As I Run
Breathing hard, feet hitting the ground in a steady rhythm, I run.
Each step pushes me farther away-not just from the starting point of
the race, but away from my reality, my confusion, my naivete-away from
everything.
I shut my eyes for a split second, everything I know flashing through
my mind and falling behind me into the wind.
Then, guiltily, I remember it all, pulling it back. I notice another
runner pull ahead of me, and I stop, pulling in one breath, and sigh.
I’m tired of running. Not just physically-emotionally. I can’t run
from myself anymore.
Now everyone is ahead of me…But I can’t run anymore. It only serves me
as an escape.
I turn, and walk off the track into the forest of Sakura. My namesake…
Soon enough I hear the cheers as the race finishes. And as I’d
expected, she comes.
“Sakura-chan…” She says, concerned. I turn to face her, to look deep
into those stormy blue eyes.
“Tomoyo-chan…”
“What’s wrong?” That beautiful voice flows out, directed at me once
more.
“I…” A sigh escapes my lips as a knot forms in myself. I cute through
it, determined to say the words, to stop this endless race I play in,
trying to outrun myself. “I’m tired of running Tomoyo.”
She looks confused. “What do you mean, Sakura-chan?”
A sad smile is mine to share, so much like hers, I’m sure. “I love
you.”
“I know.” Her voice is barely above a whisper.
My eyes lock on hers. “Then why…?”
Another sad smile, now hers. “You had to accept whatever choice would
make you happy.”
“Then what about you?” My face, I know, is like a book to her, wide
open to read.
“Your happiness is the most important thing to me. Even if it killed
me I would show you a smile. But you…you chose me. Why?”
“I love you.” I repeat. “You are my ‘special person’. And I’m tired of
running from it. Aishiteru.”
“Aishiteru.” We’re both crying now.
And now I won’t run.
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