To Make You Feel My Love
Ohayo minna!! Well this is my first ever Sailor Moon fan fiction. Its
an Amy/Lita. Its sort of an alternaverse where the Outer Senshi are
around, its after the Deathbuster scenario. I'm not using anything set
after that because that's all I've seen. I will be using the North
American names with the exception of Haruka and Michiru. I like those
names better than Amarra and Michelle. Anyway I hope you like it. Now
you are going to see Serena/Usagi act more mature than she is usually
depicted but if you ever watch her or listen to what she says (at
least when it comes to her friends) she is the most emotionally mature
of the scouts. I also don't own the song To Make You Feel My
Love. That was written by Bob Dylan copyright 1957, Special Rider
Music.
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Darkness surrounded her. The small child looked around frantically for
her parents but they were no where to be seen. Crying hysterically the
child ran forward, tripping and skinning her knee. She looked up to see
her parents plane erupting in flame and spinning toward the ground.
Closer and closer until...
"NNNNNOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!" Lita woke with a start. The nightmare had come
again. It had come to her off and on since her parents death. It made
her feel terribly lonely sometimes. So lonely she often wondered where
she would be if she hadn't met Serena, Raye, Mina, lovely Amy, Haruka,
Michiru, Trista, Chibi-Usa; her only friends. In fact Serena had been
her first real friend. Wait a minute, she thought, how did lovely creep
in there? I must be not getting enough sleep. Still she did have to
admit that Amy was pretty. Pretty, brilliant, charming, witty, WAIT A
MINUTE; what am I thinking? I'm not like that am I? Sighing Lita
decided to put such thoughts aside. She looked over at her clock 6:00
am.
"Ugh," she said. "Well looks like I'll be early to school for once."
With that she trudged into the kitchen to prepare her breakfast. As she
cooked she found her thoughts drifting back to Amy and what her
favorite foods might be. Again she tried to shake such thoughts
finished her meal. After eating she quickly dressed and was out the
door in record time, well record for her at any rate. She walked slowly
to Cross Roads Junior High hoping that no one would notice how tired
and worn out she looked. Especially a certain blue haired genius her
mind teased. Growling under her breath for her mind to shut up. No
point in risking harm to one's self, and Lita would follow through in
her current mood. As she arrived she saw Amy walking up to greet her.
"Hi Lita," she said in that sweet, melodic voice *shut up brain*, "You
don't look well Lita are you all right?" Amy put her hand gently on
Lita's arm, electricity flowed into Lita's body making her feel
decidedly uncomfortable.
"Uh..hi Amy, look I gotta get to class see ya!" Darting off down the
hall Lita hoped that Amy wouldn't think anything too unusual. 'Yeah
right!' she thought. All that day she avoided Amy and when school let
out she went straight home, knowing that if she went to the arcade as
usual Amy would be there and then things would just get awkward again.
'Why is this happening?' Lita thought to herself. 'When did I start to
think of her as more than a friend? She has Greg after all.' At the
thought of his name Lita felt a pang of jealousy invade her thoughts.
'Ack!' she thought. 'No I do not think of her that way! I can't be like
that can I?' A knock at her door interrupted her thoughts. 'Saved by
the knock' she thought. As she went to the door she checked the peek
hole and saw Serena standing there. Opening the door she greeted her
friend as warmly as she could since her mind was still nagging her
about other things.
"Hey Serena, what's up?" Serena entered Lita's apartment a concerned
look across her face.
"Hey Leets. Not much but I was worried about you so I thought I would
stop by and make sure you were ok. Amy would have come to but she had
Cram School." At the mention of Amy's name Lita felt a flip-flop in her
stomach. "Lita are you ok? Amy said she was worried about you, and
you've avoided us all day."
"Look Serena," Lita said, "Uh....I have some thing's to do uhm could we
talk later?"
"No." Lita was shocked at this and tried a more direct approach.
"Serena I don't want to talk about it now leave."
"No Lita. Something's bothering you and as your friend I can't just
leave and let you deal with it by yourself. I wouldn't be much of a
friend if I did that." Lita looked at her friend and knew she wouldn't
be swayed.
"All right Serena I'll tell you; but it goes no further than this room
ok? You have to promise me you won't tell anyone, even if they ask."
