A Hard Thing to Confess
This came completely outta nowhere! O_o I was watching part 1 of
the 7th Heaven season 4 finale, and when I saw the scene where Deena was
talking to her friend Cynthia about why she wanted to break it off with
Simon...somehow, her lines about it being better he didn't know the truth
screamed femslash to me. *nervous laugh* I know the REAL reason was she
was moving away and stuff, but the way she was talking, and how close she
seemed with Cynthia made me think of a girl being afraid to tell a guy
she'd been dating that she was breaking up with him for another girl.
But I've rambled enough here. This fic is pretty innocent-nothing
more than kissing goes on-but it's pretty angsty. Hopefully not TOO
angsty.
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"You're really good. I almost believed you myself," Deena said, smiling
slightly despite the guilt she felt.
"Hey, it's a gift." Her raven-haired companion laughed softly. "Simon's
really a nice guy, though. He obviously likes you a lot," she said. Deena
sighed.
"And I really like him, Cynthia," she said. "That's why..." She paused,
tears filling her eyes. "That's why I can't tell him the truth."
"Deena..." Cynthia looked at the other girl, her face becoming serious. "I
know this is hard for you. It's been hard for us both. But...Simon really
cares about you. Are you sure...?"
"I hate to do this, Cynthia," Deena choked. "But...if he hates me for
supposedly cheating on him, then it'll be easier for him to forget about
me and move on." Her shoulders shook as the tears began to fall. Cynthia
sat down on the bed and put her arms around the brunette.
"You miss him, don't you?" she said, stroking Deena's hair.
"Yeah...he's a great guy and I really care about him...and we've been
through so much," Deena sniffled. "But I just can't feel for him the way
he feels for me anymore." She paused. "I...I can't stand the thought of
hurting him."
"I know."
After a moment of silence, Deena sighed.
"But...eventually we'll have to tell him about us," she said.
"It's not going to be easy," Cynthia warned her gently.
"I know..."
Deena rested her head on her girlfriend's shoulder, closing her eyes
momentarily.
"But...I'm sure he'll understand in time," she said, a weak smile crossing
her lips. "Hey, if he's really the guy I think he is, he will. And...I
don't think Simon would be that put off."
"Yeah! That's more like it," Cynthia said brightly. "Think positive,
Deena, everything'll work out somehow."
Deena lifted her head, and for the first time that night, smiled a genuine
smile.
"Thanks...I feel better now," she said.
"Good."
"You always manage to make me feel better," Deena said. "I love you,
Cynthia."
"I love you too, Deena," Cynthia whispered before leaning in and kissing
her.
~End~
This turned out a bit longer than I expected...but then again, I
wasn't speculating on how long it'd be in the first place, so it's all
good. :)
Like me Brady Bunch femslash fic "True Colors", this also centers
on a relationship involving a minor character...in fact, it takes it a
step further, pairing a minor character who left after 2 seasons and was
never heard from again after a couple cameos in season 5 with an even MORE
minor character who was only in a couple scenes. O_o What is it with me
and minor characters in USTV fics? *nervous laugh* Ah, well. I'm rather
proud of this fic, it was somewhat fun to write. :)
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