A few days after Valentine’s day.
Minako was walking down with Makoto as the brunette was walking her home after the group study. Makoto gave Minako an almost life sized teady bear after the brunette arrived at the study group. The blonde was hugging the teady bear and had a hard time walking so Makoto asked her if she could carry the teady bear for her but the blonde refused. Makoto laughed. After that, they quietly walked towards Minako’s home.
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“Minakochan come on. Spill!!! How was the date?” asked Usagi as she took the Minako’s shoulders and shook her. Minako sweat dropped. She was leaning on the teady bear Makoto gave her earlier.
“Yeah Makochan, how did the date go?” Rei turned to Makoto.
The two turned beet red and everyone ended up teasing the two until Minako finally gave up.
“I almost burned her apartment down after I knocked a few candles from the table. I tried wiping the wine out her suit.” Minako laughed she was now hugging the teady bear.
Makoto was blushing again. “I accidentally spilled some to my shirt.”
“Oh I thought you knocked the candles down because you were…” before Usagi could finish what she would say, Rei covered her mouth and said, “So what happened after?”
“Makoto sang to me as we danced. She gave me a dozen beautiful roses. It was an apple green colored roses! It was a great date.” Minako then looked at Makoto and then went to her and hugged her, “Really great! Best date ever!”
Both of them blushed. Minako could feel Makoto’s pulse racing.
“Ooooooooooooooooooooooooooohhhh!!!!!!” Everyone exclaimed.
Usagi then took the teady bear that Makoto gave Minako and hugged it. “What’s the name of this teady bear?”
“Jupiter?” Minako answered in a laugh, she then took the teady bear, hugged it and sat beside Makoto.
Usagi thought that she sniffed a familiar scent as she hugged the bear earlier. “Did you put some of your perfume on the bear Makochan?” asked Usagi.
“Eerrrm… Sort of…” Makoto answered and tried to look away from Minako.
“I like it Makochan. At least when I’m asleep I’ll know you’re there.” Minako whispered to Makoto.
Makoto’s face went beet red and then everyone laughed.
……...
While walking, they saw two girls, about their age, kiss on the street.
They both blushed. But they were surprised to what came next.
Suddenly a car stopped at the side a man came running towards the two girls. The man took one of the girls by her arms and shook her while he shouted, “Get away from my daughter you freak!” A woman also exited the car and slapped both girls.
The other girl tried to protect the daughter but she was pushed to the ground by the mom.
The dad was trying hard not to let go of her daughter as she was fighting to let go. The dad’s hand accidentally slipped and the daughter ran towards the other girl and kissed her. With tears running through her eyes, she said, “I am sorry my angel. I am really sorry. I love you.”
The other girl kissed her also and said, “I love you so much but I can’t see you get hurt by your own parents. Forget about me.” And then the other girl stood up and ran.
The daughter was shocked and was still looking at the girl who ran. She didn’t notice that another girl came out of the car and hugged her. She whispered something to the younger girl and looked at her sadly. The older girl then lead the younger one to the car. The parents were still shouting at the girl.
As they were walking towards the car, the older girl accidentally looked at Makoto. She looked shocked and then she looked like she would cry and wanted to go towards Makoto. The mom saw this and held her daughter’s arm and shot an angry look at Makoto.
The car passed by Makoto and Minako and the blonde saw Makoto look inside the car. The parents glared at the two while the daughters didn’t look. Both daughters looked like they were crying.
What was that for? Thought Minako.
Minako looked at Makoto and saw that the brunette was gritting her teeth and her hands were clenched. She touched Makoto’s arm and the brunette calmed a bit.
“Let’s go Minachan. I’ll walk you to your house.” Makoto became serious and gestured without looking at her.
Minako was worried with Makoto but she didn’t say anything. She held Makoto’s hand and they walked towards her house.
……..
After that incident, Makoto gradually became distant to Minako day after day. Minako was really worried but she can’t get the courage to ask the brunette why.
It’s been months now and I haven’t asked her why she became distant gradually. She thinks I don’t notice but I do. She says it’s because she’s busy with café opening but I know that is not the reason. Oh Makochan why won’t you tell me… Minako thought while walking towards the shrine for the group study. When she got to the shrine, she noticed Makoto was still not there and when she looked at Rei, the miko gestured that Makoto wasn’t coming today.
Not again. That’s the 4th time this week. She won’t even talk to me on the phone for 5 minutes. I can’t be thinking about this. The final exams are coming up. Minako distracted herself.
