Eve Sky
Chapter 16 - "Don't leave me!"
by StarCross
Agatha had stated that she would venture out for three months, and then return back in three months. She would have made it in time when Eva gave birth to her fifth child.
The first three months went by with a bit of worry and fear. Quyen had seemed to act more docile and obedient since Agatha's departure, and had volunteered to take care of most household duties in the house and the farm. Eventually, that wall in the middle was torn down and often joined in sleeping with everyone one same blanketed floor.
Jerri had to discard her glasses due to her degenerating eyesight, but her sight was still useful enough to perform manual labor, and her hearing and sense of smell compensated her emerging disability. Quyen often helped and served as her eyes. Sometimes Evie helped, as she was now five years of age, rapidly becoming six. The twins Nikhila and Odilia were not far behind at age four, while sleepy Suzette was now around two years old.
At nights, the family huddled together due to the unearthly sounds of beasts, birds, and insects. Sometimes, they had sighted a strange green fox-like creature with two tails, glowing eyes, and fur that glowed radiantly. Evie claimed of have seen a bull that was not quite a bull. The twins also claimed that there were large birds that looked awfully metallic.
At the end of the fourth month of Agatha's departure, the worried Quyen asked if her lover had come home yet. She asked again at the end of the fifth month, and then asked at the end of the sixth month.
"She'll come around," said Jerri.
She didn't. Weeks later, Eva gave birth to Teila. The parents had always expected that Quyen would realize that Jerri was impregnating Eva, but she was too depressed to notice, let alone call it to attention. At Teila's birth she remarked, just as she did with Suzette's birth, that Eva was unlucky to give birth to another girl.
Then a full month passed after Agatha's promised time of return, during which Quyen was often heard whimpering at her side of the single room. She asked Eva, who had kept time and the calendar, if her beloved had returned yet.
At the second month it had gotten worse. Quyen attempted suicide twice. The first was when she tried to drown herself in the river, but Jerri's intervened and rescued her heroically. The second time she tried to jump off a cliff. She chickened out that time.
Aggravated, Jerri forced her to face the children worried about their aunt.
"Do you want to leave them behind and make them sad?" asked Jerri. "We need you because we all love you."
Quyen instead screamed. "What's the point? We're all going to die lonely and unable to reproduce! It's all hopeless!"
Jerri slapped her, and in a clichÇ moment Quyen burst into tears and cried into the Jerri's chest.
On that night though, Jerri had slept so close to Quyen that they were essentially embracing each other. Eva, on the other hand, didn't sleep much.
The weeks that followed, Quyen would always accompany Jerri in almost all excursions, including manual labor, fishing, and hunting trips that produced no game. At the same time Eva jealously watched them from the house as she watched over the children, although they pretty much raised themselves under Evie's eyes. It had become so boring that she decided to teach the more about English and her native language Hindi, as well as basic math problems and general knowledge. She had often wondered when Jerri would make love to her again to produce another child. Six might become too much of a burden, and she secretly wished she would wait until Evie grew up or when Agatha would show up with new faces. But the third overdue month had passed again.
Quyen would whimper during nights, sometimes about her torturous childhood, but it was mostly about Agatha. Again, Jerri had to act as a living body pillow for Quyen, which would almost always comfort her and quiet her down.
Quyen was clearly using Jerri as a substitute Agatha, and Eva's jealousy had risen in kind. Yet, Eva held back her feelings, realizing that if Jerri and Quyen mated, they would indeed produce children. There were close calls though, and Eva had walked into one. Quyen was the one who was taking initiative, but Jerri, oddly enough was hesitant. Whenever Jerri was gone, Quyen would always look at Eva apologetically, and one time, she had said to her:
"Please forgive me. You should know that I am really lonely."
"It's all right," said Eva.
"I'd like to look for Agatha, but I don't have the strength she does. Eva, is Jerri really a man by any chance?"
"No. That can't be since we would often bathe together."
"You're right. She does have a retractable penis does she?"
"Not that I know of."
"I see."
"Quyen, you don't need a penis inside of you to reproduce."
"Really? Well, you are a really lucky woman Eva, or perhaps a freak. Or maybe Jerri's a freak since she's always making children with you."
"I don't mind that you two... well..."
Quyen smiled. "Jerri really loves you."
"I know."
"You don't understand. She really loves you. Well, I got to prepare supper for the kids."
Quyen left Eva who was feeling guilty at being loved so much. Yet even with such feelings hanging over her, the need to preserve humanity as much as possible took precedence. Eva confided with Jerri alone in their house on the next day and bluntly urged her to have sex with Quyen.