"I can do that Lita, in case you haven't noticed I'm pretty good at
keeping secrets." Serena said with a slight grin. Lita led Serena to
her couch and sat next to her. Telling her about the plane wreck that
took her parents lives was hard but Serena merely wrapped her friend in
a comforting embrace and held her while she spoke and the tears began
to flow.
"The nightmares have come pretty constantly since then. They just don't
stop, and lately they've been getting worse. That's not even the worst
of my problems Serena and I'm afraid if I tell you then you won't want
to be my friend any more."
"Lita," Serena said gently. "There is nothing you could do to stop
being my friend; and I mean nothing. I care about you guys too much to
ever hurt you like that." At this Lita started to cry harder.
"Serena...I..I think I might be gay." There was silence for a moment
and Lita was afraid that her fears were coming true when Serena hugged
her tighter, crushing her with a patented Serena bear hug.
"Is that all? Lita I'm honored that you would confide that in me."
"Then..then we're still friends?" Lita asked. Serena giggled.
"Of course we are Leets. I'm friends with Haruka and Michiru aren't I?
Lita you can tell me anything. I will ALWAYS be here even when you say
you don't want me to be."
"Uhm...Serena there's more." Lita half sobbed half choked. "I think I'm
falling in love with Amy. Th..that's why I've been avoiding her all
day. Serena I don't know if I can handle this." Lita finally broke down
and sobbed uncontrollably while Serena held her and softly whispered
encouraging words to her. After what seemed like hours Lita broke the
embrace and stood.
"Uhm Serena," she said, "I would kinda like to be alone for a while,
maybe get some rest, or at least try to. Is that ok?"
"Sure Lita," Serena said smiling, "Just remember I'm here if you need
to talk. Oh, and Lita talk to Amy. You never know what might happen."
With that Serena turned and let herself out of Lita's apartment. Lita
chuckled to herself, Serena just didn't understand. Amy wasn't like
that, she had Greg. 'Jealous much' her brain teased. Shaking her head
Lita went to her bed and collapsed the tears forming again. Slowly she
cried herself to sleep only to tormented by the nightmares again.
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While this was going on, across town at a rather well to do beach house
Amy was finishing a practice session of singing an old Bob Dylan song
with Haruka playing piano, and Michiru playing violin to accompany her.
She had been practicing since she heard about the upcoming school
talent show to raise money for charity. Needless to say they had been
surprised when Amy had asked for their help and even more shocked to
find that she could sing as well as she could. As they finished the
days practice Haruka finally decided to find out where she had gotten
so good.
"So tell me Amy," she said as she ran her hand through her short blonde
hair, "Where did you learn to sing so well?"
"Yes Amy," Michiru said as she thread one of her arms around Haruka's
waist, "We never knew you sing like that. Why do you hide it?" Amy
giggled. (Yes Amy giggled she's been known to do so, not often but on
occasion)
"Well actually I've been taking lessons for years. Yes I study allot
but did you really think that was ALL I ever did? As for hiding it,
well, I guess I just wasn't ready to let anyone know. Only Serena knows
about the lessons and she swore she would never tell." Haruka and
Michiru smiled at the openness that Amy was showing them. Then Haruka
got a playful gleam in her eye.
"So Amy why that particular song? Got someone special you're singing it
to. That Greg fellow maybe?" Amy blushed a deep crimson as Haruka felt
a very sharp elbow to her ribs.
"Its ok Amy." Michiru said. "You don't have to tell us if you don't
want to. After all we've only been friends a short while. We still want
to till we make up for trying to kill Serena."
"Stop." Amy said with a bit more force then they were used to. "Serena
forgave you for that. Its not my place to keep being mad if she can
forgive. As for the song," she flustered for a moment turning crimson
again, "There is someone I'm singing it for. I can't say who just yet
but its not Greg."
"Really?" Michiru asked. "But I thought you two were so close." Haruka
chuckled at this knowing that now Michiru might be the one digging too
much. However she also knew better than to try and stop Michiru from
asking. Amy looked out at the ocean and sighed.
"We were never really any more than close friends. He wrote me recently
and told me he found his soul mate in America. As I recall he said she
was a psychic as well. I wished him the best, and that's the last I
heard from him." Haruka and Michiru decided not to press further and
offered to drive Amy home.
