In the Middle
"Sakura?"
"Yes, Shoaoran?"
"I've come to a decision. I'm going back to Hong Kong."
"Oh. Okay. How long are you going to be gone?
"I'm not coming back."
"Don't joke about things like that! It's not funny!"
"It's not a joke. I think you will be happier without me."
"How can you say that?! I love you!"
"And I love you. But it's obvious that I'm just keeping you away from
Tomoyo. I can see that you love her more than you love me."
"Tomoyo? No! Sure I love her. But as a friend! That's all!"
"No, Sakura. That's not all. She is a lot more than just a friend to
you. When you haven't seen her for even a couple of days, your eyes
lose their sparkle. And your voice changes too. It gets dull and
lifeless. You can't live without her." Sakura wanted to say this
wasn't true, but she knew that she did miss her friend a lot when they
were separated.
"But Shoaoran! I don't want to live without you..."
"And I don't want to live without you. But I really think that Tomoyo
can make you happier than I can. She loves you so much. You are the
center of her life. Losing you would kill her. I can't let that
happen. So I'm going. Come and visit sometime. I'm going to miss you
a lot, but I will survive."
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"Sakura. You said on the phone that Shoaoran left you? When? Why?"
"I got a phone call from him this morning. He said that I loved you
more than I loved him and that you couldn't live without me and he
didn't want to take me away from you."
"That baka! He loves you as much as anyone could possibly love anyone
else. I'll bet he's really miserable right now." Sakura was surprised
at how angry Tomoyo was. It was really unusual for her.
"Well, I miss him too. So what should I do?"
"Go to Hong Kong and bring him back. There is still a week of summer
break left. And I'll go with you just in case you weaken."
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Shoaoran agreed to see the two girls but he was adamant about Sakura
staying with Tomoyo. "But Shoaoran, Sakura is straight. She needs a
guy. I can't possibly give her what you can!"
"Have you two done it together?" Tomoyo was shocked while Sakura had no
idea what Shoaoran was talking about. So she watched quietly while
Tomoyo and Shoaoran talked.
"NO! We haven't done it. Why would you ask such a thing?!"
"Well, don't tell me how straight she is until you've done it. I heard
that two girls can have more fun than a girl and a guy."
"Shoaoran! I am not about to do anything improper with Sakura. And
that is final! And I ought to tell your mother about the things you are
saying to us."
"There is no need to tell me. I heard. The walls here are very thin
and you are both talking very loud. So how about if I settle this
disagreement for you? I have some magic that will show just how much
Sakura loves each of you. And how much you love her. Would that be
acceptable?" After some hesitation, all three parties agreed.
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"The first thing you must remember is that love and sexual attraction
are two entirely separate things. And they are both important. Thus, I
have a test for each. First we will test Sakura and Shoaoran. Take one
of these little squares of paper and put it in your mouth. Just keep
them on top of your tongue. Try not to get them too wet. Now sit here
facing each other and take each others hands and hold them. Now look
into each others eyes for a moment and think of how you feel about the
other person." A few seconds later she continued speaking. "Very good
now, Sakura, take your paper and place it where it says "Sakura's love
for Shoaoran". Good. Now Shoaoran, you put yours where it says
Shoaoran's love for Sakura. Now here is another piece of paper for you
Sakura and here is one for you Tomoyo. Sit and do as Sakura and
Shoaoran did." Again there was a pause before she continued. "Now I
would like to try one more test. Sakura, you can get up. Shoaoran, you
take Sakura's place. Now here are two more pieces of paper."
"But why are you doing this? We aren't a couple?" Shoaoran wanted to
know.
"My own curiosity? Why would two people who both love Sakura, each be
trying to make her pick the other person? Hum? Now go ahead and take
each others hands and look deep into each others eyes. Come on,
Shoaoran, do it please? That's better... Now place yours, Shoaoran,
here where it says Shoaoran's love for Tomoyo. And yours, Tomoyo, goes
here of course."
After the love part of the test was done they all went through the same
thing with yellow papers instead of white ones.
"There, now that we have all the results, let's look at love first.
Unfolding each paper will reveal the result in the form of a red, blue
or a mixture of the two colors. The size, shape and color of the mark
appearing on each paper shows the degree, the purity, and to some extent
the sort of feelings. A larger mark generally means a stronger feeling.
A pure red mark signifies pure unselfish love. Blue indicates
possessiveness. We won't go into other colors, as I don't expect to see
them."
Shoaoran's love for Sakura showed a wide pure red bar straight across
the paper. "A good, very strong, very pure love." Was Shoaoran's
mothers verdict. Sakura and Tomoyo both nodded as it was just as they
expected.
