
princess to enter. She cast one more worried look down the hall to be 
sure they hadn't been seen, and shut the door firmly behind her. 
Serenity hovered near, obviously nervous about being in such a place.

"Hey, no worries Princess. He's the only criminal in here."

"Do you have to say it like that?" Serenity asked in a hurt tone.

"Hey, I just want you to remember that fact." Mars stressed gently. 
"Well, if you want to see him, he's in the cell at the far end. I'll 
give you a few minuets, and then we're out of here. Understood?"

"Yes. Thank you again."

Rei nodded gruffly and stepped aside, allowing Serenity to pass. The 
warrior's eyes closed involuntarily as the scent that was unmistakably 
her princess invaded her senses, sweetly intoxicating.

'Now where the hell did THAT come from? Never bothered me before.'

The princess paused before Endymion's cell, shaking hands wrapping 
around iron bars. The prince was asleep, curled up on a corner of his 
lumpy mattress on the hard stone floor.

Mars gritted her teeth as another stab of guilt pricked her heart. 
Serenity looked like an angel in her pure white dress, so horribly out 
of place is this dark room. Her thoughts drifted to Venus, and an image 
of her beautiful smile and honey blonde hair caused the soldier to suck 
in her breath.

'Yup. I'm crazy. Lost my marbles, I have.'

"Endymion?"

Her charge's voice brought her back to reality. The prince stirred 
slightly, and raised a sleep tousled head towards the bars.

"Serenity?" he murmured in disbelief, scrambling to his feet. "Is it 
really you? You didn't bring that crazy Mars here, did you?"

Rei smirked and stepped out of the shadows, sliding her sword between 
the bars. "That's as close as you get lover boy."

The princess cast a disapproving look in her direction, and Mars shook 
her head. "Sorry Princess, but I'm standing firm on this one. I don't 
want him near you."

"What happened to your face?" Serenity asked the Earth Prince, though 
the look on her face said she could already guess.

Endymion eyed Mars and her blade warily. "I fell."

Rei chuckled internally. She was kind of glad she hadn't killed him now. 
He was rather entertaining.

"You burned yourself by falling?" she questioned dubiously.

'Uh oh. Busted.'

"I don't think that's why you're here." he muttered weakly.

'Good answer.'

"I want to hear the truth, by your own admission."

He swallowed painfully, and jerked his head in Rei's direction. "She may 
be crazy, but she's not a liar. I'm sure she has told you the truth."

"So you are working for Queen Beryl?" Serenity asked softly.

"Yes." he admitted quietly. "I only wanted to save you from certain 
death, which is what these people are guiding you towards."

Mars banged her gauntlet on the bars as a warning, but Serenity stilled 
her by placing a hand on her shoulder.

"Tell me the truth. Are things honestly that hopeless on Earth?" the 
princess questioned.

"The bodies of the rebels line the streets of every city." the prince 
answered darkly. "I didn't want to see the same thing happen to you."

The princess shook her head, and an honest smile lit her face. "My 
warriors will protect me, and even if the worst should occur, I would 
rather die free than live as a haunted prisoner."

"You say that now," he whispered, eyes taking a far off look, "but when 
you see her armies slaying everything, including women and children, you 
tend to tilt your view. You want to condemn people to death?"

"Death sounds better than the life you've described." she replied, 
turning slightly towards her bodyguard. "I'm done here."

Mars nodded and sheathed her blade.

"One more thing Endymion." The princess added quietly. "I'm so thankful 
now that I didn't fall in love with you. I don't think I could love 
someone who completely gives up all will to fight for what's true and 
just."

Rei turned her head, violet eyes following her princess out of the room. 
Once the door to the brig had been shut behind her, Mars turned her gaze 
back towards the defeated prince.

"I don't even know why I'm saying this, but I'm sorry I hit you so 
hard."

Endymion nodded blankly in comprehension. "I'm sorry too, for all the 
choices I made."

"Can't help you with that."

His eyes met hers. "Don't let her die. Please. It would kill me to know 
I turned traitor for nothing."

