Because She Is
You love her because....
She's beautiful? Well, to you she is, but to others she is only pretty,
attractive. Cute. But you are satisfied with thinking she's beautiful,
because you're the one who sees her before the sun has risen, when her
vision is hazy with sleep, and her dark eyes are warm with love, and
perhaps a bit of passion that she managed to keep awake, even when her
body was at rest. You're the one who hears, "Good morning," in a voice
husky with sleep, the one who sees her tousled hair and her soft, lithe
body against white sheets, and her, 'I'm still very tired but last night
was wonderful,' smile, and you know that, though the rest of the world
might not see it, that she is beautiful...
Because...
you observe her, and you have, even when she was younger, much younger,
and more of a subordinate than she is now. You watched her when it was
wrong to, and you watch her twice as much, now that it's right. She is
warm, and very bright. She is a star, brilliant and iridescent.
Sometimes, she is too much, a spring of energy, of bright, wonderful
light, and you feel unworthy, small and insignificant. She tells you
that she should be the one that feels that way, and you let her light
and warmth nourish you....
Because...
if you didn't, you'd be lost. When Mi'hen came, and with it, Sin, and
everyone and everything was gone, your mind regressed. Basic thoughts.
Breathe, run, fight. Find. And when you tripped over bodies too damaged
to recognize, swallowed the bile in your throat because the stench of
Sin's toxin was too much to handle...and you saw her there, on the
shore, so small, and convered in blood. You staggered over to her and
held her, sobbed into her hair until she whispered in a soft, pitiful
voice, that she was alright. You told her she wasn't, and that it was
your fault, because it was, and she laughed until you were both crying.
It is hard to laugh, even now, but she makes it a little easier. When
you wake up screaming and shivering, she holds you, and you whimper like
a child in her arms. She is safety...
because...
she has always been there, even when you didn't know it. She has been
with you when you only spoke to her to bark orders, when you traveled
together, fighting fiends, when you both questioned your faith, and
later, with the fall of Sin and Yevon, denounced it. She is with you
now, your troops have settled down, and she leans against your shoulder
and sighs. This is what happiness is, you think.
"I love you," you say. She laughs.
"Why?"
"Well..." and you smile, "just because."
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