But for a Few Small Changes
-Haruka- The first time I saw her, I thought she was adorable—a
beautiful, happy young girl. She was taken of me as well. Many young
ladies are attracted to me when they first meet me.
As I got to know her, I loved her more. Her inner fire made her a
fierce competitor; I admire that. I had my Michiru, yet I confess
that Usagi fascinated me and probably always will.
Yes, I have Michiru…and Usagi has Mamoru. And we are all happy.
But had it not been for Mamoru and Michiru, the sparks between us
would have grown into flames of romantic delight. We desired each
other. She would have been mine.
-Minako- When I met Usagi, it was almost like looking into a
mirror. Almost. But a thrill raced through my body and I knew that
she was going to be a part of my life forever. I welcomed that
knowledge.
I’m the senshi of love. I don’t just have it, I can feel it—and
in her? It’s like a shimmering river. It’s powerful, refreshing, and
inspiring. Her love would be a perfect match for mine. So she is my
twin in soul as well as in body. I connect with her on the most basic
level. And if she had said the word, we could have been more than
best friends. We could have been…one. She would have been mine.
-Makoto- That first day we met, she thought she owed me for
chasing away those bullies. But we owed each other. She was so kind
to me, so warm. She saw me not just for who I was, but who I could
be.
She was the first true friend I had since my parents died, but not
the last, because she introduced me to all her friends and soon they
became my friends too. She is as genuine as you will find, and she
wants everyone, even me, to be true to themselves. Her sincerity and
accepting attitude draw me to her.
She has the heart of a martial artist—her self-discipline and
determination are truly magnificent. If she ever wanted to learn, I
would teach her and she would be a terrific student. If I had the
courage, I’d ask her to teach me…about patience…about love…
She’s the Moon Princess and her destiny lies along a different
road. But if it didn’t, perhaps she’d have been mine.
-Rei- She scared me from the moment I saw her. I, who have all
the restraint anyone could be expected to have, knew that she could
crush my defenses at will. I tried so hard to alienate and belittle
her, but it didn’t work. She’s too genki and too forgiving.
Usagi’s beauty runs so deep that I could lose myself in it, if she
would let me. I care for her so much that I would do anything she
asked of me. That’s been said many times, but I really mean it. I’m
at her command.
I’ve shared so much with her. I give her my best. I show her all
I can do and I try to do more. I have died for her without regret, as
she has for me. If devotion was as important as love, she would have
been mine.
-Ami- She’s my oldest and dearest friend, as much a prodigy in
spirit as I am in mind. I can’t imagine life without her. It would
probably be glum and lonely, like a sky that would never again see the
sun. But with her, life is wonderful, incredible. I haven’t taught
her a tenth of what she’s taught me.
I was Usagi’s first teammate and I admit that I was jealous when
Rei joined. I had hoped that it would be the two of us, for at least
a little while longer…much as I love having so many other friends.
I trust her more than anyone. I won’t ever leave her side, for
anything. If things could have stayed the way they were, she would
have been mine.
-Naru- We were girls together. As I grew up, I realized that one
day, she would break my heart. But I didn’t mind. Broken hearts
heal, and she’s easily worth a thousand of them.
For a time, we were closer than sisters. We laughed and cried
together, we got in trouble, we learned about so many things…
I don’t grudge her her friends, her adventures, her life, or her
future. Nothing lasts forever, I know that. I’m richer and better
off for knowing her. Anyone who’s ever known her is.
She’ll never know that she’s the love of my life, because I won’t
tell her and let her hurt herself with sadness for me. I’m not sad
and she doesn’t deserve to be either. Even though we must drift
apart, I’ll stay in touch with her, come to her for advice, see her
wedding, and visit her when I can. I hope that when I die, I can be
her angel.
She’s Sailor Moon. But if she’d been just plain Usagi-chan?
She’d have been mine, my love forever.
-Author’s note- It’s only anime and manga, but I really do feel
bad, in a way, for all these girls. Tsukino Usagi would be a good
match for any of them. Rei and Naru especially get my sympathy.
But in another sense, Usagi teaches all of us, in the real world,
quite a lot about the different forms of love. And here’s the best
lesson I got from BSSM: the more love you give, the more you have.
Arigatou, minna.
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