She then she went inside the shrine and tried her best to study.
……..
After the exams as Minako walked home alone then she saw Michiru in a store. She walked up to her and said hi.
“Hey Minachan. Are you ok? Do you want to talk about it?” asked Michiru looking at the troubled girl. Minako looked like she would burst out in tears at any moment.
“Is it okay with you? I don’t want to impose or something.” Minako answered.
“No, I don’t mind. Let’s go to a café to talk.” Michiru then lead the way.
……...
“Makoto’s kind of ignoring me. And it’s troubling me a lot. She’s sweet and everything and then she gradually became distant. She even gave me a teady bear with her perfume on it. But now, every time I see the bear, it reminds me of her. I feel that something is troubling her but she won’t tell me. I miss her badly and it’s making me insane. It’s like I can feel her pain even when I’m not with her and it’s even worse when I look into her eyes. I know she’s holding back something and its making her feel pain everyday. I want to hug her and say everything will be ok or just do anything so that her pain would stop. How would I do that if she doesn’t even give me a chance to do it?” Minako told Michiru trying not to cry.
“Now now Minako. Don’t cry. Do you know why you feel this way about her? Why you are so concerned on what she’s feeling?” inquired Michiru.
“To tell you the truth I don’t know. I felt this thing about her that I can’t fully describe since we met. I just locked it out because I didn’t want to scare everyone I know. Then one day, the others started teasing me and my mom was ok with the date with Makochan and suddenly all these feelings came out and now I’m confused!” cried Minako.
Michiru smiled. “Is it the same thing that you feel about your other friends?”
“… Not really. It’s like she’s special or something.”
“Have you considered the thought that maybe you’re in love with her?”
“In love?”
Minako blushed and Michiru laughed.
“Is this it? That’s what I am feeling?”
Michiru nodded. Minako then hugged the Michiru after realizing everything.
“You’re funny Minachan. You know when everybody else is in love, being Venus and all, but you can’t tell if you’re in love with someone. Hahaha…” Michiru laughed teasingly.
“It’s not that I didn’t know, it’s just that I didn’t know what to call that feeling. It’s different from the feelings that I read from other people.” Minako said blushing.
“I was just joking Minachan… And now you know why Makochan was acting weird around you?” asked Michiru.
Minako thought about it for a while and her eyes became wide after realizing the answer.
She’s in love with me? Oh Kami! Why didn’t I notice?!? I just thought because I was like a special friend… Wait… That was what I thought about her! Baka baka baka Minako!!! She thought then face palmed herself.
Michiru smiled. “Go on, talk about anything about Makoto then you’ll realize on what’s troubling her.”
And Minako talked about the 1st time she and Makoto met, her mom’s reaction when she told her that Makoto had asked her out, the best date ever, the life size teady bear named Jupiter and how it smelled like Makoto and then the scene that they saw a couple of months ago. Minako suddenly stopped after telling the story of the two girls. Michiru smiled as she saw Minako realize what was bothering Makoto.
She’s afraid that my parents will hurt me and my friends will leave me? So she’s opting to just be a martyr and torture herself instead? But that’s ridiculous. Minako thought annoyingly. My parents and friends won’t leave me if they knew that I love Makoto.
As if Michiru could read the blonde’s mind, she started saying, “You know Minachan, not everybody is as lucky as you. As you said, your parents seemed to approve of Makoto and we definitely would love to see you get together with her but most people would have to cut their communications with their loved ones if they found out they’re gay, some fathers even let their daughters be raped by another man just to prove that their daughter is not gay. I’m not joking about this.” Michiru told Minako as she held her hand on the table.
“It wasn’t easy for me and Haruka at first. My parents almost disowned me and Haruka as well. We just fought for our love and luckily they gave in with the thought of that. But for some reason, we had to still prove to them that the relationship is genuine and we always prove that no matter what.” She continued.
Minako listened intently at Michiru.
“Maybe that’s the reason why Makoto’s holding back. She doesn’t want you to get alienated by your loved ones. She knows the feeling of being surrounded by a lot of people and she still felt alone.”
Minako tried hard not to cry. She felt the pain of Makoto.
“There is big difference between friendship and true love Minachan. She loves all of us but friendship can’t fully fill the void that’s meant for a lover. She feels that pain everyday and yet she endures it for you. Do you get what I mean?” asked Michiru.
“But you’re all okay about it right? So why is she still holding back?” Minako was now sobbing.
