Trip, Fall, Forgive Me
Sometimes Tamahome makes me wonder if he's worth it. He's so dense
sometimes! Not that I can really talk... but, I wish he didn't have to
be such a *guy*. It's awful. It really is. I'm fighting against my best
friend, and I think I might be in love with her, and I'm here with
several really cute, wonderful guys, and I can't control my stupid
hormones! Argh! At least Yui-chan doesn't stare at my breasts.
But, if she did, would she like them? Iie! I feel like such a pervert
or something. I shouldn't wonder if Yui-chan likes my breasts. I
shouldn't wonder what hers look like. However, I can't help it! As much
as I like guys, there's just that certain attraction to someone who
knows what kind of stuff you have to go through. Yui-chan knows me
better than anyone else... and she is prettier than I am... much
prettier.
I wonder what would have happened if I'd told her how I felt. Maybe
then we'd still be friends, maybe more. Of course, maybe she'd hate me
more than she does now... not that *that* is possible.
I'm a fool. I really, truly am a fool. I get transported to another
world, and suddenly, I forget all about Yui-chan. What she doesn't
realize is that I remembered really fast. After the initial shock wore
off, I was actively looking for her. Of course, *then* I get swept up
in all of this Suzaku stuff. It's all one big distraction!
Right now, all I want is for Yui to forgive me, and let me hug her.
She'll smell like jasmine and lavender. Her hair will tickle my nose.
My arms will wrap around her tiny waist, and hers will go around my
neck. We'll whisper secrets in each other's ears, and smile, and laugh
like it was old times. At least, that's how it plays out in my mind.
I wish I could convince her that Nakago does not have her best
interests in mind. All he wants is for her to call Seiryuu!
We've also got that problem with Tamahome. She wants him, I've got him.
I'd give him up if I could have her instead. But, I do love him. She's
just... even more special to me.
We said we'd never let a guy come between us. What happened, Yui-chan?
We let more than a guy come between us. There's a war, a world, and a
million bits of misunderstanding in addition to Tamahome.
I'd give anything to have you back. You don't know how much you mean to
me! It's everything. You've been my world for so long, and now you're
refusing to be part of it. It hurts, Yui-chan. Nothing has ever hurt
this badly... not my worst fall, not stabbing myself in the heart...
Nothing hurts as much as losing you.
Please, Yui-chan... forgive me. Let me back into your arms so I can let
you know how firmly stuck you are in my heart.
And, then? We'll go out for Chinese.
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