"Just like that?" Jerri said. "Just walk up Quyen, who was really attached and depressed about Agatha and say, 'let's rub cunts together'!"
"I'm not asking you to take pity on her," said Eva. "Maybe a little, but if she was pregnant, her worries of Agatha would be taken off her."
"I'm not sure if I can work it out like that."
"Just think about the feelings you had for Tenaya."
Eva bit her lip, and she and her wife looked away from one another.
"I'm sorry," said Eva.
"I know," said Jerri.
"Look I won't spaz out. I'll just take the kids out to play by the river, and you just happen to be alone with Quyen."
"Um, okay."
"Please; forget about everything good about me. In fact, just remember how I was a real jealous bitch."
"No, don't say that about yourself."
"Jerri! You have to do this! Not for the sake of humanity, but for our children!"
Then it all became quiet. Jerri, stunned until Eva left the house, then sat on the woven chair. Eva called up the children, and with Teila in her arms they all marched down to the river with snacks and toys. In order for it to work, Eva had to be out of view and not run into Quyen along the way. The rest would then be up to her and Jerri.
So Eva sat on the blanket by the riverbank underneath the hand-made umbrella nursing Teila. Sleepy Suzette was napping right next to her, and the rest of the children, Evie, Nikhila, and Odilia, stayed at shallow waters. Evie was indeed taller than the twins, but she could not keep up with their double-trouble pranks that could be attributed to the things their older sister dealt to them.
The mother sat wondering if she did the right thing leaving Jerri alone with Quyen, as if she was forcing her to the single woman like a whore. But it wouldn't be such since there was a human emergency concerning the preservation of their kind.
She could imagine the situation unfolding in her mind. Jerri and Quyen, both nervous and understanding of the situation, approaching each other with caution and slowly taking their clothes off. They would kiss. They would touch each other's breasts. They would then lower themselves to the carpeted floor fingering their vulva as they continued to embrace. Quyen would gently lower Jerri to her back so she could orally please her. Eventually, Jerri would ejaculate, and Quyen would hungrily lap up the sparkling silvery cum to which she'd share with Jerri.
Aroused in mind, spirit, and body, Jerri would pounce Quyen onto her back and then mount her vagina onto hers as close as possible until they feel themselves merged in one body. They would then begin a slow rhythmic circular rub, which would increase exponentially as they were already wet. They would keep humping until Jerri would ejaculate, but being women they were, they would keep going. They would change positions, but Jerri would always be on top to make sure her ovum-string had gone inside Quyen.
It made Eva aroused thinking about it. Her heart was racing, and unknown to her children she was wet. She would masturbate if she wasn't with them, and she did want to ditch them to do so. If she did though, she would naturally return to Jerri's arms.
She wasn't thinking about Quyen. She was imagining herself as her.
"Suzette," said Nikhila. "Wake up."
"Suzette," said Odilia. "Sleepy Suzette."
The twins poked Suzette until she woke up. She threw a tantrum, flinging her fists at her older twin sisters and started crying. She latched onto her birthmother's side, bringing Eva back to reality.
"Nikhila!" Eva said. "Odilia! You know Suzette doesn't want to be woken up from her sleep!"
"It wasn't us!" grinned the twins.
"I saw you two do it," said Evie.
"You did it!" Odilia cried. "You always like to wake us up like that."
"I do not!"
"Never mind!" Eva said. "Come on. Put your clothes on. We're going back home."
The children were dressed, and Eva took them back up towards the house on the hill. Midway, they saw a dazed Jerri dressed in nothing but a robe.
"It's amam!" Nikhila said.
"Amam!" yelled Odilia. "Amam!"
The twins ran up to their seeding mother and latched onto her legs. Jerri petted their heads, and then stared sadly into Eva's eyes.
"Evie," said Eva. "Take Teila back home. Amam and I will catch up."
Evie obediently nodded, and took her little sister in her arms. She led the twins back home, who were holding slow and sleepy Suzette's hands as they playfully marched up.
The couple stared for a while in the midst of a breeze and cloudy sky. Both of them looked as if they were defeated. It was only an hour since they last saw each other.
"I couldn't do it," said Jerri. "I felt so dirty trying to do her."
After dropping her things, Eva tightly grabbed Jerri's shoulders. "Jerri!"
"I love you!"
After one kiss, they were on the ground. Jerri furiously undressed her wife who had given up resisting a moment ago. Eva surrendered to the passion, as she had missed Jerri's lips caressing her breasts and tummy, and her tongue inside of her vulva. What she had imagined an hour ago transpired now.
