Several floors above the cafeteria, on the third floor, the two Dorm Heads, Jessica Wright and disowned Sister of Death Kris Tallet, formerly known as Aigneis, the Sister of Children's Death, curled up on Jessica's bed together, topless. It was not late and Jessica did not feel very tired, but her body and mind felt was if it weighed a ton and the moment her head hit her pillow the very thought of moving was too much of an effort so she simply lay there, her head upon her pillow, and stared up at the ceiling. Memories of the past days event felt like a pile of lead in her head and she felt lost amongst them. Everything she had spent so much time trying to forget had come to surface again and she struggled with the urge to allow the sadness in her heart to envelop her, but that was not like her. She was stronger then all of this and had survived so much that she could not, would not; allow this to overcome her ever again. Slowly she turned her head upon the pillow to look upon the face that lay beside her and the deep blue eyes that returned her gaze. Kris had stayed at her side since she awoke from that nightmare and even after being questioned by Head Mistress Sophia and Nurse Amy, which felt more like an interrogation then simply inquiry as Sophia made Kima, Penny and herself explain what exactly happened inside of that nightmare and how it effected them. For herself she felt even more miserable since returning from that nightmare then before and Kris's presence was somewhat of a comfort, even with now knowing that the girl in fact used to be a Sister of Death. When they first returned to their room Jessica wanted nothing more then to make love to the girl, anything to forget the pain in her heart. The moment the door closed she pulled Kris into her arms and kissed her deeply, allowing her hands to roam over the girl's body and across the winged tattoo that marked the girl's back, but Kris put a stop it quickly. Jessica could see in Kris's eyes how much she wanted more and how much it pained her to stop things. This refusal made something break inside of Jessica and she finally crumbled, tears streamed across her cheeks and her knees buckled from under her as she let out an anguished scream. Kris never left her side even through the tears. She instead drew Jessica to her bed and curled up to the girl, holding her and stroking the buzzed cut sides of her head. Now Jessica stared into those beautiful blue eyes and allowed herself to lightly touched the girl upon the cheek, "I... I'm sorry..." She apologized with a heavy sigh. Kris simply shook her head, "You don't have to apologize." She replied softly, "You had a rough day and it is understandable that you needed a good cry." Jessica lowered her eyes in shame, "No... I mean..." She could not bring herself to finish her sentence. Kris placed a hand under the girl's chin and raised it so she could look the girl in the eyes and smiled, "You don't need to apologize for that either." Jessica licked her lips as an aching filled her chest and she had to break free from the girl's gaze, "Yes I do." She stated miserably, "I shouldn't have pushed myself on you like that... not after you and Jenn..." Kris let out a sigh and rolled her head on her own pillow, covering her eyes with her arm, "I should be the one apologizing. You deserve someone whose heart is not so muddled like mine. I'm just going to hurt you in the end..." Jessica shook her head, "No matter who it is I'll be hurting." She rolled onto her back and placed her hands over her eyes, "I wish this pain would go away. Why did I have to remember that crap?" She said through grated teeth, "I wish I never remembered her, maybe it wouldn't be so painful if I could just forget." Kris abruptly sat up and pulled Jessica's hands away from her eyes, "Never say that!" She snarled, glaring intensely at the girl below her. Jessica cringed into her pillow, "But... but I... I can't stand it..." She replied and rubbed at the side of her head, "Until today I thought I only loved one person, and that was you." Tears welled up in her eyes as the image of Amber entered her mind again and she had to turn away from Kris's gaze, "I don't want to remember her love. I don't even know where she is anymore." She muttered miserably, "What is the use of remembering, if it is going to just hurt this much?" Kris released the girl's arm and leaned against the wall that ran the length of the bed, running a hand through her short, blue, curls, "Do you want to talk about it?" She offered lightly. Jessica shook her head, "It doesn't matter anymore. It's not like I'll ever see her again so there is no reason I should dwell on it. I just want to forget it all happened and get on with life." She rolled on her side, looking across the small dorm room that they shared. "You realize if you ever want to get out of here you will have to face your past." Kris reminded the girl while softly stroking her back. Jessica let out a sigh; she had lived at Whispering Hills Academy for over six years now, six long years. Until a week ago she was nearing her release from the school. She had passed all her classes and was doing well personally as well, well that was if you did not take account of her actions with many of the girls in the dorm and her needed to loss herself in their soft flesh, she couldn't resist its call. That was until her little sister appeared at the school and the memories started flowing back to her, filling her dreams with nightmares. She tried her hardest to not allow those memories