Liar You said I was your everything, You said I was the one, You played me like a radio, You use to love that I had no shame. Slowly she let her body into the warm water, closing her eyes. She could feel the hot water reach her waist as she said down in the bath tub. When she finally sat she too a deep breath before opening her eyes again. Michiru was now surrounded by the blue colored walls again, no longer was she trapped in her memories. Atleast, the memories in her head. All the memories she had about this bathroom and her were still fresh enough. Another tear fell down her face.'I thought I had stopped crying.' The aqua haired girl though, smiling bitterly. It was strange to sit here like this, not being able to hear Haruka's voice around her anymore. Another sad smile had appeared on the woman's face.'And I thought I decided not to think about her anymore.' She added to her previous thought. She closed her eyes again, letting the feeling of the water which obviously was a bit warmer than she'd like, wash over her. Two days. Two days it had been already. Two days since Haruka had left her, two days since Michiru's heart got broken into a million pieces. Two damn days since their mission had ended. Michiru took another deep breath when she felt the tears that were threatening to fall. She wouldn't cry anymore, not over Haruka. It wasn't her fault that Haruka had left. It simply wasn't her fault. It was all Setsuna's fault for being so damn cute and seductive! Michiru smiled at her own sillyness. Ofcourse she couldn't blame Setsuna for this. Haruka had fallen out of love with the senshi of Neptune and in love with the guardian of time. It was that easy.'It's not that easy at all...I gave you my life Ruka and what did you do?' Yes, what did Haruka exactly do to her? Michiru had never thought that her love for Haruka had gotten this deep, this difficult. -Flashback- "I love you Ruka." Michiru had whispered as she hugged the tall blonde closely. She enjoyed being in Haruka's arms like this. Here she felt safe, here no one could hurt her. This was where she belonged. "I love you too Michi.." Came the reply as Haruka's arms encircled Michiru's waist."I promise you that this, our mission will be over soon. Then I will be able to give you what you really need." "As long as I got you Ruka, I don't need anything else." Michiru had replied, pulling back a bit before pressing her lips to those of her blonde lover. The kiss was passionate and yet innocent. After a few seconds of just standing there, letting their mouths explore the other's Haruka pulled back, smirking."Promise me that you will never leave me.." Michiru finally said. It was more a beg than anything else. Haruka's face grew serious again."I promise Michi...As long as I live I will love you...and even in death you'll be the only woman I'll ever love." These words were obviously enough for the smaller girl because after Haruka had spoken those words Michiru pressed her lips to Haruka's once more. Kissing her passionately as she slowly pulled her lover into the direction of the bedroom. -End flashback- "Liar!" Michiru suddenly screamed, hitting the edge of the bath tub with her fists."You damn liar!" At this point Michiru had broken down into tears once more, breaking through the only rule she had made with herself. Not to cry for Haruka anymore.'Can't you see what you did to me Ruka, I love you so much...I love you...I lo...' She snapped out of her thoughts when she suddenly heard the phone ring. Secretly hoping it would be Haruka, who she hadn't seen since their break up, Michiru stood up from the tub and put a robe around herself before heading for the room next door. She lived in a small appartment, she used to live here together with Haruka but since Haruka had moved in with Setsuna...Well Michiru had decided to stay here for a while, until she had found a place of her own. Tell me you'll love me like a star Tell me you'll want me wherever you are, Tell me you'll breathe me until your last breath. Liar, Liar As Michiru stepped out of the bathroom she imidiately entered the livingroom that was attached to the bathroom. Quickly she hurried over to the phone before it would switch over to her answering machine."Michiru Kaioh..." She said, hoping to hear a certain husky voice on the other side of the line. Disappointment washed over her as the caller identified herself as Usagi. Usagi Tsukino, her princess, sailor moon but also her friend. "Hey Usagi, what can I do for you?" Michiru asked politely. She could hear the girl on the other side of the line sigh. It was obvious that Usagi was having a rough time over there."I am sorry to disturb you this late but to be honest Michiru...I need to talk to someone." She other replied. Michiru was kind of surprised to hear this. Why would Usagi want to talk to her out of all people. Most of the time she went to Rei or Minako with her problems. If not she would go to Ami, Makoto, Setsuna or even Haruka but never her. "It's okay Usagi, but if you don't mind me asking...Why me?" Michiru asked, feeling ashamed for asking. "The others won't understand. Rei and Haruka would scold me for this. Makoto and Ami are too busy with...their own problems and Setsuna...I don't want to talk to her." Usagi's voice came. Michiru still didn't understand but when Usagi mentioned Ami and Makoto having their own problems it became clear enough that something was bothering the blonde princess though. "Do you want to come over?" Michiru questioned, waiting for a reply. When she didn't get any she decided to try a different approach."You're not bothering me Usagi and if there is something you want to tell me or talk about, I'll listen to you. Not as your protector, not as senshi but as your friend." "That means a lot to me..." Usagi's whispering voice came."Does that invitation still count?" "Ofcourse, I'll get dressed and make some tea for us, will I see you in an hour then?" Michiru answered. Once again Usagi didn't reply but Michiru knew enough. With that said she whispered a small goodbye and see you later before hanging up the phone. All kinds of different questions now entered her mind. What was bothering Usagi, why wasn't Usagi talking to Setsuna anymore but most important...What was this dizzy feeling that had taken over after she had hung up the phone. Shaking her head, deciding to ignore her dizzy spell Michiru walked into the bedroom, sitting down on the bed. In front of Michiru stood a small cupboard, on top of it stood a framed picture. On the picture were Haruka, her, Setsuna and Hotaru. It was made on the day after Nehelenia was defeated. They had gone to a amusement park to celebrate. Then all of a sudden, the stinging feeling in her head became stronger. Clenching her fist, Michiru fell back on the bed, staring at the ceiling. Then without even