They knew not how long their lovemaking went on. They lost count of how many simultaneous orgasms they gave to one another, but they knew it was more than eight. They were more intent on maintaining their oneness and their union connected at their meshing vulvas soaked with their juices. Somewhere in their mixture, Jerri's ovum-string was flowing into Eva, but never invasively. Almost never did they take their eyes of each other's faces, not even when they finished.
Perhaps hours later had passed since their lovemaking. In their nude bodies, their legs were intertwined and tightly locked. Their torsos and breasts in particular were pressed as close as possible, and their arms and heads holding their heads and shoulders. Their faces were close, with the tips of their noses nuzzling one another as they started deeply into their own eyes that they could see their faces in the reflection. Occasionally kissing, they just stared without speaking for a lot longer.
It was likely that the attraction complex of Zoya's created daughters was in perfect working order, and Eva felt that after repeat mating with Jerri it was passed onto her. Even she could not bear to be without the love of her life against better judgment. Then again, it was not just because Jerri was an artificial marvel. Though she was in a man in a sense, Jerri was still not.
Even after having sex again, Eva knew for sure that she was pregnant once more.
"Eva," said Jerri. "Let's not worry about humanity. Let's worry about ourselves."
"It's possible," said Eva, "is that we're all that remains of it."
"It will be all right. I'm sure of it. Just as long as we are together."
"Together..."
Agatha was definitely not coming back. Despite occasional mentions, she was almost forgotten. Even Quyen didn't seem to miss her as she merely smiled a bit uneasily or shrugged her shoulders. There were some thoughts of Agatha being killed and eaten by a beast, falling to her death, drowning, dying of thirst or hunger, heat stroke, or a disease.
Eva eventually showed signs of her fifth pregnancy of her sixth child almost a month later. Quyen would then give her some glances, and by now she knew. But she had already accepted the fact that she was not Jerri's chosen, and gladly accepted her duty as their second live-in housemaid.
The family had stopped making pilgrimages to the beach of Zoya and Tenaya's graves, as it was now flooded. Floods were becoming more frequent as were the storms, and the house nearly collapsed due to a mudslide. The family nearly starved to death if not for Jerri and Quyen's venturing to find fruit and meat from a strange bull-creature.
The chickens they raised weren't exactly chicken-ish, and there were no roosters to impregnate the hens. It seemed that a dominant female would impregnate the others, just like Jerri, but when it died, another would take its place amongst the hens. There were strange boars sighted, for they were slim and sleek. They finally confirmed the sighting of the strange glowing fox creature. Jerri had killed the one that had been killing their chickens, and took two cubs home as pets. They were then named Zero and Une by the children, and christened water foxes by the adults due to their fondness of pools of water.
With Nikhila having a brush with death due to a cold, Eva began to think hard about their future. Surely they could stay here in their own paradise, and interbreeding amongst the family was becoming more likely. That would indeed make them more vulnerable. If any thing were to happen, humanity would be extinct at the spot. They couldn't really stay here forever, but Eva didn't want to leave nor did Jerri. There still hadn't been any contact with any humans since they settled.
Her womb was growing. Eva was becoming more worried, and in her mind having Jerri impregnate Quyen was currently the best means of long-term survival. However, the attraction between Jerri and Eva was epically strong, and it was the very thing that stood in the way. It was noble and morally correct, but it was not the best solution. Eva had thought they wouldn't be having these problems if Zoya had succeeded in populating the world with Jerri's perfected clones who probably had dissolved away at the bottom of the sea. For Zoya to succeed, Eva and her children had to die back then, and that elicited shuddering thoughts.
She shouldn't have thought that way. Eva had a fervent desire to protect her children no matter what.
To break such a strong attraction, either Jerri or Eva had to die or disappear. Jerri's existence was vital, but Eva could be replaced. There was no need for death though. Just having herself missing from Jerri's life was sufficient though.
That would be the solution. Eva had to make her disappear, but leaving the children behind would remind Jerri of her wife, and would prevent her from mating with Quyen for a short while. Or perhaps Jerri would not mate before her children until they grew up.
Decisions. Eva needed to make doubly sure that Jerri would fall in love with Quyen once she was gone. Yes, removing herself and the children from Jerri's life would immediately sever the attraction and create a new one with Quyen. Eva could survive it out in the wilderness with her children. She was smart enough, and Evie was old enough to wield a pistol and even a rifle, which the family had found in their excursions throughout Laos, Vietnam, and Thailand.