"No thank you," she said. "Actually I'll take the bus to Raye's shrine.
We're supposed to be having a study session. Although if I know Serena
it'll degenerate into a gossip fest. I hope Lita shows up though, I
think she was avoiding Serena and I all day. She looked terrible when I
saw her this morning."
"I'm sure she'll be ok Amy." Haruka said gently. "So same time
tomorrow?"
"You're on Haruka. Thank you both you're a big help." Smiling she left
the beach house and ran to the bus stop. After she was out of sight
Haruka smiled down at Michiru.
"Sound familiar?" she asked
"Now don't start." Michiru said, "We don't know for sure and even if we
did its not our business. Besides as I recall you were the one running
away from me." Playfully slapping at Haruka's shoulder, her lover
gently took her wrist and softly kissed it as she smiled.
"Why do you think I asked if it sounded familiar?" Haruka said with a
playful smile.
"Oh you!"
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As expected the Scout Study Session degenerated into an all out gossip
and giggle fest. Amy just smiled knowing that Serena wasn't anywhere
near the ditz people thought she was. Thinking back on the day they had
met she remembered the honest way she had apologized for saying such
mean things about her (long time ago watch "Computer School Blues" if
you want to know what I'm referring to). Serena and the others had made
significant improvements in their studies so Amy didn't press them as
much as she used to. As the session ended and everyone was leaving Amy
pulled Serena aside on the stress to talk to her.
"Serena is Lita ok? She didn't make it to our "study session" today?"
Serena saw the genuine look of concern on Amy's face but she knew she
could never betray Lita's trust.
"Lita's ok Amy. She's just a little tired today. I'm sure be feeling
better tomorrow." 'At least I hope so' she thought. Amy still looked
worried and was thinking to herself that perhaps Serena wasn't telling
her everything. Still she knew if Serena wasn't saying anything then it
must have been a big deal and it was better to not press the issue.
"Thank you for going to check on her Serena. I couldn't miss Cram
School this week." They shared a secret smile at this since both knew
where she had really been.
"I'll see you at school tomorrow Ames. TTFN."
"Not if see you first Serena." Amy said. She slowly walked home
thinking about how she gotten where she was now. Her thoughts drifted
to Lita and the first time she had seen her. Not as Jupiter but as just
plain Lita; eating lunch with Serena when no one else would even talk
to her. She had been taken back by Lita's beauty and obvious kindness.
'Karate maniac indeed!' she thought. 'She's the nicest person I've ever
met. I guess that's why I fell for her. Still she couldn't help but
feel bad about Greg. She always felt like she had led him on, of course
that wasn't the case. In one of their first letters she had told him
she really wasn't interested in a boyfriend and he had put two and two
together like a good little genius. She had told Serena only recently
and wasn't at all surprised by her response. She had hugged her and
told her that it didn't matter and that she would always be her best
friend. Serena never ceased to amaze people with her ability to love so
completely and unconditionally. That's why she was doing this talent
show for Lita. To let her know that she was loved, even if it wasn't
requited it was enough for Amy to let Lita know how she felt. Of course
how to tell her without the whole auditorium knowing would be a
challenge indeed; but that was a challenge for later. Right now she
just wanted to sleep.
The next day, Friday, Lita looked worse than she had the day before.
This time Amy decided that she was going to find out was wrong if she
had to lock Lita in a room with Melvin for an hour. She walked up to
Lita during lunch and sat beside her.
"Lita," she said startling the auburn haired beauty, "I want you to
tell me why you haven't been sleeping. its obvious by looking at you
that something's wrong." Lita knew she wasn't going to get out of this
one. Amy could be as stubborn, if not more so, than Serena when she had
her mind set on something. She sighed heavily and proceeded to tell Amy
about the plane crash that had killed her parents and how the
anniversary of their deaths was coming up. About the nightmares that
had plagued her for too many years to count. She was on the verge of
tears again when Amy hugged her gently.
"Its ok Lita. You have a new family, the scouts. We'll be here for you
whenever you need us. Tell you what why don't you come to the school
talent show this Saturday. Its a charity event and it might help take
your mind off things for awhile." Thunder rolled in Lita's heart as she
felt Amy's warmth and she slowly pulled away blushing.
