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-Solitary girl I have been-
-Living in a cell made of skin-
-Sealed inside myself, nothing gets out or gets in-
-I can't feel what you feel-
Relena looked up from her computer. "Noin?"
"Yes, Relena?"
"Have you ever kissed someone?"
Noin stopped typing abruptly. "What?"
"Have you ever kissed someone?" Relena repeated.
"Yes, why do you ask?"
"I don't know really. I've just been thinking a lot about my life
lately. I don't mind being who I am, but I realize that there are so
many things I've missed out on by being so isolated." Relena picked up
a pen, and began chewing on the end of it, frowning slightly.
"Like kissing?"
"Yes. I mean, I deal with peace and war, and diplomacy and
bureaucracy. But I don't know what it's like to feel another person's
lips on mine. I mean, I'm sure it's nice, but what does it feel like?"
-Show me the way to my heart-
-Show me the way-
-Show me they way to my heart, baby-
-Show me, show me-
"I don't know how to describe it, Relena. A lot depends on the person
you're kissing. It's not an objective thing really. The more intense
your feelings for the person, the better the kiss feels."
"But you have to know what to do too, right? Like where to put your
lips, and what else to do to make the other person feel good as well.
How do you do that?"
Noin blushed slightly, "Well, you just have to practice. It helps if
you kiss someone who knows what they're doing, and doesn't mind
showing you."
"Who was your first kiss?"
"Relena!" Noin blushed more.
"It was my brother, wasn't it? At the academy?"
"No, it wasn't. I, um, shouldn't we get back to work?"
"Noin, please. You're the only one I trust to talk to about this. I
know you'll be honest with me, and even though you think I'm some
fragile innocent, I really want to hear about this. I know the basics
about sex, but I want to know more than clinical details."
Noin blew out a breath forcefully. "Okay, Relena, but this stays in
confidence between us."
"Agreed. Just tell me about your first kiss. Who it was, where it
happened and what it felt like."
-I'll give you everything I possess If you tell me where you keep your
happiness-
-I look more and more and I find less and less-
-I don't know what you know-
-But I make it up as I go-
"It was another cadet at the academy. Her name was Amaya." Noin looked
closely at Relena to judge her reaction.
Relena cocked her head to one side, "Have you ever kissed a man?"
"Yes."
"And? Is it different kissing a woman rather than a man? Which did you
like better?"
"For me, it was different. Kissing the man was just kissing a friend.
I didn't have the same feelings for him that I did for Amaya."
"Did you love her?"
"Yes, I did. Do you find that strange, Relena, that I prefer other
women to men?"
"No. I know that many people do. But to me, love is love, and it
really doesn't matter if it's another woman or a man. I know that men
can love other men too."
Noin attempted to not let her jaw drop to the floor. Perhaps Relena
wasn't as naive as she originally thought. "How do you know that?" she
asked.
"Duo told me. He came to see me one day, and we had a long chat about
love. He's in love with Heero, and he was worried about how I would
feel about that."
"And how *do* you feel about that?"
"I'm happy for them. I did think that I might be in love with Heero,
but I talked to Duo about how he feels about it, and my feelings don't
even come close to his."
-Show me the way to my heart-
-Show me the way-
-Show me they way to my heart, baby-
-Show me, show me-
They sat in silence for a while longer, each lost in their own
thoughts. Finally, Relena spoke. "Noin?"
"Yes, Relena?"
Relena got up from her desk, and walked over to lean against the edge
of Noin's desk. "Will you kiss me?"
Noin dropped her pen, and opened and closed her mouth as she tried to
find words. "What?"
"Will you kiss me? I know I'm not beautiful like Amaya probably was,
but you're probably the one person that I'm closest to, and I want you
to be my first kiss." She crossed her arms, and bit her lip as she
stared at Noin.
"Re...Relena...I....ah...I don't know if that's a good idea."
"Why not?"
"Well, what if you don't like it? And I don't think that you should do
it just to get it out of the way, or to see what it's like. It should
be something that you truly want to do, and the person should be
someone you truly want to do it with. A first kiss is a significant
event, and it should be meaningful."
"Noin, if it were you, it would be meaningful to me. When I was
talking with Duo, I realized that some of the feelings that he has for
Heero were very similar to ones that I have for you. I trust you more
than anyone, and I think that I would enjoy kissing you very much. Do
you want to kiss me, Noin?"
-My fingers search for you while I sleep-
-Looking for something to keep-
-Help me feel what you feel-
Noin took another deep breath. Relena stood before her, waiting for an
answer. She couldn't lie to her. "Yes, Relena, I would like to kiss
you. If you're sure."