Sakura's love for Shoaoran looked just about the same. Also no surprise
to anyone.
Sakura's love for Tomoyo however was a very large red spot that was
fuzzy around the edges. "Ah less clear and direct love, but still very
pure and very strong."
But when she unfolded Tomoyo's love for Sakura, the whole paper was
blood red. "Ah. This I have never seen before. I would say that
Tomoyo's love for Sakura is very special indeed."
"See?" Shoaoran said firmly. Sakura just stared with her eyes really
big.
The paper for Shoaoran's love for Tomoyo had another pure red bar about
two thirds the size his for Sakura. "Ah, as I suspected. This would
explain why Shoaoran doesn't want to hurt Tomoyo." Shoaoran just looked
at the floor while Tomoyo looked about as surprised as Sakura. Now
let's see how Tomoyo feels about Shoaoran.
This paper had a red spot, only a little smaller than Sakura's for
Tomoyo, except it had sharp edges. "And this would explain why Tomoyo
was so adamant about Sakura staying with Shoaoran. She not only didn't
want to hurt Sakura but she didn't want to hurt Shoaoran either." Now
it was Tomoyo's turn to look at the floor. And Shoaoran's turn to look
surprised.
"So it seems we have three people here who all love each other quite a
lot. Now let's check for sexual attraction. The rules are just about
the same."
Sakura's attraction for Shoaoran was a very large red spot. "Ah, an
impressive amount of attraction." Tomoyo smiled while Shoaoran just
looked at Sakura who was looking at the floor.
Shoaoran's attraction for Sakura was a spot about half the size of
Sakura's. "A smaller but still respectable attraction." Now it was
Shoaoran's turn to look at the floor.
Sakura's attraction for Tomoyo showed a spot about the same size as
Shoaoran's for Sakura. "Ah, that's interesting." Tomoyo looked really
shocked while Sakura got really red.
Tomoyo's attraction for Sakura was a very large red spot, even larger
than Sakura's for Shoaoran. As Tomoyo blushed and Sakura looked
shocked, Shoaoran's mother commented. "You must have a lot of self
control, Tomoyo." But Tomoyo didn't comment.
Then came Shoaoran's attraction for Tomoyo. A red spot as large as
Sakura's for Shoaoran. Now Shoaoran was blushing a lot while both
Sakura and Tomoyo looked shocked. "Interesting, but don't be too
concerned about this Sakura, remember Love is separate from sex.
Finally came Tomoyo's attraction for Shoaoran. A spot about half the
size of Sakura's for Tomoyo. "Small, but not insignificant."
Shoaoran's mother concluded. "The solution to your problem Sakura is
simply to keep both of your loves. Ordinarily this wouldn't work, but
in this case your two loves love each other. So the relationship should
work as a triad. The three couples can take turns going out, or all
three of you can go out together." Sakura and Tomoyo looked stunned but
Shoaoran protested.
"Wait a second here! You say I alternate going out with both of them?"
Exactly. And every third time your two girls should go out with each
other.
"That's weird." Shoaoran complained.
"Perhaps, but I think if you all work at it such an arrangement could
make all three of you happy."
"What about marriage? Three people can't get married." Tomoyo brought
up.
"Not legally. Only one ceremony would be legal. But I still think you
should still have three separate ceremonies, to marry the three couples.
"So I could make matching wedding gowns for Sakura and myself and we
could have a ceremony with the two of us." This thought took Tomoyo out
of the discussion with stars in her eyes.
"If you are uncomfortable with this arrangement, Shoaoran, think of it
this way. You get to marry Sakura, and have Tomoyo as a concubine to
have sex with." This quieted Shoaoran right down. "How about you,
Sakura? What do you think of my idea?"
"I like it. This way I get to keep both of them." She smiled.
"True. But you saw the sexual attraction readings. I'm sure you won't
have any problems with Shoaoran, but are you comfortable letting your
friend Tomoyo have sex with you?" Sakura only hesitated for a moment
before answering.
"I guess so. It seems kind of perverted but kind of exciting too." This
got Tomoyo's attention.
"You would really do it with me, Sakura?" she asked hesitantly.
"Yeah. I know you really want it from me, and," she continued
hesitantly, "it does sound kind of exciting..."
"Good enough." Shoaoran's mother continued. "And are you comfortable
with your husband having sex with your best friend?" This caused a
slightly longer hesitation.
"I guess so. As long as he doesn't neglect me. Tomoyo? How do you
feel about having sex with Shoaoran?"
"I don't really have a problem with it as long as it doesn't bother you
Sakura." This got a smile out of Shoaoran. Then Sakura got smiles out
of everyone with her announcement.
"I sleep in the middle!"
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