“Because she doesn’t know that your parents are alright about this and she’s afraid she might lose all you. For her, it’s better to see you end up with someone else than not seeing you at all. Friendship or none at all and she chose friendship. She may have had an experience about this in the past that’s why she’s not risking anything now. You should at least talk to your parents about this to confirm that they’re alright if you pursue a relationship with Makoto then tell her yourself that it will be alright.” Advised Michiru.
Michiru then hands over a tissue to Minako to wipe her tears.
“You want us to help you to talk to Makoto?” Asked Michiru.
Minako nodded.
…….
“Hey Makochan! Wait up!” Rei shouted as the miko tried to catch up with the brunette.
Makoto looked back and said, “Oh hi Rei. What you’ve been up to?”
“I should ask you that question.” Rei responded while panting as she got to where Makoto was.
“Why?” Makoto was confused.
“You don’t see us anymore and we know that you’re trying to shut everyone out Makoto. What’s wrong with you? You think we don’t notice that? We are being affected on what you’re doing with Minachan. Why are you doing this?” Answered Rei. The miko was getting angry with Makoto and it showed.
“Do you still have school tomorrow?” asked the brunette without looking at Rei.
“Huh? None. Why?” asked the confused miko.
“Just come with me.” Then Makoto walked away.
After a few rides and a couple of hours passed, Makoto and Rei was walking in a park. There were a lot of benches but Makoto seemed to search for a particular one.
“This is it!” exclaimed Makoto and sat down. She gestured to the miko to sit down with her. Rei looked at the brunette and sat down.
“What’s so special about this bench anyway?”
“This is where my parents met.” Makoto smiled as she told Rei.
Rei was surprised. Makoto didn’t tell much about her parents to them, let alone her past.
“My parents used to take me here when I was little and told me about their story. My dad was sitting at this very bench when my mom walked by. Ever since she saw her, he waited everyday just to get a glimpse of her and finally after a few weeks, he had the courage to introduce himself and the rest was history.” Makoto then took a small box out of her pocket and opened it. There was a ring inside. Rei looked at the ring then to Makoto. She knew that it is better to just let the brunette talk.
“When I was young, I went to a school here and because I grew up faster than the other kids, I had to wear the boys’ uniform. I got teased about it but I didn’t care because my mom said it fit me right and she would always smile at me every morning and my dad pats me at the head.”
“One day, a girl, a year older than me, was being bullied by some boys and I helped her. We became friends after that and I kind of joined their group of friends. After that and we were all happy and I thought I found friends that I could trust. I didn’t know at that time that I was kind of having this puppy love situation with the girl I rescued.”
“One afternoon, after the classes were over, I waited for her at the gates of the school. Our other friends went ahead to do some shopping but she didn’t want to go so I walked her home and she suddenly kissed me in front of their house. I didn’t notice that her mom was looking at us through their window. Our relationship kind of grew from there, we would hold hands, kiss and hug one another. Our friends were sort of okay with it. They only talked to me when I’m with her and our relationship became gossip at the school. Then day came when her parents just took her away without notice. She just didn’t come to class anymore and because of the gossip, my friends left me. I was alienated by everyone and that was the start that I got into fights almost every day.” Makoto was now looking at the sky as she narrated her story.
“My parents knew about the relationship and what had happened but they didn’t talk to me until they saw come home looking sad and black and blue all over. My parents brought me here and talked to me. I will never forget what my dad said to me that day. He said that I shouldn’t mind what when other feel tell what and what not to feel. And everything will be alright and I shouldn’t be ashamed of what I am and who I love because love is love. It doesn’t know gender, race or anything. It only knows love.”
“After the talk, my mom gave me this ring. It was her engagement ring. She didn’t know why she wanted to give it to me that early but she said when I meet that special girl, I should give that ring to her. A week after that, their plane crashed.” Makoto was now looking down and tries to hide the tears that were coming out of her eyes.
“I got so traumatized about everything after that. I blamed myself with everything that had happened. I had no support system of whatsoever that is why I got into many fights and transferred from different schools. I reasoned to myself that I’d start all over again.”
“Then there were you guys and Minachan. I thought maybe I should hide the feelings that I felt for Minachan because I thought that history might repeat itself if I told her I love her.” Makoto looked at the ring and was now visibly crying. “I just didn’t want to lose you guys. I don’t want to be alone again.”
“Makochan… we would never leave you.” was the only thing that Rei could say after that. She hugged the brunette and rocked her to make her calm down.
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