"Minako?" I softly whisper her name noticing how easily it flows from my mouth. She truly is the Goddess of Love and Beauty. It's funny I suppose, how I've known her for so long, and even though she's been my best friend for years now I still get nervous around her. When she gets close to me my hands tremble. When I try to speak to her I often notice the crack in my voice. I try my best to hide my feelings for her but I'm not sure how long this will last. One day I'll have to tell her how I feel. I've come to accept the way I feel about her and no longer condemn myself for it. I live for moments like this when I have her to myself. When she is completely mine, even if only for a brief time. She flirts with me all the time and she always finds a way to be next to me, touching me in some manner. I've realized it’s just her personality. Still, I carry the false hope that maybe there's more to it. "Minako?" I ask her name once more as I look down at her sleeping face. She's resting her head on my lap fast asleep as I sit on the end of my couch. I try to focus on the end of the movie we were watching but my eyes see nothing but her. My arm is resting on her side as I look down to see her sleeping face completely relaxed and innocent. Yes, this is torture, but still I know I wouldn't give it up for anything in the world. Once I realize she's asleep my body betrays me as my hands go of their own accord to run my fingers through her soft blond hair. Stopping briefly to caress the soft skin of her cheek I realize I'm crying though I'm not sure why. I try to make myself stop but my body continues to do as it pleases. I bend down so slowly and just barely brush my lips against her warm cheek's kissing her for the first time. My heart beats faster up as I realize what I've just done. Heaven and Hell are as one as I go though this sweet pain. If only I had the courage to tell her how I feel...
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