Relena held out her hand, and smiled. Noin stood up, placing her hand
in Relena's. She hadn't been this nervous for her own first kiss.
Gazing into the shining blue eyes looking up at her, she felt her
stomach jump with anticipation. She drew Relena towards her, letting
her arms wrap around the other woman. Reaching up with one hand, she
smoothed Relena's hair back, and let her hand continue down to caress
her face. "You are so beautiful," she breathed, moving her lips slowly
closer. She wanted to make this moment special for Relena. She
continued to caress Relena's face with her hand as she brushed her
lips gently across her cheek. Patiently, she dropped small kisses all
over, and paused over the moist, pink lips turned towards her.
She lowered her lips to Relena's, and felt her respond. Deepening the
kiss, she drew the smaller woman towards her, holding her tightly.
Relena's arms tightened around Noin as well, and she made little
sounds of pleasure in her throat. Tracing her tongue lightly along
Relena's lips, Noin felt the answering response, and sought out the
silky softness inside Relena's mouth. Gently, wordlessly, she guided
Relena, who was overwhelmed with enjoying all of the sensations.
Tongues met, lips caressed, and they explored each other with growing
passion.
Noin broke the kiss to trail kisses down the other woman's neck,
licking, sucking and nipping as she went. A whimper of pleasure from
Relena was met with a groan of delight from Noin.
-Show me the way to my heart-
-Show me the way-
-Show me they way to my heart, baby-
-Show me, show me-
"More, Noin," Relena gasped, beginning to unbutton the dark-haired
woman's shirt. "I want to feel more, I *need* to feel more."
Noin struggled for breath. "Relena, we should, we should, oh, god, we
should stop." But, her mouth kept breathing light kisses along
Relena's neck as she whispered the words.
"No, please, no, don't stop. I've never felt this way before. I need
you." Instinct was guiding her, and her hand was inside the unbuttoned
shirt now, making it's way to Noin's breast. Both moaned as Relena's
fingers found a hardened nipple, and began to stroke it softly.
"Oh Relena," Noin slowly pushed Relena's shirt up, and let her hands
enjoy the feel of the translucent soft skin underneath. They drifted
towards the floor together, lying next to one another as their hands
explored, and their skin grew moist with desire. Clothing came off
slowly as they let their eyes feast on the newly exposed flesh. Their
kisses grew in intensity, and they pressed closer as they embraced.
Endearments were whispered, and kissed into being.
-Show me the way to my heart-
-Show me the way-
-Show me they way to my heart, baby-
-Show me, show me-
Relena was overcome with emotion, and craved more. She let her kisses
drift lower, taking one supple breast into her mouth, and lavishing it
with kisses. Kissing down Noin's abdomen, she loved the feel of the
other woman's skin next to hers. She slid back up Noin's body, never
breaking contact. Noin's eyes opened, and she smiled as she looked at
Relena -- hair mussed, lips swollen from kissing, eyes heavy and dark
with desire. Relena smiled back, and leaned in for another intense
kiss. Finally remembering to breathe, Relena buried her face in Noin's
neck. "Noin?"
"Yes, Relena?" Noin struggled to speak, as Relena licked and kissed
around her earlobe.
"Make love to me." Relena pressed her mouth to Noin's again, and
arched her body in need.
"Mmmmm," Noin replied, moving closer still to Relena in response, and
aching with want.
No more words were spoken as they let passion take over.
Sweat-drenched skin against sweat-drenched skin, they moved against
each other. Noin's hand moved between Relena's legs, and she slowly
found her way through the tangle of curls to the soft flesh beneath.
Relena moved restlessly, seeking more. Never breaking their kiss,
Noin's fingers moved deftly, in and out, stroking, surrounding,
caressing. Relena's hands ran over Noin's flesh, moving to her
breasts, her belly, her bottom. Her senses stimulated to the breaking
point, she felt a wave of white light move over her, and she screamed
her joy as she dove into it. Trembling, and warm all over, she curled
closer to Noin. Legs intertwined, they lay together as their heart
rates came back to normal, and their breathing leveled out.
"Noin?"
"Yes, Relena, love?"
"Is this what it feels like every time?"
"No, Relena. It's never felt this way before for me."
"Mmmm," Relena sighed contentedly. "Good. Can we do it again soon?"
Noin laughed, and kissed her lover soundly. "Yes, but let's rest a bit
first, okay?"
"Okay. Noin, thank you. This is more beautiful than I ever could have
imagined."
"For me too, Relena, for me too."
Smiling, and still wrapped up together, they drifted to sleep.
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