"Uhm.....sure Amy. I'll be there." she said. "I'm gonna head home now
though, I need to try and get some sleep, even is its only for a little
while. Don't expect me at the study meeting tonight I'll try and make
it after the Talent show. I need all the rest I can get till then." She
then stood slowly and made her way to the nurse's office to get
permission to go home. Amy smiled, she had seen Lita blush. 'Please let
that mean something' she prayed. 'Well', she thought, 'tomorrow I
should know one way or the other.
Saturday night at the Crossroads theater.
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Glancing at the clock Lita saw it was nearing the time to leave. The
show started at eight in the evening so she had about an hour to get
there. Checking her reflection one last time she looked herself over.
She had chosen a forest green, velvet dress, a pink, silk wrap and
matching shoes. She wore her standard rose earrings and light make-up.
This night she decided to let her hair down and not wear it in her
usual style. She wanted to look as beautiful as possible tonight. There
was something in the air, she wasn't sure what it was but she knew
something special was going to happen tonight.
She arrived at the theater in time to see the other Scouts ,minus Amy,
Haruka and Michiru, meeting at the entrance. Serena was, of course,
with Darien while the other girls had come by themselves. They waved
her over and got their seats together. Lita leaned over and asked
Serena
"Where's Amy? I thought she would be here of all people." Serena
giggled slightly. Thankfully none of the other girls or Darien heard
them talking.
"She'll be here Lita," Serena whispered, "Just be patient."
The show went on for an hour and a half, still no sign of Amy. Sighing
Lita was about to get up and leave when she heard the announcer's voice
come over the speakers.
"Ladies and gentleman for our final performance we at Crossroads Junior
High are proud to have our own student Amy Anderson sing a specially
selected song." 'WHAT!" her mind screamed. 'Amy....singing? Will
wonders never cease?' The announcer's voice came up again. "Accompanying
Miss Anderson will be the famous violinist Michiru Keioh and Haruka
Tenoh!" At this Lita nearly fainted but managed to refrain fro doing so
as Amy walked onto the stage wearing a blue evening gown with matching
long gloves and sapphire earrings. Haruka and Michiru took their places
as Amy picked up the microphone and began to speak.
"I would like to dedicate this song to someone very special to me. My
wonderful emerald eyed friend, I hope you listen to the song very
closely." Now Lita was amazed, Amy had found her and locked gazes while
she spoke, and continued to do so as Haruka and Michiru began to play.
At the proper time Amy's voice harmonized with the music with an
unsurpassed beauty. Lita recognized the song as an old Bob Dylan song
that had been covered by numerous artists though never quite as well
as Amy was singing.
When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I could never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
There's no doubt in mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging on a rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy, make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love
At the song's end the auditorium was in tears at the beautiful
rendition of the old song and Lita was the first to stand and was
quickly joined by all in attendance in giving Amy a standing ovation.
Later as people were leaving Lita told the Serena that she wanted to
talk to Amy alone. Serena nodded and grabbed the other scouts, with the
help of Haruka and Michiru, and dragged them off to get a post show
meal. Lita walked over to Amy and the two looked into each others'
eyes.
"Amy." Lita coughed through a tear, "Please tell me that song meant
what I hope it meant."
"What do you think my emerald eyed love?" Amy drew Lita into a warm
embrace and slowly pulled the taller girl's face to hers as they shared
a passionate kiss. Lita was freely crying now, but not with sadness,
for the first time in as long as she could remember she was truly happy
and didn't feel alone.
"So," Amy said, "when do we tell the others?"
"How about now,? I can guess where they went to eat." Lita wrapped her
arm around Amy's shoulder and the two walked over to the Crown Fruit
Parlor where they saw their friends waiting for them. Trista and Mina
had their I-knew-this-was-going-happen looks on their faces as the two
approached. After the length conversation in which Serena had hugged
the two of them in her fiercest bear hug to date the two separated.
"I'll call you tomorrow Amy." Lita said.
"Ok my heart," Amy replied with a smile, "I'll look forward to it."
They shared another loving kiss and went to their separate homes. As
Lita slept that night the nightmares that had plagued her for so many
years were replaced by a new dream. A dream of her spending the rest of
her life with her soul mate. Her beautiful bluebird, Amy.
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