A Shadowlander’s Dream: Book Three - Rules of the Flesh
Written by Kathryn K Williams
Chapter Forty-two
Alyson took off the sling and shirt and pulled an oversized nightshirt over her head and stared down at how loosely it hung off her body, exposing her left shoulder and dangling down to her knees, covering the bicycle shorts she wore underneath. Slowly she raised her good hand to her small breast and cupped it. For some reason ever since Amber called her “Sister” heaviness filled her chest that made it hard to breath. If Amber knew the truth about her existence then how could she still consider her a Sister? The sensation of acceptance was overwhelming and she sat down heavily upon her bed as she struggled to breath, the air feeling thick as she slowly pulled it into her lungs.
Shakily she removed her hand and started down at her long fingers. Was it possible that she could fit in with the girls here at the Academy? This thought actually frightened her slightly. She was so used to being an outsider that she never considered being part of the group before and now she has been invited to a slumber party, something she had never experienced before. Not just any slumber party, but an all girl party. The thought of staying up the night with the girls who she was slowly considering friends made her already unstable mind crumble all the more and she struggled to regain her composure, taking in a deep erratic breath and letting it out again.
“Alyson?” Natalie entered the room to sit next to the girl. She was now clad in a black t-shirt and purple sweatpants. She sat next to her friend with one arm behind the girl and looked at her closely, “Are you alright?”
Alyson nodded and picked up her sling, “I… I’m just in a lot of pain.” She stated simply as she pulled the sling over her head and fumbled with it.
“Let me help.” Natalie offered, reaching out for the sling and straightening the strap.
“I can do it.” Alyson snapped, “I do not need your help.”
Natalie cautiously retracted her hands and placed them on her lap, “I’m sorry… I just wanted to help.”
Alyson opened her mouth to speak, but seeing the hurt look in Natalie’s eyes as the girl looked away made all her excuses seem pointless. “I sorry. I do not know what is wrong with me.” She said as she rubbed her forehead with her free hand, “I feel so weak…” she muttered softly.
Natalie spun around to face Alyson, “You are not weak.” She said firmly, “You are the strongest girl I’ve ever met.”
Alyson wrapped an arm around her waist, “I’m not strong, I just put up a good front.” She insisted.
Natalie took the girl by the shoulders and forced her to look her way, “Stop it!” She demanded, “I can’t stand seeing you like this. What happened to the girl I fell in love with?” Natalie stopped abruptly; suddenly aware of the words she just let slip out.
Alyson turned her head away from the girl, “You cannot love me. I am not… not the person you think I am.”
Natalie gently placed a hand on the girl’s shoulder, “I don’t care about your past. I love you and I can’t stop loving you.
Alyson looked down at her hands again as she anxiously pulled on her shirt, “I… I am not normal…” She whispered tiredly.
Natalie shook her head, “Who wants to be normal?” She said with a chuckle.
Alyson slowly shook her head, “You do not understand… I… I am not…” Tears welled up in her eyes and she wiped at them.
Natalie cocked her head to get a better look at the girl’s face, “What is it? You can tell me.”
Alyson’s mouth opened but no words emitted. She rubbed at her eyes in a desperate attempt to keep the tears at bay, “I… I don’t want to loss you.” She softly sobbed.
Natalie slid off the bed and knelt before the girl, looking up at her, “Alyson, I’m not going anywhere. I promise you.”
Alyson stared at the girl in shock, “No… you can not…” she stammered feeling the air in her lungs turn to mud and it feel like she was breathing in murky dank air.
“I promise you I am not leaving.” Natalie stated boldly and stood on her knees, bringing her face closer to Alyson’s, looking her deep in the eyes, “Alyson, I…” She lightly closed her eyes and moved forward, lips pursed.
Alyson leaned back slightly, startled by the girl’s actions, “Natalie,” She glanced around nervously and closed her eyes tightly, “I’m not really a girl.” She blurted out.
Natalie opened her eyes and blinked, “Your… not…” She sat down heavily upon the floor in shock, “Then you’re a… b-“
Alyson shook her head, “I’m neither. I’m not a girl or a boy.” She quickly said, feeling a need to get this horrible secret off of her chest.
