Tomoyo Daidouji's Unfathomable Heart
FRIDAY:
As I open the special 'memory' chest and take out the eraser I am
reminded ever so much more how I love her. I can hardly believe it's
been two years now. We are both twelve and I am still unable to tell
her I love her, I mean really love her. I told her many times that I
love her but she would always take it as a love between two best
friends and return the love as such. I wish I could find the courage
to tell her that the love I have for her is that of a lover but the
fear of ruining our friendship over it is to powerful. I hug the
eraser tightly to my chest for a few moments and then return it to the
chest. It was time to go to school.
"Hello Tomoyo-Chan" Sakura said as she caught up with her.
"Hello Sakura-Chan" Tomoyo responded with her usual radiant smile.
"Would you like to sleep over my house tonight Sakura?" Tomoyo asked
with a hint of hope in her voice. "I would love to Tomoyo. I really
enjoy our sleep-overs." Sakura responded with a smile that seems to
glow brighter than the sun itself. Tomoyo thanked her for accepting
the invitation and by this time the two had arrived at school. They
both sat down in their desks and got ready for class to start.
Tomoyo would catch herself staring at Sakura from time to time as
she always did in the past. Doing this would always give her a warm
fuzzy feeling inside her that would always remind her of just how deep
her love for Sakura really is. "I've got to tell her that I love
her." she thought to herself. The day wore on and eventually school
was closed for the weekend.
"Let's go get some ice cream Tomoyo-Chan. My treat." Sakura
said as she gently took hold of Tomoyo's hand. Tomoyo felt herself
blush as Sakura took her hand saying, "That sounds like fun
Sakura-Chan. But, you don't have to treat me." Sakura placed a
finger on Tomoyo's lips politely hushing her and said, "I want to
Tomoyo-Chan. Please let me treat you to ice cream." Tomoyo just
smiled and told her alright. This made Sakura very happy.
When they finally arrived at the ice cream parlor Sakura bought
two ice cream cones and proceeded to sit across from Tomoyo. The two
would eat some of their ice cream and then start talking about
different things. Sakura would notice that Tomoyo would blush a
little from time to time. She then said, "Tomoyo-Chan, are you
alright. I notice your cheeks getting red every once in awhile."
"I'm fine Sakura-Chan. Sometimes my mind wonders off into personal
feelings that tend to be a little embarrassing. Thanks for worrying
though." Sakura giggled and responded with, "Your welcome
Tomoyo-Chan. Besides, I know how you feel. My mind does the same
thing to me sometimes." Both girls smiled at each other and giggled.
They then finished up their ice cream and left the parlor.
As they walked down the streets the two best friends eventually
got to Tomoyo's house. "Is your mom home Tomoyo-Chan?" Sakura asked.
"No she's not. She won't be home till tomorrow." Tomoyo said in a
somewhat sad voice. "Okay then." Sakura said. "I need to go home and
get my overnight supplies. Then I'll come right back, Okay." Tomoyo
nodded with a smile and said, "I'll be waiting." With that Sakura
rushed home and told her dad that she would be staying over at
Tomoyo's house tonight. Her dad nodded his agreement and said, "Will
you be eating there then?" "Yes. Her mom won't be home until
tomorrow and I can't let my best friend eat by herself." Sakura
responded. "Tomoyo is so lucky to have a friend like you." her dad
said. Sakura thanked him for the compliment and went upstairs to pack
her an overnight bag.
She arrived at Tomoyo's house and rang the doorbell. Seconds
later Tomoyo opened the door and said, "Hello Sakura-Chan. I'm so
glad you decided to stay the night with me. I get so lonely when my
mom isn't here." "I'm happy to be here Tomoyo-Chan."Sakura said with
her trademark smile that seems to warm up the entire mansion. "Have
you eaten yet?" Tomoyo asked Sakura. "Not yet. I thought it would be
fun to eat here with you. Is that all right Tomoyo-Chan?" Sakura
said with a cheery voice. Tomoyo summoned all her might to keep from
crying and managed to do so saying, "It's perfectly alright
Sakura-Chan. I shall cook your favorite dish tonight." Sakura smiled
and blushed a little thanking Tomoyo for her kindness. Of course
Sakura couldn't see Tomoyo's bright red cheeks.
As Tomoyo finished cooking their supper, Sakura helped her set
the table. The two then sat down at the table across from one another
and at the same time said, "Let's eat." The two would converse a
little while they ate. Causing each other to blush a little at some
of the things they talked about. They continued eating when Sakura
accidently rubbed against Tomoyo's feet with her own. This paralyzed
Tomoyo for a few seconds as her cheeks felt warm. Sakura's cheeks
also felt warm as she said, "Um..I'm...um...oh....um...sorry
...um...Tomoyo-Chan." "That's...al..rig...ht Sakura-Chan.