The problem was that Eva herself was too attached to Jerri. She anguished over her thoughts and plans throughout, and she even cried herself to sleep on some occasions. She was hurting herself thinking of such things, and she imagined the amount of pain she and Jerri would inflict on each other if they were to separate.
I don't want to go! Eva wept.
She once recalled having a pair of ferrets, both male and female, in her garden in India. The two were so devoted to each other, that when one of them died, the other died almost a week later. As it so happened, the ferrets were the last of their kind and were forever extinct.
Eva hoped it would not be the case for her and Jerri. They were not ferrets, but she really did feel that she could die if she was without Jerri for a long period. Jerri would likely feel the same way.
I have to do something. It is, after all, my responsibility, and my burden.
The planning was done only in her mind. Every action she did was scrutinized by her own eyes and had the potential to be scrutinized by the others. Preparation was subtle, such as storing non-perishable food and hiding bullets and other supplies. Now all she needed was the right moment to put it in action.
There were many times, though, they could have left, particularly when Jerri and Quyen would head out fishing and scavenging, and it made Eva a bit happy since her wife and housemaid were becoming very close, yet at the same time she was jealous and heartbroken. Often Evie would accompany them on their excursions. Then there was Evie's personal marksmanship training that Eva oversaw, although it was difficult due to the already limited supply of bullets. She had thought about teaching Nikhila or Odilia, but there would be no time.
Then one day, Jerri and Quyen had decided to go out scavenging further out than usual. This time, Evie was forbidden to so, for the location of interest was the sunken port city of Da NÉng.
"We do need some more steel to buttress our house," said Jerri. "And maybe we'll find some more guns in case our children need to go shooting."
"We could always make bows and arrows," said Eva.
"Mmm, I don't think so. I'm open to the idea, but if we want to rebuild civilization, we have gather all that we can."
"I wanna come too," said Evie.
Jerri petted her first daughter. "This journey is dangerous. It'll take a couple of days of diving and walking. Eva, I'm sure you can handle the kids alone, right?"
"All supplies are well and ready," replied Eva.
"Good. Quyen."
"Don't worry," giggled Quyen. "I won't let Jerri knock me up."
The two women left with their wove bags and baskets. Jerri had taken the Sword of Danya with her, while Quyen was armed with an old rifle and a single cartridge. They didn't expect to kill anyone or anything, but it was safe that they prepared.
With them gone, Eva quickly packed everything she needed in patched up duffle bags and a rolling suitcase. She shoved one loaded pistol into Evie's hands, and armed herself with one shotgun and all the bullets she could carry. Teila was strapped onto the back.
"Are we going somewhere mommy?" asked Odilia.
"We are," said Eva. "We're going on a safari."
"Yay, safari!"
"What's a safari?" asked Nikhila.
"It's an adventure to see the world," said Eva. "It's about time we do so."
"Are waiting for amam and auntie Quyen?" asked Odilia.
"Don't worry. They'll catch up to us."
If her calculations were correct, the ruined road should be taking them up to the megalopolis of Vientiane, which was once the old capital of Laos. The Korat Plateu was mostly flooded, and made the lands swampy and difficult to cross over. Eva had to journey around the flooded plains, to a direction she wasn't even sure of.
The twins Nikihila and Odilia blissfully skipped as much as they could, and they had the burden of coaxing the lazy Suzette to the pranks and games. Like loyal pets, the greenish water foxes Zero and Une followed them protectively. Evie, on the other hand, kept the rear with a worried frown. She might be the rear guard, but she began to suspect that her mother was lying. She followed her anyway, as she was powerless to overcome her seniority and height. She prayed that the lie became the truth, and that Jerri and Quyen would catch up.
They mostly scavenged for the fruit, roots, and grains Eva and identified after the years in their home at the side of the hill. Sometimes they ate from their rations, and a few times Eva shot and killed what looked to be an aquatic rabbit creature Zero and Une retrieved. She wasn't sure if the new species had emerged past the Eugenesis period or was realized by Zoya Adamantite. Fortunately, the meat of the rabbit was nourishing, and she fought hard to share most of it to her children.
The child in her womb was growing rapidly, as did the kids. They slowed her down quite often, and had to invent games to keep their feet moving, which would end up having her to repair the shoes a kilometer of so.
But Evie was reluctant to have fun in the "safari". She kept on asking on when Jerri and Quyen would catch up. She even brought to attention she heard voices in the night, calling out for their names.
"It was just the wind," Eva replied.
That was mostly her answer. Sometimes, she tried to spook her children by telling them they were evil spirits after their souls. While the twins were scared, Suzette and Evie weren't since the former was too sleepy to be scared, and that Evie was simply not fooled.
