I'll Have to Tell You I Love You in a Song
Wow, who'd have thought my first ever CCS fic would be a songfic? :P
But that's what it is. In honor of Valentine's Day, I decided to make
my writing debut with a short, sweet little songfic. It's a
Sakura/Tomoyo story *ducks flames from Sakura/Syaoran fans*, and it's
mostly from Tomoyo's point of view. Well, the song is at least, until
the last few lines. After that, it switches to Sakura's. Parts from
Tomoyo's point of view are encased in {}'s.
I used the song "I'll have to say I love you in a song", by Jim Croce.
Sorry if it's such an obscure one. ^^; I just thought it fit rather
well.
All lyrics are encased in *'s.
I've never really seen CCS before, and only know a little about the
manga. So I'm not sure of the time period the storyline covers. In this
story, Sakura and Tomoyo are 13, but Syaoran and Sakura are
(supposedly) falling for one another. So if I got any timeline or story
elements wrong, please let me know.
Anyways, I think that's enough for the author's notes, ne? :P Now, on
with the story! ^_^
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*Well, I know it's kind of late,
I hope I didn't wake you.*
{I hate to call this late. I know you're probably asleep and would hate
to disturb you or anyone else in the house. So if I did, gomen nasai.}
*But what I got to say can't wait,
I know you'd understand.*
{I just really needed to tell you this. It's been driving me crazy for
the longest time and if I put it off any longer, it's sure to kill me.
But you'll probably understand. You've always been so sweet...among
many other things.}
*Every time I tried to tell you
The words just came out wrong.*
{I've tried to say this to you several times, but no matter how hard I
tried, the words always got caught in my throat. And when I did manage
to say something, it always came out wrong, like "I love that color on
you", or "You're very important to me". Even if those things are
true...they're not what I wanted to say.}
*So I'll have to say I love you in a song.*
{What I'm trying to say, and what I've been trying to say for all this
time is...I love you, Sakura-chan. I always have, and I always will.}
*Yeah, I know it's kind of strange,
But every time I'm near you,
I just run out of things to say.*
{It's so strange. I'm usually so cheerful and talkative around people,
and you've always been the shy one. Yet every time we're together, this
shy, awkward feeling comes over me and I get so...tongue-tied. I don't
know what to say...}
*I know you'd understand.*
{So you'll probably understand what I'm saying...or at least I hope.}
*Every time I tried to tell you
The words just came out wrong.
So I'll have to say I love you in a song.*
{People always say that it's better to confess something like this in
person. But since I obviously can't do that, I've got to tell you over
the phone. In this message. I just hope nobody else hears this before
you do, Sakura.}
*(Guitar solo)*
{I can't believe it's come down to this, though...having to tell you my
true feelings in an answering machine message. Were the little messages
I've been sending for awhile not getting through? If that's the
case...I'm not surprised. I love you more than life itself, and I hate
to say anything negative about you...but you can be so dense sometimes,
Sakura-chan. I know you've got other important things to worry about,
but still...*sigh* Maybe it's my fault...maybe I'm being too subtle.
And the sad thing is...even if you had been able to pick up on the
hints, I know you couldn't feel the same way towards me as I feel
towards you. I know you already have someone...I know you're slowly
falling in love with Syaoran. But that is okay. I want you to be happy
above all else, and if he makes you happy, then I hope you 2 get
together. I want only the best for you, Sakura-chan. You deserve it.}
*Every time the time was right,
All the words just came out wrong.*
{*sigh* Even when the moment was just perfect, I always managed to
freeze...or he came by...sometimes I feel so frustrated. Why does
something that should be as simple as this have to be so hard to say?
Why?}
*So I'll have to say I love you in a song.*
{As long as you get this message, I'll be satisfied. I just hope...you
don't feel any differently towards me...}
*Yeah, I know it's kind of late,
I hope I didn't wake you.*
{Again, if I woke you or your family, gomen nasai. I'll go
now...Goodnight, Sakura-chan. Sleep well. *voice breaks a little* I
love you. *hangs up*}
*But there's something that I just got to say.