No...ne..ed to apologize." Tomoyo shyly said. Tomoyo had never felt
so wonderful in her life. Sakura's brief touch with her feet sent
Tomoyo on a roller coaster ride of wonderful thoughts and feelings.
If she had any doubts about her love for Sakura before, she knew she
didn't now. She wanted so much to reach across the table and give
Sakura a kiss so intense that Sakura would have no choice but to love
her back. But she summoned all her might and suppressed that urge
successfully. The two remained pretty quiet after that and proceeded
to finish their dinner. Once done, they washed and dried their plates
and proceeded to the den to watch some television.
Time seemed to slowly chug along as if to allow those two to be
together for as long as possible. Eventually it became eight-thirty
and Sakura suddenly said, "I'm getting sleepy. What say we take a
shower and go to bed." Tomoyo blushed at the idea as she's done many
times before when they would take a shower together. She then
responded with, "Okay Sakura-Chan. That sounds like a wonderful idea.
I'm getting a little sleepy myself." With that said the two girls
went upstairs to Tomoyo's room. They removed their clothes and caught
each other looking at one another. They both blushed heavily and
Tomoyo spoke up first with a shy voice saying, "You are very pretty
Sakura-Chan." "You are very pretty also Tomoyo-Chan." Sakura
responded in an equally shy voice. Well, once that was done the two
proceeded to the bathroom and took a shower. Ten minutes later they
finished showering and while still naked went to the mirror and
proceeded to fix their hair and brush their teeth. Five more minutes
went by and they went back to Tomoyo's room.
"Would it be alright if I slept in the nude Tomoyo-Chan?" Tomoyo
blushed and told Sakura that it would be fine with her. The two then
got into Tomoyo's bed, laid down, told each other good night and went
to bed. Well, Sakura managed to go to sleep anyway. Tomoyo was too
nervous to get to sleep. Her heart was pounding a mile a minute.
Sakura was sleeping in the same bed as her and they were both naked.
She wound up on her wonderful roller coaster again as she lay there
facing her best friend. "She is just so cute when she sleeps." Tomoyo
thought to herself. She then, as quietly as possible, turned around
so she was facing the opposite direction. "I WILL tell her my true
feelings toward her. I Will tell her tomorrow." She said to herself
in a determined whisper. Eventually, Tomoyo was finally able to drift
off into a sound sleep.
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SATURDAY:
Well, today is to be the day I tell Sakura just how much I love
her. I packed us a nice lunch and then headed for her house. When I
got there I noticed she was sitting on her front step waiting for me.
"Good morning Tomoyo-Chan. Let's get going." Sakura said with a
cheerful smile on her face. "Good morning Sakura-Chan. Onward to
Penguin Park." Tomoyo replied with an equally cheerful smile. "What
am I afraid of?" Tomoyo thought to herself. This is Sakura. Her best
friend who is caring and always putting others before herself. The
two walked to the park enjoying each others company.
When they finally reached the park Tomoyo sat the lunch basket on
a picnic table and the two headed for the swings. Tomoyo's heart
started to race as she tried to figure out just how she was going to
tell Sakura that she was passionately in love with her. "Umm,
Sakura-Chan" Tomoyo said in a low, shy voice. "What is it
Tomoyo-Chan?" Sakura responded with a little smile on her face.
"I....I mean....I...I love...you Sakura-Chan. I love you as a lover.
I'm sorry if..." Tomoyo stopped talking when she looked at Sakura and
noticed her smile had disappeared. "Sakura-Chan?" Tomoyo said with a
scared look on her face. Sakura did not respond but only got up out
of her swing.
She walked in front of Tomoyo, grabbed her arms and forced her
out of the swing. "You what?!" Sakura said with a stern, hardened
look on her face. "I'm in love with you Sakura-Chan. I've been in
love with you ever since we became best friends." Tomoyo said
nervously, not really looking directly at Sakura. "I thought that's
what you said." Sakura said with a fearful voice. At this point, her
anger had taken over and she punched Tomoyo right in the stomach.
This sent Tomoyo into the ground gasping for air. "You
disgusting....How could you even....I mean were both....What is wrong
with you?" Sakura couldn't get full sentences out. She was totally
grossed out by her best friends confession.
"Sa..ku..ra..-Ch..an...Why di...OWW!" Before she could finish Sakura
forcefully grabbed Tomoyo's hair and forced her to look up. Tomoyo
was crying heavily. She knew that she had ruined her friendship with
Sakura. Still holding onto Tomoyo's hair painfully tight she said
"Don't you EVER call me Sakura-Chan again! In fact don't even talk to
me anymore, you disgusting, sick pervert! We are no longer friends!"