Then, as the days passed, the voice was becoming clearer once they were inside the maze-like city limits Vientiane, which had been destroyed before by destructive MA Units.
"Mama," said Evie. "I think I heard amam's voice."
"It's a spirit dummy," said Odilia. "It's gonna take your soul away."
"It's not a spirit! Mama's lying!"
Leaving Teila with the twins, Eva jerked Evie aside and into an abandoned corner shop.
"Evie, please," said Eva. "We must get away from amam as much as possible."
"Why? Did something bad happen?'
"This is for our own good. I know you and the others will hate me for doing this, but when you're old enough you'll understand the reasons for all this."
"I don't understand. Why can't I see amam?"
"Evie!"
She hugged her weeping daughter.
"I want you to do something for me," she said to her. "Here, you take this shotgun, and give me your pistol. Did you see that highway leading north?"
Evie nodded.
"Take your sisters up there and don't turn back no matter what happens."
"But mama..."
"Please, please do as I say."
"Okay..."
They emerged from the corner store, and Evie immediately corralled her little sisters to follow her. It was bumpy at first, since the twins would not listen and instead made faces at their older sister. One quick shout from the mother sent them running and chasing Evie. Suzette, however, remained behind wide-eyed and awake. She started at her mother with the lingering alert eyes, almost as if she knew too what was really going on.
Eva shooed her away after a couple of tries. She was now alone, save for the two water foxes who nuzzled her side lovingly before running off to catch up to the children. The emotional experience and the yelling wore her out, forcing her to rest on a bench of a bus stop overrun with vines. She ate her bread rations and waited.
She woke up hours later sensing that Jerri had found her, which she did. Jerri was alone with the Sword of Danya strapped to her back. Her clothes were soiled. There was dirt on her face. Even her hair had seen better days. Jerri immediately hugged her wife.
"Thank God," said Jerri. "I was so worried! Why did you have to run away like that?"
"I had to."
"You had to? Eva, I don't understand. I felt as if I was going to explode if I spent a day without you and the kids. The kids are fine, right?"
"I sent them ahead."
"Then let's go after them!"
Eva held Jerri back. Then she got off the bench and blocked her.
"We can't do that," said Eva.
"Why not?"
"Jerri... It pains me to say this but... I have to leave you."
"But why? Is it because you're tired of having children? I don't mind just having six. I'll stop, I promise!"
"It's not that."
"Is it because of Quyen? We still need her when Evie gets old enough. Or would she be too old by then?"
"It's not that either!"
"Then tell me what's wrong?"
"You know as well as I do that we can't survive on the long term if we stay there."
"Then we'll move! This city looks fine."
"I wanted you to mate with Quyen, and you can't do it! I mean, I don't really want you to, but we have no choice. That's why I'm leaving. I'm in the way."
"That's it?"
Eva nodded shamefully.
"It doesn't matter," said Jerri. "The kids won't mind inbreeding if we tell them to do so."
"We have to share our gift to the world."
"We might be the only survivors out there."
"We don't know that for sure."
"But Agatha had died."
"We don't know that either."
"Then why take the kids? Why?"
"As I am saying, I am in the way. The children are half of me, and if they're there I will still be in the way."
"That's nonsense! I won't mate with Quyen just because of that."
"I can't leave any evidence of our attraction to one another. Jerri, we have to split up. That's the very thing that prevents you from mating with others."
Tears welled up in Jerri's eyes, and after a wail, she rested her body on Eva's shoulders.
"Eva, I'm not some goddamn man that germinates every woman he sees! I'm not a whore either!"
"Jerri, I don't mean to..."
"I gave up that profession because of you! You were the one who save me from the darkness and despair. Eva, I need you! You can't do this to me!"
"It's just your attraction to me saying this."
"I don't care! Please don't leave me Eva. I'll... I'll die if I am without you."
Jerri eventually slouched to her knees and continued weeping and wailing. It was enough to break Eva's own heart and drove her to similar tears. Eva pulled her wife tightly towards her bosom, and in her mind she ran through her thoughts of I can't leave her, and, I don't want to leave her!
"Noooo!" Eva yelled. She kicked Jerri away. She stepped back and drew her pistol at her.
"Stay away!" she cried. "Stay away from me!"
"Eva," said Jerri as she rose. "Please... don't go..."
Two shots rang out, and before they knew it Jerri was on the ground with blood on her thighs.
"Eva," Jerri cried. "Don't leave. Don't leave!"
Eva shrieked her saddest at what she had done. She threw her pistol away, turned tail, and ran north after her children without ever looking back.
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