Rikku stood on the deck of the Celcius, staring into the oblivion as it fly by in a slow, sleepy pace. Brother was whining about how Yuna could just up and leave like that after all they had been through. He just could not get over his "crush" on her. How old was he? 21, 22...25? Woouldn't he be a little too.."old" for "crushes"? Well...Rikku sure thought he should get his act together. After the events that transpired between her and Paine she had become more, withdrawn..more...stabilized...not quite as energetic and nowhere near as happy. Even Shinra, who seemed to be always lost in his own world began to worry about her. What could change a happy-go-lucky, energetic girl, into a mopey, somber, girl, just like that? It would have had to been something, terribly bad... Rikku rolled everything over in her mind leading up to the events between her and Paine, as it went like this: Travel all over Spira. Fall in love with Yuna along the way. Bashed head against wall to try to tame her thoughts and convince herself she's straight. Sleeps with Gippal to convince herself as well. Sleeps in Djose temple for a few days. Gippal wants more sex. Rikku refuses. Gippal takes it. Rikku pissed, feels worthless, used, abused, sluttish. Has to work alongside Gippal to defeat Venagun. Rikku can't look him straight in the eye. Falls in love with Yuna again, get pissed because she can't get rid of her feelings towards Yuna. Paine attempts to comfort Rikku. Rikku refuses again and again until Paine, speaks and says: "You know...if you're going to refuse help, stop acting like something bothering you. It's annoying and it pisses me off. So, either you accept my help or stop acting so fucking bummed out. Take your pick." Paine exits. Rikku more pissed. Yuna finds Tidus, settles down with him. Brother blames Yuna's exit on Rikku, saying she clung too much to her. Rikku sulks and begins to believe it. Paine confesses her love for Rikku. Rikku has enough and slugs Paine. Paine forget about event. Rikku commands Buddy to go to Besaid. Rikku acts as she always does around Yuna, then after her and Paine are out of sight, she begins fighting with Paine again. Rikku invites Yuna to go on one last mission for the GullWings. Yuna agrees. Rikku plots against Paine.. They go to Macalania Woods. Rikku stabs Paine in back. Rikku says it's time to go. Yuna agrees. Everyone goes their separate ways. Rikku bit her lip as his face quivered, then her thumb nail with to her mouth as she bit on it and tears began to flow from her face. What had she done. At the time it felt so right to take her anger out on Paine. Paine was always so distant...it was like she wasn't even there..Paine was like an inanimate object sometimes...and that time had been one of them. Rikku feel to her knees and cried softly. As she retraced the series of events, her mind came to a startling halt. Eventhough it had felt so right to take her anger out on Paine, she came to frightening realization that, as she let things pile up on her that she had taken her anger out on her friend, not her enemy. She couldn't remember the last time she had actually cried. She just had to find Paine...to...apologize..but...Paine was so...brutal..would she be forgiven? Would Paine be able to forgive her, after what she had done to her? Rikku slowly stood up and nodded determinately(not sure if it's a real word, but go with it, ok?). Even if Paine would not be able to forgive her, as long as she did her best, she would be able to sleep a little bit better at night. Then a thought hit her and she sat back down. Where in the hell would she even begin to look for Paine? "Ooooooh...poopie!" She shouted out to no one. Knowing Paine, she wasn't the one to likely stay in one place...right? Ooooh, how wrong Rikku was...
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