Sakura then pushed Tomoyo's head back into the ground releasing her
hair. Hearing those words come from Sakura was equivalent to someone
taking a really dull jagged knife and continuously stabbing her in the
heart with it. Tomoyo was so heartbroken and full of tears she could
not say or do anything.
Sakura was about to walk away when she decided to do something
that would shock everyone she knew. She called for her Star wand and
one of her Sakura cards. Tomoyo managed to look at Sakura with her
wand and card and couldn't help but wonder what card it was. As
Tomoyo struggled to stand up she heard Sakura as she released the
card. "SWORD!" Sakura had called the Sword and within mere seconds
her Star wand became a deadly sword. Tomoyo became extremely scared
at this and slowly said, "Sakura-Chan?! Why? What did I do to
deserve such hate from you. Plea..." Before she could finish Sakura
ran up to her and punched her in the stomach again. "I told you not
to call me that again! It's time to end your pathetic life once and
for all! We don't need your kind around here!" All Tomoyo could do
was curl up in a fragile little ball and cry. Cry for the lose of
their friendship, cry for making Sakura angry, and cry for being a
'screwed-up' little girl. "GET UP!!"Sakura demanded. Tomoyo just lay
their, still crying. "I SAID GET UP!!!" Sakura yelled again as she
kicked her. Tomoyo was going through all the fear related emotions.
Sadness, fear, nervousness, confusion. She tried with all her might
and courage to get up for Sakura, but she just couldn't do it. She
wound up laying face down in the ground. "Sakura-Ch..Sakura, please
tell me why?" Tomoyo pleaded between tears.
It hurt her so much that she couldn't say Sakura-Chan. But she
didn't dare make Sakura any more angry with her then she already was.
Sakura just ignored her and said in a voice so frightening that
the Fiery card would turn cold, "I TOLD YOU TO GET UP AND I MEAN
IT!!!!" "I can't." Tomoyo said in a weak, scared voice. "You hurt me
to much." She concluded and started crying really hard. "So be it
then!" Sakura grabbed Tomoyo's hair and pulled her up by pure force.
She then pushed her against the swing and called for her rope card to
tie her to one of the poles. Tomoyo was all but gone now. She was
crying so hard that she couldn't even feel her face. Sakura again
punched her in the stomach and said, "Enjoy your eternal torment in
hell you disgusting piece of garbage!" Tomoyo gathered all the
courage she could to look up at Sakura and said, "I still love you
Sakura- Chan. I will always love you. My only regret is that I hurt
you so much." With that Sakura thrust her sword all the way through
Tomoyo's chest, making sure to penetrate her 'corrupt' heart.......
Tomoyo woke up totally soaked from sweat and fear. She was so
terrified at the nightmare that when she realized Sakura was sleeping
in bed with her, she dashed out of bed with no clothes on, went to a
corner, curled up into a little naked ball, and started crying.
"Tomoyo-Chan?!" Sakura said as she woke up to her best friends crying.
Tomoyo wasn't in bed and she couldn't see her best friend anywhere
though she could hear her crying. So she quickly got out of the bed
and turned the light on. She then spotted her best friend curled up
in a corner and felt a few tears form in her own eyes. Sakura walked
over to Tomoyo and placed her hand on Tomoyo's head. Before she could
say anything Tomoyo got really scared, "I'm sorry Sakura-Ch....Sakura,
Please don't hurt me. Please forgive me." She never looked up at
Sakura as she said this. Sakura's heart felt like it shattered into a
million tiny pieces as she heard her friend say that. "Ever since we
became friends she would always call me Sakura-Chan. Now it's like
she's afraid to and for some reason she is terrified of me." Sakura
felt more tears run down her cheek as she thought that to herself.
She shook her head fighting back the tears. Sitting down next to
Tomoyo she began caressing her hair. Tomoyo was obviously terrified
remembering Sakura pulling her hair painfully in her nightmare.