realising it she closed her eyes, drifting back into that damn world of repressed memories and feelings. -Flashback- "Ah! Haruka, finally we are able to do what we've always wanted. We can be just like all the normal couples around us!" Michiru cheered, running into her lovers direction. She had a bright smile on her face that seemed to make Haruka feel nervous somehow."Haruka..." The smaller girl slowed down her pace as she stood still a few inches away from her lover. Her smile disappeared at seeing the look on Haruka's face."Why the long face, aren't you happy now Galaxia is defeated? Sure our lives will be a lot more quieter around the house since Hotaru went back to her fa..." "That's not what...why..." Haruka whispered, not looking into the other's eyes."I am leaving..." "Tokyo?" Michiru asked, feeling her heart race in her chest. "No, Michi...Michiru...I am leaving, you." Her own words seemed to pain Haruka as much as they hurt Michiru. The aqua haired girl shook her head in confusion."I don't understand..." The blonde finally looked up at the smaller girl in front of her. Their eyes met, only this time instead of wanting to stay locked in this state forever, both of them wanted to be anywhere, anywhere but here."Our mission is over Michiru..." "I know that but why..." Michiru didn't even got the chance to continue her question. "I've met someone else." The smaller girl didn't need to ask any other questions after that. She couldn't even think of anything to say at this point. All she could do was stare at the blonde in disbelieve and feel her heart break into a million pieces."I am truly sorry but..." "I still don't understand Haruka." Michiru whispered. She just couldn't believe what she was hearing. She must have misunderstood. "Michiru please don't make this harder than it already is...Our mission is over now, Uranus and Neptune aren't needed anymore." Haruka started. Once again she was cut off. "How does our mission ending fit in this picture? You're leaving me because...You weren't with me all this time just because you felt like you had to be with me because of our mission, did you?" The smaller girl was surprised to see the other look at the ground at hearing that question.'So it's true?' Haruka's silence said enough althought Michiru needed confirmation."Just be honest with me." She added. "I wasn't with you because of our mission. Atleast part of me wasn't. My feelings for you are just friendship Michiru." The tomboy stated, the tone in her voice filled with sorrow, guilt but most of all hurt."The senshi of Uranus, a part of me from another time, our past. That part of me loves you dearly but the person I am in this life...I am sorry Michiru, I don't know how to explain this. I don't want to hurt you." When the blonde gazed up again she was being faced with the things she hated the most. Michiru was crying."It's a little bit too late for that." The smaller girl cried. She didn't even take the trouble to hide her pain nor to wipe away her tears. She already knew that new tears would replace her old ones the moment she'd wipe them away. "Who is it?" Michiru asked after a few more moments of silence. She was a bit upset with the fact Haruka didn't say anything but most of all she was upset with Haruka breaking her heart like this. "Does it matter?" "It does to me..." Came the reply. "Setsuna." It was nothing more than a whisper but loud enough for Michiru to hear. She was surprised but at the same time not. They always had been close, to Michiru they always had looked like the best of friends. 'I have been so blind...Why Ruka?' Michiru wondered, clenching her fists."Oh..." Was all she could mumble in reply."For how long?" "One week." Haruka answered. She had decided to be fully sincere with her former lover. Michiru deserved to know the truth even though she knew it was hurting the smaller girl. "You should've told me earlier..." The aqua haired girl hissed, her voice growing colder."You decieved me. You made me believe that you loved me and the onyl thing you did was rub it in my face. You might've never thought of me as someone you could love as a lover but I surely thought that of you. You played me like a damn radio. And now you got rid of the old tune you decided to put on a new station, a new tune." "I never..." Haruka tried but for the third time Michiru interrupted her. "You never meant for me to what? Fall in love with you?!" Michiru yelled, causing everyone around them to stop and stare at the fighting women before going on with what they were doing in the first place. Haruka and Michiru didn't care though, they didn't care wheter the whole world would know. After all here they were, breaking up after two years of being together in the middle of the mall."You're so cruel, you promised never to leave me! You promised to love me forever. I gave you everything I owned, had, everything that I am and...you..." Michiru wasn't able to talk anymore, all she could do was sob inaudible things. "I am so sorry..." That was the last thing Michiru could remember hearing Haruka say before walking away, out of her sight and out of her life as well. -End Flashback- "Liar..." Michiru unconsciously whispered, her eyes still closed as she lay her hand on her forehead which now as covered with sweat. A dream, no a memory. A damn memory, a damn thought she should be forgetting about. Slowly she opened her blue eyes which were now empty."Liar..." She repeated. As she kept staring at the ceiling she noticed her position. She was still lying on her bed. The robe she was wearing had sligtly moved, revealing a small part of her breast and stomach. Her breathing was steady yet interrupted. Michiru couldn't quite explain the way she was feeling now. Her head was burning but the rest of her body felt like ice. Moving was something she couldn't do either as the feeling of being alone made her sick to her stomach. Then suddenly everything went black. The last thing she could hear was someone whisper her name. At first the voice seemed to be miles away but it seemed to get closer at every second.'Haruka?' Michiru wondered, feeling a warm hand touch her cheek. Bit by bit I feel the draft, Just sit back and watch it burn, Hold your eyes up to my veins, Call out, call out my name Tell me you'll love me like a star, Tell me you'll want me wherever you are, Tell me you'll breathe me until your last breath. Liar, Liar To Be continued... Ah I know this fic might seem a bit dark at this point but unlike 'say hello' this story will be nothing but a plain romance story. No youma's, no maffia, no killing characters, no nothing except for fluffy romance stuff. Oh and ofcourse a bit of trouble for Usagi getting rid of Mamoru at some point but since everyone knows that I HATE him...(insert evil laugh)
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