I know you'd understand.*
I sneak downstairs to the answering machine. I could've sworn Tomoyo
just left me a message...but why? Could I just be imagining things? I
walk to the table where the machine rests, and the light is flashing.
Someone did leave a message. I press the "Play" button and listen.
*Every time I tried to tell you
The words just came out wrong.
So I'll have to say I love you in a song.*
By the time the message is over, I can't even blink. Did I actually
hear this? Tomoyo loves me? I must be dreaming...I pinch myself just to
be sure...this seems so unreal.
"Ow!" I wince. I'm not dreaming. And now I feel guilty, rather stupid,
and relieved. She does love me...
I can't say that I was wishing the exact same thing the whole time.
Until recently, I only thought of her as my best friend. But lately,
I'd been noticing her in a different light...for the first time, I'm
seeing just how wonderful she really is...how beautiful she looks,
especially in the moonlight on a clear, starry night. And just how much
she means to me. But I've also had feelings for Syaoran, so I was
confused.
'Not anymore,' I think. Quietly, I go back up to my room. I slip on my
shoes and jacket, then open the window and climb out. For a minute I
consider using the power of the Clow cards and flying to her house, but
decide not to. It'd be too risky. Shivering, I quickly walk to Tomoyo's
house.
Standing outside, I gaze into her window. It's dark, and the blinds are
drawn almost all the way. She's probably asleep...I consider going back
and just leaving her a message. 'No,' I tell myself. 'You owe it to
both her and yourself to tell her in person.' I sigh, then pick up a
tiny pebble and throw it up at her window, hoping not to wake her
mother or her bodyguards. As I see her get out of bed and walk to the
window, I feel my heart pounding in my chest. 'Please understand,
Tomoyo-chan,' I pray.
"Sakura-chan?" she yawns, rubbing her eyes and looking very surprised
to see me. "Hi...can I talk to you?" I ask shyly. She nods, tossing a
rope out the window. I climb up as fast as I can, then practically fall
into the room, shivering.
"You must be freezing," she says sympathetically, and wraps a blanket
around my shoulders. "Thanks," I whisper. She smiles. "No problem," she
says, settling down next to me on the bed. The next few minutes are
silent.
"What did you want to talk to me about?" she asks. I take a deep
breath, then look at her. "I got your message." She blushes, and almost
looks panicked.
"You did?" she nearly cries out. I nod. "I see..." She looks down.
"And?"
"And...now I understand. And I'm very sorry for not seeing it
before...for not picking up on your hints, and for not realizing I felt
the same way." She blinks.
"You mean...?" I nod. My heart beats faster, and I can barely get the
words out. But somehow, I manage.
"Aishiteru, Tomoyo-chan," I whispered. For a minute, she doesn't
answer. Then she turns to me, her eyes shiny and that beautiful smile
spreading across her face.
"Sakura-chan..." she whispers. Several tears of joy run down her
cheeks. I reach up and gently brush them away with my fingertips, then
take her in my arms. "I-I just can't believe this...I never thought you
could feel the same way," she chokes. I look into her eyes, my own
sparkling with happiness.
"I only wish I'd known my own feelings sooner," I whisper. She smiles
and snuggles closer.
"It's okay. I'm just happy I finally told you," she sighs. "I love you
so much...finding out you feel the same way is just...more than I ever
dreamed possible." Then she looked a little concerned. "What about
Syaoran?" she asked.
"He's just a good friend. I thought I loved him, but it was only a
schoolgirl crush," I told her. We gaze into each other's eyes. She
wraps her arms around my chest, looking deliriously happy.
"I love you, Sakura-chan," she whispers.
"And I love you." I lean my head in slightly, as does she. Our eyes
close, and our lips slowly meet.
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