"Tomoyo-Chan, I need you to calm down okay. I am your best friend and
I would never do anything to hurt you. Nothing you could ever do can
make me hurt and/or hate you." Sakura continued stroking her friends
hair. After awhile it seems Sakura's kind words helped soothe
Tomoyo's fears a little. For the first time since the nightmare she
was able to look up at Sakura. Still unable to say anything she
slowly uncurled herself from her ball state and slowly sat up against
the wall. She was still crying. Sakura decided to give her a hug as
best as she could. She then kissed her on the cheek and said, "I love
you Tomoyo-Chan." Tomoyo hugged Sakura back while still crying and
shaking every so often saying, "I love you too Sakura-Chan. You are
my best friend." Tomoyo knew Sakura meant the friends type of love
but oddly enough she didn't mind. She was just happy that Sakura was
there consoling her after her horrific nightmare. Sakura's face lit
up as she heard that. "You called me Sakura-Chan again. That makes
me so happy Tomoyo-Chan." Sakura then took Tomoyo's hand into hers
and said in a calm, almost motherly style voice, "Now, would you like
to tell me what on earth made you so scared of me." Tomoyo thought
about it for a minute and then decided to tell Sakura everything.
Including her undying love for her. Sakura could not hold back ay
longer. She grabbed Tomoyo and gave her the biggest compassionate hug
that she possibly could. She then busted out in tears. "Tomoyo-Chan.
How....How could you ever think I could do that to you. No wonder you
were terrified of me." Tomoyo then wrapped her arms around Sakura and
the two began hugging each other for what seemed like forever.
As Tomoyo felt tears form in her eyes again she said in a
saddened voice, "Sakura-Chan, is there something wrong with me? I
know were both girls but the love I feel for you is unmatched by
anyone. When I'm with you I feel there is nothing that can harm me.
Is it wrong to love you in this way? Please tell me, Sakura-Chan."
She then broke out into full fledged tears. Sakura just continued to
hug Tomoyo for a few more minutes and then broke the hug. She then
took Tomoyo's hands into hers and lifted her up as she lifted herself
up. She led Tomoyo to her bed and asked her to sit down. Tomoyo
complied wiping the tears from her eyes as she did so. Sakura then
went to her bag and pulled out a little fuzzy box. She then returned
to Tomoyo and while taking hold of her hands again got on one knee.
"Tomoyo-Chan, I hope that what I'm about to say will answer all your
questions." Sakura nervously said. "Sakura-Chan?!" Tomoyo said in a
low, shy, nervous voice. Sakura opened the little fuzzy box revealing
a diamond ring, "Tomoyo-Chan, I know this may seem that I'm rushing
things, but.....Will you marry me?" Tomoyo couldn't even remember her
own name for a second let alone how to talk after hearing that from
Sakura. She was back on that wonderful roller coaster of hers. When
she was finally able to control herself again she responded in the
happiest of voices, "Sakura-Chan. Yes, Yes, a million times yes.
Nothing in this entire universe would make me happier than to marry
you." Sakura was beaming with unsurpassed joy as she removed the
diamond ring from the box and placed it on Tomoyo's finger. Sakura
then got up and kissed Tomoyo passionately on the lips. Tomoyo kissed
her back and Sakura couldn't help but notice a hint of puzzlement on
Tomoyo's face. Sakura easily fixed that by smiling while saying, "So,
even you can get puzzled." she giggled and continued, "I realized I
was in love with you about a year and a half ago Tomoyo-Chan. Like
you, fear kept me from saying anything. So what if were both girls.
We were finally able to tell each other that we loved one another
thanks to that horrific nightmare of yours. I am so looking forward
to spending the rest of my life with you. My dear, sweet, caring
fianc‚." "Oh Sakura-Chan." Tomoyo said. "I love you so much. I to
am looking forward to our life together. You have made me so happy.
I shall cherish this ring forever."
Tomoyo then crawled up into bed and lay face up in her pillow.
Sakura quickly got the message and slowly crawled into bed on top of
Tomoyo. They gave each other a wonderful, passionate, warm kiss and
proceeded to make love. Neither one was nervous or shy about it.
Neither one blushed. They were truly in love and they were engaged to
be married. They were in their own little world, just the two of
them. After about an hour of sex they decided it was time to go to
bed. They maintained their loving embrace on one another knowing that
they were not sleeping together as friends, nor were they sleeping
together as just lovers. No, they were extremely happy because they
were sleeping together as an engaged couple and nobody was going to
take that away from them. "I love you Sakura-Chan and good night."
"I love you to Tomoyo-Chan and good night." They gave each other a
kiss good-night and slowly drifted off into a place full of wonderful
dreams, never releasing each other from their warm embrace.
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Some notes on the story:
I was initially just going to make this one of Tomoyo's worst case
scenarios but decided to make it a full blown complete mini story :)
I am a big fan of Cardcaptor Sakura and like many feel that Sakura and
Tomoyo belong together :)
I would like to give a very special thank you to Clamp industries for
bringing this wonderful anime series over here uncut on DVD :)
I would also like to take this opportunity to thank all the wonderful
people that created Cardcaptor Sakura :)
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