"As long as my heart beats, I'll protect her." Mars promised.

"It's funny." Endymion mumbled faintly. "But I think you and I have a 
true understanding. I think you love her even more than I do."

"It's impossible not to love her. All you can do is stand back, and try 
not to drown." Mars admitted with a sad smile.

He nodded. "I know it's asking a lot, and it will sound crazy, but I 
have one more favor to beg of you."

"Which is?"

"It will be hard, almost impossible at times, but try your best to 
ignore the helper."

"The helper?" she repeated, obviously confused.

"It starts in your head. Whispering things, promising to help. Drives 
you mad. You can't sleep, can't eat. Before long, you find yourself 
doing things you never would have imagined, and you can't stop."

Mars felt her blood run cold.

"It feeds on your thoughts." he continued darkly. "It dangles what you 
love, or want, right in front of you. It forces you to try and grab it, 
and then everything goes horribly wrong. It's strange, but since the lot 
of you threw me in here, the whispers have all but gone away."

His eyes met hers again. "This isn't some excuse either. I'm trying to 
warn you. You seem loyal, and devoted. Don't lose that, no matter what. 
It likes to strip that away from you, because then it has you."

Rei had the horrible feeling that she was already familiar with the 
prince's phantom. The blood rushed in her ears, and she had to fight the 
urge to run. She shook her head roughly to clear her mind.

"I believe you." she replied faintly, focusing her energy inward to 
steel herself. "I do believe you. But I can't let you out of here. I'm 
sorry. I will however speak to the Queen on your behalf, and ask for 
mercy."

"I don't want mercy. I want you all to live."

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"Everything alright?" the princess asked when Mars finally emerged from 
the prisoner's quarters.

"Yeah." the fire soldier lied, forcing a smile. "I was just seeing if he 
knew anything that could be of use to us."

"You didn't hit him again did you?" Serenity asked disapprovingly.

"No." Rei muttered, looking thoroughly chastised.

"Even though he may deserve a good thumping, having compassion is an 
important aspect, even for a soldier like yourself."

Mars smiled. "And when did you become so wise?"

Serenity smiled warmly in return. "When the four of you entered our 
lives. Now, I think I'm going to visit with my mother. Shall we go?"

"Lead the way, Princess."

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Mars paced the hallway outside the door to the throne room anxiously as 
she awaited her princess' return, mind racing.

'The helper huh? At least now I know what to call her, should she try 
and make an appearance again. It makes sense now. She showed me that 
horrible vision of the Dark Army, and I responded by suggesting we 
surrender. She knew I'd do that.'

The warrior paused briefly, resting her hand on the grand door of the 
throne room. Her mind flashed back to her nightmare, and the scene that 
awaited her and Jupiter in it. She still couldn't shake the image of 
Mercury, battered and bloody, slumped against the wall, with what looked 
to be thousands of lacerations all over her slim form.

Mars let out a breath she hadn't realized she had been holding.

'Fifteen days. That's all supposed to come to pass beyond this door in 
just fifteen days.'

The two guards posted on either side of the door eyed her strangely, and 
cast nervous glances between themselves.

One of them finally got the courage to ask, "Uh...sir? Are you alright?"

Mars turned towards him abruptly. "You. You're in my squad, right?"

"Yes sir."

It took her a moment, but recognized him. It was the soldier from her 
dream, the poor bastard hanging from the wall by an enemy's spear.

She righted herself. "Do you have a family?"

"Yes sir. A wife. Two small children."

She nodded. "Starting tomorrow, I want you stationed near the Queen's 
quarters. I also want you to take leave the night of the Princess' 
ball."

He blinked. "Sir?"

"A family man needs an extra night off every now and then." she allowed 
herself a small grin. "Think of it as some compassion."

"Thank you, sir."

The door to the throne room eased open at last, and Serenity reemerged. 
"Wait long?"

Mars smiled. "No, my Princess."

"Good. Now how about some fresh air? I think I'd like to watch the other 
soldiers train for a bit. Maybe I would even be privileged enough to see 
one of your infamous sparring matches?"

Onwards to Part 10


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