to invade her life again, told herself that she was over the past. While Head Mistress Sophia did reinstate her as one of the Western Dorm Heads, along side Kris, she was also informed that she would have to stay longer and this did not sit well in Jessica's heart. She thought this all over when there came a soft knocking at the door. "Who is it?" Kris called out from her spot on the bed. "Sophia." A voice replied from beyond the door, "I am in need of Jessica's services." Jessica rolled over to blink up at Kris, "My services?" She inquired in confusion as she picked up her tank top from the ground near the bed, where she had thrown it in her hast to make love to Kris, and pulled it over her head. After what had happened that day she was half expecting the Head Mistresses to want nothing to do with her for the rest of her stay at the school and yet here she was. "What does she mean by that?" She asked Kris, thinking that since Sophia was Kris's Aunt that she might understand the woman a little more then anyone else at the school. Kris simply shrugged, "I have no idea. She is a mystery even too me. So there is only one way to find out." She remarked as she crawled over the girl, giving her a quick peck on the cheek before getting out of the bed, grabbing her long sleeved dress shirt from her bed and pulling it over her arms, leaving her bra exposed, before opening the door to allow the Head Mistress to enter. "Evening Kris, Jessica." Sophia greeted the girls as she entered the room, leaning heavily upon an old wooden cane as she walked and slowly sat upon Kris's bed, opposite Jessica, whom was now sitting at the edge of her own bed. "Evening Aunt Sophia." Kris returned as she sat beside Jessica, an arm protectively around the girl's waist. "Evening." Jessica added, her eyes watching the Head Mistress carefully. The Head Mistress had seen better days and while she was looking better then she did earlier that day there were still heavy wrinkles carved around the corners of her mouth that Jessica was almost certain were not there the other day. Her fingers were also long and sunken, as if someone had drained the woman of all her youth, and this frightened Jessica. In all her years at the school she had never seen either of the Head Mistresses appearing anything but youthful. Whatever was happening to their school it was affecting the Head Mistress physically and this was a frightening thought because she could not think of life without Sophia or Melissa. Sophia smiled at the girl, crow's feet increasing around her warm blue eyes. "There is no need to worry." She said knowingly, "Everything will be alright." She stated patting the top of her cane hand with the other. Jessica suddenly realized she was staring and quickly glanced to the ground, "I'm... I'm sorry... I didn't notice before..." Sophia shook her head slowly, "No need to apologize. Anyhow, I'm not here about that, I wish for you to accompany me to the Train Station. Melissa returned with files depicting that several new students will be arriving at the station in a bit and in my current state I am in no condition to help the new girls so I thought it would be best for one of the Dorm Heads to join me." "Missy is back?" Kris exclaimed excitedly, "Is she going to stay? How is she?" Sophia raised a hand and smiled at her niece's excitement and chuckled, "She is resting after a journey to the Hall of Candles and the trip exhausted her, which is why I've come for Jessica's assistance." Jessica glanced at Kris, who returned her surprised gaze, and back to Sophia, "But... Why me? I mean shouldn't Kris go?" Jessica inquired bewilderly. Sophia smiled at her niece, "I think Kris will be better suited to stay here." She turned back to Jessica, "and I thought maybe the drive and air would help clear your mind a bit. Your adventures today must have cluttered your mind a might bit and the air sometimes does the trick for clearing up muddled thoughts." Jessica thought about this for a moment, while the idea of a drive did sound like a grand idea she felt nervous about going somewhere alone with the Head Mistress. Sophia's smile broadened as if she was reading the girl's mind, "I'm not going to give you a lecture, or anything of that nature, if that is what you are afraid of. I just need you to meet the girls on the platform, nothing more." She assured the girl. Kris nudged Jessica forward with her shoulder, "Go on." She insisted, "Maybe some air will help you." Jessica starred down at her hands in embarrassment, "I don't know... I..." Kris leaned in close to the girl, "Were you not the one who told me to stop mopping around the room and do something? Well I'm telling you the same now." Jessica turned to look at the girl, "Do you think you can handle things here?" She inquired worriedly, "Things can get a little insane around here and with Kim's..." Kris stood and pulled the girl to her feet, "Don't worry about me. I can handle myself." She assured the girl, "You just go and get some air." Sophia carefully stood and Kris rushed to the woman's side to help her up, "Why thank you Kris." She accepted the girl's arm and stood up straight, pressing a hand to her back, "Lords, I never felt this old before." She let out a small chuckle. "You are not old." Kris remarked, "You will be back to normal soon enough." She helped the woman into the hall, with Jessica at Sophia's other side, and the three of them began their way to the main lobby. ***** To be Continued . . .
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