DISAPPOINTMENT Usagi was in her room getting ready for Darien. He wasn't the same person lately, or, was she the one that was changing? She remembered the moments when she used to idealize him, caught up in his handsome looks and pushed by the feeling that she had to like him. From far away it seemed easy. But the first time they just kissed it wasn't as she thought it would be. She pictured the memory in her mind. They were in the park, in front of a beautiful fountain, the moon was full and shiny, and they got closer, leaning over for a kiss...it was the perfect time, the perfect place. But in the second her lips touched him, his tongue invaded her mouth, so surprisingly that she forgot to breath and could only feel his hot breath and sour taste, pushing her own, moving with a harsh need. Not that she didn't know what a French kiss was...but he didn't give her time...it didn't feel good, less romantic. She knew he was eager to be with her in a more intimate way, but she wasn't ready for a rough first kiss. He apologized, but she was disappointed, even though he was a nice guy. The spark died fast and she was confused about everything. Now he was more demanding of being together by themselves, and she didn't know what to do to avoid her feelings of rejections when he would touch her. The phone rang "Usagi?" "yes, ...Rei?" "Yes, it's me. Sorry to bother you, I know you have a date with Darien, but I need to talk to you about something important, is about the fire readings if you know what I mean, and I don't want it to linger over the weekend, can you pass by the shrine before meeting him?" "No problem, I needed to make time anyways, so I'll be there in 20 minutes" she hated to lie, but it was the perfect excuse. "Ok, thanks, and sorry again" She kept the phone on her hand, and dialed Darien's number without a reasonable excuse, and when he picked up the phone her mind went blank. "Do you want to cancel the date? I was almost leaving to pick you up...are you sick?" Darien was puzzled. "well...I'm not feeling perfect, but is not that...I just need...to be by myself tonight, I'm sorry I waited till the last minute to tell you" "Is anything wrong? Is there something you wanna tell me? Did I do something wrong? You've been distant lately, I thought it was just a face, but I guess is more serious, isn't it?" "I don't wanna talk about it right now, please forgive me, can I call you tomorrow?" "yes...of course...but I wish you would tell me what's going on..." "I will, don't worry" "ok...love you..." "...love you too" -though she was lying again.
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