Natalie blinked in confusion, “B… but… I’ve seen you topless… your body…”
Alyson wrapped her arms around her body and nodded, “I am mostly a girl.” She explained, “But not entirely.” She sighed and rubbed her head, “The doctors said I’m something called an Intersex, meaning I’m a little of both and neither at the same time.”
“D… do you have…” Natalie cleared her throat, “Have a p… penis...?”
Alyson shook her head quickly, “Nothing like that.” She said in disgust.
Natalie sighed, “So down there you are female?” She asked curiously.
Alyson gave a nervous awkward smile, “Not exactly.” She let out a deep breath, “I was told I have one ovary and one testical and my virgin is not fully formed so I can’t have my period and…”
“and…?” Natalie asked curiously, “There is more?”
“My…” Alyson began to tremble.
Natalie took a deep breath and closed her eyes, “You don’t have to tell me.” She stated with a sigh.
“But…” Alyson licked her lips nervously.
Natalie shook her head, “I didn’t fall in love with your crotch.” She said and pointed at the girl’s chest, “I feel in love with the girl inside, the one who would curl up with me and night and held me with her strong arms. The one who protected me all those years ago and taught me to be strong. She is the one I love.” Natalie insisted.
Alyson took Natalie’s hand between both of her’s. “Oh, Nat…” She held the girl’s hand to her cheek.
“Besides.” Natalie continued, “I’m guessing that Sophia and Missy know the truth about you and they let you stay here right?”
Alyson slowly nodded, “Amy knew too and she said I was one of the girls.”
Natalie smiled, “There you have it. The doc declared you one of us girls so that is enough for me.”
Alyson blinked at Natalie, “You are not disgusted by me?”
Natalie shook her head, “I admit it going to take some getting used to, but it is not like I planned to go down on you right away.”
Alyson blushed brightly, “Y… you… thought about having sex with me?”
Natalie blushed and stood, glanced up at the ceiling and rocking on her heels, “Hard not to when you are sleeping next to a girl as hot as you.” She turned back to Alyson, “Even Emily and Misty were commenting on how sexy you are.”
Alyson glanced down at the ground, “You are making that up.”
Natalie shook her head, “Nope, they were just talking about you before the lights went out.”
Alyson lay back on her bed with her good arm over her eyes and sighed, “If they only knew the truth they would think twice about me.”
Natalie flopped down next to Alyson and crawled up until she was face to face with the girl, “I don’t think so. I think they would consider you part of the gang just like everyone else.”
Alyson removed her arm, “Amber remembered me from the past.” She said softly.
“And?”
“She heard the doctors talking about me and yet she called me her sister.”
Natalie smiled, “See!” She patted the girl on the chest, “You even have a sister. You should stop worrying so much. She rubbed her hand on the girl’s chest and stopped on her breast, lightly caressing it, looking down at Alyson lovingly, “And no boy has a body like yours.”
Alyson laughed, “He would be the girliest boy around that is for sure.”
Natalie leaned in closer to Alyson, “I love my boi.”
“Boi?” Alyson flinched.
“You heard Jessica, you are one of the bois. Splet with an ‘i’ instead of a ‘y’.” Natalie explained, “She even considers herself a boi too you realize. She was not making fun of you or Lauren when she said that. She said it refers to a very boyish girl.”
“Jessica calls herself that too?” Alyson said in astonishment.
Natalie nodded and crawled on top of Alyson, straddling her waist and biting her lip as she let her gaze move over Alyson, causing the girl to squirm slightly.
“Nat, don’t look at me that way.” Alyson said uneasily.
Natalie lowered herself over Alyson, holding herself up with her arms to either side of the girl’s head, “I love you Alyson.”
Alyson found it hard to look into those big power blue eyes, “I… I love you too.”
Natalie lowered herself and softly kissed the girl on the cheek, “I will always love you.” She said softly.
Alyson turned and returned the kiss, on the lips this time. Natalie slowly lowered herself into Alyson’s arms and could feel the warm pressure of Natalie’s body upon her own and wrapping her good arm around the girl as she became lost in the girl’s embraces, enjoying the sensation of her kiss.
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To be Continued . . .
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